Chapter 3 – October

Thursday 2nd October

Eeep! What the fuck was that about?! Sorry, I just had a weird dream, I'll explain it: I was sitting on the edge of the cliff watching the beautiful sunset causing a rose sky. I looked down below and saw the gentle waves crashing against the rocks. I sat there for a while watching the sea's current become stronger and stronger and I became frightened that I would fall. I stood up and turned around and James was there smiling in a sly way. "Quickly James, we must hurry. We might fall!" I whispered to James. "I know" he replied. "But you never know till you ask". Before I began to ask what he meant, James pushed me off the cliff. I managed to grab onto the cliffs edge. Lifting my head upwards, I saw James walk away. I held on crying to myself until I saw someone else coming towards me. "Harry" I whispered. "You have to help me!" I pleaded. "I'm sorry Ginny but you chose James, not me" Harry replied and he too began to walk away. All of a sudden, the cliff broke off at the edge and I was falling into a pit of darkness screaming: "I'M SORRY!!!!!!"  

That's when I woke up. How scary is that? And more importantly, what did that dream mean? Well, its 7:30am so I better get up for breakfast. Maybe I should talk to Hermione about my dream, she's clever, she might be able to help. I'll ask her this evening.

Ah, what a boring day it has been! I'm sitting in the common room by the fire and I can see Hermione reading a book, I think I'll go ask about my dream.

Well, that was weird! I walked over to her and she looked up and saw me but walked away. What's the matter with her? I turned around to go after her when I bumped into someone. (Again? Honestly I really should look where I'm going!) But this time, instead of falling over, I dropped my diary. I saw a hand pick it up and looked into the green eyes of Harry. "Thanks, Harry" I said as he gave me my diary. "That's ok, I'm here to help!" he replied and walked away.

Saturday 4th October

Hermione is still avoiding me! I cannot believe her! Never mind, I've got to see James today anyway. Harry's acting all different around me and he looks a little upset sometimes. I can see him sitting with his hands on his head at the moment and Hermione keeps glancing at me.

I saw them both leave together and decided to go after them, this is obviously something to do with me and I want to know what! I followed them out of the portrait hole and called after them. They both turned around and I was about to ask Hermione why she's ignoring me when James came and stood next to me and kissed my cheek. "Hey Gin, what you doing?" James asked sweetly. Harry just stood there looking at me then averted his gaze and walked away.

Sunday 5th October

I don't feel so good. I have a feeling in my stomach as though it's in knots. But I can't understand why. My friends know something is wrong and Lou decided to ask what it was. "Are you alright Gin? You seem awfully quiet" Lou asked. "I'm fine, there's just something on my mind" I replied. "Is it about James?" Abby asked. "No, it's nothing about him" I said. I looked down at the floor and decided to tell them everything. I told them about Hermione giving me strange looks and avoiding me, about Harry who is acting different around me and keeps walking away when he sees me and James together. I felt better when it was all off my chest and took a deep breath before saying: "What should I do?"

Tuesday 7th October

My friends were really nice about the whole Harry thing and suggested I should go and talk to Hermione about it, alone. I was sitting in a chair watching Ron play chess with Seamus and watched out of the corner of my eye Harry talking to Hermione. I can't believe Ron doesn't even notice anything weird going on, maybe I should ask him. "Um, Ron?" I said timidly. "Yeah Gin, what's up?" Ron replied. "Have you noticed that Harry and Hermione are spending a lot of time together recently? Do you know what's going on?" I asked. Ron suddenly went quiet.

"Um, yeah I know what's going on but I can't tell you, I've only just accepted it myself to be honest" Ron said. "Accepted what Ron? Their not dating are they?!" My voice meant to sound calm and curious but came out worried and high pitched. Ron raised his eyebrows at me and chuckled to himself. "No way Ginny! You know what, you sounded quite jealous then! Checkmate!" Ron stopped talking to me and faced Seamus. "Damn Ron, you beat me again!" Seamus said. Ron smiled and walked off laughing to himself.

My brother is so strange. Oooh!! Harry and Ron have gone upstairs and left Hermione by herself, now I can talk to her. I walked over to her and began to speak. "Hi Hermione!" I said enthusiastically. Hermione smiled at me. "Hi Ginny!" I sat down next to her. "Hermione, I've noticed recently that you've been a little distant with me, have I done something wrong?" I asked innocently. "No Ginny you haven't. I'm really sorry about that and if I could tell you why I did it I would but I'm sworn to secrecy" Hermione replied. "Oh, ok. Thanks anyway" I replied, slightly disappointed that she couldn't tell me what was going on, I said goodbye and went to bed very confused.

Tuesday 14th October

It has been another boring and confusing week. The only good thing about it is that me and James are getting along really well. But something doesn't feel right inside. When I see him and his being really nice to me, a part of me feels like his keeping something from me. I guess it's just my imagination though. Hermione is normal around me again and we've become good friends, she does go a little quiet when I mention James but is very happy when I mention Harry.

I think I've figured out why she was so upset with me now; I think she wants me and Harry to get together. That's why she goes quiet when I talk about James and Happy when I talk about Harry. I can't understand why she would think it would make a difference with Harry if I wasn't with James. I've moved on from my four year crush on him and that's the way it's going to stay.

Saturday 18th October  

I think I have a crush on Harry. It was the first Quidditch match today against Slytherin and obviously Gryffindor won, but I couldn't stop staring at Harry. The way the wind pushes back his hair showing his lightening scar and gorgeous eyes… I feel very guilty though, because of James. I was watching the match with Hermione though and luckily James wasn't there to see me staring at Harry. He's ill at the moment, which makes me feel even worse. There he is snuggled up in bed with an awful cold and his girlfriend is ogling her ex-crush. I'm a horrible person. Starting from now I'm not going to like Harry, I really mean it this time! I am over him!

Sunday 19th October

Well, that didn't last very long! To hide my guilt I went to see James but I couldn't find him so I decided to go for a walk instead. I saw Hagrid's hut ahead of me and decided that it was a good time to visit him. Before my hand touched the door, Harry walked out of the hut.

He smiled at me and I blushed (damn the Weasley curse!) but managed to say hi anyway. Hagrid came to the door and saw me and I saw a sparkle in his beetle eyes. "Come fer a visit as well, Gin? Sorry but I'm bout ter go out, but I'm sure yer can stay with 'Arry can' yer?" Hagrid smiled at the both of us and left.

"Want to go for a walk, Ginny?" Harry asked me. "Sure" I replied. We walked around for a while until we found a great oak tree to sit under. We talked for a while about everything. Then Harry looked at me with a serious look in his eyes. "Ginny, there's something I have to-"he was cut short by James who came over. "Hi Ginny sweetie, hi Harry" James said to us both. Harry glared at James in a way I'd never seen him do before. "I better go Gin, see you later" Harry said and he hurried away.

I looked up at James who held out his hand to help me up. "Come on Ginny, you don't want to sit on this dirty floor". I took his hand and walked away with him.

Friday 31st October

I haven't written in here for a while because I've been very busy with homework. (Yeah sure!) It's the Halloween feast soon and I can't wait! The pumpkins are even larger than last years! Before I was about to leave, I was sitting by the fire place when Harry came and sat next to me.

I thought this would be the perfect opportunity to ask him what he wanted to tell me. "Harry, when we were under the oak tree, what were you going to tell me before James came?" I asked. "Um, it's not important now" Harry replied, blushing slightly. "Oh please tell me" I said innocently. "Oh ok" Harry replied and took a deep breath. "Ginny I-"Once again he was cut short but this time it was by Ron. "Hey come on Harry! The feast is starting soon!" Ron said happily, not realising what he had interrupted. "Oh ok, bye Ginny" Harry said quickly. "Bye" I replied quietly. When the portrait hole closed, I wondered what Harry wanted to tell me. I shook my head and laughed. It probably wasn't that important anyway…