Disclaimer: See the first chapter.

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Truth and Lies

Abby's POV

I'm finally home after talking with Carter. Krista and Caleb are asleep on the couch and Susan is sitting at the kitchen table reading something.

"Hey, I'm home," I call as I walk over to the kitchen, "How was Caleb?"

"Good, as usual. How was your talk with Carter?" The one question I didn't want to answer, I get asked. I did know it was coming though, this is Susan.

"It was, um, well, it sucked." I might as well be honest with her, "I just didn't know what to say to him, I mean what can you say?" I sit down in a chair at the kitchen table.

"The truth. Did you tell him everything?"

"Basically, except," I pause, "I kind of told him that Caleb was Luka's son." Susan stares at me in shock.

"Why?" Once again, I really hate that question.

"I don't know I just, I didn't want him to think that he had to be around me."

"What about Caleb? Doesn't he deserve to know his dad?" Of course Caleb deserves to know his dad, and his dad deserves to know him, I don't know why I do the things I do. Why do I mess everything up?

"Yeah but… I don't know, it's getting late and I have a lot to do tomorrow. Thanks for watching Caleb for me."

Susan gets up and starts to gather her things, she stops to look at me, "Abby, you can't avoid this forever, you need to tell him." I ignore her for the time being. This is too much for me to handle right now.

"I'll call you tomorrow," Susan says as she carries Krista to the door. "Bye," She calls right as the leaves.

I pick up Caleb and put him in bed. I watch him sleep for a few minutes, he looks so much like his dad, especially when he sleeps. Why did I lie about it? I still can't find a answer. I want so much to go tell him and have him tell me everything would be alright, but that's not going to happen. So much for a fresh start and making everything right. I've already succeed in messing things up, but I won't run this time. I can't do that to Caleb or Carter. I have to fix things and I will, even if it means not being with Carter

I don't want to do this, I don't want to live without Carter, but I've already caused so much hurt for him. I don't want to do that again. He's better off without me, I can live without him. I just have to keep telling myself that, but as corny as it sounds, I don't think I can live without him. All I thought about when I was gone was him, but I just can't hurt him again.

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A/N: Sorry it's been so long! I've gotten so busy this summer, hopefully I'll be able to update once a week now. No promises though, as always reviews help motivate me! Thanks for reading!

~Alli