AN: This chapter has adult themes, just a warning! (get your minds out of the gutter it ain't sex!)
"When I went to Boston...Well I had to leave. We both knew that. Thing were moving in a direction neither of us could afford to take, I didn't know how else to stop it so I left. I went to Boston and I had to find work. I had no money at all really. I had used everything I had on my train ticket. I was hungry and cold and so I signed up for a job I knew I could get. I started working in the factory the day After I got there. I lived in the tenements with the other girls."
"Lucky!" Spot interrupted her.
"Please Spot, I know none of you wanted me in a factory, after what happened to Sarah but please just let me continue. I didn't want to get mixed up with the Boston newsies the way I had with the New York ones and factory work paid more. I hated it there. I got sick very quickly, coughing all the time from the dust. I didn't eat much and the homesickness was the worst. I missed all of you so terribly...I started saving every extra penny so I could come back to New York. Time went on and I began to see the horrors no one mentions that go on in places like that. People were killed and raped and I prayed every day for someone to deliver me out of there. One day I got an overseer's eye. Good luck you would think but really just a tragedy in disguise. He was one of the overseers known for taking advantage of young girls. I refused him of course but he wouldn't take no for an answer." Lucky stopped and looked down at the bed. Her hands began to tremble and she didn't know if she could go on.
Spot put his arm around her, pulling her close to him.
"Spot he attacked me one night outside of the factory. It happed so fast but it was so horrible. I was leaving early that day because I was so sick. I don't know how I got off but some how I did. I walked out the door and past the alley and he jumped out and grabbed me. He beat me until I could hardly move and then he...It was so horrible!" Lucky's voice dissolved into tears. Spot held her close as sobs racked her body. "He left me there for dead but one of the girls found me later that day. They took me back to the tenements but I couldn't work so I was kicked out. I was sent to a poor house. There was an old woman there that took care of me but eventually she realized I was pregnant. She called a doctor and he came to see me. I was barley conscious half the time. My fever was high and I felt horrible. I was incoherent and the two of them decided together and without me that I couldn't have the baby. When I woke up from the surgery it was like a whole huge part of me was missing. When the old woman told me what had happened I thought I might die. She said I didn't have enough money to keep the baby. I was wretched for weeks. The doctor continued to visit me. He was a kind man. He had money but was doing good works by doctoring the poor. When I was well enough I worked for him as a nurse. He told me one day, he told me 'Haley, you could never have had that baby.' It would have killed me Spot. I couldn't have handled it so instead they had to kill the baby. I'm a murderer." Lucky's sobs took control of her again.
Spot pulled her too him and held her close. Tears rolled down the fearless leader's eyes and all he wanted was to save this girl. That man raped her and he hadn't been there. He hated himself for letting her leave. He hated himself for letting her live with this secret for so long. He hated that she had lost her child. "Lucky it's ok. You're not a murderer. They had to do the operation baby. If they hadn't you would have died and if you had died I would have died. It will be ok." He comforted her and for once Lucky felt the whole inside her begin to fill. His love was filling the void in her heart.
"I met Justin on the trolley and he had no idea what had happened to me but if he had ever found out he would have left me. He had money though and I knew that's why I couldn't keep my baby. If I had had money...I never wanted to be poor again. I had to have money. I though maybe one day I could get my baby back" Lucky cried. "How can you stand the sight of me?" She asked Spot looking up in to his eyes.
His heart contracted at the sight of fear in her eyes. She was so afraid of losing him, so afraid to be left alone. He pulled her onto his lap tears still silently rolling down his face.
"Lucky Peterson I will never leave you again. I love you more than anything in the world." Spot tucked her back into bed. "Sleep now." He pulled the covers around her and sat at his post.
"Spot?" he heard her whisper after a minute.
"Yea Luck?"
"Will you lay with me?"
He got up and lay next to her, his arm protectively wrapped around her. Tomorrow she would start her life over and he would help her.
Dear reader!
Hopefully with this chapter I will get more reviews! I'm sure all of you have good excuses why you didn't review for chapter 19. I will except your apology by email flower's would be appropriate (lol j/k if you send me flower's my b/f might get jealous!) Thank you Mal and Feisty for reviewing! I love you all anyway! Please review this time. I'm getting a little nervous about how good the content of my chapter's is! Thank you Thank you! Please review!!
*Lucky*
"When I went to Boston...Well I had to leave. We both knew that. Thing were moving in a direction neither of us could afford to take, I didn't know how else to stop it so I left. I went to Boston and I had to find work. I had no money at all really. I had used everything I had on my train ticket. I was hungry and cold and so I signed up for a job I knew I could get. I started working in the factory the day After I got there. I lived in the tenements with the other girls."
"Lucky!" Spot interrupted her.
"Please Spot, I know none of you wanted me in a factory, after what happened to Sarah but please just let me continue. I didn't want to get mixed up with the Boston newsies the way I had with the New York ones and factory work paid more. I hated it there. I got sick very quickly, coughing all the time from the dust. I didn't eat much and the homesickness was the worst. I missed all of you so terribly...I started saving every extra penny so I could come back to New York. Time went on and I began to see the horrors no one mentions that go on in places like that. People were killed and raped and I prayed every day for someone to deliver me out of there. One day I got an overseer's eye. Good luck you would think but really just a tragedy in disguise. He was one of the overseers known for taking advantage of young girls. I refused him of course but he wouldn't take no for an answer." Lucky stopped and looked down at the bed. Her hands began to tremble and she didn't know if she could go on.
Spot put his arm around her, pulling her close to him.
"Spot he attacked me one night outside of the factory. It happed so fast but it was so horrible. I was leaving early that day because I was so sick. I don't know how I got off but some how I did. I walked out the door and past the alley and he jumped out and grabbed me. He beat me until I could hardly move and then he...It was so horrible!" Lucky's voice dissolved into tears. Spot held her close as sobs racked her body. "He left me there for dead but one of the girls found me later that day. They took me back to the tenements but I couldn't work so I was kicked out. I was sent to a poor house. There was an old woman there that took care of me but eventually she realized I was pregnant. She called a doctor and he came to see me. I was barley conscious half the time. My fever was high and I felt horrible. I was incoherent and the two of them decided together and without me that I couldn't have the baby. When I woke up from the surgery it was like a whole huge part of me was missing. When the old woman told me what had happened I thought I might die. She said I didn't have enough money to keep the baby. I was wretched for weeks. The doctor continued to visit me. He was a kind man. He had money but was doing good works by doctoring the poor. When I was well enough I worked for him as a nurse. He told me one day, he told me 'Haley, you could never have had that baby.' It would have killed me Spot. I couldn't have handled it so instead they had to kill the baby. I'm a murderer." Lucky's sobs took control of her again.
Spot pulled her too him and held her close. Tears rolled down the fearless leader's eyes and all he wanted was to save this girl. That man raped her and he hadn't been there. He hated himself for letting her leave. He hated himself for letting her live with this secret for so long. He hated that she had lost her child. "Lucky it's ok. You're not a murderer. They had to do the operation baby. If they hadn't you would have died and if you had died I would have died. It will be ok." He comforted her and for once Lucky felt the whole inside her begin to fill. His love was filling the void in her heart.
"I met Justin on the trolley and he had no idea what had happened to me but if he had ever found out he would have left me. He had money though and I knew that's why I couldn't keep my baby. If I had had money...I never wanted to be poor again. I had to have money. I though maybe one day I could get my baby back" Lucky cried. "How can you stand the sight of me?" She asked Spot looking up in to his eyes.
His heart contracted at the sight of fear in her eyes. She was so afraid of losing him, so afraid to be left alone. He pulled her onto his lap tears still silently rolling down his face.
"Lucky Peterson I will never leave you again. I love you more than anything in the world." Spot tucked her back into bed. "Sleep now." He pulled the covers around her and sat at his post.
"Spot?" he heard her whisper after a minute.
"Yea Luck?"
"Will you lay with me?"
He got up and lay next to her, his arm protectively wrapped around her. Tomorrow she would start her life over and he would help her.
Dear reader!
Hopefully with this chapter I will get more reviews! I'm sure all of you have good excuses why you didn't review for chapter 19. I will except your apology by email flower's would be appropriate (lol j/k if you send me flower's my b/f might get jealous!) Thank you Mal and Feisty for reviewing! I love you all anyway! Please review this time. I'm getting a little nervous about how good the content of my chapter's is! Thank you Thank you! Please review!!
*Lucky*