Amour Jury
I cannot snap the stings I'm bound by

You'll never know
what it was like for me as I held you close and cried til I was free.
You'll never know
the way I looked at you when you weren't looking, when you turned away.
Don't turn away. I can feel my heart breaking.
Shattered like dreams that you used to have.
Why can't we laugh, the way we did when we were younger,
picking flowers for our mothers,
staying up all night, giggling, proud of the hour we'd never before seen.
What are we proud of now?
What do we have that's worth giving a smile?
The world doesn't need my smiles. I owe the world nothing.
I owe your memory nothing,
but I feel like I have to give you something...
Didn't I steal something away from you, don't I have to replace it?

Your smile is poison.
But the poison is also a release.
Let me kiss you.
Let me be released.
You tug on the strings that bind my hands, smile, and I'm a little puppet again.
I'd do it if you'd say the word,
but you don't
because you're afraid I'd break loose if I moved.
You'd rather have a doll that sits on its display gathering dust, than one that you played with.
But, don't you know? You're playing with me by sitting there.
Innocence is poison.
But you're not innocent, like you used to be.
So why am I dying inside?
Why are you killing me?

I'll never know.