Well after posting I only got five reviews *cries* but I'm updating anyways because I'm sick and I have an idea for this second chapter. This chapter will be a songfic using a song written by yours truly. Again I don't own DBZ but I do own the song Catch Me. This is kinda a flashback chapter showing what went through Pan's mind when she overdosed. In case you didn't figure it out it's in Pan's POV.
Catch Me
I need someone to listen to what I don't say
I need someone to care no matter what
I need someone to know when not to ask questions
I need someone to catch me when I fall
Damnit why won't anyone listen to me......No one seems to care anymore.....Mom and Dad act like I haven't changed at all...But I have.....The only one to ask if I'm alright is Trunks but even he doesn't known when to leave me alone....I need someone to just be there for me....
And if I scream
Will you come to my aid
If I ask
Will you stay for a while
And if I fall
will you catch me
Catch me
I'm falling
When I was raped by Darren I screamed louder than I have ever before....And no one came to my rescue. Nobody ever just stays with me to take care of me......I grab my syringe and jab it into my arm slowly feeling the release. I'm falling and there's no one here who can catch me......but god I wish there was.....
I need someone to understand my problems
I need someone to realize when to let me be
I need someone to wipe away my tears
I need someone to catch me when I fall
I wish someone could just understand my problems.....Realize how much i hurt and just stop prying. Unlike that damn therapist the sent me to. They say they're concerned, but when they saw me crying myself to sleep every night did my parents ever once wipe away my tears? No they didn't. I just wish someone, anyone did.
And if I scream
Will you come to my aid
If I ask
Will you stay for a while
And if I fall
will you catch me
Catch me
I'm falling
People wonder why I've suddenly become so quiet. Even when I fuck someone I don't say anything. It's better to be numb......So I get the drugs that'll help me stay that way. They all leave me by myself in the end anyways......I'm all alone.....and falling into myself.....
I need someone to see past my image
I need someone to respect my feelings
I need someone to acknowledge my good points
I need someone to catch me when I fall
Most people see me as tomboy-gothic-doesn't give a fuck Son Pan. But that's not all I am.......It's just my image.......It's not all of me.......But do they respect my feelings? Do they keep their comments to themselves? Do they even try to see my good points, assuming I have any of course. I pick up another syringe shooting myself up again.......Just a little bit more.....If someone doesn't come soon and stop me......I'll fall all the way and hit the pavement.....and when that happens, I'll die.
And if I scream
Will you come to my aid
If I ask
Will you stay for a while
And if I fall
will you catch me
Catch me
I'm falling
I open my mouth and try to scream, hoping someone will hear me and come, but no sound comes out. I inject more heroin......soon I know the overdose will happen soon..........then I'll finally stop falling......I was born alone and that's how I'll die......alone. My parents won't give a shit. They were never there when I needed them......they never even tried to understand.
I need someone to see me when I'm invisible
I need someone to lift me up when I'm down
I need someone to love me when I'm horrible
I need someone to catch me when I fall
Lately I feel so invisible. I wish that someone could see me. Someone could shjow me that there's something or someone to live for. And even when I'm horrible they would love me......I mean Trunks......I think he cares.......but if he knew all the shit I've done he wouldn't anymore. I'm all alone.....No one will ever love me enough to catch me....
And if I scream
Will you come to my aid
If I ask
Will you stay for a while
And if I fall
will you catch me
Catch me
I'm falling
I'm falling
I'm falling
Everything is getting blurry......I'm taking that final fall......I wish to god someone cared.........and that they would catch me. Tears form in my eyes while everything become to hard to make out. I want ......something.........But I'm all alone.....and soon I'll be alone.....in hell.....
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And that my friend is chapter 2! Wow depressing ne? Well review if you have an idea for what song I should use next? Chapter 3 will be in Pan's POV. Well tell me k? Ja Ne for now!