A/N: this chapter goes into more detail about Sara's past.
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Sara took a deep breath and started,
"When I was 18 I was excepted to Harvard, but since my parents owned a B&B, had my brother's collage to pay for and no other source of income, the chances of me going to Harvard were very unlikely. That's when I got, what seemed at the moment to be a perfect solution, an offer to work with the C.I.A. My training would take up most of my spare time but I would get the chance to go to Harvard. They explained a little of what I would be doing. I was young and egger, I glorified it. I thought I'd be making a difference, I would be saving lives, I never took into account how many I would take. Any way my train went smoother then anticipated, I was a natural, they should me how to do something once, and I memorized it, eventually I craved learning more. I was the ideal little agent, I aimed to please, I became too good too fast, they increased my field and political operations, they discovered I could turn minds, I was convincing, but I also made a lot of enemies, 11 years ago, a man, Michael, popped up on our radar, at this time I was high up in the chain of command, we didn't know Michael was a natural. I had just finished Harvard, when Center believed he was a double agent, oh, I guess I should explain Center, the American Intelligence community is built on 13 sections, although the C.I.A. is an independent agency, they are watched over, by 3 groups, they make up the Center, well anyway, the reason he was believed to be a double agent was he was able to escape a mission gone dark, with full success of the mission. A mission goes dark, or cold, when the probability of success drops under 7%, for anyone to survive that it's amazing, and he had only been in for 1 1/2 years and that caused suspicions. At the moment I couldn't go out in the field, since I had made a enemy of a very dangerous man who wanted me dead, I can't tell you who he is so we'll just call him "the man", O.K, so they assigned me to get close to Michael, to make sure he was loyal. A thing you need to understand about the intelligence world, it moves very fast, everything's always changing, so you learn to move fast too, it created a very exciting life style. We had been together for 2 months when he proposed, I had fallen in love with him, and so I accepted. 10 years ago "the man" found out about Michael and set a trap on a mission Michael had been sent on, knowing I'd come to save him when we found out. At that point we knew Michael was loyal, and we had found out he was going into a trap, but it was too late to abort, so I wanted to go, but I was too valuable, so they ordered me not to go, I disobeyed orders, me and my partner Emma went any way. I was able to get a helicopter and it was on the roof, I was standing there looking at Michael, he had no clue what I did, I had never told him, even after I had lied to him, he still wanted me too come, but I couldn't for a reason I cant tell you, I realized something that day, I barley knew anything about my self, I had spent most of my life learning this about others but I never took the time to learn about myself, plus the marriage wasn't really legal (adpi24- you were the only reader who noticed that), though emotionally, it was, I also knew if I stayed just more people would be out too kill him, and I loved him too much let him get hurt anymore, because of me."
"So you let him go," Nick said, finally understanding.
Sara nodded
"Why did that guy..."
"Alec" Sara said
"Yeah, why did that guy Alec call you Mackenzie" Nick asked.
"It was my Alias, since I was high in the command chain, when people needed me for a brief they would call and ask for Mackenzie, then if my line was tapped I'd have my order to come in and they wouldn't know it." Sara stated.
"Oh" Nick said, processing everything he had just learned.
There was a pause.
"They want me back" she said.
Nick looked at her in shock, " what" he said.
" For one mission, I think I'm going to do it" she said.
Nick sat silently, he moved his hand over hers and squeezed.
She smiled
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Sara walked into Michael's hospital room. The three men sat talking, they turned to look at her when she came in.
"It looks like I'm back in black" she smirked.
Frank nodded.
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A/N Sara's hair is longer then it is in the show, it falls just on her shoulder blades.
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Sara took a deep breath and started,
"When I was 18 I was excepted to Harvard, but since my parents owned a B&B, had my brother's collage to pay for and no other source of income, the chances of me going to Harvard were very unlikely. That's when I got, what seemed at the moment to be a perfect solution, an offer to work with the C.I.A. My training would take up most of my spare time but I would get the chance to go to Harvard. They explained a little of what I would be doing. I was young and egger, I glorified it. I thought I'd be making a difference, I would be saving lives, I never took into account how many I would take. Any way my train went smoother then anticipated, I was a natural, they should me how to do something once, and I memorized it, eventually I craved learning more. I was the ideal little agent, I aimed to please, I became too good too fast, they increased my field and political operations, they discovered I could turn minds, I was convincing, but I also made a lot of enemies, 11 years ago, a man, Michael, popped up on our radar, at this time I was high up in the chain of command, we didn't know Michael was a natural. I had just finished Harvard, when Center believed he was a double agent, oh, I guess I should explain Center, the American Intelligence community is built on 13 sections, although the C.I.A. is an independent agency, they are watched over, by 3 groups, they make up the Center, well anyway, the reason he was believed to be a double agent was he was able to escape a mission gone dark, with full success of the mission. A mission goes dark, or cold, when the probability of success drops under 7%, for anyone to survive that it's amazing, and he had only been in for 1 1/2 years and that caused suspicions. At the moment I couldn't go out in the field, since I had made a enemy of a very dangerous man who wanted me dead, I can't tell you who he is so we'll just call him "the man", O.K, so they assigned me to get close to Michael, to make sure he was loyal. A thing you need to understand about the intelligence world, it moves very fast, everything's always changing, so you learn to move fast too, it created a very exciting life style. We had been together for 2 months when he proposed, I had fallen in love with him, and so I accepted. 10 years ago "the man" found out about Michael and set a trap on a mission Michael had been sent on, knowing I'd come to save him when we found out. At that point we knew Michael was loyal, and we had found out he was going into a trap, but it was too late to abort, so I wanted to go, but I was too valuable, so they ordered me not to go, I disobeyed orders, me and my partner Emma went any way. I was able to get a helicopter and it was on the roof, I was standing there looking at Michael, he had no clue what I did, I had never told him, even after I had lied to him, he still wanted me too come, but I couldn't for a reason I cant tell you, I realized something that day, I barley knew anything about my self, I had spent most of my life learning this about others but I never took the time to learn about myself, plus the marriage wasn't really legal (adpi24- you were the only reader who noticed that), though emotionally, it was, I also knew if I stayed just more people would be out too kill him, and I loved him too much let him get hurt anymore, because of me."
"So you let him go," Nick said, finally understanding.
Sara nodded
"Why did that guy..."
"Alec" Sara said
"Yeah, why did that guy Alec call you Mackenzie" Nick asked.
"It was my Alias, since I was high in the command chain, when people needed me for a brief they would call and ask for Mackenzie, then if my line was tapped I'd have my order to come in and they wouldn't know it." Sara stated.
"Oh" Nick said, processing everything he had just learned.
There was a pause.
"They want me back" she said.
Nick looked at her in shock, " what" he said.
" For one mission, I think I'm going to do it" she said.
Nick sat silently, he moved his hand over hers and squeezed.
She smiled
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Sara walked into Michael's hospital room. The three men sat talking, they turned to look at her when she came in.
"It looks like I'm back in black" she smirked.
Frank nodded.
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A/N Sara's hair is longer then it is in the show, it falls just on her shoulder blades.