The Beauty That Was My Life
Author: Ryuen
Mail me: snash013@yahoo.com
Genre: Romance
Pairing: SenRu
Anime: Slam Dunk by Takehiko Inoue
Rating: G
A/N: This is Sendoh's POV.I have typed a few fics before but sad to say that I don't have anymore the time to finish them all. I'll try though. Yes, blame my school for this. So, I cant say that this is my ever first fic but I can say that this is my 'first-finished' fic- yeah, a one-shot… Hm, it kinda suck. Well, for me it does- I have never trust my own skills for once. So, constructive criticisms are welcome and if you're planning on 'flaming' me, well, god bless you and your pathetic soul. Oh, and before I forgot- SenRu's my current yaoi couple, terribly obsessed with those two- blame it to all SenRu ficcie authors, damn they write so well- this is for them.
~Standard Disclaimers Apply~
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I came late to school today- we have a practice game and well, funny how come I don't feel like playing (hope something will change this mood of mine) So I did what I think was best- sleep. Yes, I slept for almost three hours, and if ever you're going to ask me whether I have a class or not- well I do and yes, I skipped.
Damn Im so bored, and so I just have to lay my weary body under a Sakura tree and lazily stare into nothing in particular. A few more minutes, then I started to ponder about 'things'… no, make it a bit accurate— life in particular.
Life seems to be easy for me, well at least that's what I think- and I thank Kami-sama for that. He seems to care for his children so much- and I'm no exception! Too caring and generous that it hurts… I chuckled at my own thought (Im so vain…) And yes, talk about being 'vain', it all comes down to three words: Sendoh. Akira. Me. I chuckled again, for if I will think about it- hmm, I think Im perfect!… Ouch… oww… (Crap, where did that ant came from?!) It bit me- heh, must be my twisted tongue… Alright, alright, 'somebody' is protesting, okay… fine, Im not that 'perfect'… well, at least- almost! (Hehehe) Another stupid grin on my face… and followed by a deep sigh.
Life has been a bit easy for me (Wait, I've said that already) Yes, a bit easy in the sense that I'm getting tired of it all (I need something to perk me up, at least… more like of a challenge!) Damn, Im so restless… I yawned and yawned, and… yawned again… for the nth time.
Although life has been this good to me, I don't really know why and what's been missing in it- (is it because that despite the fact that Ive got lots of friends, I still feel so alone? Is it because that all they can see is this smiling façade of mine and not really what's 'me' and what's in my heart- damn Im so melodramatic!) I can be a hopeless pathetic sometimes.
Im never liked this before- smile here, smile there… girls here, girls there… high grades, great basketball career, (Oh, have I told you before that Im an Ace player? Hahaha, don't mind that but then, its so true…) true friends, nice school… and a simple but happy life. (But… why do I feel alone, like Im not… contented at all… what is this longing inside of me?) Another sigh…
And then suddenly, someone broke my wandering mind in reverie.
"Sendoh, Sendoh-sempai!!!"
I turned to look at my right and saw a freshman that I don't quite know running towards me. (Oh, we *do* have a practice game today… funny how I seem to almost forgot about it!) I plopped up from my lying position and looked at him inquiringly. He seems to be catching his breath still so I gave him my friendly smile. Heh, who told you to run in the first place?
"Sendoh-sempai… they're here already… and you're all we've been waiting for- Coach Taoka sent me to find you, please hurry up now… or he'll be-?!"
I cut him in the middle of his sentence and gave him another of my trademark. I slowly stood up from the ground and looked up from the falling petals of the Sakura tree to him.
"Tell me, have you found the one thing lacking in your life to make you complete?" (Heh, he's already giving me the weird look, funny again how I can seem to blurt out 'sensible' words from my mouth, knowing the fact that I'm one happy-go-lucky guy?!)
"Eh?!" (Sempai sure is a bit… 'different' today!)
I shook my head while chuckling and ruffled his hair since Im almost towering over him, and with that I said,
"Forget about it, ne? Im sorry for being 'weird' today… must be my sleep- just… forget about it… so, are we ready to win now?" I saw him flashed his childish smile and nodded vigorously, "Yes sir! We're going to win today!!!"
"That's the spirit… say, what team's on today?"
"Its Shohoku, Sempai!"
I took one last glance at the simple beauty around me… (Shohoku… interesting.) I tilt my head to the side and urged the fella beside me to start our 'little walk' to the gym, who was patiently waiting for the arrival of its star (Me.) Since this will be just a practice game, I don't expect a big crowd and especially my almost-half-of-the-school-population-fans to be there, roaring their lungs out as they shout and chant my name endlessly. (Nope, not that kind of 'scenery' to be expected… just a few onlookers and students… its fine- this is just a practice game… and we will win… and maybe… just maybe… today, I will find the 'answer'…)
I came face to face with the gym's door, I took a deep breath and lightly scratched the back of my head, thinking of a good excuse to come up before my ever-fuming-coach. As I slide the door open, I heard the freshman with me before shouted,
"He's here minna, our Ace player is here… Coach Taoka… Sendoh sempai is here!"
I gave them a sheepish grin and uttered in a low and apologetic tone,
"Sorry to keep you waiting guys… I… overslept."
Everyone seemed to have a relief look in their faces (I… wonder) and as always, I came in, closed the door behind me, changed into my uniform- not minding already whether I have to warm up first or not, and scanned the crowd. True, Shohoku basketball team it is and well, they do look a bit 'different' today (Cocky…) I let my sapphire orbs glance at each and one of them and saw… what I think was the 'answer'… I've been looking for.
For there stood… beauty.
He caught my attention badly and from the moment I saw his face… that ever first time his eyes locked into mine…, I know that I had found the 'answer' to my existence. I don't know anymore what's been happening to me, but it seems that we've been staring into each other for so long by now, and I don't care at all. I didn't notice myself… I smiled… at him… I gave him my warmest gaze and saw a hint of confusion in his sapphire orbs… (cute).
The game was about to start, and as we were about to near and guard each other, I cant seem to understand why am I feeling so happy inside- never once before did I feel this way… (no… until now… )
(You changed my mood today, stranger…)
"Hello…"
"…"
(Seems that you're up for a challenge…)
"You a freshman…?"
"Hn"
(I'll take that as a yes…)
…The referee was about to toss the ball, and I know that I only got some milliseconds left to ask this 'beauty' beside me (I'm eager to know…)
…The ball was tossed in midair… And as it was being battled over by two of the powerful centers in our district- - it ended being in the hands of our opponent… right into the hands of 'beauty'…
…And as I take on my guarding position to face and looked at him straight into his eyes… I heard someone, which I later recognized to be myself… saying…
"Tell me your name…"
"Its…"
He continued dribbling the ball, and as I intently set my eyes on him… I heard a faint shout from our bench,
"Sendoh sempai, gambatte! I hope you'll find the one thing lacking in your life soon!"
(Silly kid… I 'think' I already did…)
(For here stood, 'him'…)
(…the beauty that will fill my life with colors…),
(…the beauty that will help me see through things…),
(the beauty that forever I will cherished…),
(…the beauty that will never ceased to mesmerized me…)
(For here stood him…),
He passed through my defense… but I heard him said,
( …the beauty that was my life… from now on to forever…),
"… Rukawa Kaede."
(Nice to know you… )
…And I ran to catch up with him towards the other court…
~owari~ 7-17-03
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A/N: So, what do you guys, think? Yeah, I know it sucked like hell and heh, funny but I do hope to hear a word from you guys R&R as always please, thanks so much- hm, I welcome 'anonymous' reviewers and well, to those who are kind enough to mail me please do so I'll be waiting for your comments, suggestions ,onegai, help me to improve! And err, violent reactions?! Oh well, if it will appeased your 'anger'-go ahead, but I wont waste my time answering your 'flames' Uhm, one last thing, im sorry but this is all my best, And one more thingy, sorry for all the wrong grammar/s.