The Wolverine within the Logan: The Beast within the Beauty
Chapter 10: Stronger than Adamantium
Jubilee hesitantly put her arms around Wolverines waist, feeling nervous. It had been a long time since she had been so close to Wolverine. She could see the tension in his shoulder. He was nervous.
"Yer gotta hold me tighter if yah don't wanna fall off Jubes"
Wolverine's voice sounded strangely strangled and detached.
Jubilee gripped him slightly tighter, not have the courage to throw her arms around Wolverine the way she wanted to.
"tighter. . . "
Wolverine whispered almost to himself,
He gently enclosed her wrist with his hand, intending to pull her arms tighter around him, but he stopped in mid action and he drew in a sharp breath. Wolverine could feel her pulse racing beneath the thin layer of skin of her wrist. He could feel the blood beneath her wrist swirling with heat and desire. He could hear her heart pounding, faster, and faster. All his sense were alert, conscious of Jubilee's every heartbeat.
Jubilee felt his hand encircling her wrist and her already pounding heart raced even faster. She knew he could feel her accelerated pulse and hear her rapid breathing. The tension between them was unbearable.
Jubilee slid closer to him on the bike, barely daring to move. He drew her hands together until they were safely clasped around his waist, and yet his hands still held Jubilee's wrists. He did not let go
Wolverine exhaled, and with his breath flowed her name,
"Jubes. . . "
Jubilee's heart leaped up at the sound of her name on his lips. He said her name often, but not like this. This time it was different.
"Yes. . . "
Jubilee asked tentatively, trembling slightly. Then she gently laid her cheek against his worn jacket, his hands were still gripping her wrists. Their breaths stilled. There was not a sound in the air, no movements save for the wind rustling the leaves on the nearby trees. No one to tell Wolverine and Jubilee that their love was wrong, forbidden.
Wolverine leaned slightly back on the motorcycle, and closed his eyes, picturing Jubilee's beautiful face. He relished the feel of Jubilee's softness. He loved her.
****
Jubilee leaned forward into Wolverine, loving his quiet strength and wishing to be closer to this man who for most of her life had played the part of a father, a brother, a friend and a mentor. She wanted to break through the solid wall that he had encased his heart and soul with, his shield. A wall stronger then any adamantium shield could be. She loved him.
****
A loud banging brought them out of their trance. A drunken regular was getting ready to stumble home, a bottle swaying in his hand. Their rapture was broken.
"We better. . . better git goin'. . . Jubes."
Wolverine mumbled brokenly, his emotions in shock.
Jubilee was heartbroken by the way he said her name. The way he always said it. He said her name like "hey this is my little sister, Jubes," not like "this is Jubes, the woman I love." The woman he loves. . . A woman like Jean, not a child like Jubes.
Tears rolled down her cheeks unchecked as Wolverine started the bike with his first claw. SNICK! And they were off, the winds whispering the promise of tomorrow.
Jubilee allowed the tears to flow freely, resting her cheek against Wolverine's back. She let the winds gently wipe the tears away, unaware that before they wiped away her tears with their tender laughter, they were wiping away the tears of a man who's stronger-than-adamantium encasing around his heart was crumbling.
****
Too soon their ride was over, Xavier's was within sight. It didn't matter that their ride had lasted hours or that it was almost sundown. All that mattered was that the time they had together was too fleeting. Jubilee knew instinctively that Wolverine would be leaving. He wasn't the type to stay, he would forever be leaving. Forever.
Wolverine brought the bike to a gradual halt, not wanting anyone to know that he was here. Some would know anyways, but they were the ones that also knew there was no preventing him from leaving. He would leave, and he would not come back until he had forgotten Jubilee. He didn't know how long it would take, but he knew he had to do it. He had to do it for her. Forever for her.
"Darlin' wer' at yer stop."
Jubilee slowly got off of the bike, her eyes brimming with tears that remained unshed only through her will power. Her heart wanted to stay forever, go forever, anything for him, forever. Forever for him.
Jubilee wordlessly held out his dog tags. She knew how precious they were. They were the only link to his past. He would need them in his journey. Wolverine tore his eyes away from hers, and looked at his dog tags, mystified. Understanding soon dawned on him, but he still made no move to take them back.
"No darlin', I want ya ta keep 'em. . ."
His intense gaze shifted back to Jubilee's eyes. He wanted to never leave her, but he could not ask for her love. It was too wrong. Jubilee shook her head softly, her eyes never leaving his. She offered them to him again, her throat too filled with grief to speak.
Wolverine gently forced her hand to close around his dog tags.
"Think o' it as yer birthday present. . . I din't fergit. . . Happy 20th darlin'. . . "
Wolverine's voice trailed off, his own throat constricting.
He gazed at her as if he was trying to memorize her face, her soul. His eyes were unnaturally bright as he huskily whispered,
"Goodbye. . . Jubes."
****
Her heart broke when he said it, his goodbye. Jubilee's own stronger-than- adamantium shield began to build around her heart. The shield had only begun building, and her heart was still soft, still vulnerable. She could no longer keep the tears and they spilled down her cheeks, shaming her.
While Jubilee was cutting off her heart from the world, Wolverine's heart was reaching out for the first time since his childhood. He could not stop himself and he extended his arm, acutely aware of the pain he was causing the woman he loved by refusing to love her. His strong arms found Jubilee's soft waist, and drew her closer to him.
****
Their eyes met. Wolverine's eyes were filled with desires long suppressed and her sad doe-eyes with confusion and grief written clearly in them. Wolverine eyes shifted from her eyes to her lips. Her lips were lush and full. They were beautiful, just like her. He wanted her.
Wolverine leaned towards Jubilee, his eyes heavy with desire, violating his own beliefs. All he could think about was her beautiful, soft lips and his own harsh, hard lips. He leaned closer, and closer, then he kissed her.
Their lips met, and Wolverine was overcome with his animalistic nature. He ravaged her lips, forcing himself to forget the pain he would soon inflict on her, pain he might as well be inflicting on himself. He loved her. He would forget her. But just not yet, not yet.
****
Jubilee watched in confusion, not knowing what the look in his eyes were. He leaned in closer, and Jubilee closed her eyes, not knowing why. Their lips met. His lips were hard and demanding, almost scaring her with his passion. She loved him.
As soon as it had started, it was over. Their forbidden kiss had lasted but moments. Moments that seemed like lifetimes to Wolverine and Jubilee. Moments that would keep them alive in their time apart. Time apart.
Wolverine looked at her, his dark eyes intense, his demanding lips set in a grim line. Jubilee knew this was their goodbye.
He whispered,
"Goodbye."
And with that one word, he was gone. Just like that. Jubilee knew he would not be back soon, perhaps forever. She knew their strange relationship could, would never be the same again. Jubilee was again left standing alone with only a necklace made of cold, cold metal to remind her of the man she loved.
****
Another block was added to her wall. The wall around her heart. Even with the protection of the wall around her heart, it broke. It was shattered.
****
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Chapter 10: Stronger than Adamantium
Jubilee hesitantly put her arms around Wolverines waist, feeling nervous. It had been a long time since she had been so close to Wolverine. She could see the tension in his shoulder. He was nervous.
"Yer gotta hold me tighter if yah don't wanna fall off Jubes"
Wolverine's voice sounded strangely strangled and detached.
Jubilee gripped him slightly tighter, not have the courage to throw her arms around Wolverine the way she wanted to.
"tighter. . . "
Wolverine whispered almost to himself,
He gently enclosed her wrist with his hand, intending to pull her arms tighter around him, but he stopped in mid action and he drew in a sharp breath. Wolverine could feel her pulse racing beneath the thin layer of skin of her wrist. He could feel the blood beneath her wrist swirling with heat and desire. He could hear her heart pounding, faster, and faster. All his sense were alert, conscious of Jubilee's every heartbeat.
Jubilee felt his hand encircling her wrist and her already pounding heart raced even faster. She knew he could feel her accelerated pulse and hear her rapid breathing. The tension between them was unbearable.
Jubilee slid closer to him on the bike, barely daring to move. He drew her hands together until they were safely clasped around his waist, and yet his hands still held Jubilee's wrists. He did not let go
Wolverine exhaled, and with his breath flowed her name,
"Jubes. . . "
Jubilee's heart leaped up at the sound of her name on his lips. He said her name often, but not like this. This time it was different.
"Yes. . . "
Jubilee asked tentatively, trembling slightly. Then she gently laid her cheek against his worn jacket, his hands were still gripping her wrists. Their breaths stilled. There was not a sound in the air, no movements save for the wind rustling the leaves on the nearby trees. No one to tell Wolverine and Jubilee that their love was wrong, forbidden.
Wolverine leaned slightly back on the motorcycle, and closed his eyes, picturing Jubilee's beautiful face. He relished the feel of Jubilee's softness. He loved her.
****
Jubilee leaned forward into Wolverine, loving his quiet strength and wishing to be closer to this man who for most of her life had played the part of a father, a brother, a friend and a mentor. She wanted to break through the solid wall that he had encased his heart and soul with, his shield. A wall stronger then any adamantium shield could be. She loved him.
****
A loud banging brought them out of their trance. A drunken regular was getting ready to stumble home, a bottle swaying in his hand. Their rapture was broken.
"We better. . . better git goin'. . . Jubes."
Wolverine mumbled brokenly, his emotions in shock.
Jubilee was heartbroken by the way he said her name. The way he always said it. He said her name like "hey this is my little sister, Jubes," not like "this is Jubes, the woman I love." The woman he loves. . . A woman like Jean, not a child like Jubes.
Tears rolled down her cheeks unchecked as Wolverine started the bike with his first claw. SNICK! And they were off, the winds whispering the promise of tomorrow.
Jubilee allowed the tears to flow freely, resting her cheek against Wolverine's back. She let the winds gently wipe the tears away, unaware that before they wiped away her tears with their tender laughter, they were wiping away the tears of a man who's stronger-than-adamantium encasing around his heart was crumbling.
****
Too soon their ride was over, Xavier's was within sight. It didn't matter that their ride had lasted hours or that it was almost sundown. All that mattered was that the time they had together was too fleeting. Jubilee knew instinctively that Wolverine would be leaving. He wasn't the type to stay, he would forever be leaving. Forever.
Wolverine brought the bike to a gradual halt, not wanting anyone to know that he was here. Some would know anyways, but they were the ones that also knew there was no preventing him from leaving. He would leave, and he would not come back until he had forgotten Jubilee. He didn't know how long it would take, but he knew he had to do it. He had to do it for her. Forever for her.
"Darlin' wer' at yer stop."
Jubilee slowly got off of the bike, her eyes brimming with tears that remained unshed only through her will power. Her heart wanted to stay forever, go forever, anything for him, forever. Forever for him.
Jubilee wordlessly held out his dog tags. She knew how precious they were. They were the only link to his past. He would need them in his journey. Wolverine tore his eyes away from hers, and looked at his dog tags, mystified. Understanding soon dawned on him, but he still made no move to take them back.
"No darlin', I want ya ta keep 'em. . ."
His intense gaze shifted back to Jubilee's eyes. He wanted to never leave her, but he could not ask for her love. It was too wrong. Jubilee shook her head softly, her eyes never leaving his. She offered them to him again, her throat too filled with grief to speak.
Wolverine gently forced her hand to close around his dog tags.
"Think o' it as yer birthday present. . . I din't fergit. . . Happy 20th darlin'. . . "
Wolverine's voice trailed off, his own throat constricting.
He gazed at her as if he was trying to memorize her face, her soul. His eyes were unnaturally bright as he huskily whispered,
"Goodbye. . . Jubes."
****
Her heart broke when he said it, his goodbye. Jubilee's own stronger-than- adamantium shield began to build around her heart. The shield had only begun building, and her heart was still soft, still vulnerable. She could no longer keep the tears and they spilled down her cheeks, shaming her.
While Jubilee was cutting off her heart from the world, Wolverine's heart was reaching out for the first time since his childhood. He could not stop himself and he extended his arm, acutely aware of the pain he was causing the woman he loved by refusing to love her. His strong arms found Jubilee's soft waist, and drew her closer to him.
****
Their eyes met. Wolverine's eyes were filled with desires long suppressed and her sad doe-eyes with confusion and grief written clearly in them. Wolverine eyes shifted from her eyes to her lips. Her lips were lush and full. They were beautiful, just like her. He wanted her.
Wolverine leaned towards Jubilee, his eyes heavy with desire, violating his own beliefs. All he could think about was her beautiful, soft lips and his own harsh, hard lips. He leaned closer, and closer, then he kissed her.
Their lips met, and Wolverine was overcome with his animalistic nature. He ravaged her lips, forcing himself to forget the pain he would soon inflict on her, pain he might as well be inflicting on himself. He loved her. He would forget her. But just not yet, not yet.
****
Jubilee watched in confusion, not knowing what the look in his eyes were. He leaned in closer, and Jubilee closed her eyes, not knowing why. Their lips met. His lips were hard and demanding, almost scaring her with his passion. She loved him.
As soon as it had started, it was over. Their forbidden kiss had lasted but moments. Moments that seemed like lifetimes to Wolverine and Jubilee. Moments that would keep them alive in their time apart. Time apart.
Wolverine looked at her, his dark eyes intense, his demanding lips set in a grim line. Jubilee knew this was their goodbye.
He whispered,
"Goodbye."
And with that one word, he was gone. Just like that. Jubilee knew he would not be back soon, perhaps forever. She knew their strange relationship could, would never be the same again. Jubilee was again left standing alone with only a necklace made of cold, cold metal to remind her of the man she loved.
****
Another block was added to her wall. The wall around her heart. Even with the protection of the wall around her heart, it broke. It was shattered.
****
Thanks everyone for reviewing!!!
Willing and wanting to do more if, and only if, YOU want it. . . Please review and tell me!! I really want to know!! THANKS!!!
Oh btw, please tell me what kind of ending you want, sad or happy. Thanks!!