Severus leaned forward, deepening the passionate kiss, his hand mixing in
Ginny's hair.
Ginny carefully pressed her tongue against his teeth, begging to enter.
Severus opened his mouth and let the feeling overwhelm him. 'Ah, the
sweetness' Ginny tasted her professor and found him, strangely enough, sweet tasting,
a smile lurked onto her lips. For the first time in a while Ginny felt partly happy. For the first time in a while she felt wanted. For the first time in a while she felt warm lips on hers, brushing gently yet lustfully. She felt his hands explore under her skirt, carefully and he paused as to
ask of access. She welcomed it with heat and moaned softly in his mouth. The feeling of his lust and attraction for her was bringing soft tears, of joy to leak,
and Severus noticed them, broke their kiss so he could brush them away
carefully. Ginny smiled a genuine smile and leaned to kiss him again.
But of course. it was meant to last only a short while. For the memories of Draco had already flooded her mind. And, of course, the guilt had blocked the warm sensations of comfort and lust that Severus so desperately tried
to give. And of course. she cried.
She curled her body into a ball on her bed sobbing softly but it hurt
nevertheless.
She mumbled words as her heart was aching, unaware that her words were
causing tears to appear in Severus eyes, causing a feeling of hurt to
appear and causing him to run out from her room.
She cried harder as the comforting soul disappeared and left her alone to live with her cruel fate. She cried harder as Draco`s name was screaming threw her head, and leaking softly from her lips. Her heart was crying, for
yet again, she was alone.
Fate has a twisted sense of humour.
*
Severus ran threw the corridors, blinded by tears and hurt. This pain was
unfamiliar to him.
I was so careful, now this is what I get.
His black robes were thrown over him untidily, his hair in a worse mess
ever. His heart shattered in pieces. He was hurt. But he knew he had to
help Ginny.
She needs love; she needs something that will keep her alive.
She needs Draco.
Tears were leaking, staining his pale cheeks, finishing the hurt look that you would never want to see in this strong man. That had never been seen in this strong man before. He was destroyed, by a Virginia Weasley. But that he would never admit to anyone. For he needs his shield, he would never let
anyone 'in' again.
This is my life.
*
"Harry?" asked the voice that now had turned soft and gentle, familiar to us who had heard him before. The boy in front of the old man was now crying
hard, hitting his head on the desk.
"It's not me, it's not me" the boy whispered between the sobs making the
headmaster frightened to the bone.
This was serious, yes indeed.
"Who is it then, Harry, my boy?" he asked gently adding some softness to
his voice.
"It's... aw" he cries harder and started to twitch.
"Albus..." he cried out these words and stood up, his face tear stained.
"Malfoy! Its...Help me, please!" he shouted and fell on the floor twitching hard. The scared Headmaster sprinted out from the chair (very strange if
you consider his age) and fell on his knees beside the boy who now was
unconscious.
*
"Ginny dear?" a soft concerned voice asks opening the door to her room. The
girl lies on the bed under the sheets but will not show her face.
"I'll be right up, Poppy. Give me a minute" she asks quietly trying to hide
the soreness of her voice after the crying. The person smiles warmly,
agrees and leaves the room silently.
Ginny feels new tears forming. Today it will be gone. She slowly gets out of bed, pulls on a pair of jeans and a new blouse and throws the robe over
her.
She goes to the bathroom and looks in the mirror. I look horrible as usual.
She thinks.
She washes her face and leaves her room and meets the nurse, waiting in the
corridor. "Let's go Ginny dear" she says and puts an arm around the little figure.
She obviously sees that Ginny's eyes are red and swollen, but it's normal
for a girl in her situation, she thinks.
The walk in silence.
The go straight to the hospital wing and Poppy asks Ginny to wait a while
when she gets the potion.
Fear starts to appear in Ginny. Doubt and guiltiness burns in her stomach.
^
How can I do this?
^
How can I kill a baby that is a part of me?
^
You can do it because it is a monster. And you know it Ginny. a voice says
in her head, answering her questions.
^
But it's still a child! I'm a murderer. nothing mere but a murderer.
^
Her thoughts were interrupted by Poppy who came with the potion and
motioning for Ginny to take a seat in one of the beds. Ginny obeyed and
settled down in one. Poppy came to her with a reassuring smile.
"You'll just take this potion first then I'll give you a sleepless potion
so that you won't feel the pain, dear. "
Ginny nods and looks up in the nurses eyes, waiting for some comfort. But the nurse knew better then to give it now. Ginny would need it later. Ginny took the potion that tasted awful, and then the sleepless potion quickly. The potion worked quickly for she started to feel the pain in her stomach just before she fell asleep and she saw the tears in the nurse's eyes just
before she fell in a deep sleep.
*
Draco.
You are needed here now with Virginia. I will not take no for an answer,
you understand me? I don't care what your business is at the Malfoy mansion right now but you
will come here. Floo over here a.s.a.p. or take you broom. Do whatever but be here fast.
You are deeply needed.
Sincerely
Your godfather
Draco read threw the letter many times, not knowing what to do. I can't go.
It's her life at stake here! He thought frustrated.
But what if. her life is already at stake? What if Lucius had cheated? What
if.
The decision was made; he hurried down the stairs to their fireplace and
flooed to Hogwarts.
*
Severus sat in his office, drinking from a pocket flask. He tried to say to himself that he needed to calm the nerves but he knew better. He felt new tears appear but just then someone appeared in his fireplace and he had to
force them back while he hid the pocket flask.
So... He actually came...
"Godfather" Draco said when he saw Severus sitting by his desk. "What's
wrong with Ginny?" He asked concerned.
"We'll come to that soon, Draco. But first may I ask you a few things... "He said his voice cold as ice. Warning signs went threw Draco`s head but
he took a seat in front of the man and waited.
"How kind of you to come at my request, but May I ask WHY you left in the
first place?" His voice rising slightly.
"I was needed at the mansion" he said plainly avoiding eye contact.
"So needed that you left Virginia alone to cope with the pregnancy?
Draco?!" He said now almost shouting.
"I was needed at the mansion, Severus" He said firmly.
"Well.. I hope you are informed that you left Virginia quite depressed and that she now has to go threw the abortion totally alone." he said almost in
a whisper, he saw how Draco paled obviously.
"She did an abortion?" he whispered, he hadn't even considered that she
would do an abortion.
"She's doing it right now Draco. What did you think that she would want to
keep it? A reminder to what happened? What were you thinking boy?" he
shouted now obviously pissed.
"I, can I see her? I must be with her. She needs me" he said determined.
"Yes she needs you, she needs love. But if you do anything like that
again.You will kill her Draco." He said sadly and truthfully.
"But I can't stay long... "He whispered, tears appearing in his eyes. The
godfather looked sadly at the boy, hurt was radiating from him.
"Dear Draco, please do tell me what is wrong." He pleaded his heart crying
at the hopeless situation.
"I...I can't..." he whispered and tears started to fall on his cheeks.
Severus stood up and was about to take the boy in his embrace when someone else flooed in for the second time within twenty minutes. The headmaster
came in looking serious.
"Severus, I'm glad you're here.. " He started but stopped when he saw
Draco.
"Oh Draco`s already here, well then. We've got some things to talk about,
boys" he said without the usual twinkle in his eye.
*
Ginny woke up, alone as usual. She immediately felt the pain in her stomach
and intimate areas. Oh god, she thought. She didn't notice the tears that appeared yet again.
Because now the whole realisation sunk in.
^
I could've been a mom.
^
A mom
^
I wouldn't have been alone; I would've had someone to love and someone
who'd love me.
^
I wouldn't have been alone.
^
Ginny looked around and noticed that Poppy had left some chocolate frogs
for her.
She is so kind, Ginny thought.
But she felt so impure, so dark in the all too white room. She drew the sheets over her head trying to think of something else but the child she just killed. But the only other thing that came into mind was Draco. Soon memories of everything they'd been threw and experienced filled her mind and gave her some peace of mind for a while. When Poppy came in to check up on the girl she heard stifled giggles come from her bed, under the sheets. Poppy became quite uncertain for a second. Had the girl lost her mind, or
was she really just innocently just laughing? She shook the uncertain
feeling off and pasted a smile on her face and walked to the bed.
"So Ginny, what's so amusing now?" she asked warmly and Ginny crawled,
embarrassed, from under the sheets.
"Well... I was just thinking about this time when.
*
When Poppy left the girl to bring lunch she felt pleased, Ginny had told
some stories about things she and Draco had done and it had been quite touching to hear her talk so lovingly about them together. But of course it
had caused tears to spill but she had comforted the girl.
At least she can remember good times. Maybe they can help her cope. And not
cause her death. She thought as sadness overwhelmed her.
*
"You need to talk to us? What about Albus?" Severus asked as he sat down in
his chair, he motioned for the headmaster to take a seat beside Draco.
"We have a very serious issue at hand, Severus" Albus said slowly to
increase the dramatic scene.
"It is, of course about Mr Potter" he said and saw Draco tense.
"What about him?" Severus hissed. "I thought it was clear, the evidence is
clear Albus!" He said now genuinely angry.
"I thought so too Severus. But in my interrogation I stumbled cross
something very distressing." he said his voice sounding very much calm.
"And what was this?" Severus asked slightly annoyed.
"I think our Mr. Potter is under the imperious curse or something worse,
Severus." He said and waited for the reaction.
"But he didn't how any signs in the test, Albus..." Severus said alarmed.
"And I did them myself.." Albus interrupted him by nodding.
"I know this Severus. That is why I said something worse, for he was in deep pain when he tried to get control, and he spoke, and that's where we
come to you Mr. Malfoy." He said turning to Draco who looked utterly
confused and angry.
"He mumbled very few words... But he mentioned your surname, Draco. Do you in any way know why?" He looked deeply into the boys eyes trying to find
some truth in these hard, ice-cold eyes.
Draco`s reaction was a chock to them all, he fell in tears.
*
Ginny was thinking of a song she'd heard when they'd found a radio in the
school and flicked threw channels together,
"As I look into your eyes I see the sunrise
The light behind your face helps me realise
Will we sleep and sometimes love until the moon shines
Maybe the next time I'll be yours and maybe you'll be mine
I don't know if it's even in your mind at all
It could be me
At this moment in time
Is it in your mind at all
It should be me, it could be me forever
Wandering through life will love come home to you
And the love you want forever, will they be true to you
Will we sleep and sometimes love until the moon shines
Maybe the next time I'll be yours and maybe you'll be mine
I don't know if it's even in your mind at all
It could be me
At this moment in time
Love's indescribable
It should be me, it could be me
Forever "
She smiled as she remembered that its name had been Sunrise and the band
was something like Simply Red. She started to sing the chorus from it,
letting the blissful memory flash threw her.
*
AN/ I'm sure no one will recognize this song... but I at least love it... Every time I hear it I'd like to run around in a circle with my arms out
*giggle* Well.. I love it even though it isn't really my taste I music. I'm sorry to all who thought this was stupid of me to put the song here but I thought it
would fit in. ~carshaa~
Draco walked slowly around the castle.
I'm as good as dead he thought and mentally snorted.
When Lucius will hear that the Malfoy heir has gone and told the old fool for a headmaster everything of his plan, he'll kill me. That's for sure.
He didn't mind his own death that much, but he was afraid that Lucius would go threw with his black mail, that is to kill Ginny. He closed his eyes at
the thought of Ginny.
Not that it will do any change, I've already destroyed her, he thought and
tears appeared in his eyes.
He was walking near the hospital wing, though he had no intention to go in
to meet Ginny at all, when he heard a familiar song being quietly sung.
I don't know if it's even in your mind at all
It could be me
At this moment in time
The memory came back to his mind. Ginny. he thought.
Is it in your mind at all
It should be me, it could be me forever
Mine mine mine forever.
Then Ginny's voice stopped and now Draco's heart was already crying so he walked into (well actually almost jogging) the hospital wing but stopped as
he saw Ginny.
*
Ginny lifted her tear stained face and saw who it was at the door, her
heart was breaking.
Draco.
He looked so handsome, so beautiful, although horridly too pale. His hair was open and was in a total mess, giving a very rough, sexy look. He looked so good, he was slightly too pale but otherwise he was healthy. Nothing about his appearance would say that he was hurt or mortified that he'd been just separated with his girlfriend. 'Oh god....' she thought. 'He
isn't broken like, he will never love me anymore'
It hurt, badly.
Then their eyes locked, hers were already tearing but she still searched
for an answer for everything he'd done to her.
Her throat was trying to force up a scream but she will forced it down. Her heart was aching so hard it should be dead, and her head was still in
chock. But she needed her answer. She didn't care that she looked like a mess, she
didn't care shit. Her lip was trembling and she was breathing hard but her eyes were steady,
besides the tears and the swollenness.
She knew she needed an answer.
*
'Oh god..' he thought as he saw her, she looked thin, almost anorectic, and pale, that made her hair look dreadfully red, and her eyes were swollen and
red and had tears in them.
But still she looked beautiful; she had that elfishness that made you think
she was made of glass.
He felt his heart break in two as he realised he'd helped to cause her downfall. Their eyes now met, in every other way she looked like she would
fall apart by the mere sight of him, besides her eyes. They were rock hard and demanding. He knew what she wanted but he also knew what he wanted to do. He wanted to take her in his arms and chase all the
bad thoughts away. To make everything better.
Although he knew it would probably never happen, she probably hated him.
And she had a right to do just that.
The pain is throbbing in my heart, my mind is telling me to back out. What shall I do now? We keep on staring and daring each other to do something
when I know it should be me.
Fuck you Draco Malfoy. Fuck you. You aren't going to mess this up too.
"Ginny" he said softly, breaking the silence.
That was all that was needed for Ginny.
She broke into tears and cried her heart out while Draco stood by the door
numb struck. 'What the hell am I supposed to do? I want to kiss her, hug her, and make
her feel better. But I'm certain she hates me.' So he backed out of the
room leaving her at her most woundable moment. And hating himself for
everything he'd done.
*
AN/ Now.. I could've gone further with the story but I wanted to leave it here. Well now I've got this one decision in mind. GW/SS or GW/DM *yawn* yeah I decide this.. Tuff thing it is. What if I screw it up by deciding wrong? My life would end. *big yawn* I need sleep. I'm so tired.. Really.. Well.. Review... Oh n yeah... Don't blush elf maiden, you n' bayerruler deserve the title great and even more, Oh n' if anyone has msn messenger do please inform me.. *Grin* It would be nice to talk with someone about Harry
Potter, lol.. Or just stuff..
I NEED SLEEP I'm too tired to write more.
Bye ya all
~carshaa~
Ginny carefully pressed her tongue against his teeth, begging to enter.
Severus opened his mouth and let the feeling overwhelm him. 'Ah, the
sweetness' Ginny tasted her professor and found him, strangely enough, sweet tasting,
a smile lurked onto her lips. For the first time in a while Ginny felt partly happy. For the first time in a while she felt wanted. For the first time in a while she felt warm lips on hers, brushing gently yet lustfully. She felt his hands explore under her skirt, carefully and he paused as to
ask of access. She welcomed it with heat and moaned softly in his mouth. The feeling of his lust and attraction for her was bringing soft tears, of joy to leak,
and Severus noticed them, broke their kiss so he could brush them away
carefully. Ginny smiled a genuine smile and leaned to kiss him again.
But of course. it was meant to last only a short while. For the memories of Draco had already flooded her mind. And, of course, the guilt had blocked the warm sensations of comfort and lust that Severus so desperately tried
to give. And of course. she cried.
She curled her body into a ball on her bed sobbing softly but it hurt
nevertheless.
She mumbled words as her heart was aching, unaware that her words were
causing tears to appear in Severus eyes, causing a feeling of hurt to
appear and causing him to run out from her room.
She cried harder as the comforting soul disappeared and left her alone to live with her cruel fate. She cried harder as Draco`s name was screaming threw her head, and leaking softly from her lips. Her heart was crying, for
yet again, she was alone.
Fate has a twisted sense of humour.
*
Severus ran threw the corridors, blinded by tears and hurt. This pain was
unfamiliar to him.
I was so careful, now this is what I get.
His black robes were thrown over him untidily, his hair in a worse mess
ever. His heart shattered in pieces. He was hurt. But he knew he had to
help Ginny.
She needs love; she needs something that will keep her alive.
She needs Draco.
Tears were leaking, staining his pale cheeks, finishing the hurt look that you would never want to see in this strong man. That had never been seen in this strong man before. He was destroyed, by a Virginia Weasley. But that he would never admit to anyone. For he needs his shield, he would never let
anyone 'in' again.
This is my life.
*
"Harry?" asked the voice that now had turned soft and gentle, familiar to us who had heard him before. The boy in front of the old man was now crying
hard, hitting his head on the desk.
"It's not me, it's not me" the boy whispered between the sobs making the
headmaster frightened to the bone.
This was serious, yes indeed.
"Who is it then, Harry, my boy?" he asked gently adding some softness to
his voice.
"It's... aw" he cries harder and started to twitch.
"Albus..." he cried out these words and stood up, his face tear stained.
"Malfoy! Its...Help me, please!" he shouted and fell on the floor twitching hard. The scared Headmaster sprinted out from the chair (very strange if
you consider his age) and fell on his knees beside the boy who now was
unconscious.
*
"Ginny dear?" a soft concerned voice asks opening the door to her room. The
girl lies on the bed under the sheets but will not show her face.
"I'll be right up, Poppy. Give me a minute" she asks quietly trying to hide
the soreness of her voice after the crying. The person smiles warmly,
agrees and leaves the room silently.
Ginny feels new tears forming. Today it will be gone. She slowly gets out of bed, pulls on a pair of jeans and a new blouse and throws the robe over
her.
She goes to the bathroom and looks in the mirror. I look horrible as usual.
She thinks.
She washes her face and leaves her room and meets the nurse, waiting in the
corridor. "Let's go Ginny dear" she says and puts an arm around the little figure.
She obviously sees that Ginny's eyes are red and swollen, but it's normal
for a girl in her situation, she thinks.
The walk in silence.
The go straight to the hospital wing and Poppy asks Ginny to wait a while
when she gets the potion.
Fear starts to appear in Ginny. Doubt and guiltiness burns in her stomach.
^
How can I do this?
^
How can I kill a baby that is a part of me?
^
You can do it because it is a monster. And you know it Ginny. a voice says
in her head, answering her questions.
^
But it's still a child! I'm a murderer. nothing mere but a murderer.
^
Her thoughts were interrupted by Poppy who came with the potion and
motioning for Ginny to take a seat in one of the beds. Ginny obeyed and
settled down in one. Poppy came to her with a reassuring smile.
"You'll just take this potion first then I'll give you a sleepless potion
so that you won't feel the pain, dear. "
Ginny nods and looks up in the nurses eyes, waiting for some comfort. But the nurse knew better then to give it now. Ginny would need it later. Ginny took the potion that tasted awful, and then the sleepless potion quickly. The potion worked quickly for she started to feel the pain in her stomach just before she fell asleep and she saw the tears in the nurse's eyes just
before she fell in a deep sleep.
*
Draco.
You are needed here now with Virginia. I will not take no for an answer,
you understand me? I don't care what your business is at the Malfoy mansion right now but you
will come here. Floo over here a.s.a.p. or take you broom. Do whatever but be here fast.
You are deeply needed.
Sincerely
Your godfather
Draco read threw the letter many times, not knowing what to do. I can't go.
It's her life at stake here! He thought frustrated.
But what if. her life is already at stake? What if Lucius had cheated? What
if.
The decision was made; he hurried down the stairs to their fireplace and
flooed to Hogwarts.
*
Severus sat in his office, drinking from a pocket flask. He tried to say to himself that he needed to calm the nerves but he knew better. He felt new tears appear but just then someone appeared in his fireplace and he had to
force them back while he hid the pocket flask.
So... He actually came...
"Godfather" Draco said when he saw Severus sitting by his desk. "What's
wrong with Ginny?" He asked concerned.
"We'll come to that soon, Draco. But first may I ask you a few things... "He said his voice cold as ice. Warning signs went threw Draco`s head but
he took a seat in front of the man and waited.
"How kind of you to come at my request, but May I ask WHY you left in the
first place?" His voice rising slightly.
"I was needed at the mansion" he said plainly avoiding eye contact.
"So needed that you left Virginia alone to cope with the pregnancy?
Draco?!" He said now almost shouting.
"I was needed at the mansion, Severus" He said firmly.
"Well.. I hope you are informed that you left Virginia quite depressed and that she now has to go threw the abortion totally alone." he said almost in
a whisper, he saw how Draco paled obviously.
"She did an abortion?" he whispered, he hadn't even considered that she
would do an abortion.
"She's doing it right now Draco. What did you think that she would want to
keep it? A reminder to what happened? What were you thinking boy?" he
shouted now obviously pissed.
"I, can I see her? I must be with her. She needs me" he said determined.
"Yes she needs you, she needs love. But if you do anything like that
again.You will kill her Draco." He said sadly and truthfully.
"But I can't stay long... "He whispered, tears appearing in his eyes. The
godfather looked sadly at the boy, hurt was radiating from him.
"Dear Draco, please do tell me what is wrong." He pleaded his heart crying
at the hopeless situation.
"I...I can't..." he whispered and tears started to fall on his cheeks.
Severus stood up and was about to take the boy in his embrace when someone else flooed in for the second time within twenty minutes. The headmaster
came in looking serious.
"Severus, I'm glad you're here.. " He started but stopped when he saw
Draco.
"Oh Draco`s already here, well then. We've got some things to talk about,
boys" he said without the usual twinkle in his eye.
*
Ginny woke up, alone as usual. She immediately felt the pain in her stomach
and intimate areas. Oh god, she thought. She didn't notice the tears that appeared yet again.
Because now the whole realisation sunk in.
^
I could've been a mom.
^
A mom
^
I wouldn't have been alone; I would've had someone to love and someone
who'd love me.
^
I wouldn't have been alone.
^
Ginny looked around and noticed that Poppy had left some chocolate frogs
for her.
She is so kind, Ginny thought.
But she felt so impure, so dark in the all too white room. She drew the sheets over her head trying to think of something else but the child she just killed. But the only other thing that came into mind was Draco. Soon memories of everything they'd been threw and experienced filled her mind and gave her some peace of mind for a while. When Poppy came in to check up on the girl she heard stifled giggles come from her bed, under the sheets. Poppy became quite uncertain for a second. Had the girl lost her mind, or
was she really just innocently just laughing? She shook the uncertain
feeling off and pasted a smile on her face and walked to the bed.
"So Ginny, what's so amusing now?" she asked warmly and Ginny crawled,
embarrassed, from under the sheets.
"Well... I was just thinking about this time when.
*
When Poppy left the girl to bring lunch she felt pleased, Ginny had told
some stories about things she and Draco had done and it had been quite touching to hear her talk so lovingly about them together. But of course it
had caused tears to spill but she had comforted the girl.
At least she can remember good times. Maybe they can help her cope. And not
cause her death. She thought as sadness overwhelmed her.
*
"You need to talk to us? What about Albus?" Severus asked as he sat down in
his chair, he motioned for the headmaster to take a seat beside Draco.
"We have a very serious issue at hand, Severus" Albus said slowly to
increase the dramatic scene.
"It is, of course about Mr Potter" he said and saw Draco tense.
"What about him?" Severus hissed. "I thought it was clear, the evidence is
clear Albus!" He said now genuinely angry.
"I thought so too Severus. But in my interrogation I stumbled cross
something very distressing." he said his voice sounding very much calm.
"And what was this?" Severus asked slightly annoyed.
"I think our Mr. Potter is under the imperious curse or something worse,
Severus." He said and waited for the reaction.
"But he didn't how any signs in the test, Albus..." Severus said alarmed.
"And I did them myself.." Albus interrupted him by nodding.
"I know this Severus. That is why I said something worse, for he was in deep pain when he tried to get control, and he spoke, and that's where we
come to you Mr. Malfoy." He said turning to Draco who looked utterly
confused and angry.
"He mumbled very few words... But he mentioned your surname, Draco. Do you in any way know why?" He looked deeply into the boys eyes trying to find
some truth in these hard, ice-cold eyes.
Draco`s reaction was a chock to them all, he fell in tears.
*
Ginny was thinking of a song she'd heard when they'd found a radio in the
school and flicked threw channels together,
"As I look into your eyes I see the sunrise
The light behind your face helps me realise
Will we sleep and sometimes love until the moon shines
Maybe the next time I'll be yours and maybe you'll be mine
I don't know if it's even in your mind at all
It could be me
At this moment in time
Is it in your mind at all
It should be me, it could be me forever
Wandering through life will love come home to you
And the love you want forever, will they be true to you
Will we sleep and sometimes love until the moon shines
Maybe the next time I'll be yours and maybe you'll be mine
I don't know if it's even in your mind at all
It could be me
At this moment in time
Love's indescribable
It should be me, it could be me
Forever "
She smiled as she remembered that its name had been Sunrise and the band
was something like Simply Red. She started to sing the chorus from it,
letting the blissful memory flash threw her.
*
AN/ I'm sure no one will recognize this song... but I at least love it... Every time I hear it I'd like to run around in a circle with my arms out
*giggle* Well.. I love it even though it isn't really my taste I music. I'm sorry to all who thought this was stupid of me to put the song here but I thought it
would fit in. ~carshaa~
Draco walked slowly around the castle.
I'm as good as dead he thought and mentally snorted.
When Lucius will hear that the Malfoy heir has gone and told the old fool for a headmaster everything of his plan, he'll kill me. That's for sure.
He didn't mind his own death that much, but he was afraid that Lucius would go threw with his black mail, that is to kill Ginny. He closed his eyes at
the thought of Ginny.
Not that it will do any change, I've already destroyed her, he thought and
tears appeared in his eyes.
He was walking near the hospital wing, though he had no intention to go in
to meet Ginny at all, when he heard a familiar song being quietly sung.
I don't know if it's even in your mind at all
It could be me
At this moment in time
The memory came back to his mind. Ginny. he thought.
Is it in your mind at all
It should be me, it could be me forever
Mine mine mine forever.
Then Ginny's voice stopped and now Draco's heart was already crying so he walked into (well actually almost jogging) the hospital wing but stopped as
he saw Ginny.
*
Ginny lifted her tear stained face and saw who it was at the door, her
heart was breaking.
Draco.
He looked so handsome, so beautiful, although horridly too pale. His hair was open and was in a total mess, giving a very rough, sexy look. He looked so good, he was slightly too pale but otherwise he was healthy. Nothing about his appearance would say that he was hurt or mortified that he'd been just separated with his girlfriend. 'Oh god....' she thought. 'He
isn't broken like, he will never love me anymore'
It hurt, badly.
Then their eyes locked, hers were already tearing but she still searched
for an answer for everything he'd done to her.
Her throat was trying to force up a scream but she will forced it down. Her heart was aching so hard it should be dead, and her head was still in
chock. But she needed her answer. She didn't care that she looked like a mess, she
didn't care shit. Her lip was trembling and she was breathing hard but her eyes were steady,
besides the tears and the swollenness.
She knew she needed an answer.
*
'Oh god..' he thought as he saw her, she looked thin, almost anorectic, and pale, that made her hair look dreadfully red, and her eyes were swollen and
red and had tears in them.
But still she looked beautiful; she had that elfishness that made you think
she was made of glass.
He felt his heart break in two as he realised he'd helped to cause her downfall. Their eyes now met, in every other way she looked like she would
fall apart by the mere sight of him, besides her eyes. They were rock hard and demanding. He knew what she wanted but he also knew what he wanted to do. He wanted to take her in his arms and chase all the
bad thoughts away. To make everything better.
Although he knew it would probably never happen, she probably hated him.
And she had a right to do just that.
The pain is throbbing in my heart, my mind is telling me to back out. What shall I do now? We keep on staring and daring each other to do something
when I know it should be me.
Fuck you Draco Malfoy. Fuck you. You aren't going to mess this up too.
"Ginny" he said softly, breaking the silence.
That was all that was needed for Ginny.
She broke into tears and cried her heart out while Draco stood by the door
numb struck. 'What the hell am I supposed to do? I want to kiss her, hug her, and make
her feel better. But I'm certain she hates me.' So he backed out of the
room leaving her at her most woundable moment. And hating himself for
everything he'd done.
*
AN/ Now.. I could've gone further with the story but I wanted to leave it here. Well now I've got this one decision in mind. GW/SS or GW/DM *yawn* yeah I decide this.. Tuff thing it is. What if I screw it up by deciding wrong? My life would end. *big yawn* I need sleep. I'm so tired.. Really.. Well.. Review... Oh n yeah... Don't blush elf maiden, you n' bayerruler deserve the title great and even more, Oh n' if anyone has msn messenger do please inform me.. *Grin* It would be nice to talk with someone about Harry
Potter, lol.. Or just stuff..
I NEED SLEEP I'm too tired to write more.
Bye ya all
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