Hmm..I'm thinking this could also be rated for angst perhaps? Hehe.
Anywho, thanks to those who have reviewed for my fic so far! Much
happiness! I won't be here for the next 3 days so this is my last
update till Monday or Tuesday. But I will work on my story even though
I can't update it!
Disclaimer..I don't own anything. Nothing!
"speaking"
My eyes flutter open to see sunlight pouring in through the slightly cracked window. I hate the sunlight, it reminds me of your eyes. I throw the covers over my head to sheild my face from the sunshine.
My dream was the one I always have. The one where you come back and say you are sorry and say how you regreted leaving our team. I would be mad at you Rei, but then I see those eyes and melt. You wrap me in your arms and kiss me. It is genlte and soft, and right when I try to tell you I love you...I wake up.
That's how it always ends. There is never any happy endings, I have found that out the hard way. I thought we would grow up together and fall in love like in the movies. But when you left our team..I knew there was no happy ending for my movie. I died inside, and I need you to ressurect me. Only your love will do..only your love.
Lee pounds on the door, distracting me from my sorrow and thoughts. "Mariah it's time to get up!" He shouts. This is the same routine every morning. He yells outside my door and I ignore him. I turn my face to the wall and hope that he dissapears. Yet he never does. He pounds on the door and then just throws the door open and looks at my form in a heap on the bed.
Ever since you left,Rei..Lee had began to change. He became dominant and vicious. I think he is trying to become a better captain than you were. He will never succeed though, he is rough and violent. I need someone gentle and kind, and here I find no comfort.
Lee looks down at me, his eyes don't hold pity or sympathy. I see a fire in them, and rage. His eyes are not like yours, they are dark and angry. How I long to look in your eyes, but I can only see them in my memories.
Lee throws the covers off my bed and I look up at him in anger. What right does he have to march in here and tell me what to do? I glare at him and tell him to get out, just like every morning,but he snorts and pulls me up by the arm.
Today this morning is no different. He pulls me up harshly and narrows his eyes. "Get changed and be downstairs in five minutes" he whispers into my ear. I would be scared of him if I haven't known him for so long.
And then..then..he does the very thing I want to kill him for. He pushes me up against the wall of my room and presses those cold lips of his to my mouth. His kiss is as icy as his eyes. He uses his tongue to pry my mouth open, and when he does, he thrusts his tongue inside. He snakes his arm around my hips and I struggle to break free. He is stronger than me, and pushing him away is impossible.
He traps me and presses his body against mine. I am stuck between the wall and his muscular frame. I whimper and try to push him away again, but this time he pushes into me tighter. My lungs are on fire and I want to cry. My mind is screaming at me to push him away.
Just when I don't think I can take anymore, he pulls away and lets me drop to the floor. He glances at the clock and smirks. "You have all but 3 mintues to get yourself downstairs." Then he winks at me and leaves me and walks out the door.
I pound on the floor angrily. I hate him, I hate him! I want to scream until I die. I hate how my mind says one thing...and my body reacts another way. I hate how my body tingles when he kisses me. I hate how my heart beats faster and faster. I hate him, but I think..I hate myself more.
Rei you will never understand what it's like to be trapped and can't find a way out. Although I guess you must of had to if you left us.
I hurry to dress myself, knowing that if I am late, Lee will punish me. His punishments are always the same. He comes into my room at night and gives me those kisses. Those kisses that make my want to throw up. I want to throw up, but my body doesn't. I think my body betrayed me because it enjoys those kisses. I pretend it is you, Rei, that kisses me. I try to fool my mind that way..but I'm not stupid.
I thump down the stairs and see my team in the kitchen. Lee glances up from his food and gives me a smile. A smile I can only see, a smile only I can shudder at. He knows he has control over me and he is right. I am to weak to care. There is nothing left for me to do but wait for you. You have to save me from this place. It is empty and holds nothing for me.
Kevin and Gary don't see anything. They don't know anything, they can't see my tears. They are oblivious to how I feel. And you know what? I hate them too. I hate them from not seeing what Lee does to me. I hate them from not stopping you from leaving. And I hate myself from hating them.
Lee clears his throat and looks at me. He looks at me with those lust filled eyes. It sends a shiver down my spine and I look away. This is the reaction he wants. Why do I give in to this game he plays?
"Practice" he says. That's all he has to say. Everyone has learned to obey him and not argue. We all walk outside and wait for him to join us. I can't remember the last time we laughed and had fun. Ever since you left, Lee took his anger out on us. We are no longer a team..but a prisoner to his anger.
He moves slowly in his cat like manner. He does this to bother me, I know it. He takes his time and then approaces slowly and glares at us. "What are you waiting for?" he asks.
Every time it is always Kevin and Gary who go first. Lee stands slightly behind me and runs just one finger up and down my arm. He stands at the right angle so Kevin and Gary don't see. He drvies me insane doing that, but I can't do anything about it. He knows that and just laughes. I don't understand how he could just stand there and laugh.
When practice is over, I race up into the bathroom. I turn on the shower and tear away my clothes. I said I don't shed any more tears for you, Rei. And I don't..I shed tears for myself. I shed tears of hatred for Lee. I know Lee at least won't come into the bathroom. I am safe in here and I wish I didn't ever have to leave.
My vision is blurred and my head is pounding but this is the only peace I know. I don't have to look at Lee until dinner. But time does not stand still, and before I know it. I am met with those eyes again. Those eyes I want to rip out and never look at again. Why couldn't he have your eyes Rei? Why couldn't he be you..?
Well I hope you all liked that chapter! There might be a few spelling errors and I apologize for them. I must type quickly for I have to get off the compy. Please tell me how you like it so far, and I will try updating as soon as possible. Tootles till Tuesday-
~Kuro Sora~
Disclaimer..I don't own anything. Nothing!
"speaking"
My eyes flutter open to see sunlight pouring in through the slightly cracked window. I hate the sunlight, it reminds me of your eyes. I throw the covers over my head to sheild my face from the sunshine.
My dream was the one I always have. The one where you come back and say you are sorry and say how you regreted leaving our team. I would be mad at you Rei, but then I see those eyes and melt. You wrap me in your arms and kiss me. It is genlte and soft, and right when I try to tell you I love you...I wake up.
That's how it always ends. There is never any happy endings, I have found that out the hard way. I thought we would grow up together and fall in love like in the movies. But when you left our team..I knew there was no happy ending for my movie. I died inside, and I need you to ressurect me. Only your love will do..only your love.
Lee pounds on the door, distracting me from my sorrow and thoughts. "Mariah it's time to get up!" He shouts. This is the same routine every morning. He yells outside my door and I ignore him. I turn my face to the wall and hope that he dissapears. Yet he never does. He pounds on the door and then just throws the door open and looks at my form in a heap on the bed.
Ever since you left,Rei..Lee had began to change. He became dominant and vicious. I think he is trying to become a better captain than you were. He will never succeed though, he is rough and violent. I need someone gentle and kind, and here I find no comfort.
Lee looks down at me, his eyes don't hold pity or sympathy. I see a fire in them, and rage. His eyes are not like yours, they are dark and angry. How I long to look in your eyes, but I can only see them in my memories.
Lee throws the covers off my bed and I look up at him in anger. What right does he have to march in here and tell me what to do? I glare at him and tell him to get out, just like every morning,but he snorts and pulls me up by the arm.
Today this morning is no different. He pulls me up harshly and narrows his eyes. "Get changed and be downstairs in five minutes" he whispers into my ear. I would be scared of him if I haven't known him for so long.
And then..then..he does the very thing I want to kill him for. He pushes me up against the wall of my room and presses those cold lips of his to my mouth. His kiss is as icy as his eyes. He uses his tongue to pry my mouth open, and when he does, he thrusts his tongue inside. He snakes his arm around my hips and I struggle to break free. He is stronger than me, and pushing him away is impossible.
He traps me and presses his body against mine. I am stuck between the wall and his muscular frame. I whimper and try to push him away again, but this time he pushes into me tighter. My lungs are on fire and I want to cry. My mind is screaming at me to push him away.
Just when I don't think I can take anymore, he pulls away and lets me drop to the floor. He glances at the clock and smirks. "You have all but 3 mintues to get yourself downstairs." Then he winks at me and leaves me and walks out the door.
I pound on the floor angrily. I hate him, I hate him! I want to scream until I die. I hate how my mind says one thing...and my body reacts another way. I hate how my body tingles when he kisses me. I hate how my heart beats faster and faster. I hate him, but I think..I hate myself more.
Rei you will never understand what it's like to be trapped and can't find a way out. Although I guess you must of had to if you left us.
I hurry to dress myself, knowing that if I am late, Lee will punish me. His punishments are always the same. He comes into my room at night and gives me those kisses. Those kisses that make my want to throw up. I want to throw up, but my body doesn't. I think my body betrayed me because it enjoys those kisses. I pretend it is you, Rei, that kisses me. I try to fool my mind that way..but I'm not stupid.
I thump down the stairs and see my team in the kitchen. Lee glances up from his food and gives me a smile. A smile I can only see, a smile only I can shudder at. He knows he has control over me and he is right. I am to weak to care. There is nothing left for me to do but wait for you. You have to save me from this place. It is empty and holds nothing for me.
Kevin and Gary don't see anything. They don't know anything, they can't see my tears. They are oblivious to how I feel. And you know what? I hate them too. I hate them from not seeing what Lee does to me. I hate them from not stopping you from leaving. And I hate myself from hating them.
Lee clears his throat and looks at me. He looks at me with those lust filled eyes. It sends a shiver down my spine and I look away. This is the reaction he wants. Why do I give in to this game he plays?
"Practice" he says. That's all he has to say. Everyone has learned to obey him and not argue. We all walk outside and wait for him to join us. I can't remember the last time we laughed and had fun. Ever since you left, Lee took his anger out on us. We are no longer a team..but a prisoner to his anger.
He moves slowly in his cat like manner. He does this to bother me, I know it. He takes his time and then approaces slowly and glares at us. "What are you waiting for?" he asks.
Every time it is always Kevin and Gary who go first. Lee stands slightly behind me and runs just one finger up and down my arm. He stands at the right angle so Kevin and Gary don't see. He drvies me insane doing that, but I can't do anything about it. He knows that and just laughes. I don't understand how he could just stand there and laugh.
When practice is over, I race up into the bathroom. I turn on the shower and tear away my clothes. I said I don't shed any more tears for you, Rei. And I don't..I shed tears for myself. I shed tears of hatred for Lee. I know Lee at least won't come into the bathroom. I am safe in here and I wish I didn't ever have to leave.
My vision is blurred and my head is pounding but this is the only peace I know. I don't have to look at Lee until dinner. But time does not stand still, and before I know it. I am met with those eyes again. Those eyes I want to rip out and never look at again. Why couldn't he have your eyes Rei? Why couldn't he be you..?
Well I hope you all liked that chapter! There might be a few spelling errors and I apologize for them. I must type quickly for I have to get off the compy. Please tell me how you like it so far, and I will try updating as soon as possible. Tootles till Tuesday-
~Kuro Sora~