Oh God…dinner how awful it was to go out and eat, but then I should do this for Jeffery, I wish I could just stop vomiting afterwards. And he was right I truly have lost my glow...what else is there to say? I lost my beauty. There for I shall never marry.

I went downstairs for dinner, Jeffery had Missy, our house elf, cook all my favorites…but too bad. I wasn't hungry. I fought with myself a lot over this matter as I was walking into the dinning room, Missy had cooked, and if I didn't eat…I would feel bad because she did it all for nothing, but it smelled so good. My temptation was strong…so I just dug in to everything there was there. I took big portions of everything on the table and I was so happy to be eating something so delicious that I haven't eaten since he died. My sister looked at me as if I was some kind of barbarian, as I swallowed down everything on my plate and went for seconds. Jeffery on the other had seemed delighted…it lasted until I felt as if I were about to burst.

We were talking about school supplies and how it was going to be the first year my sister, Mei, that's when I started feeling horribly depressed. Flashes of Cedric came to mind… and I just broke down. I got up in a sharp move and knocked down everything on my side of the table to the floor. Mei looked terrified to hear all the food and plates drop on the floor. Jeffery's smiling face had turned into a look of concern. Right after that I quickly ran up stairs into my bathroom, in my room, I couldn't take it. I hit my stomach as I rammed into my desk. I reached the bathroom, locked the door, and began vomiting. I felt a sense of relief, like all was forgiven. Most of all I felt I had done the right thing letting it all go hurting myself in away I never knew of until a couple of months later. I felt like I should be hurting, that it was wrong for me to be happy...even when eating.

There was a sudden knock on the door.

"Cho are you ok?" Asked Jeffery, his voice full of concern.

My eyes were already filled with tears, "Y-y-yes, I-I-I'm f-f-fine." I said trying to control myself from crying but I couldn't help it. But I cried silently repeating, 'I'm fine' over and over again.

Jeffery eventually left the door, but I knew he wouldn't have if my sister hadn't called him. Still in my bathroom I cleaned up the mess I made, not wanting to have Missy do it. I came out red eyed, and tired.

Jeffery came in, "Cho are you ok dear?" he asked as he put his arms around me.

"Yes, Jeffery I'm fine. Really I am" I lied, putting a smile on my face in reassurance.

"Well then your parents are waiting to talk to you on the phone downstairs." He said letting go and smiling.

I looked at him wondering if he told them what had happen.

"Oh don't worry dear, I didn't tell them." He said giving me a little nudge to go downstairs to the phone. "Now come on you can't keep them waiting on you all day!"

Oh Just in case you'd like to know why my parents are using the phone…it's because my dad is a muggle and he doesn't really want to use magic outside of our house. Jeffery is a muggle too, his been with my dad's family for years and now with ours. He knows what my mother, my sister, and I are and he finds it wonderful…he loves everything about magic, or at least he loves all the good in it.

I got downstairs and found my sister on the phone with them.

"Yea mum, Cho knocked down everything at dinner and then she ran upstairs…" she said and then so my looking at her, "Oh, here mum you can talk to Cho now."

She got up from the couch and looked at my with her big dark brown eyes and handed me the phone, "Thanks Mei," I said taking the phone.

"Hey mum…" I said trying to sound as if nothing happened. Since my parents didn't know I had been starving myself I had to sound cheerful.

"Cho honey, what really happened at dinner?" My mum asked…with much curiosity.

"Nothing mum, just knocked down a few things…because there was a…bug in my food and I did it want it anymore and it freaked me out…that's all and when I got up everything fell to the ground." I lied

"Are you sure?" She questioned me.

"Yes mum, honest." I lied again.

"Well then, I've got to go, I love you and tell Mei that too…"

"Yes, mum"

"Oh, and Cho…be careful next time and tell Missy to take care of it for you."

"Yes, mum"

"Ok, well then good bye, love you, and will be back as soon as we can definitely before Hogwarts starts."

"Ok, bye mum I love you too."

And click, we hung up.

Well…that went well…I suppose. I went up stairs…and fell straight to sleep.

A/N: Well hey look at that I wrote another chapter…well…I'll be writing the next one. Just a little clue Cho has a 'Dream' with a mysterious guy in it…can you guess who it is?