A/N: Thanks to those who review! The three of us are working fast. Sorry , I've been busy and then this got erased, so yeah! At the end of the chappy, you can meet our buddies in crime, B.O.B., and Mittens and Twinkle, though they are still sick.


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The Journal entry is very angst, be warned. CCS is not ours. We don't own "I feel so" by Box Car Racer. Now on to the story. Next next chappy, we'll write thankies to peeps, and remember our buddies will tell you of our voting spree for the help in the plot. It could change everything!


Emotional Battlegrounds

By: Pink Cherry Blossom

Tigerzlily14

KITTY15

Chapter 3: Yours Truly, Xiao-Lang Li



"blah"=Journal entry (actually, the whole chapter! ^_^)


Date: 25 December 2002

23:16:19


Hello Journal:


Today happens to be Christmas in terms with the Christian faith, but others celebrate it too, such as me, even though I happen to be buddhist last time I check. I don't have time to do any religious actions with what's going on....


I feel like Shit today. It's christmas, and I'm lonely. Christmas is suppose to be jolly; for you to spend time with you family and enjoy the gifts, the weather, just the feel to have your family near you sharing the mutual feelings. That's what it's suppose to be, but it's not. I had to train today, on christmas, unlike the time of christmas in Japan....


You don't know do you? Well I'll tell you. We had a grand christmas party at Tomoyo-san's house, which I was reluctant to go to. I ended up going by the force of Sakura's sad lost puppy dog face. It's sickeningly sweet and works every time. I ended up having the time of my life. Everyone was there: Sakura, Tomoyo, Eriol, Kero, Spinal Sun, Touya, Yukito, Chiharu, Yamazaki, Naoko, Rika, Nakuru, and some others. Meiling was back here at China at the time. We did a Secret Santa thing, and I got Sakura, go figure. I had a feeling someone made it that way. We had played a couple of games, noting trivial. Then we did some Christmas carols, and that was fun. Everyone was surprised I could sing after I got dragged into that event. I sang 'Silent Night' a simple basic song, but everyone was shocked to here me. Oh well. Then we just gathered around the fireplace and talked while drinking this delicious imported hot cocoa and eating chocolate truffles. I swear those were the best, I have to find out where they were made from. Half were gone because Sakura had to sneak some to the 'stuffed animals'. I had a great time. Then it came to Midnight, and we opened up presents. I got Sakura this anklet, it was a black hills gold with little rose cherry blossoms dangling. It cost some, but the look on her face was worth it. I ended up getting this enchanted sheath for my sword from Eriol. It was made of a dark green leather with a picture of a wolf and my name on it. The wolf changed color depending on my mood. And it was tough as nails, yet soft, I'll never figure that out. It even shrank into my pendent so I can call out both. I don't remember what else, Tomoyo gave Eriol this Japanese outfit, I don't know. Sakura gave Rika a necklace I think. That was a great day. We slept and woke up and went home. I cherish that memory. I miss everyone, even Yamazaki's lying stories. That actually cheered me up, but now I am depressed again...


From my sisters, it is the only thing that I can say made me happy. It is the only gift I got, and they told me they were forbidden to give it to me by the elders, but still did. It was a CD from USA I'm glad I learned english, along with Japanese, Portuguese, Tagalong, Spanish, French, Korean, Swedish, Dutch, Vietnamese, German, Italian, and of course Chinese in both dialects. I can't believe the elders made me learn that many; when will I go to Sweden? Or Norway? I also speak Norwegian, and Hebrew. Anyway, the CD is by a group called "Box Car Racer." I can only read Japanese, Chinese, English, Vietnamese, and Italian though. I wonder what kind of name that is? Oh well. I found this one song, it's my favorite. It's describes me so well...Here are the lyrics:


Sometimes

I wish I was brave

I wish I was stronger

I wish I could feel no pain

I wish I was young

I wish I was shy

I wish I was honest

I wish I was you not I


'Cause

I feel so mad

I feel so angry

I feel so callused

So lost, confused again

I feel cheap

So used unfaithful

Let's start over

Let's start over


Sometimes

I wish I was smart

I wish I could make cures for

how people are

I wish I had power

I wish I could lead

I wish I could change the world

for you and me


'Cause

I feel so mad

I feel so angry

I feel so callused

So lost, confused again

I feel cheap

So used unfaithful

Let's start over

Let's start over


'Cause

I feel so mad

I feel so angry

I feel so callused

So lost, confused again

I feel cheap

So used unfaithful

Let's start over

Let's start over


'Cause

I feel so mad

I feel so angry

I feel so callused

So lost, confused again

I feel cheap

So used unfaithful

Let's start over

Let's start over


Let's start over


They really mean a lot. I have so many emotions, it's perfect. I listened to it on my stereo, I don't have many CD's though. Now on to more...


The one thing that I guess I'll consider a gift came from Wei. I ate alone tonight, but he made an exquisite dinner with Chinese rolls and Sushi, and even this american dessert dish. I forgot what it's called, but it was a glass lined with white chocolate flavored whip cream and in the middle was a scrumptious dark/milk/cocoa flavored ball of pudding. Kero would have died if I gave him that. I might consider that if I ever see him again. I know I can cook very well, so I might pick up a new fancy recipe for when I do see them again, not saying any time soon... I thank Wei very much, he is like a father to me....


The elder's, HA! They giving me a gift, is like Hell freezing over and Satan bowing down at my knees. No, what I got from them, an extra rough training lesson that was so long, I don't even know when I woke up or got done, or when I ate except for dinner. The most I got was a new spell, which you could use to health the body to normal by producing an essence from the aura and tapping into the spiritual energy of plants. It helps cure things. It can do wonders with fatigue and headaches, but not cuts, that's a different spell... I already know how to seek auras, how to hide it or change it for safety measure. I would use that to escape too, but It cause a lot of energy to do, I always pass out. I can change my appearance, and I tried to escape like that, but it didn't work either. I can control the elements and the weather. I can produce items with my magic, and much more lethal stuff. I can melt steel with a single chant, and I can put spells onto my sword, sometimes, I don't even have to chant or use my sword for sorcery. I can become nimble, or invisible, or combine spells or use psychic abilities. I'm trying not to sound haughty, but sometimes I wonder if I am stronger than Sakura. The elders could be lying to me and saying I'm not so I will train more, but yet again, I couldn't tell why either. Also, I know I went of topic, but now I'm one track again. I know 7 healing spells now, many offensive ones and a plenty of defensive skills like shield and stuff. And just some stuff for fun of course ^_^. The elders did load me down with homework on some new spells to learn from the scrolls. The elders don't even acknowledge Christmas....


Okay, now to my mom. That's why my day was like Shit. After I used my new spell, I came up with a name for it, it will save the chanting. I call it 'rejuvenation' and it suits it. Now, I used it and guess who calls. Niang. I won't describe the events, I know it's not PG-13, or ever R rated. I felt good, and I had all my energy wasted to please my 'mother.' What kind of mother does these things. I have to escape soon. I guess it was her gift to me, but she doesn't care....


Now life's great. Not really, feel the sarcasm. I can't have a Christmas, so I draw the gifts and the trees on the next page. I'll talk to ya later, Christmas is almost over. I can finally dream about the perfect Christmas.


Yours Truly

Xiao-Lang Li

Mittens: K15 is busy with the others. I still have the snuffles though. The next next chapter will have a thank you list.


Twinkle: And it will have a poll for the decision of how the story will run. It could change the whole plot. Please R&R


B.O.B. Please review! The other will be back soon.


The A/N by PCB: Keep writing, the story going places. I will start writing "Here's Hoping 4 Love" again. I got some inspiration back! YAY! R&R! Read HH4L!