Ugh not in the best mood….but since I'm all angsty and stuff I decided to work on EOTL. This chappy is Gohan's  POV. I don't own the song Woke up this morning, Nickelback does. Anyways enjoy…

Woke up this morning

I paid my last respects
This mornin'
On an early grave
Already said goodbye
Nothin' left to say

I hold Videl close to me, we're leaving capsule corp., and the funeral is long over. I watched my own daughter's funeral. Little Panny…all grown up…and dead…I never thought I would see her dead before me…I have nothing to say though…Bra said it all…it was our fault…we weren't there when Panny needed us the most…and we sure are paying for it now…

A tiny church
A tiny town and
Not a tear was spent
Not how I wanted it
I'm hating all of this

Everyone we knew was there…in that small area…in our fairly small town…I didn't shed one single tear…not one…I couldn't. I don't why…I just couldn't… They wouldn't come. I never wanted things to turn out this way. Turn out so badly… And I hate it…

Well I'm hating
All of this
I'm hating
All of this
All of this
All of this

I hate how powerless I am!  I mean sure I have lots of physical strength, but when it comes to the real important shit, like this, I can't do anything! It's completely out of my control! And I hate it…. it's not fair…what good is power if you can't make things better? If you can't make it more bearable?  I hate it!

Now I know why
I hide my love
From you somedays
No I don't mind
Keeping this bottled
Inside me

Some people think me cold hearted, but it's not that at all. I have emotions; I just don't let them show. And I know why, when you show them all you do is get hurt. So what was once hard isn't any longer.  I'll keep this love, this pain, this sorrow, all of these emotions; I'll keep them inside. It's easier to hide them in the long run. It's easier not to feel at all.

You came along
And tore this world out
Around me
Looks like
You found me
Now I know why
I felt like shit when
I woke up this morning

You were so unexpected when you were born Panny. I know we always said you were mistake, but now I realize you weren't a mistake at all, you were a blessing in disguise.  You changed everything, made me grow up, be the mature person I always had inside, but ignored.  Looks like you paid me back for how I treated you Panny. Now wonder I felt like shit when I woke up this morning. I am shit.

I've been
A loser all my life
I'm not about to change
If you don't like
There's the door
Nobody made you stay

I've never been a person somebody would want to be like, I'm kinda a loser. Hotheaded, and very shy, that is I.  Videl looks up and glares at me, "If you had been more understanding she wouldn't of done this!" I land and set her down. "Well if I'm a fuck up then leave! I deserve to be alone anyways!

There ain't a woman
On the planet
Who can deal with it
Just how I wanted it
I'm hating all of this

I don't think anyone could deal with me…Not mom…not Videl… Not Pan…Not anyone…And who would want to? I pushed them away though, isn't this what I wanted? Well, isn't it? So how come I'm hating it…

Well I'm hating
All of this
I'm hating
All of this
All of this
All of this

I hate this! I could of helped her…But I just kept acting like nothing was wrong…No wonder Videl's angry with me…and everyone else is too…Hell, I'm probably the angriest. Why didn't I see the warning signs? Why?

Now I know why
I hide my love
From you somedays
No I don't mind
Keeping this bottled
Inside me

I never understood why I keep everything bottled inside. Mom and Dad are such open people, why was I so different. But now I understand, when you're too open you get hurt. It hurts keeping it in too, but that kind of pain is different. Now I don't mind it.

You came along
And tore this world out
Around me
Looks like
You found me
Now I know why
I felt like shit when
I woke up this morning

Videl…she changed me…more then even Panny did.. She changed my outlook on things…And now here she is…hurting and changing me…I grab my bag and head out the door, I can't stay. I'm a shitty husband…No wonder I didn't want to even drag myself out of bed…

Gohan's leaving Videl? How will she react? And when is Panny coming back? All coming up in the next chap of EOTL. (BTW everyone read Giving In by Bouzi Neo, it's like this, but better!)