AN/ As you see by the name of the chapter this is the end. or is it? read
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title: I'm NOT blind, you know
Chapter: The end
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'Oh god. This pain, this hurt.'
'Why didn't he help me, comfort me? He left me'
'He left me again and proved my undeniable fate'
'To be left -alone'
'This is the pain, the pain I can't live with.'
'I need him back, or I will not live'
'I open my eyes try to look around'
'My eyes are hurting, they are so sore. My entire body is weak and thin but I manage to rise from the bed and walk towards the door.'
'Oh god Draco, don't leave me!'
*
Outside the door she meets Severus, a feeling of shame washes over her and she blinks a couple of times before she smiles carefully.
"Hi Severus" She says quietly and gives him a small hug that overwhelms him.
"Hello Virginia, I am pleased to see that you feel better." He smiles a genuine smile and makes Ginny feel loads better.
"Yeah I was on my way.-" she starts-
"To search for Mr. Malfoy?" Severus asks still smiling warmly. She nods carefully.
"Yes well I'd first like to tell you something that might make you feel better, perhaps?"
She nods yet again and he takes a deep breath.
"Well, I and the headmaster discovered that Mr. Potter is under a powerful imperious curse or a hex and is controlled by a strong wizard. We believe that he WAS under it already during- the attack." he says sadly and waits for response
Ginny felt a mixture of disgust but relief.
Disgust- because someone had forced Harry upon her. Someone had enjoyed o watch her as Ginny AND Harry had to suffer.
Relief- Because Harry hadn't... Raped her. Harry was still the person she'd loved.
She impulsively hugs Severus yet again and gives a short yelp of relief that makes Severus feel a great deal better.
"Thank you, professor. Please tell me if you find a cure for it and then. I must talk with him, if I may." She says quietly and feels tears appearing in her ached eyes.
"But of course Virginia." He says now with his usual snappishness, but Ginny senses the warmness in it so she merely smiles and turns around.
She needed to find Draco.
She needed him.
*
She walked slowly threw the corridor, speeding up slowly and soon she was almost running.
She needed to find Draco and tell him everything.
Tell him she loves him, tell him she needs him and ask him if he still wants her. Something inside of her pushed her outside and towards the lake. Something told her, 'he's here.' She slowly saw his figure by the lake standing with his back against her. Love was filling her sore heart and mending the ache.
His hair was getting messed up by the wind but it only made it look, if possible, even better.
His back was straight but... he is bending a little forward? She stopped numb struck.
'Is that a hand in his hair? Is that a person he is leaning forward to?'
A pain struck into her heart and it felt like being shot by a gun right threw the heart. She now saw the other person's big, bushy hair that he was holding roughly as he leaned forward, now deepening the obvious kiss.
'Ah, these tears. Tears of hurt as hope has now vanished.'
She closed her eyes and blinked a couple of times. Not wanting to admit this betrayal. She now saw the rest of the person Draco was so obviously enjoying. Big hair, small figure, a book in her other hand.
It was Hermione.
A feeling washed over her and she turned around and ran to the castle. Tears were falling as her heart was breaking. The betrayal, the hurt, the tears.
'How ironic, I am meant to be hurt, trashed and left to rotten. I have a cruel fate in front of me, must I meet it?'
'My heart, my ached heart! This is not a feeling I'd even wish upon my worst enemy and yet I have to suffer of it.'
She felt something burning in her throat and she stopped and screamed of hurt, halfway from the lake.
She screamed of hurt then, as tears were appearing again, ran inside the castle and ran straight into her room.
As she closed the door she leaned back on it and slowly started to cry, cry as the pain increased in her shattered heart and felt the loneliness now dominated her whole soul and being.
The hurt, the betrayal.
'I really thought he loved me. It was the only thing I had, the only thing I really had'
She then remembered something. Today was the burial of her brother.
"Ron..." she whispered and started to cry furiously, rocking herself in the same time as she had started to hit herself in the chest trying to stop the hurt.
"I can't take this anymore!" she shouted threw her tears.
New tears appeared as she slowly went for her knife from her drawer. The sight of the source of relief was cold.
'My soul is already gone, what else is left?'
She settled herself by against the bed and carefully pressed the blade against her forearm.
Tears appeared in her sore eyes and she sniffled a couple times.
'God, how I missed this feeling'
She saw the thin line of blood and suddenly felt proud. But her thoughts went of again on Draco, his smile, his eyes, his hair.
Hermione. Draco.
She cried out and pressed the blade harder and harder against her arm, wishing for relief.
Her thoughts were of Draco as the blood loss made her dizzy. She rested her head on her bloody arms as she felt light in the head. She felt tears on her cheek.
'This is what I wanted' she thought trying to calm her ached heart.
'I want peace; I want to escape this grief.'
But still, her heart was crying, shattered and hurt. She started to cry softly and just then someone entered. In a wave of panic she decided to end it fast. She threw the knife towards the pain in her heart to end it before anyone could stop her.
She didn't hear the person by the door scream, she only felt a pain but she couldn't tell if it had been caused by the blade or if it was her heart crying.
She felt blood in her throat hand she gasped for breath.
'This is my end' she thought. A tear spilled as she saw Harry kneel down beside her, she saw that he was screaming but she couldn't hear it too well. She smiled warmly to him, trying to show him she still loved him. She saw him turn his head as she fell backwards and shout to someone. She felt a sleepiness overwhelm her as the pain was aching.
It was then he arrived.
'Draco....' she thought. Her heart was screaming of hurt.
He looked at her desperate and hurt. She saw something that made her feel empty; she saw tears in his eyes. He knelt down and whispered something to her that she couldn't hear.
"I thought you loved me." she whispered, heart broken and started to cough, she saw blood.
"I loved you both... But you didn't love." she said weakly, now fading into darkness. Harry and Draco were both crying, both with one of her hands in theirs.
"Me back." she whispered barely and closed her eyes as relief was waiting. She faded away from her misery and faced her death.
*
AN/ I know some people like happy endings but hey I'm not that kind of a person, but I promise, SOME good will happen in the next chapteeeeer. Oh yes there WILL be a next one... but then *sniff* it will probably end.
I kinda ruined the story after the first chapter because I wasn't sure if it would continue. But I LOVE suicidal scenes *grin* all right... Tell me if you are pissed or glad. OR SAD, if someone would be sad it would be just perfect... Oh and there was no need to decide about the SS/HG or DM/HG... And that was kinda the point... *grin*
THANKS TO EVRYONE THAT REVIEWS oh n' that is ELFMAIDEN and BAYER04RULZ, Two persons, but that's already much to me. You guys/girls rock!
~carshaa~
title: I'm NOT blind, you know
Chapter: The end
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
'Oh god. This pain, this hurt.'
'Why didn't he help me, comfort me? He left me'
'He left me again and proved my undeniable fate'
'To be left -alone'
'This is the pain, the pain I can't live with.'
'I need him back, or I will not live'
'I open my eyes try to look around'
'My eyes are hurting, they are so sore. My entire body is weak and thin but I manage to rise from the bed and walk towards the door.'
'Oh god Draco, don't leave me!'
*
Outside the door she meets Severus, a feeling of shame washes over her and she blinks a couple of times before she smiles carefully.
"Hi Severus" She says quietly and gives him a small hug that overwhelms him.
"Hello Virginia, I am pleased to see that you feel better." He smiles a genuine smile and makes Ginny feel loads better.
"Yeah I was on my way.-" she starts-
"To search for Mr. Malfoy?" Severus asks still smiling warmly. She nods carefully.
"Yes well I'd first like to tell you something that might make you feel better, perhaps?"
She nods yet again and he takes a deep breath.
"Well, I and the headmaster discovered that Mr. Potter is under a powerful imperious curse or a hex and is controlled by a strong wizard. We believe that he WAS under it already during- the attack." he says sadly and waits for response
Ginny felt a mixture of disgust but relief.
Disgust- because someone had forced Harry upon her. Someone had enjoyed o watch her as Ginny AND Harry had to suffer.
Relief- Because Harry hadn't... Raped her. Harry was still the person she'd loved.
She impulsively hugs Severus yet again and gives a short yelp of relief that makes Severus feel a great deal better.
"Thank you, professor. Please tell me if you find a cure for it and then. I must talk with him, if I may." She says quietly and feels tears appearing in her ached eyes.
"But of course Virginia." He says now with his usual snappishness, but Ginny senses the warmness in it so she merely smiles and turns around.
She needed to find Draco.
She needed him.
*
She walked slowly threw the corridor, speeding up slowly and soon she was almost running.
She needed to find Draco and tell him everything.
Tell him she loves him, tell him she needs him and ask him if he still wants her. Something inside of her pushed her outside and towards the lake. Something told her, 'he's here.' She slowly saw his figure by the lake standing with his back against her. Love was filling her sore heart and mending the ache.
His hair was getting messed up by the wind but it only made it look, if possible, even better.
His back was straight but... he is bending a little forward? She stopped numb struck.
'Is that a hand in his hair? Is that a person he is leaning forward to?'
A pain struck into her heart and it felt like being shot by a gun right threw the heart. She now saw the other person's big, bushy hair that he was holding roughly as he leaned forward, now deepening the obvious kiss.
'Ah, these tears. Tears of hurt as hope has now vanished.'
She closed her eyes and blinked a couple of times. Not wanting to admit this betrayal. She now saw the rest of the person Draco was so obviously enjoying. Big hair, small figure, a book in her other hand.
It was Hermione.
A feeling washed over her and she turned around and ran to the castle. Tears were falling as her heart was breaking. The betrayal, the hurt, the tears.
'How ironic, I am meant to be hurt, trashed and left to rotten. I have a cruel fate in front of me, must I meet it?'
'My heart, my ached heart! This is not a feeling I'd even wish upon my worst enemy and yet I have to suffer of it.'
She felt something burning in her throat and she stopped and screamed of hurt, halfway from the lake.
She screamed of hurt then, as tears were appearing again, ran inside the castle and ran straight into her room.
As she closed the door she leaned back on it and slowly started to cry, cry as the pain increased in her shattered heart and felt the loneliness now dominated her whole soul and being.
The hurt, the betrayal.
'I really thought he loved me. It was the only thing I had, the only thing I really had'
She then remembered something. Today was the burial of her brother.
"Ron..." she whispered and started to cry furiously, rocking herself in the same time as she had started to hit herself in the chest trying to stop the hurt.
"I can't take this anymore!" she shouted threw her tears.
New tears appeared as she slowly went for her knife from her drawer. The sight of the source of relief was cold.
'My soul is already gone, what else is left?'
She settled herself by against the bed and carefully pressed the blade against her forearm.
Tears appeared in her sore eyes and she sniffled a couple times.
'God, how I missed this feeling'
She saw the thin line of blood and suddenly felt proud. But her thoughts went of again on Draco, his smile, his eyes, his hair.
Hermione. Draco.
She cried out and pressed the blade harder and harder against her arm, wishing for relief.
Her thoughts were of Draco as the blood loss made her dizzy. She rested her head on her bloody arms as she felt light in the head. She felt tears on her cheek.
'This is what I wanted' she thought trying to calm her ached heart.
'I want peace; I want to escape this grief.'
But still, her heart was crying, shattered and hurt. She started to cry softly and just then someone entered. In a wave of panic she decided to end it fast. She threw the knife towards the pain in her heart to end it before anyone could stop her.
She didn't hear the person by the door scream, she only felt a pain but she couldn't tell if it had been caused by the blade or if it was her heart crying.
She felt blood in her throat hand she gasped for breath.
'This is my end' she thought. A tear spilled as she saw Harry kneel down beside her, she saw that he was screaming but she couldn't hear it too well. She smiled warmly to him, trying to show him she still loved him. She saw him turn his head as she fell backwards and shout to someone. She felt a sleepiness overwhelm her as the pain was aching.
It was then he arrived.
'Draco....' she thought. Her heart was screaming of hurt.
He looked at her desperate and hurt. She saw something that made her feel empty; she saw tears in his eyes. He knelt down and whispered something to her that she couldn't hear.
"I thought you loved me." she whispered, heart broken and started to cough, she saw blood.
"I loved you both... But you didn't love." she said weakly, now fading into darkness. Harry and Draco were both crying, both with one of her hands in theirs.
"Me back." she whispered barely and closed her eyes as relief was waiting. She faded away from her misery and faced her death.
*
AN/ I know some people like happy endings but hey I'm not that kind of a person, but I promise, SOME good will happen in the next chapteeeeer. Oh yes there WILL be a next one... but then *sniff* it will probably end.
I kinda ruined the story after the first chapter because I wasn't sure if it would continue. But I LOVE suicidal scenes *grin* all right... Tell me if you are pissed or glad. OR SAD, if someone would be sad it would be just perfect... Oh and there was no need to decide about the SS/HG or DM/HG... And that was kinda the point... *grin*
THANKS TO EVRYONE THAT REVIEWS oh n' that is ELFMAIDEN and BAYER04RULZ, Two persons, but that's already much to me. You guys/girls rock!
~carshaa~