Author:  aomurasakiai

Warnings:  Duo POV, a pinch of Angst, Sap

Pairings:  2+1, hinted 1+2

Spoilers:  None

Rating:  G

Dedication:  I have Usagi-chan and her... puppy dog eyes... to thank.

Song: "Yumemiru no Tame ni [For the Sake of Dreaming]" from "Saishuu-Heiki Kanojo (Saikano)"

Special Notes:
~note~
[song lyrics]
//diary//

Yumemiru no Tame ni [Fic 05d of 10]

My drowsy eyes crack open against the warm sunlight filtering through the windows.  Blinking slowly, getting used to the radiant sun after a night of darkness, I manage to focus my blurry eyes.  Raising my left hand to rub them, I...

... realize that I can't.  Looking to the side, I see Heero sitting in a chair but hunched forward, his head lying right next to my pillow.  So close.  I look further...  and swallow hard.

My hand in his...  our fingers interlaced together.  Is it growing warmer in here or is my fever returning?

No matter.  Heero's here now.  Rolling to my side, being careful to not move too much, I end up facing him.  He's so close...  feels so right.

I think back to the dream I had last night.  No... nightmare.  We had to separate but...  it wasn't him leaving me.  I was the one leaving him.  To see him crying shattered my heart.  No one has ever been able to do that but Heero...  he looked so vulnerable.  It hurt...  I couldn't help but close my eyes and cry as well.  One tear...  then two...  then three...

Continuous...  But then, a very light brush against my cheek.  Brushing tears away...  A hand cupped my cheek.  Stroking tears away...  Sadness falling away.

Opening my eyes, I see...  Heero, his hand still on my face.  I don't want to leave him.  Reaching up, I placed my hand on his.

"I don't want to leave you..."  I whispered.

"But...  you need to..." he whispered back in such a... heartbroken voice.  I felt myself being pulled away.

I shook my head.

"No..."

Away from him...

"Heero."

Fighting back...

"I don't want to, Heero!"

Farther and farther...

"Heero!!!"

Into the light...

Looking back...  Heero in the darkness.

My eyes slid shut...

Slowly... passing through the light... into reality.

I woke up...  and he was still here with me.  I remember telling him to spend the night and...  the CD.  I must have drifted off then.

I smile at the memory of last night and look back at Heero's sleeping face.  Giving into the urge, my right hand comes up and brushes his slighty ruffled hair from his eyes.  He lets out a soft sigh and his hand tightens around mine.  I snuggle closer, the tops of our heads practically touching.

I want to stay like this forever...

~*~*~*~*~

My eyes open...  Did I fell asleep again?  I look around but Heero is nowhere to be seen.

Damn.

Rubbing my eyes, I glance up at the clock.

11:34am

Almost lu...  wait a second.  What do we have here?  A note?  I pick up the folded piece of paper.  Must be from Heero...  I open it.

~Duo, I hope that you're feeling better.  I ran out to get some groceries for lunch.  I'll be back soon.  Rest well.  Heero~

Heero...  He cares for me too much.  A smile forms on my face.  Reaching up to hit play on the CD player, I hit a notebook.  The exchange diary...  Wonder if he wrote in it...

I settle back into the covers with it as music fills the room.  Flipping to the last entry, I pause...

No way...

//Duo, here are the translations to the song.  I really like it as well.  It's almost like... my own thoughts... my own feelings... put into the lyrics.  I hope one day I can do what he says...//

My hands begin to tremble as the song begins.

[Kimi ga yumemiru tame ni]
[Boku wa yoru wa mamoru wo]

//For the sake of your dreams//
//I will guard you throughout the night//

I swallow hard.  Just like last night...

[Kimi ga aisuru mono ni]

[Itsuka kitto boku waratte yukou]

//One day I'll surely laugh for you//
//Because you love it//

I smile at this.  I certainly do...  Heero.  Do you love my laughter?

[Soba ni iru dareka wo Shinjiru nara]
[Hito wa kokoro dake de Ikiteru yukeru]

//Just by being near someone and believing in them//
//You will live on in a person's heart//

Mm hmm...  Heero will certainly live in my heart.  Wonder if I live in his...?  I shake my head.

[Ashita ni mayotte toki wa]

[Yozore no chiizu wo hirai de]
//Tomorrow will be lost in time//

//The map of night flies off//

Too much to hope for.  I'll be happy if we are just friends.  But I just can't help but hope for more...

[Kawaita umi no mukou de]
[Gin tsunaga umi wo ha koubo yo]
//Connected on the other side of the dry sea//
//The silver moon rises and falls//

I reach up to caress my cheek softly...  trying to recreate what I felt in my dream.  Strange... I can almost feel Heero's touch...

[Kimi ga yumemiru tame ni]
[Boku wa yoru wa mamoru wo]

//For the sake of your dreams//
//I will guard you throughout the night//

If only he could do that every night.  I know I will...

Yes...  I will...

[Kimi no kanashimi dake ga]
[Kono sekai de boku no mune mo nurasu]

//Your sadness is the only thing in this world//
//That can soak into my heart//

So true...

[Kimi ga yumemiru tame ni]
[Boku wa yoru wa mamoru wo]

//For the sake of your dreams//
//I will guard you throughout the night//

For you, Heero...

[Kimi ga aisuru mono ni]

[Itsuka kitto boku waratte yukou]

//One day I'll surely laugh for you//
//Because you love it//

Only for you...

Owari