Disclaimers: I don't own anything, thank you veddy veddy much.
Warnings: *slight* R+1 (some Relena-bashin' at the beginning), Shonen Ai/Yaoi: 2+1/2x1 (because I believe in a sensitive Heero), 3+4; maybe yuri, depends on how you look at it, mild language, romance, lil drama, sap, uh...I think that covers it.
Notes: Yeah, R+1 (ack!), but it's not what you think! Actually, I kinda like how I've depicted her in this story. Hope you agree with me ^_^. Enjoy!
("...")- indicates a telephone conversation, other line /.../- flashback thing
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Matte Kudasai Heero...
Part 1: Miserable He Is
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Relena watched her husband-to-be gaze out the window as they ate their somewhat cold dinner. The large window allowed the fading sunlight into the dining area lighting up dark atmosphere between the couple. The light played off of her fiancé's face reflecting his little emotion, particularly in his eyes. He was looking out the window at what appeared to by the courtyard, but she knew very well that he wasn't looking at anything. He never was.
The blond sighed.
"You're thinking about him again...aren't you, Heero?" she said in her monotone. She wasn't the least bit surprised.
Heero did not reply. Instead he turned his attention to the food before him; picking and separating it out before crushing it with his fork, Heero finally brought a meager amount to his lips then nibbled on it. He never touched the meat. The way he had been eating the past years drove her insane.
The two ate in complete silence, save the scraping and shrieking of the silverware coming in contact with the delicate china that they ate off of. Though Relena usually preferred it to be quiet, she could not stand the tension that had build up between them. It was a disturbing melancholy that was draped over them. She finally decided to strike up a conversation.
"I sent out the invitations yesterday..." she started quietly, "I would have told you sooner, but I had a conference last night and missed dinner...The guest are expected to arrive sometime during the next week...I'm not quite sure."
"..."
"You remember that the wedding is going to be next Saturday?"
"..."
"Next Saturday at 2:00 PM."
"..."
"I'm going out of town on Wednesday, business as usual. We'll be leaving at noon..."
"..."
It seemed that everyday Heero became more and more unresponsive. Relena chewed and swallowed a forkful of tender beef, "Pagan will drive us to the shuttle station and we will depart to L3."
"..."
"And we're going to get married." she said sharply, then softened her tone, "We're going to have beautiful children. We're going to raise them and give them the life we didn't have. We're going to grow old together...just you and me. We'll live happily for the rest of our lives, Heero..." the girl said in an almost soothing voice, and continued oh so very quietly, "I love you, you know."
Heero did not reply, instead, he scooted the heavy wooden chair from the table. Picking up his plate that wasn't even a third of the way finished, Heero walked to the kitchen. He always preferred to do things by himself, even now after five years since AC 195, both 20 years of age. Heero washed his own dishes and retreated to his bedroom. The girl and boy had been engaged for two years and yet they had separate bedrooms, of course Heero requested it. He never spoke to Relena as a friend, only on business terms. He never smiled--or even gave her a smirk during the time that they've been together. He never touched her; not a kiss, not a hug, not even a brush of the hands.
Nothing.
Relena pushed her plate away, she had suddenly lost her appetite. Damn, it was her favorite meal too. Elbows on the table, she wept in her hands, rubbing the silent tears of helplessness into her palm.
She sobbed as one of her servants cleared the table and left her there, "Oh Heero..." she whispered.
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Heero found himself looking out the window again, he didn't know why he had found comfort in gazing out of the glass barrier. He just did. He felt like he was in a prison...no, he had plenty of freedom, and he hadn't done anything wrong. Prison was not the word...cage was. Yes, he felt as if he were in a cage. He wondered why he came to his hellhole. It was nice at first, but he was soon tired and bored of the tediousness of Relena's ways of life. He needed to get high on life again, he was convinced that he was wasting it here. He wanted to leave.
...but he couldn't.
He had a duty to Relena, his fiancée. He never really liked her, her personality was...controlling. She did treat him well however, giving him all the personal space he wanted. She was still stubborn, nosy, bossy, demanding, obnoxious, blunt, and at times annoying as hell, but never was she abusive in any way. He still wanted to get away from the giant mansion, but his duty to her prevented him. He had to protect her...again. He had to be at her side whenever she called. He had to...he--
He had to marry her.
Heero shuddered.
He didn't want to marry her. Hell, he never did have any attractions to the girl. But Relena was convinced that they were in love...at least that's what she thought. Heero on the other hand, had someone else constantly on his mind, and Relena knew.
She broke them up.
Heero glared at his thoughts, it was true, Relena Peacecraft broke Heero and his ex-lover up. She was unaware that she also broke Heero's heart in the process. It hurt so much...he didn't know how to deal with the pain. What made it worse was that it wasn't physical pain, it was mental pain and heartache, something bandages and gauze couldn't fix. Heero was starting to think that he was getting over it, since it didn't hurt so much. Note, *starting to think*, but turns out he was falling all over again from the engagement and wedding plans. It made him realize how much he missed being with his former lover. His ache filled heart throbbed.
And Relena knew it.
She saw it coming and wanted to marry him before it was too late. Before Heero really decided to leave her instead of just wanting. She was aware of their feelings, how Heero kept thinking about the ex-koibito. She wanted to get married by the end of this week because she knew that Heero didn't believe in divorce, and from Relena's social status, always being the center of the press, the whole world and colonies knew about their engagement which would lead to massive political commotion torturing the sad boy's feelings. Heero's heart began to bleed all over again. He missed--
Heero didn't dare say *that* name, not even in his thoughts, for Relena somehow always heard it and scolded him. Heero never liked being told that he had wronged anyone in any way. Therefore, the two always referred to Heero's ex-lover as 'him', but sometimes when Relena was upset enough, she would say something haughty. He did not want to suffer a three hour lecture about his former lover, not only would it hurt too much, but it would also anger him. And an angry Heero Yuy was never a good thing to have around.
He knew Relena was a good person (after you get through her flaws and some what hypocritical teachings), like everyone else was, but he just didn't love her, not in that way at least, he simple wasn't attracted to the girl. Relena had her good sides too (believe it or not). Though she was never humorous or funny, not even in a political way, she was however polite, nice, kind, and courteous.
Heero's thoughts stopped as he heard soft knocking.
"Heero?" came a soft voice, "Heero, are you in there?"
The stoic Japanese boy opened the door only enough for Relena to see a cold cobalt orb.
"I'm going down to the bar with Dorothy for a drink, I'll be back by ten, alright?"
"Aa..." he replied almost soundless. It wasn't even loud enough to hear his sufficient nasal voice.
"Okay, I'll see you later then."
Heero shut the door.
Relena stared blankly at the wood that separated her and Heero. Her eyes watered slightly, "So cold..." she whispered, "so very, very cold..."
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Heero lay back side up on the large queen-size bed. The room was so empty, and he was alone...
No one could help him...
He felt there was nothing he could do...
The Ex-Perfect Soldier didn't want to do it, but he cried himself to sleep.
He was so lost...
/You're thinking about him again...aren't you, Heero?/ Relena's voice rang through his head.
Yes...he was, and he always would.
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*ringring*
...
*ringring*
...
*ringring*
"Moshi moshi?" a deep voice asked into the vidphone.
("Duo!") the braided boy immediately recognized the caller.
"Oh, hey Quat! What's up?" Duo asked scanning at the screen, "You look...worried, did something happen?"
The Arabian bit his lower lip, ("You didn't...get one?")
Duo cocked a thin eyebrow, "Get what?"
("An invitation?")
"..." Duo's eyebrow arched even higher, "If you're trying to get me to join one of those stupid country clubs, I'm sorry, but I'm going to have to hang up on you--"
("Heero's getting married!")
Duo began laughing hysterically, "Hahahahahahahahaha--" then it hit him, "NANI?!"
("He's getting married next Saturday on Earth.") Quatre informed.
Duo glared, "That son of a bitch..."
("Who, Heero?")
"No," Duo said seriously with no trace of sarcasm, "Relena."
("Listen Duo, Trowa and I can take you over there on Wednesday if you want.") Quatre offered.
Duo agreed, "Yeah, that'd be great, Q. Thanks a lot, man."
*click*
Heero was getting married? It would have been funny if Duo didn't feel anything for the boy. This was not what he expected on a Monday evening. His still beloved ex-lover was getting married to the former Queen of the World. Whether or not Heero was being forced against his will, or really wanted, was unknown to Duo, but he had to find out.
He had no problems admitting that he was in love with Heero Yuy.
At least he didn't anymore.
*ringring*
Duo picked up the phone, "Moshi mo-"
("Maxwell!!!")
"Wu-man?"
("Yuy's getting married to Relena!")
Duo glared, "I know! Don't remind me! I wasn't even invited!"
The Chinese man blinked at him, ("You weren't?")
"Nope, but that's to be expected, ne?" Duo didn't wait for a reply, "And do you know what I say to this bull shit?"
("Nani?")
"Injustice!"
Wufei gave a look of open disgust, ("How can you find something to joke about at a time like this? Aren't you angry?")
"Hell yeah! And you can bet your ass that I'll be the one to sabotage those pretty pink flowers!"
*click*
This was not good. What was he saying? He couldn't barge right in and just take Heero back. How could he? He hadn't seen the Asian beauty in over two years. He didn't even know if Heero hankered over him that way he did. Seriously, it's not like Heero had tried to *call* him or anything, what makes him think that he would even want Duo to steal him away from Relena? Maybe Heero wanted to marry Relena. Maybe Heero...loved...Relena. Duo began to panic. He had to do something, he couldn't watch his love just go and get married to the girl that drove them apart! He would not allow that...would he?
*ringring*
"Moshi moshi?"
("Duo-chan!")
"...Hilde?"
("Hai, did you hear?")
"If Heero's getting married, yes."
Hilde nodded, ("And you're okay with this?")
"NO! Of course I'm not okay with this! I'm yelling and getting hysterical, I am anything *BUT* okay!" Duo shouted and slid to the floor.
("What are you going to do about it?")
"I don't know!"
("You better think of something, you only have until Saturday, D, Saturday, five days away!")
Duo let out an exasperated sigh.
("Heero can't get married to her! You can't let him go through with this! You guys were so CUTE together!")
"I'll call you back Hilde."
*click*
What was he going to do?
*ringring*
"Argh!"
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Relena watched her drink sway in the wine glass. She inhaled the intoxicating grapevine scent.
"Relena-sama, I think we should call it quits for tonight before you get too drunk..."
"I don't know what I'm going to do with him, Dorothy...he just doesn't do anything, let alone *respond*. He's just...there. I can't get him to talk, I can't get him to open up, he's like a...a...a medicine bottle with a childproof cap on it! No matter how hard you try, you can't get it to open!" Relena explained acting as if she had a bottle of pills trying to get them to open.
"I always managed open them." the other blond girl interjected.
Relena glared, "Shut up."
Dorothy shrugged, "I could."
Relena released her glare and sighed deeply, "I don't know what happened. He used to be so strong..."
"Only when he had something that was worth staying strong for." Dorothy interjected absently.
Relena's glare returned, "What's *that* suppose to mean???"
The other girl jumped at the sharpness given from the female voice next to her. She shook her head, "Nothing."
"I just don't get him! I've tried and I've tried. Attempt after attempt. I've offered him everything I had, but he won't accept it...why? What do I have to do to change him?"
"Maybe you don't have to do anything."
"What are you talking about?" Relena asked the paler girl.
"Why don't you just let him go? There are other fish out there..."
Relena's eyes grew impossibly large, "Are you against me too??? I mean, I know Heero is against the whole thing, always has, always will, little bastard, but you! You're suppose to support me!"
"When you're being rational, that's your problem, you desire something that you cannot have! You're too blind with the craving for Heero that you don't see the other things that you can have, Relena!" Dorothy said.
"He loves me, and he knows it! He just...he just needs some time, is all!"
"Don't you think *two years* is enough time? Two years of no progression once-or-ever? Two years of glares, no physical contact, and non- responsiveness? Two years of nothing! For what? For something that is not in love with you, but with the one person who could get the contact and him to respond, the person who he longs for, you deprive him from?"
"...what's your point?"
Dorothy rolled her eyes, "You're an *idiot*!"
Relena glared, "First you tell me to leave Heero, then you don't support what I want, then you insult me! What kind of friend are you, Dorothy Catalonia?"
"Listen Relena, if you really love him, I mean from the bottom of your heart, honestly truly love him, then you'll let him be happy. You'll let him have what he wants. You'll give him to Duo--"
*smack*
Dorothy held her redden cheek as Relena struck her. Eyes welling up with tears, Relena glared at Dorothy, "How *DARE* you say his name in front of me, how dare you tell me what to do! What about what I want?"
"You'd put your needs before his? That's terrible..." Dorothy said shaking off the tingling of the slap, "Fine, Relena. You know that he's miserable, and you know that he doesn't love you. You know that he's gotten even more closed up in his shell, cutting himself off emotionally again. You KNOW. Yet you still hold on to your fantasy crush. I don't know where you're headed with your love life, but Heero's not a toy. He was a soldier and he will eventually explode. You can't keep him unhappy. He could go...neurotic...then how will he be your bodyguard? How will he protect you?"
Relena listened the best she could in her half drunken state, she knew what Dorothy was saying. She just didn't want to accept it. "Heero's not going to become neurotic." Relena said in a strained voice. She picked up her little belongings and left the other girl alone. "I'm going home."
"Fine." Dorothy replied, she would stay a little while longer for a drink or two. She hated it when Relena was being a stubborn bitch. She smiled a little, that must be one of the reasons she felt strongly for the stupid girl...
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Duo Maxwell stood on the small balcony of his apartment upon the seventh floor. He looked down at the crowded city below; people walking, cars honking, it was noisy as hell, but it was also a beautiful sight. The lights of the skyscrapers gave the town a luminous look, the park added to its beauty, add the full moon and that dimly lights up the city's dark features. Duo watched the city slow down until it was peaceful. The wind combed through his long chestnut braid as he thought. Leaning against the steel railing, he looked up to the sky. He recalled the day Heero left.........
/"He doesn't love you Heero! I do, and you know it. You've known it for so many bloody years! You deserve better than this! I can give you whatever you want, I can give you money, fame, a decent roof over your head, and most of all, love. I can give you the love like no one else has even given you. I can do that Heero! You and I can live a better life, together!"
"Heero, you're going to buy that shit?"
The Japanese boy was clearly confused, he didn't know what to think, could anything be better than it was now? Would Relena fill the emptiness he felt now? What was it? What was it that burned him inside?
"It's your mission, Heero. From Preventers, you have to protect me! For the colonies and earth, you must, Heero!"
"Oh my *GOD*! Relena, you're using his job as an excuse!" Duo shouted over Relena causing the Japanese boy to sink deeper into the couch and his head. He hated yelling.
"Let's ask him what he thinks, shall we?"
Duo glared at the girl, he didn't want to admit it, but he knew Heero would choose the mission over him. And Relena knew that too, she also knew that Heero wouldn't choose her over the braided boy, this was the only way.
Yelling, they were yelling over him, the Japanese boy never liked being yelled at...Heero never wanted to fail at anything.
"Heero, this petty life or will you take charge and help keep peace for the world and colonies by protecting the one who can keep it, your mission? Will you choose your mission?"
"...mission?" if Heero was a dog, his ears would have perked up.
"Mission, Heero, your mission. Given by the Preventers, your mission to protect the world so no one suffers like you did..."
Heero thought for a long moment. What was he to do? But it was a lose-lose situation anyway.
After another pleading look from Relena, he turned to Duo with sad eyes.
Duo shook his head, 'no' forming from his lips, but the cobalt-eyed boy stopped him.
"Gomen nasai...a mission is a mission..."
"Heer--"
"Sore ganinmu da, Duo..." [1]
The Japanese boy was impassive, he packed the little he had and left with Relena./
Duo hadn't seen him since.
"Shimatta, should have told him..." he said to himself as he drooped his head between his arms, "should have told him then, I'll have to tell him now, it's my last chance..."
Relena's plan to break them up was stupid. Just plain stupid, and insensible, and arrogant...using Heero's dedication to coax him away from the braided boy was pathetic. What made matters worse was that Duo didn't do much to stop him. If he did, maybe it would have prevented the engagement and wedding preparations.
It took him a while, but Duo can admit that he loved Heero more than anything, it pained him to see the headlines concerning his ex-lover and the Vice Foreign Minister together. Every time he saw them, he would get jealous. Everyone knew that Heero and Relena were not in love. Even in the pictures taken by the press showed that Heero did not want to be there. It was written all over his face. Did Relena not fulfill the promises that she had guaranteed? Did Heero realize that Duo missed him and wanted him back?
The braided boy had no idea. He made up his mind.
Shinigami was going to make a surprise visit to the Sanq Kingdom...
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TBC?
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How was that? Is more wanted?
[1]- "Sore ganinmu da, Duo..." translates to something like this: "That's my duty, Duo..." I think. Well...it sounded cool -_-;.
Warnings: *slight* R+1 (some Relena-bashin' at the beginning), Shonen Ai/Yaoi: 2+1/2x1 (because I believe in a sensitive Heero), 3+4; maybe yuri, depends on how you look at it, mild language, romance, lil drama, sap, uh...I think that covers it.
Notes: Yeah, R+1 (ack!), but it's not what you think! Actually, I kinda like how I've depicted her in this story. Hope you agree with me ^_^. Enjoy!
("...")- indicates a telephone conversation, other line /.../- flashback thing
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Matte Kudasai Heero...
Part 1: Miserable He Is
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Relena watched her husband-to-be gaze out the window as they ate their somewhat cold dinner. The large window allowed the fading sunlight into the dining area lighting up dark atmosphere between the couple. The light played off of her fiancé's face reflecting his little emotion, particularly in his eyes. He was looking out the window at what appeared to by the courtyard, but she knew very well that he wasn't looking at anything. He never was.
The blond sighed.
"You're thinking about him again...aren't you, Heero?" she said in her monotone. She wasn't the least bit surprised.
Heero did not reply. Instead he turned his attention to the food before him; picking and separating it out before crushing it with his fork, Heero finally brought a meager amount to his lips then nibbled on it. He never touched the meat. The way he had been eating the past years drove her insane.
The two ate in complete silence, save the scraping and shrieking of the silverware coming in contact with the delicate china that they ate off of. Though Relena usually preferred it to be quiet, she could not stand the tension that had build up between them. It was a disturbing melancholy that was draped over them. She finally decided to strike up a conversation.
"I sent out the invitations yesterday..." she started quietly, "I would have told you sooner, but I had a conference last night and missed dinner...The guest are expected to arrive sometime during the next week...I'm not quite sure."
"..."
"You remember that the wedding is going to be next Saturday?"
"..."
"Next Saturday at 2:00 PM."
"..."
"I'm going out of town on Wednesday, business as usual. We'll be leaving at noon..."
"..."
It seemed that everyday Heero became more and more unresponsive. Relena chewed and swallowed a forkful of tender beef, "Pagan will drive us to the shuttle station and we will depart to L3."
"..."
"And we're going to get married." she said sharply, then softened her tone, "We're going to have beautiful children. We're going to raise them and give them the life we didn't have. We're going to grow old together...just you and me. We'll live happily for the rest of our lives, Heero..." the girl said in an almost soothing voice, and continued oh so very quietly, "I love you, you know."
Heero did not reply, instead, he scooted the heavy wooden chair from the table. Picking up his plate that wasn't even a third of the way finished, Heero walked to the kitchen. He always preferred to do things by himself, even now after five years since AC 195, both 20 years of age. Heero washed his own dishes and retreated to his bedroom. The girl and boy had been engaged for two years and yet they had separate bedrooms, of course Heero requested it. He never spoke to Relena as a friend, only on business terms. He never smiled--or even gave her a smirk during the time that they've been together. He never touched her; not a kiss, not a hug, not even a brush of the hands.
Nothing.
Relena pushed her plate away, she had suddenly lost her appetite. Damn, it was her favorite meal too. Elbows on the table, she wept in her hands, rubbing the silent tears of helplessness into her palm.
She sobbed as one of her servants cleared the table and left her there, "Oh Heero..." she whispered.
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Heero found himself looking out the window again, he didn't know why he had found comfort in gazing out of the glass barrier. He just did. He felt like he was in a prison...no, he had plenty of freedom, and he hadn't done anything wrong. Prison was not the word...cage was. Yes, he felt as if he were in a cage. He wondered why he came to his hellhole. It was nice at first, but he was soon tired and bored of the tediousness of Relena's ways of life. He needed to get high on life again, he was convinced that he was wasting it here. He wanted to leave.
...but he couldn't.
He had a duty to Relena, his fiancée. He never really liked her, her personality was...controlling. She did treat him well however, giving him all the personal space he wanted. She was still stubborn, nosy, bossy, demanding, obnoxious, blunt, and at times annoying as hell, but never was she abusive in any way. He still wanted to get away from the giant mansion, but his duty to her prevented him. He had to protect her...again. He had to be at her side whenever she called. He had to...he--
He had to marry her.
Heero shuddered.
He didn't want to marry her. Hell, he never did have any attractions to the girl. But Relena was convinced that they were in love...at least that's what she thought. Heero on the other hand, had someone else constantly on his mind, and Relena knew.
She broke them up.
Heero glared at his thoughts, it was true, Relena Peacecraft broke Heero and his ex-lover up. She was unaware that she also broke Heero's heart in the process. It hurt so much...he didn't know how to deal with the pain. What made it worse was that it wasn't physical pain, it was mental pain and heartache, something bandages and gauze couldn't fix. Heero was starting to think that he was getting over it, since it didn't hurt so much. Note, *starting to think*, but turns out he was falling all over again from the engagement and wedding plans. It made him realize how much he missed being with his former lover. His ache filled heart throbbed.
And Relena knew it.
She saw it coming and wanted to marry him before it was too late. Before Heero really decided to leave her instead of just wanting. She was aware of their feelings, how Heero kept thinking about the ex-koibito. She wanted to get married by the end of this week because she knew that Heero didn't believe in divorce, and from Relena's social status, always being the center of the press, the whole world and colonies knew about their engagement which would lead to massive political commotion torturing the sad boy's feelings. Heero's heart began to bleed all over again. He missed--
Heero didn't dare say *that* name, not even in his thoughts, for Relena somehow always heard it and scolded him. Heero never liked being told that he had wronged anyone in any way. Therefore, the two always referred to Heero's ex-lover as 'him', but sometimes when Relena was upset enough, she would say something haughty. He did not want to suffer a three hour lecture about his former lover, not only would it hurt too much, but it would also anger him. And an angry Heero Yuy was never a good thing to have around.
He knew Relena was a good person (after you get through her flaws and some what hypocritical teachings), like everyone else was, but he just didn't love her, not in that way at least, he simple wasn't attracted to the girl. Relena had her good sides too (believe it or not). Though she was never humorous or funny, not even in a political way, she was however polite, nice, kind, and courteous.
Heero's thoughts stopped as he heard soft knocking.
"Heero?" came a soft voice, "Heero, are you in there?"
The stoic Japanese boy opened the door only enough for Relena to see a cold cobalt orb.
"I'm going down to the bar with Dorothy for a drink, I'll be back by ten, alright?"
"Aa..." he replied almost soundless. It wasn't even loud enough to hear his sufficient nasal voice.
"Okay, I'll see you later then."
Heero shut the door.
Relena stared blankly at the wood that separated her and Heero. Her eyes watered slightly, "So cold..." she whispered, "so very, very cold..."
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Heero lay back side up on the large queen-size bed. The room was so empty, and he was alone...
No one could help him...
He felt there was nothing he could do...
The Ex-Perfect Soldier didn't want to do it, but he cried himself to sleep.
He was so lost...
/You're thinking about him again...aren't you, Heero?/ Relena's voice rang through his head.
Yes...he was, and he always would.
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*ringring*
...
*ringring*
...
*ringring*
"Moshi moshi?" a deep voice asked into the vidphone.
("Duo!") the braided boy immediately recognized the caller.
"Oh, hey Quat! What's up?" Duo asked scanning at the screen, "You look...worried, did something happen?"
The Arabian bit his lower lip, ("You didn't...get one?")
Duo cocked a thin eyebrow, "Get what?"
("An invitation?")
"..." Duo's eyebrow arched even higher, "If you're trying to get me to join one of those stupid country clubs, I'm sorry, but I'm going to have to hang up on you--"
("Heero's getting married!")
Duo began laughing hysterically, "Hahahahahahahahaha--" then it hit him, "NANI?!"
("He's getting married next Saturday on Earth.") Quatre informed.
Duo glared, "That son of a bitch..."
("Who, Heero?")
"No," Duo said seriously with no trace of sarcasm, "Relena."
("Listen Duo, Trowa and I can take you over there on Wednesday if you want.") Quatre offered.
Duo agreed, "Yeah, that'd be great, Q. Thanks a lot, man."
*click*
Heero was getting married? It would have been funny if Duo didn't feel anything for the boy. This was not what he expected on a Monday evening. His still beloved ex-lover was getting married to the former Queen of the World. Whether or not Heero was being forced against his will, or really wanted, was unknown to Duo, but he had to find out.
He had no problems admitting that he was in love with Heero Yuy.
At least he didn't anymore.
*ringring*
Duo picked up the phone, "Moshi mo-"
("Maxwell!!!")
"Wu-man?"
("Yuy's getting married to Relena!")
Duo glared, "I know! Don't remind me! I wasn't even invited!"
The Chinese man blinked at him, ("You weren't?")
"Nope, but that's to be expected, ne?" Duo didn't wait for a reply, "And do you know what I say to this bull shit?"
("Nani?")
"Injustice!"
Wufei gave a look of open disgust, ("How can you find something to joke about at a time like this? Aren't you angry?")
"Hell yeah! And you can bet your ass that I'll be the one to sabotage those pretty pink flowers!"
*click*
This was not good. What was he saying? He couldn't barge right in and just take Heero back. How could he? He hadn't seen the Asian beauty in over two years. He didn't even know if Heero hankered over him that way he did. Seriously, it's not like Heero had tried to *call* him or anything, what makes him think that he would even want Duo to steal him away from Relena? Maybe Heero wanted to marry Relena. Maybe Heero...loved...Relena. Duo began to panic. He had to do something, he couldn't watch his love just go and get married to the girl that drove them apart! He would not allow that...would he?
*ringring*
"Moshi moshi?"
("Duo-chan!")
"...Hilde?"
("Hai, did you hear?")
"If Heero's getting married, yes."
Hilde nodded, ("And you're okay with this?")
"NO! Of course I'm not okay with this! I'm yelling and getting hysterical, I am anything *BUT* okay!" Duo shouted and slid to the floor.
("What are you going to do about it?")
"I don't know!"
("You better think of something, you only have until Saturday, D, Saturday, five days away!")
Duo let out an exasperated sigh.
("Heero can't get married to her! You can't let him go through with this! You guys were so CUTE together!")
"I'll call you back Hilde."
*click*
What was he going to do?
*ringring*
"Argh!"
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Relena watched her drink sway in the wine glass. She inhaled the intoxicating grapevine scent.
"Relena-sama, I think we should call it quits for tonight before you get too drunk..."
"I don't know what I'm going to do with him, Dorothy...he just doesn't do anything, let alone *respond*. He's just...there. I can't get him to talk, I can't get him to open up, he's like a...a...a medicine bottle with a childproof cap on it! No matter how hard you try, you can't get it to open!" Relena explained acting as if she had a bottle of pills trying to get them to open.
"I always managed open them." the other blond girl interjected.
Relena glared, "Shut up."
Dorothy shrugged, "I could."
Relena released her glare and sighed deeply, "I don't know what happened. He used to be so strong..."
"Only when he had something that was worth staying strong for." Dorothy interjected absently.
Relena's glare returned, "What's *that* suppose to mean???"
The other girl jumped at the sharpness given from the female voice next to her. She shook her head, "Nothing."
"I just don't get him! I've tried and I've tried. Attempt after attempt. I've offered him everything I had, but he won't accept it...why? What do I have to do to change him?"
"Maybe you don't have to do anything."
"What are you talking about?" Relena asked the paler girl.
"Why don't you just let him go? There are other fish out there..."
Relena's eyes grew impossibly large, "Are you against me too??? I mean, I know Heero is against the whole thing, always has, always will, little bastard, but you! You're suppose to support me!"
"When you're being rational, that's your problem, you desire something that you cannot have! You're too blind with the craving for Heero that you don't see the other things that you can have, Relena!" Dorothy said.
"He loves me, and he knows it! He just...he just needs some time, is all!"
"Don't you think *two years* is enough time? Two years of no progression once-or-ever? Two years of glares, no physical contact, and non- responsiveness? Two years of nothing! For what? For something that is not in love with you, but with the one person who could get the contact and him to respond, the person who he longs for, you deprive him from?"
"...what's your point?"
Dorothy rolled her eyes, "You're an *idiot*!"
Relena glared, "First you tell me to leave Heero, then you don't support what I want, then you insult me! What kind of friend are you, Dorothy Catalonia?"
"Listen Relena, if you really love him, I mean from the bottom of your heart, honestly truly love him, then you'll let him be happy. You'll let him have what he wants. You'll give him to Duo--"
*smack*
Dorothy held her redden cheek as Relena struck her. Eyes welling up with tears, Relena glared at Dorothy, "How *DARE* you say his name in front of me, how dare you tell me what to do! What about what I want?"
"You'd put your needs before his? That's terrible..." Dorothy said shaking off the tingling of the slap, "Fine, Relena. You know that he's miserable, and you know that he doesn't love you. You know that he's gotten even more closed up in his shell, cutting himself off emotionally again. You KNOW. Yet you still hold on to your fantasy crush. I don't know where you're headed with your love life, but Heero's not a toy. He was a soldier and he will eventually explode. You can't keep him unhappy. He could go...neurotic...then how will he be your bodyguard? How will he protect you?"
Relena listened the best she could in her half drunken state, she knew what Dorothy was saying. She just didn't want to accept it. "Heero's not going to become neurotic." Relena said in a strained voice. She picked up her little belongings and left the other girl alone. "I'm going home."
"Fine." Dorothy replied, she would stay a little while longer for a drink or two. She hated it when Relena was being a stubborn bitch. She smiled a little, that must be one of the reasons she felt strongly for the stupid girl...
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Duo Maxwell stood on the small balcony of his apartment upon the seventh floor. He looked down at the crowded city below; people walking, cars honking, it was noisy as hell, but it was also a beautiful sight. The lights of the skyscrapers gave the town a luminous look, the park added to its beauty, add the full moon and that dimly lights up the city's dark features. Duo watched the city slow down until it was peaceful. The wind combed through his long chestnut braid as he thought. Leaning against the steel railing, he looked up to the sky. He recalled the day Heero left.........
/"He doesn't love you Heero! I do, and you know it. You've known it for so many bloody years! You deserve better than this! I can give you whatever you want, I can give you money, fame, a decent roof over your head, and most of all, love. I can give you the love like no one else has even given you. I can do that Heero! You and I can live a better life, together!"
"Heero, you're going to buy that shit?"
The Japanese boy was clearly confused, he didn't know what to think, could anything be better than it was now? Would Relena fill the emptiness he felt now? What was it? What was it that burned him inside?
"It's your mission, Heero. From Preventers, you have to protect me! For the colonies and earth, you must, Heero!"
"Oh my *GOD*! Relena, you're using his job as an excuse!" Duo shouted over Relena causing the Japanese boy to sink deeper into the couch and his head. He hated yelling.
"Let's ask him what he thinks, shall we?"
Duo glared at the girl, he didn't want to admit it, but he knew Heero would choose the mission over him. And Relena knew that too, she also knew that Heero wouldn't choose her over the braided boy, this was the only way.
Yelling, they were yelling over him, the Japanese boy never liked being yelled at...Heero never wanted to fail at anything.
"Heero, this petty life or will you take charge and help keep peace for the world and colonies by protecting the one who can keep it, your mission? Will you choose your mission?"
"...mission?" if Heero was a dog, his ears would have perked up.
"Mission, Heero, your mission. Given by the Preventers, your mission to protect the world so no one suffers like you did..."
Heero thought for a long moment. What was he to do? But it was a lose-lose situation anyway.
After another pleading look from Relena, he turned to Duo with sad eyes.
Duo shook his head, 'no' forming from his lips, but the cobalt-eyed boy stopped him.
"Gomen nasai...a mission is a mission..."
"Heer--"
"Sore ganinmu da, Duo..." [1]
The Japanese boy was impassive, he packed the little he had and left with Relena./
Duo hadn't seen him since.
"Shimatta, should have told him..." he said to himself as he drooped his head between his arms, "should have told him then, I'll have to tell him now, it's my last chance..."
Relena's plan to break them up was stupid. Just plain stupid, and insensible, and arrogant...using Heero's dedication to coax him away from the braided boy was pathetic. What made matters worse was that Duo didn't do much to stop him. If he did, maybe it would have prevented the engagement and wedding preparations.
It took him a while, but Duo can admit that he loved Heero more than anything, it pained him to see the headlines concerning his ex-lover and the Vice Foreign Minister together. Every time he saw them, he would get jealous. Everyone knew that Heero and Relena were not in love. Even in the pictures taken by the press showed that Heero did not want to be there. It was written all over his face. Did Relena not fulfill the promises that she had guaranteed? Did Heero realize that Duo missed him and wanted him back?
The braided boy had no idea. He made up his mind.
Shinigami was going to make a surprise visit to the Sanq Kingdom...
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TBC?
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How was that? Is more wanted?
[1]- "Sore ganinmu da, Duo..." translates to something like this: "That's my duty, Duo..." I think. Well...it sounded cool -_-;.