First of all, I am SO SORRY that this took so long to update! I got...preoccupied with trying to raise my grades to satisfactory levels before the nine weeks grades were shipped to my humble abode. Ok, dedications time!
Twin Star of Suzaku: Yay! You like it! Nice pen name, by the way! ^-^
ArtemisMoon: I'm glad that you think it has potential for humorous romance (the best kind). Hahahaha! At least I know I'm not the only one with a memory as good as...well...NOT good...
kiki: Yes, you did review, and see? I'm writing more! ^_^
Inuyasha-loves-Kagome: No, I haven't figured out if there's another like it. I wish there was so that I could read it! Thank you for liking this fic!
Kodokuchan: Even longer chapters? Ok, I'll try! I'm glad that you want to read it all! ^_^
Lyn/Lin: Thanks! You're so nice!
Julia-Tears: Ah, you bring up a good point. Yes, that would get ugly. But remember, this is my NICE fic! It's the counter to "What's a hanyou to do?" so I don't think it will get ugly anytime soon!
zel no miko: Eek! *hides* No torture! WAH! *writing like a maniac* Ok, here ya go! Glad ya like it! ^_~
Mysticnight: Well, your waiting is passed! Here's the next chapter!
Naatz: Yes, I forced myself to write a loooong chapter! Hahaha! Yes, thinking he is...*puts a 'shhh Inu's thinking' sign up* Thank you for always being so supportive!
Disclaimer: Let's see...*whips out a list* I own...my food, my paper, my--*looks down the list* but no Inuyasha...
The Wish to Break All
Chapter 4
Inuyasha contemplated ways of getting Kagome's memory back. He could...no. Or maybe...no...He didn't want to ask Kaede-babaa because she'd only scold him for hurting Kagome in the first place. But he did want her memory back as quickly as possible. Now that he could finally be with her in peace, she had to go and lose her damned memory. But, she didn't lose it, per se. She kind of-
"Inuyasha!" Shippou called from the base of the tree.
"What, brat? I'm thinking, dammit." Inuyasha responded irritably.
"It's Kagome. She wants to talk to you about something...alone." The little fox placed a certain emphasis on the last word that implied something...wrong. Inuyasha leapt from the tree and pummeled Shippou.
"You've been with Miroku too long." And he went to find Kagome.
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"Really, Kagome-chan! We'll help you get your memory back." Sango assured Kagome as she patted her on the shoulder. After a few seconds of silence, she asked, "You do want to remember, right? Cause if you don't, you don't have to."
"Of course I want to remember! Everything. I was stupid to wish otherwise. Unless..." Kagome trailed off, becoming lost in her thoughts. What if she had been thinking clearly when she'd wished? What if...what if--
"Kagome-chan? Are you ok?"
"Did he hurt me, Sango-chan? Did Inuyasha hurt me?" She had to know. She had this weird feeling that that was why she'd wished in the first place, because she was hurting.
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'I haven't stopped thinking about you!' She didn't know what to think. He did still love Kikyou...but, what about when Inuyasha had said that he wanted Kagome near him?
Kikyou kissed him...
'Am I just a replacement for Kikyou?' She had to know. She'd been walking in circles for days, and he was finally talking to her like a civilized person.
'You're you, to me...'
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So he had hurt her worse than any physical punishment. He had broken her heart. Multiple times, she guessed. One time wouldn't have fazed Kagome that drastically. But he had also had a way of making up for it. Kagome had a feeling that his nicer moments were few and far between, and that she wasn't remembering enough. She had to remember, she had to know. It was worth it to feel that immense pain again, if it meant that she could know why she hurt.
"Oi! Kagome!" Inuyasha's hand waved in her face snapped her suddenly from her thoughts.
"Hm? What? Sorry..." She twiddled her thumbs and looked at her knees.
"Are you remembering?" Kagome looked up and was surprised to see that he actually seemed genuinely concerned. But why was she surprised?
"Uh, yeah, a little." She smiled reassuringly and patted the ground beside her. He obediently sat before she could offer verbally. "So, tell me about life."
"What?"
"You know, before I lost my memory. What was it like?" She leaned against the tree trunk, and Inuyasha began his narrative.
"Um...we traveled a lot, and Miroku was always a fucking pervert--"
"Who's Miroku?" She asked, earning herself an odd look from Inuyasha. Wait...where had Sango-chan gone?
"He's helping Kaede-babaa with a sick woman or something."
"Oh. Ok, go on." Inuyasha leaned against the trunk before complying.
"I--we fought a lot of demons, and that fucker Naraku...we kicked his ass. You ran home all the damned time, and--" He stopped suddenly when Kagome leaned her head against his shoulder. For some reason, she found it easier to remember things completely when she was closer to him.
~
He couldn't believe it. He mentally thanked Sango for leaving upon his arrival. He didn't want anyone seeing, after all. Then, he caught himself mentally thanking Sango, and stopped. Now, what was his plan again? 'Damn...' He tried to remember, but he couldn't. 'All that thought for nothing!' He fought his initial urge to sulk, and decided to throw a little extra flavor into his story.
"It really hurt us all when you left like that. This last time, I mean." He didn't have to try hard to sound convincingly hurt. When he sensed she was listening to him, he went on. "Most of your memories involving Kikyou are misunderstood."
"How do I know you're not lying to--"
"Shut the hell up!" Inuyasha gruffed sternly as he trapped Kagome against the tree between his arms. "You're going to listen to me." His sudden aggressiveness surprised even him.
"O-okay..." Kagome nodded, and Inuyasha gathered his courage and attempted to shake loose his pride all at once.
"I owed Kikyou...because of what happened. I was obligated to her, I felt guilty. Dammit, Kagome! I was never obligated to you! I-I..." He couldn't say it. He'd thought about it, he'd practiced, he'd done everything he could to prepare himself…He was jolted from his thoughts when he felt soft skin touch the flesh of his cheek.
"It's ok." She assured him. "I'm sure I'll remember." He took her hand away from his face.
"No. This you won't remember. You never knew." Inuyasha desperately tried to salvage what was left of his composition and nerve to deliver the dreaded--yet so longed for--three words.
"Inuyasha..." Kagome grabbed his face in her tiny hands and moved his face till they were almost nose to nose. "Whatever it is, I need to hear it." Inuyasha tried valiantly to gather a coherent sentence into formation and vocalize it, but he found it near impossible due to their close proximity.
"Kagome, I..."
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Ok, ok, so sue me, I gave you a cliffhanger to chew on while I'm typing up the next chapter (which, by the way, should come much sooner than this one). ^_^ Once again, I'm so so so so sorry that I haven't typed this sooner. Not many chapters to go! I'd say one or two left. Bwahaha I honestly didn't expect this many reviews, keep it up, it makes me feel all warm and full inside! Wait...could that be the pizza??? O.o;;; Hehe who knows? Love you all (in that lovely platonic internet relationship-ish type way! ^-^)!!!
Twin Star of Suzaku: Yay! You like it! Nice pen name, by the way! ^-^
ArtemisMoon: I'm glad that you think it has potential for humorous romance (the best kind). Hahahaha! At least I know I'm not the only one with a memory as good as...well...NOT good...
kiki: Yes, you did review, and see? I'm writing more! ^_^
Inuyasha-loves-Kagome: No, I haven't figured out if there's another like it. I wish there was so that I could read it! Thank you for liking this fic!
Kodokuchan: Even longer chapters? Ok, I'll try! I'm glad that you want to read it all! ^_^
Lyn/Lin: Thanks! You're so nice!
Julia-Tears: Ah, you bring up a good point. Yes, that would get ugly. But remember, this is my NICE fic! It's the counter to "What's a hanyou to do?" so I don't think it will get ugly anytime soon!
zel no miko: Eek! *hides* No torture! WAH! *writing like a maniac* Ok, here ya go! Glad ya like it! ^_~
Mysticnight: Well, your waiting is passed! Here's the next chapter!
Naatz: Yes, I forced myself to write a loooong chapter! Hahaha! Yes, thinking he is...*puts a 'shhh Inu's thinking' sign up* Thank you for always being so supportive!
Disclaimer: Let's see...*whips out a list* I own...my food, my paper, my--*looks down the list* but no Inuyasha...
The Wish to Break All
Chapter 4
Inuyasha contemplated ways of getting Kagome's memory back. He could...no. Or maybe...no...He didn't want to ask Kaede-babaa because she'd only scold him for hurting Kagome in the first place. But he did want her memory back as quickly as possible. Now that he could finally be with her in peace, she had to go and lose her damned memory. But, she didn't lose it, per se. She kind of-
"Inuyasha!" Shippou called from the base of the tree.
"What, brat? I'm thinking, dammit." Inuyasha responded irritably.
"It's Kagome. She wants to talk to you about something...alone." The little fox placed a certain emphasis on the last word that implied something...wrong. Inuyasha leapt from the tree and pummeled Shippou.
"You've been with Miroku too long." And he went to find Kagome.
~
"Really, Kagome-chan! We'll help you get your memory back." Sango assured Kagome as she patted her on the shoulder. After a few seconds of silence, she asked, "You do want to remember, right? Cause if you don't, you don't have to."
"Of course I want to remember! Everything. I was stupid to wish otherwise. Unless..." Kagome trailed off, becoming lost in her thoughts. What if she had been thinking clearly when she'd wished? What if...what if--
"Kagome-chan? Are you ok?"
"Did he hurt me, Sango-chan? Did Inuyasha hurt me?" She had to know. She had this weird feeling that that was why she'd wished in the first place, because she was hurting.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
'I haven't stopped thinking about you!' She didn't know what to think. He did still love Kikyou...but, what about when Inuyasha had said that he wanted Kagome near him?
Kikyou kissed him...
'Am I just a replacement for Kikyou?' She had to know. She'd been walking in circles for days, and he was finally talking to her like a civilized person.
'You're you, to me...'
~~~~~~~~~~~~
So he had hurt her worse than any physical punishment. He had broken her heart. Multiple times, she guessed. One time wouldn't have fazed Kagome that drastically. But he had also had a way of making up for it. Kagome had a feeling that his nicer moments were few and far between, and that she wasn't remembering enough. She had to remember, she had to know. It was worth it to feel that immense pain again, if it meant that she could know why she hurt.
"Oi! Kagome!" Inuyasha's hand waved in her face snapped her suddenly from her thoughts.
"Hm? What? Sorry..." She twiddled her thumbs and looked at her knees.
"Are you remembering?" Kagome looked up and was surprised to see that he actually seemed genuinely concerned. But why was she surprised?
"Uh, yeah, a little." She smiled reassuringly and patted the ground beside her. He obediently sat before she could offer verbally. "So, tell me about life."
"What?"
"You know, before I lost my memory. What was it like?" She leaned against the tree trunk, and Inuyasha began his narrative.
"Um...we traveled a lot, and Miroku was always a fucking pervert--"
"Who's Miroku?" She asked, earning herself an odd look from Inuyasha. Wait...where had Sango-chan gone?
"He's helping Kaede-babaa with a sick woman or something."
"Oh. Ok, go on." Inuyasha leaned against the trunk before complying.
"I--we fought a lot of demons, and that fucker Naraku...we kicked his ass. You ran home all the damned time, and--" He stopped suddenly when Kagome leaned her head against his shoulder. For some reason, she found it easier to remember things completely when she was closer to him.
~
He couldn't believe it. He mentally thanked Sango for leaving upon his arrival. He didn't want anyone seeing, after all. Then, he caught himself mentally thanking Sango, and stopped. Now, what was his plan again? 'Damn...' He tried to remember, but he couldn't. 'All that thought for nothing!' He fought his initial urge to sulk, and decided to throw a little extra flavor into his story.
"It really hurt us all when you left like that. This last time, I mean." He didn't have to try hard to sound convincingly hurt. When he sensed she was listening to him, he went on. "Most of your memories involving Kikyou are misunderstood."
"How do I know you're not lying to--"
"Shut the hell up!" Inuyasha gruffed sternly as he trapped Kagome against the tree between his arms. "You're going to listen to me." His sudden aggressiveness surprised even him.
"O-okay..." Kagome nodded, and Inuyasha gathered his courage and attempted to shake loose his pride all at once.
"I owed Kikyou...because of what happened. I was obligated to her, I felt guilty. Dammit, Kagome! I was never obligated to you! I-I..." He couldn't say it. He'd thought about it, he'd practiced, he'd done everything he could to prepare himself…He was jolted from his thoughts when he felt soft skin touch the flesh of his cheek.
"It's ok." She assured him. "I'm sure I'll remember." He took her hand away from his face.
"No. This you won't remember. You never knew." Inuyasha desperately tried to salvage what was left of his composition and nerve to deliver the dreaded--yet so longed for--three words.
"Inuyasha..." Kagome grabbed his face in her tiny hands and moved his face till they were almost nose to nose. "Whatever it is, I need to hear it." Inuyasha tried valiantly to gather a coherent sentence into formation and vocalize it, but he found it near impossible due to their close proximity.
"Kagome, I..."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Ok, ok, so sue me, I gave you a cliffhanger to chew on while I'm typing up the next chapter (which, by the way, should come much sooner than this one). ^_^ Once again, I'm so so so so sorry that I haven't typed this sooner. Not many chapters to go! I'd say one or two left. Bwahaha I honestly didn't expect this many reviews, keep it up, it makes me feel all warm and full inside! Wait...could that be the pizza??? O.o;;; Hehe who knows? Love you all (in that lovely platonic internet relationship-ish type way! ^-^)!!!