Meaningful: Getting over
By DrUnK oN yOo FaN

*Disclaimer: I do not own these characters.
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As she brought her hand back down from her face, she saw that it was covered in her black running mascara. She didn't want to cry, because she always tried to be so strong, but she couldn't stop the tears from coming. As she walked through the cold streets, at night, the events that occurred not long ago kept replaying in her head.

She felt like she was opening the bathroom door of Mike's place over and over again, and everytime she saw the same thing. Never different. In front of her Mike looked up from making out with that blonde, with red lipstick smeared on his lips. She felt like running again, just like she did at Mike's party.

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'Phoebe!! Wait!!' Mike had managed to catch up to her in the hallway outside his apartment.

Phoebe turned around, face soaked with tears, and looked Mike in the eyes.
'Mike, don't you understand? I'm in love with you. Every night I've cried myself to sleep thinking that you were the one I was supposed to stand at the alter with and say my vows to. Why do you not want the same with me? Tell me why.' Finally she broke down unable to speak, or look Mike in the eye. She realized that she was being selfish and even though she might love him, she can't make him return those feelings, if they're not true.
She looked back up at Mike, and saw his eyes glassy, with a look of pity in them. She was ashamed of herself for wanting somebody so badly.

'Shhh ...Phoebe. Listen...'Mike tried to calm Phoebe down. 'I do love you, and I care about you. And that is why we can't be together. I care for you so much that I want you to be with a better person. Somebody that can walk you down the aisle, and bring that beautiful baby home from the hospital with you. But I would know, Phoebe, that person is not me, and the last thing I want to do is hurt you, so this is for the best.' He waited for her response but it didn't come. 'Phoebe, you are the most beautiful girl I have ever met, on the inside as well as the outside and that's not a lie. You will find that guy, trust me on this.' That was all he could think of to say to her.

Phoebe fought the tears that were falling. 'I'm sorry Mike, I was being selfish. But thank you, I guess, this is for the best.' She paused. 'I thought the hardest part of this would be looking at you and knowing that I couldn't have you, but know thats over with, and I have no clue as to how I'm going to get over you. So this is goodbye, I guess.' It was then that Phoebe would see Mike for the very last time.

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By the time that Phoebe found herself staring at the door of Joey's apartment, she had stopped crying. She figured it was because she literally ran out of tears. She started to compose herself and took out makeup from her purse, to fix the mess that she had become. She didn't want Joey to feel bad for her. She didn't want Joey to see that she was crying. Too many times phoebe had ended up here crying on his shoulder. This had happened too many times, and no matter how much Joey had tried to help, she always found herself in another fucked up relationship. This was the end of that. She needed to get over Mike, and fast. What she needed right now was sex. Sex, had always helped her get over things in the past, but lately she hadn't been in the mood. Phoebe thought she'd give it a try again, so she started to open the door of Joey's apartment. But then she stopped. Joey would never do that. What was she thinking, so she turned around and figured she would just try a local bar. This time of night there were plenty of guys looking for sex.

With her head slumped down, she took a step but found herself in someone's arms.

"Heyy...watch yourself there. You almost took both of us down when you bumped into me."

Phoebe looked up to see Joey's big brown eyes staring down at her. Immediately she hated the fact that Joey saw her like this.

"Oh my god...Pheebs, I'm so sorry..Did you need me, I was just at Chandler and Monica's for a second. Were you out here for long? What happened at Mike's?" Joey shot out questions, so worried for Phoebe, that he didn't give her a chance to respond.

Phoebe's eyes started to tear again, but then she thought quickly. She didn't want to cry to Joey. She wished he would let her go, so she could go find a guy willing to have a one night stand. But Joey wouldn't let her go off in her condition. Her plan was ruined but then Phoebe thought to herself, not necessarily.

She continued to let Joey lead her into his apartment, and allowed herself to cry a little, but this time with a certain mission in her head.

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Chapter 3 coming soon..this is starting to get good...alot more drama!!! Even though Phoebe might seem a little out of character, she gets better, and joey will seem to act a little weird too at times. Other characters will be involved too but in like chapter 4.
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