Title: Living a fantasy
Author: Jashasha
Disclaimer: Disney owns Lizzie McGuire and all it's characters
Notes: This one is from Lizzie's point of view. I'm not sure I got her character right, but I gave it a try ( ***
Oh-mi-God, oh-mi-God, oh-mi-God! I'm meeting Gordo in half an hour. We've seen each other after the kiss(es) and all, but when I called and asked if we could meet and talk, it was fairly obvious what I wanted to talk about. I told him I needed to talk about our friendship. But now, I want to wimp out. I want to call him up and tell him I'm sick, or Mum needs me at home, or anything, just so that I don't have to have this conversation.
See, this conversation could end badly. It could end in awkwardness with Gordo, and I don't want that, or it could end in a relationship with Gordo, and I don't know if I want that, or it could end in my not being friends with Gordo and that's the thing I don't want the most. That's the thing that scares me the most. Not having Gordo. A world without Gordo. That is the single scariest thought in the world, scarier than giant spiders, and snakes, and the characters in the scary horror movies that I idiotically watch, and then have nightmares about.
But, do I want a relationship with Gordo? I mean, he's totally sweet, and smart, and despite what he thinks, he is really cute, but. do I feel that way. I know I feel different than I did when I was with any other guy, even Ethan or Ronnie or whatever, but is that different just friendship different or what? I know I kissed him, twice, and there has to be a reason for that. The kisses were little, simple, once on the cheek, and once on the mouth, but they were very important. I'm smart enough to know that.
No matter how much we avoid the subject, no matter how many times we ignore any tension, it still happened. Maybe we can just go back to being friends if we do ignore them? Like, when we meet in twenty minutes (oh jeez!) I could just tell him that I don't want that kind of relationship, and he'll agree, and we'll go back to being Just Friends.
Why is there always a JUST in front of that word anyways? Isn't being friends enough? It's worked for me and Gordo so far. We've been good friends, part of the three amigos. Lizzie, Gordo and Miranda, all friends, nothing more, because we don't need anything more.
And what would Miranda think anyway? She'd feel abandoned, that's what. We would no longer be this really tight group of friends, because two of them would have something the other didn't. And she would hate that. I can't be in a relationship with Gordo because Miranda is my other best friend and I can't leave her out. She'd have nobody to turn to. I'll just stick to the other guys who aren't Gordo, and Gordo will find another nice girl who he can date. And we'll all be just (there's that word again) friends.
Only. Gordo with another girl. Gordo kissing another girl. somebody who isn't me. Taking her on dates, and helping her out, and comforting her when she's been hurt, and taking her to Prom. I don't think I like the idea of that. Why does that have to happen? Why can't Gordo like me??!! Oh wait. He does. At least, I think he does.
And I think. and I'm very scared to admit this, even to myself, that I like him. I think those kisses mean that I'm through with all those other guys who weren't as nice, or as smart, or as funny. I'm through with all those other guys who weren't Gordo. Maybe we could have something nice, and it does seem as if he likes me. And I'm really beginning to think I like him. And what if we did ignore the kisses, and he found somebody else. I don't want to wait until it's too late to do something.
But what if Kate lied. Maybe Gordo doesn't like me! Maybe, he's just awkward about those kisses, and he wants to tell me he just wants to be friends. I mean, I'M the one who kissed him, twice, and he didn't do anything about it. Sure, he's smiling in the class photo, but that could be embarrassment. He said THANKS. I kissed him and he said thanks. If he liked me that much, he wouldn't have just said thanks, he would have told me!
Well, that's just stupid, we could have a really good thing here, and he's just ignoring it and wanting to be friends with me! Not going to happen buster! I'm going to tell you how it's going to be, and we're going to try this out and its' going to be good, and you WILL like me. And that's final! ***
Thanks to my reviews, they were really sweet, and please review this chapter. The next part is going to be in third person, when they meet up, and then I just might do a Miranda part, when she 'gets back from Mexico.' It all depends on how the next part works out.
I was also hoping to find a beta reader for this story and any other Lizzie stories. I'd like anybody who is good with English, and has a fair knowledge of the show, for fact checking reasons. Just e-mail me about it if you can.
Author: Jashasha
Disclaimer: Disney owns Lizzie McGuire and all it's characters
Notes: This one is from Lizzie's point of view. I'm not sure I got her character right, but I gave it a try ( ***
Oh-mi-God, oh-mi-God, oh-mi-God! I'm meeting Gordo in half an hour. We've seen each other after the kiss(es) and all, but when I called and asked if we could meet and talk, it was fairly obvious what I wanted to talk about. I told him I needed to talk about our friendship. But now, I want to wimp out. I want to call him up and tell him I'm sick, or Mum needs me at home, or anything, just so that I don't have to have this conversation.
See, this conversation could end badly. It could end in awkwardness with Gordo, and I don't want that, or it could end in a relationship with Gordo, and I don't know if I want that, or it could end in my not being friends with Gordo and that's the thing I don't want the most. That's the thing that scares me the most. Not having Gordo. A world without Gordo. That is the single scariest thought in the world, scarier than giant spiders, and snakes, and the characters in the scary horror movies that I idiotically watch, and then have nightmares about.
But, do I want a relationship with Gordo? I mean, he's totally sweet, and smart, and despite what he thinks, he is really cute, but. do I feel that way. I know I feel different than I did when I was with any other guy, even Ethan or Ronnie or whatever, but is that different just friendship different or what? I know I kissed him, twice, and there has to be a reason for that. The kisses were little, simple, once on the cheek, and once on the mouth, but they were very important. I'm smart enough to know that.
No matter how much we avoid the subject, no matter how many times we ignore any tension, it still happened. Maybe we can just go back to being friends if we do ignore them? Like, when we meet in twenty minutes (oh jeez!) I could just tell him that I don't want that kind of relationship, and he'll agree, and we'll go back to being Just Friends.
Why is there always a JUST in front of that word anyways? Isn't being friends enough? It's worked for me and Gordo so far. We've been good friends, part of the three amigos. Lizzie, Gordo and Miranda, all friends, nothing more, because we don't need anything more.
And what would Miranda think anyway? She'd feel abandoned, that's what. We would no longer be this really tight group of friends, because two of them would have something the other didn't. And she would hate that. I can't be in a relationship with Gordo because Miranda is my other best friend and I can't leave her out. She'd have nobody to turn to. I'll just stick to the other guys who aren't Gordo, and Gordo will find another nice girl who he can date. And we'll all be just (there's that word again) friends.
Only. Gordo with another girl. Gordo kissing another girl. somebody who isn't me. Taking her on dates, and helping her out, and comforting her when she's been hurt, and taking her to Prom. I don't think I like the idea of that. Why does that have to happen? Why can't Gordo like me??!! Oh wait. He does. At least, I think he does.
And I think. and I'm very scared to admit this, even to myself, that I like him. I think those kisses mean that I'm through with all those other guys who weren't as nice, or as smart, or as funny. I'm through with all those other guys who weren't Gordo. Maybe we could have something nice, and it does seem as if he likes me. And I'm really beginning to think I like him. And what if we did ignore the kisses, and he found somebody else. I don't want to wait until it's too late to do something.
But what if Kate lied. Maybe Gordo doesn't like me! Maybe, he's just awkward about those kisses, and he wants to tell me he just wants to be friends. I mean, I'M the one who kissed him, twice, and he didn't do anything about it. Sure, he's smiling in the class photo, but that could be embarrassment. He said THANKS. I kissed him and he said thanks. If he liked me that much, he wouldn't have just said thanks, he would have told me!
Well, that's just stupid, we could have a really good thing here, and he's just ignoring it and wanting to be friends with me! Not going to happen buster! I'm going to tell you how it's going to be, and we're going to try this out and its' going to be good, and you WILL like me. And that's final! ***
Thanks to my reviews, they were really sweet, and please review this chapter. The next part is going to be in third person, when they meet up, and then I just might do a Miranda part, when she 'gets back from Mexico.' It all depends on how the next part works out.
I was also hoping to find a beta reader for this story and any other Lizzie stories. I'd like anybody who is good with English, and has a fair knowledge of the show, for fact checking reasons. Just e-mail me about it if you can.