((_)) AN
-_- setting change
"_"Talking
'_' thoughts
*_* sounds ((ex: *BOOM!*))
:_: Notes/letter
Wow.... I got more reviews. People DO like this story. ^_^
PLEASE EVERYONE READ MY OTHER COWBOY FANFIC, 'A GHOST OF A CHANCE'! It's a great fic that I am proud of!
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Running away
Part 4- Uh oh
Jake pushed his food around on his plate. He was deep in thought about this. How was he going to brake it to her?
'Oh hey mom. You know, Dad came back today. Well, I found him. You know when I disobeyed you and snuck out of the house? Yeah. I went to town, like you told me not too and found him. I stole his wallet, got in a fight and invited him over. All day we talked about you and stuff. By the way. How was work?'
Jake rolled his eyes at himself for that one. He could already see his mom freaking out and screaming at him for that one.
"Jake. Is something wrong? You hardly touched your food." Faye said, worried about her son.
"I'm fine Mama. Hey Mama. I was wondering." Jake took a deep breath. The first step was about to be taken. "How do you feel about dad?"
Faye stopped in all movement. She looked up at her son with wide eyes. "W-what?"
'Oh... first step and tripped.' Jake thought to himself.
"Well, I was wondering why you never talk about him... you know.. I'm getting to the point in my age where I have to talk about stuff like this... and I know it's hard for you and everything.." Jake started.
Faye smiled at him. That made him stop talking. "You sound more grown up then I do.. you know that?"
Jake grinned. "That's because you never grew up mama."
Faye gave her son a gentle smile. Then she sighed. "I know. I've known for a long time that this day would come. The day you would ask about your dad."
Jake just nodded. He didn't want her to stop talking. If she was as comfortable right now with speaking about Dad, then he might have a shot at this after all!
"Your Father, was an arrogent, selfish, lunk-head who loved to piss me off." Faye said like she was giving the news.
Jake's eyes widen. He couldn't help but let out a chuckle though. "So.. why did you.. you know.. if he was like that?"
Faye put her spoon down and leaned back in the chair. "Well, he was also a very handsome Man. He may have hit every button in my body to get me pissed, but when he was gone... I really missed fighting with him. It's like he knew I have a tention build-up and he would releave it for me by fighting with me. We never hit each other... well.. I slapped him a few times for coming into the bathroom why I was in there." Faye chuckled. "He also knew exactly what to say at the right times."
"Yuck..." Jake said.
"Oh. You asked for it." Faye said, smiling at him. "Even though.. after we had our night.. things became weird.. and he went off on his own. To die.. and I left. I couldn't take being around everything that reminded me of him. But.. even though he went to his death.. he gave me the greatest gift."
Jake blinked.. "What's that?"
Faye got up from her seat and hugged Jake. "He gave me you. And that is why I love him."
Jake blushed. He felt like he was in a soap or something. Well, things were going smoothly! His mom would give into the idea of Spike coming back! He knew it! It was going to be all too easy...
"Jake... Jake..." Faye's voice carried into his ear. He opened his eyes.
"Huh? Wha..?" Jake started, picking his head off the table. He looked around. The kitchen was dark and his favorite book was wide open. Now it had some drool on the page from him sleeping on it.
Jake blinked. 'THAT WAS A DREAM?! Oh shit! This sucks...'
Jake looked up at his mom. "Hey mom.. how long was I asleep for?"
"Before I started dinner. I didn't have the heart to wake you before. I would have carried you into bed.. but you're getting a bit big for that." Faye said with a wink.
Jake closed his book and walked into his bedroom. He sighed. If only that darn dream was true! That would make things a lot easier! He slipped into his P.J.'s and crawled into bed.
Before he shut off his light, Faye walked in. She sat down on his bed.
"Honey. I know something is bothering you.. why don't you tell me about it?" Faye questioned.
"Well... umm.. I.." Jake tried to form a sentence but his brain wasn't working. 'Ok.. just think of the dream.' "Hey Mama. How do you feel about dad?"
Faye took a sharp intake of breath. She looked down at her son for a few seconds. Jake was sure she was going to go on a screaming spear at any moment now! Or run out of air.. which ever came first.
"..Mama..?" Jake questioned in a whipsering tone. He had the sudden urge to leave the room and let his mom scream out every curse word in the universe!
"..I'm fine.. I'm fine jake.. " She said, surprisingly calm. "why did you ask me about.. that?"
Jake knew what she meant. Jake took a deep breath. "Because.. I want to know how you feel about him."
Faye started to grow a little red in the cheeks. Jake wasn't sure if it was anger or embrassment. Maybe both.
Faye stood up from the bed and looked down at her son. The look he gave her reminded her so much of Spike, she forgot that he wasn't Spike. Since, every bit of anger that Spike caused her by leaving was pent up and now came rushing back to her.. and Jake just happen to be a little carbon copy of his dad.. things weren't looking good for him.
"Spike!! No good, self-fish, Bastard, lunk-head! Went off to die and leave me.. ME COMPLETELY ALONE IN THE UNIVERSE, WITHOUT ANYONE!! AFTER EVERYTHING I TOLD YOU, YOU STILL GO OFF TO DIE BECAUSE OF SOME WOMAN WHO DIED LONG AGO AND BETRAYED YOU! HOW COULD YOU?!" Faye screamed, tears pouring from her eyes.
Jake had backed himself against the wall and was frozen there! Nothing.. and I mean NOTHING had ever made him feel so afraid in his whole life.. then this moment right here. Nothing was so bad, that he was this scared. He was so scared, he forgot to breath a few times. He was so scared he couldn't move anymore! He just stayed, pinning himself to the wall... staring wide eyed at his cring mother.
Faye clentched her jaw before storming out of the room. She slammed the door so hard, it cracked near the hinges. Jake waited til he could hear her in her room before breathing again. He took a deep breath and let it out, shakingly. He laid down on his bed and tired to go to sleep, but the words his mother screamed, echoed in his mind over and over again. So, he lay on the bed, and didn't sleep that night.
**
In the morning, Jake heard Faye leave early for a chance. After a bit shuffling through her room, then in the kitchen, she left. He waited til she was gone in the ship and it was a good minute away, before getting out of bed.
He dressed quickly, brushed his hair and teeth. Then went into the kitchen. There was a note for him.
He picked it up and read it.
:Dear Jake,
I'm so sorry for last night. I didn't mean to yell at you like that! It was wrong of me to do that to you. You were only curious about your dad and I had no right to yell at you like that. I fully understand if you don't ever feel like talking to me again. Much less, look at me again.:
Jake could practically hear her sigh as he read this.
:I left you, your dinner in the frig. and some breakfast in case you get hungry.
Love, Faye.:
'She didn't put mom..' Jake noted. He sighed and threw the note away. He didn't want anything to remind him of last night. He grabbed his tools and went into the shed. Spike was sure to come there first.
He opened up the shed and to his surprise, Spike was already there!
"Hey bud. I had a ride here, so that's why you didn't hear my ship. Almost got caught by Faye too when she was leaving." Spike said. He walked over to Jake. "So? How did it go last night?"
Jake paled. He walked over to the ship and just started working on it, not saying a word.
"That bad huh?" Spike questioned. He pulled out a cig. and put it in his mouth. He lite the end and took a deep drag from it. "Did she go on a screaming fit?"
Jake nodded slightly.
"I thought you would be used to that already." Spike said, like he was telling Jake about his shirt.
Jake dropped his wrench. Spike cocked up an eyebrow.
"Oh.. she didn't.." Spike said, taking out his cig., while Jake paled even more. "God! What was the woman thinking? How far into the fight did she go?"
"S-she.. she forgot.. t-that I was her son.. and T-thought I was you.." Jake said, still having trouble getting past it.
Spike dropped his ciggerette. "She must really hate me.."
Jake nodded. He could feel the held back tears surfacing. Spike walked up to him, kneeled down and hugged him.
"It's alright. You can cry." Spike said, he patted Jake on the back. "I won't tell anyone if that's what you're worried about."
Jake dropped everything he was holding and wrapped his arms around Spike's neck. Spike stood up, picking Jake off the ground. Spike held him and continued to pat Jake's back.
Spike almost laughed at himself. 'Imagine.. me.. Spike.. Holding a kid and comforting him. I'm even patting his back and letting his wipe his snot on my shirt! With any other kid I would have tossed them away and told them to suck it up.'
Spike glanced sideways at Jake. 'But.. I could never do that to him. Even if I just met him.. he's so much like me.. it's almost scary! Then again.. sometimes he's nothing like me. He's also Faye. He's Faye and Me. What a pair!! I can already tell you, he's going to be one messed up kid.'
Spike and Jake stayed there for about an hour. Spike just mumbled a few words that might comfort Jake.. and Jake would try to stop cring every minute or so.
When Jake finally stopped Cring, Spike put him down. "Better?"
Jake nodded. He wiped away a few tears from his face.
"Good. Now. How about we ditch this place for awhile and go out to eat?" Spike sugguested.
Jake nodded. "I'll go put on something nice to wear." He quickly ran into the house to go get changed.
Spike shook his head. "Kids."
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I know..GAH! ::ducks under the pens and sharp objects thrown at her:: I'm sorry I had Faye go off on poor Jake like that! SORRY! You didn't think I was going to let this whole thing be easy for Jake, now did you?
Ok. I know. let it all out.. ::everyone goes, awww...:: Spike was being a good father today.. Who knew he had it in him?!
Please review!
-_- setting change
"_"Talking
'_' thoughts
*_* sounds ((ex: *BOOM!*))
:_: Notes/letter
Wow.... I got more reviews. People DO like this story. ^_^
PLEASE EVERYONE READ MY OTHER COWBOY FANFIC, 'A GHOST OF A CHANCE'! It's a great fic that I am proud of!
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Running away
Part 4- Uh oh
Jake pushed his food around on his plate. He was deep in thought about this. How was he going to brake it to her?
'Oh hey mom. You know, Dad came back today. Well, I found him. You know when I disobeyed you and snuck out of the house? Yeah. I went to town, like you told me not too and found him. I stole his wallet, got in a fight and invited him over. All day we talked about you and stuff. By the way. How was work?'
Jake rolled his eyes at himself for that one. He could already see his mom freaking out and screaming at him for that one.
"Jake. Is something wrong? You hardly touched your food." Faye said, worried about her son.
"I'm fine Mama. Hey Mama. I was wondering." Jake took a deep breath. The first step was about to be taken. "How do you feel about dad?"
Faye stopped in all movement. She looked up at her son with wide eyes. "W-what?"
'Oh... first step and tripped.' Jake thought to himself.
"Well, I was wondering why you never talk about him... you know.. I'm getting to the point in my age where I have to talk about stuff like this... and I know it's hard for you and everything.." Jake started.
Faye smiled at him. That made him stop talking. "You sound more grown up then I do.. you know that?"
Jake grinned. "That's because you never grew up mama."
Faye gave her son a gentle smile. Then she sighed. "I know. I've known for a long time that this day would come. The day you would ask about your dad."
Jake just nodded. He didn't want her to stop talking. If she was as comfortable right now with speaking about Dad, then he might have a shot at this after all!
"Your Father, was an arrogent, selfish, lunk-head who loved to piss me off." Faye said like she was giving the news.
Jake's eyes widen. He couldn't help but let out a chuckle though. "So.. why did you.. you know.. if he was like that?"
Faye put her spoon down and leaned back in the chair. "Well, he was also a very handsome Man. He may have hit every button in my body to get me pissed, but when he was gone... I really missed fighting with him. It's like he knew I have a tention build-up and he would releave it for me by fighting with me. We never hit each other... well.. I slapped him a few times for coming into the bathroom why I was in there." Faye chuckled. "He also knew exactly what to say at the right times."
"Yuck..." Jake said.
"Oh. You asked for it." Faye said, smiling at him. "Even though.. after we had our night.. things became weird.. and he went off on his own. To die.. and I left. I couldn't take being around everything that reminded me of him. But.. even though he went to his death.. he gave me the greatest gift."
Jake blinked.. "What's that?"
Faye got up from her seat and hugged Jake. "He gave me you. And that is why I love him."
Jake blushed. He felt like he was in a soap or something. Well, things were going smoothly! His mom would give into the idea of Spike coming back! He knew it! It was going to be all too easy...
"Jake... Jake..." Faye's voice carried into his ear. He opened his eyes.
"Huh? Wha..?" Jake started, picking his head off the table. He looked around. The kitchen was dark and his favorite book was wide open. Now it had some drool on the page from him sleeping on it.
Jake blinked. 'THAT WAS A DREAM?! Oh shit! This sucks...'
Jake looked up at his mom. "Hey mom.. how long was I asleep for?"
"Before I started dinner. I didn't have the heart to wake you before. I would have carried you into bed.. but you're getting a bit big for that." Faye said with a wink.
Jake closed his book and walked into his bedroom. He sighed. If only that darn dream was true! That would make things a lot easier! He slipped into his P.J.'s and crawled into bed.
Before he shut off his light, Faye walked in. She sat down on his bed.
"Honey. I know something is bothering you.. why don't you tell me about it?" Faye questioned.
"Well... umm.. I.." Jake tried to form a sentence but his brain wasn't working. 'Ok.. just think of the dream.' "Hey Mama. How do you feel about dad?"
Faye took a sharp intake of breath. She looked down at her son for a few seconds. Jake was sure she was going to go on a screaming spear at any moment now! Or run out of air.. which ever came first.
"..Mama..?" Jake questioned in a whipsering tone. He had the sudden urge to leave the room and let his mom scream out every curse word in the universe!
"..I'm fine.. I'm fine jake.. " She said, surprisingly calm. "why did you ask me about.. that?"
Jake knew what she meant. Jake took a deep breath. "Because.. I want to know how you feel about him."
Faye started to grow a little red in the cheeks. Jake wasn't sure if it was anger or embrassment. Maybe both.
Faye stood up from the bed and looked down at her son. The look he gave her reminded her so much of Spike, she forgot that he wasn't Spike. Since, every bit of anger that Spike caused her by leaving was pent up and now came rushing back to her.. and Jake just happen to be a little carbon copy of his dad.. things weren't looking good for him.
"Spike!! No good, self-fish, Bastard, lunk-head! Went off to die and leave me.. ME COMPLETELY ALONE IN THE UNIVERSE, WITHOUT ANYONE!! AFTER EVERYTHING I TOLD YOU, YOU STILL GO OFF TO DIE BECAUSE OF SOME WOMAN WHO DIED LONG AGO AND BETRAYED YOU! HOW COULD YOU?!" Faye screamed, tears pouring from her eyes.
Jake had backed himself against the wall and was frozen there! Nothing.. and I mean NOTHING had ever made him feel so afraid in his whole life.. then this moment right here. Nothing was so bad, that he was this scared. He was so scared, he forgot to breath a few times. He was so scared he couldn't move anymore! He just stayed, pinning himself to the wall... staring wide eyed at his cring mother.
Faye clentched her jaw before storming out of the room. She slammed the door so hard, it cracked near the hinges. Jake waited til he could hear her in her room before breathing again. He took a deep breath and let it out, shakingly. He laid down on his bed and tired to go to sleep, but the words his mother screamed, echoed in his mind over and over again. So, he lay on the bed, and didn't sleep that night.
**
In the morning, Jake heard Faye leave early for a chance. After a bit shuffling through her room, then in the kitchen, she left. He waited til she was gone in the ship and it was a good minute away, before getting out of bed.
He dressed quickly, brushed his hair and teeth. Then went into the kitchen. There was a note for him.
He picked it up and read it.
:Dear Jake,
I'm so sorry for last night. I didn't mean to yell at you like that! It was wrong of me to do that to you. You were only curious about your dad and I had no right to yell at you like that. I fully understand if you don't ever feel like talking to me again. Much less, look at me again.:
Jake could practically hear her sigh as he read this.
:I left you, your dinner in the frig. and some breakfast in case you get hungry.
Love, Faye.:
'She didn't put mom..' Jake noted. He sighed and threw the note away. He didn't want anything to remind him of last night. He grabbed his tools and went into the shed. Spike was sure to come there first.
He opened up the shed and to his surprise, Spike was already there!
"Hey bud. I had a ride here, so that's why you didn't hear my ship. Almost got caught by Faye too when she was leaving." Spike said. He walked over to Jake. "So? How did it go last night?"
Jake paled. He walked over to the ship and just started working on it, not saying a word.
"That bad huh?" Spike questioned. He pulled out a cig. and put it in his mouth. He lite the end and took a deep drag from it. "Did she go on a screaming fit?"
Jake nodded slightly.
"I thought you would be used to that already." Spike said, like he was telling Jake about his shirt.
Jake dropped his wrench. Spike cocked up an eyebrow.
"Oh.. she didn't.." Spike said, taking out his cig., while Jake paled even more. "God! What was the woman thinking? How far into the fight did she go?"
"S-she.. she forgot.. t-that I was her son.. and T-thought I was you.." Jake said, still having trouble getting past it.
Spike dropped his ciggerette. "She must really hate me.."
Jake nodded. He could feel the held back tears surfacing. Spike walked up to him, kneeled down and hugged him.
"It's alright. You can cry." Spike said, he patted Jake on the back. "I won't tell anyone if that's what you're worried about."
Jake dropped everything he was holding and wrapped his arms around Spike's neck. Spike stood up, picking Jake off the ground. Spike held him and continued to pat Jake's back.
Spike almost laughed at himself. 'Imagine.. me.. Spike.. Holding a kid and comforting him. I'm even patting his back and letting his wipe his snot on my shirt! With any other kid I would have tossed them away and told them to suck it up.'
Spike glanced sideways at Jake. 'But.. I could never do that to him. Even if I just met him.. he's so much like me.. it's almost scary! Then again.. sometimes he's nothing like me. He's also Faye. He's Faye and Me. What a pair!! I can already tell you, he's going to be one messed up kid.'
Spike and Jake stayed there for about an hour. Spike just mumbled a few words that might comfort Jake.. and Jake would try to stop cring every minute or so.
When Jake finally stopped Cring, Spike put him down. "Better?"
Jake nodded. He wiped away a few tears from his face.
"Good. Now. How about we ditch this place for awhile and go out to eat?" Spike sugguested.
Jake nodded. "I'll go put on something nice to wear." He quickly ran into the house to go get changed.
Spike shook his head. "Kids."
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I know..GAH! ::ducks under the pens and sharp objects thrown at her:: I'm sorry I had Faye go off on poor Jake like that! SORRY! You didn't think I was going to let this whole thing be easy for Jake, now did you?
Ok. I know. let it all out.. ::everyone goes, awww...:: Spike was being a good father today.. Who knew he had it in him?!
Please review!