Chapter 4 – November

Saturday 1st November

The Halloween feast was wonderful! The pumpkins were bigger than my head! James was there for only a little while until he started to feel ill again. I'm really worried about him, this is the second time he's been ill in only a few weeks! I hope his ok for bonfire night, Hogwarts doesn't usually celebrate but Dumbledore thought it would be a nice treat.

I'm really looking forward to it, I haven't seen one since I was five. I remember there being one near to our village. Mum told me I was scared of the fireworks after Fred and George told me to be careful because when they explode in the sky, they come back down and hit you. George told me this 'amusing' story of how his friend had been struck by one and now he can't touch anything because he's full of electricity. Stupid really but I believed him. Come on! I was five!

Monday 3rd November

Overslept. Again! I have got to get an alarm clock but gadgets like that don't work in Hogwarts. I went down into the common room and saw Hermione dressed and packing her school books. "How do you get up so early?" I asked sleepily. "Crookshanks wakes me up" she replied. Maybe I should get a cat; mum wouldn't let me though probably. I can't understand why though, we can afford one now because dad's office has been expanded and deals with more things now then Muggle artefacts.

"Ginny!" Hermione almost yelled. I snapped out of my daydream and answered. "Huh what? Sorry, I was daydreaming". "That's ok; do you want to come to the Great Hall with me?" Hermione asked. "What time is it though? I thought I was late" I asked. "Only eight, you still have time. Come on, let's go".

We walked down to the Great Hall and I took a seat next to Harry. "Hi Ginny" Harry said sweetly. "Hi" I replied. Then there was silence. Hermione and Ron looked at each other and broke the silence. "So Ginny, are you going to the bonfire night?" Hermione asked. "Yeah, it sounds cool" I replied. "Are you going, Harry?" I asked Harry. "Yeah, I've never been to one before" he replied. "Really? Their amazing, I remember-"I was cut off by James. "Hi Gin, want to walk to class together?" he asked. "Sure" I replied. "Bye Hermione, Ron and Harry" I replied smiling at Harry who now seemed very interested in his toast. "Bye!" Ron and Hermione said enthusiastically as though they were trying to hide something. "Bye" Harry said quietly.

Wednesday 5th November

Classes finished early today to prepare for bonfire night. I'm really excited about it! I wonder if James is going, I'll go ask him. He said he is and that he would see me there.

Most of the school is sitting near to the lake waiting for the fireworks. Fred and George came over and said: "Don't let them get you Ginny! Woooooo!!!!" I rolled my eyes and went and sat with my friends. We were having a laugh until their boyfriends came over and I felt a little left out. I asked Abby's boyfriend: (who is James' best friend) "Where's James, Matt?" "Oh, his in the common room still" Matt replied. "Ok" I replied a little disappointed. I looked around me and saw Harry sitting on his own. I wondered where Ron and Hermione were, then I saw them kissing under a tree. I laughed slightly and went and sat next to Harry.

"Hi, are your friends playing tonsil tennis as well?" I asked. Harry laughed. "Yeah. Why aren't you? Where's James?" Harry asked. There was a hint of annoyance in his voice when he said James' name. "In the common room, I'll look for him later" I replied.

Dumbledore stood up and hushed everyone. "Welcome to Hogwarts first annual firework night! I hope you all enjoy the fireworks!" Then the first firework went up into the air. It was a dragon. Me and Harry smiled at Hagrid, who smiled back. It was magical watching all the wonderful fireworks with Harry, but I was worried about where James was.

"Do you think I should go and look for James?" I asked Harry. "If you want to. You must really like him" Harry replied, bowing his head. "Yeah, he's great. I'm going to go and find him, bye" I said and got up and walked towards the castle. I felt quite guilty that I had been spending so much time with Harry even when James was ill.

I got to the common room, said the password and entered. The sight that meant my eyes made me feel as though my heart had dropped into my stomach. There was James, kissing another girl. I froze, tears swelling in my eyes. I didn't know what to do; I was just standing there like a statue. They must have realised someone was there because they broke away and I saw that James had been kissing a girl called Tracy in my year.

James' eyes widened when he saw me. Tracy smiled and began to talk. "Hi Ginny, you know James right?" she asked. "Yes, he's my boyfriend" I replied, fighting back tears. "At least I thought he was". Tracy's smile faded. "YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND?! I THOGUHT I WAS YOUR GIRLFRIEND?! YOU LYING CHEATING BASTARD!" Tracy yelled and she kneed James in the stomach. "I'm so sorry Ginny, I didn't know" Tracy said. "It's ok, I believe you" I replied. Tracy left through the portrait hole and I was left with James. "Explain" I said simply.

"This isn't what it looks like" James said. "Oh really? So you weren't just kissing another girl? Please tell me this was the only time!" I replied. James looked guiltily down at his shoes. "Oh my god, all those times you said you were ill, you were with her weren't you?" I asked. "Yes" James replied. "But come on! It's not a big deal Ginny, lots of people do this!" James said as though it was nothing.

"Oh do they now? That makes it right does it? I can't believe you could do this!" I said. "What about you and Harry? I see you with him all the time!" James argued. "DON'T DRAG HARRY INTO THIS! WE'RE JUST FRIENDS!" I yelled. "Sure you are; that's why you've had a crush on him for four years!" James replied. "Don't shift the blame onto me! I haven't done anything wrong! You're just making excuses!" I shouted. 

"Was I not good enough for you or something?" I asked, dreading the answer. "You were just… well… there. It wasn't anything serious, you seemed to like me and I felt sorry for you" James replied. I'd had enough now, I needed to leave. "Really? You can just piss off then because we are OVER!!" I yelled. I ran out of the common room and went as far as I could. I stopped by the library and sat down. I couldn't believe what had just happened, I thought James liked me. I couldn't fight it any longer, I burst into tears.

Saturday 8th November 

The last few days have been awful. I sat crying by the library for a while until my friends found me and hugged me after I told them what had happened. I haven't told anyone else though, to save myself the embarrassment.

Tuesday 11th November

It was difficult getting back to normal. James was in some of my lessons and I even sat next to him in charms so I asked Colin if I could swap places with him. My friends are being really nice about it and have cheered me up when I felt down.

Ron suspects that something is wrong but I haven't got the courage to tell him yet. Hermione's worried about me as well, but I just say I'm fine. She let me hug Crookshanks to cheer me up. His fur is so soft and fluffy it cheered me up. I can't look Harry in the eye at the moment; most boys disgust me right now.

Tuesday 18th November

I feel a lot better now. It was hard at first but things have gradually become easier. I can look at Harry now and talk to him. Not about James though. If anyone mentions him, I just change the subject. My friends are so funny though, they trip James up all the time and even changed his shampoo for hair dye and now his hair is blue. It washes out though luckily, otherwise they'd be in trouble. James has tried to talk to me but I just ignore him. He feels very lonely right now because no other girl is interested in him because Tracy told all her friends what he did so news is travelling about what he's like.

Saturday 29th November

I'm over him now. Go me! Hee hee. I was sitting in the common room next to Hermione when she asked me what was going on. I decided I should tell her everything, so I did. She was very shocked and her eyes widened. "What is it Mione?" I asked curiously. "Does Harry know?" she replied. "No, why should he?" I asked.

"Quickly, you need to find Harry and tell him how you really feel!" Hermione said quickly. "Why-" I began but she cut me off. "I know you like him Ginny and he likes you too. That's why his been so weird about James" she replied. "Really? Why do I have to find him though?" I asked, confused. "Because he's given up and is looking for Cho" Hermione said. I understood and rushed out of the common room and searched around the corridors. I turned a corner and saw Harry. It was too late; he was already with Cho…

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A/N: Sorry about that! Poor Ginny… Please review if you want to find out what happens next! Thank you!