Hi minna-san! Well, another songfic. A cookie for you if you can guess who it is before the end! ^.~ Oh, and thanks to my friend Mimi for beta reading this, as well as many other of my fics!

~ I died

So many years ago

But you can make me feel

Like it isn't so

And why you come to be with me

I think I finally know ~

I guess somewhere, deep down, I always wondered about her. How an angel could ever fall in love with a demon. How anyone so perfect and good could ever care so deeply about someone so dark and evil. I denied my suspicions in the cloud of utter bliss they call love. And for once in my miserable life I was happy.

Feh. Happiness. Damn it, the worthless emotion. I always prided myself on my invulnerability, and a mortal girl bested me. An ironic world those blasted smart aleck gods created. She was the last person I ever thought I could care about. But fate is a cruel and crafty thing. It loves to play with the feelings of those that think they're immune to it.

~ You're scared

Ashamed of what you feel

And you can't tell the ones you love

You know they couldn't deal

Whisper in a dead man's ear

That doesn't make it real ~

I knew she'd never tell anyone about us. I didn't expect her to. Hell, I didn't WANT her to. No one could've handled it. I mean, I'm not exactly the kind of guy a girl wants to take home to show to Mommy and Daddy. Not that I ever WANTED to be anything else. I'm very happy being a homicidal maniac, thank you very much.

Heh, I should've seen it coming. There was always something missing in me. Maybe it's the ice in my eyes that no one seems to be able to melt. Maybe it's the lack of warmth in my touch. But I wasn't what she wanted. At some point she realized that being with me didn't even feel real.

~ That's great

But I don't wanna play

'Cause being with you touches me

More than I can say

And since I'm only dead to you

I'm saying stay away ~

She still comes, but I turn the other cheek to her now. I don't want to be part of this game. I never was one to be toyed with. Once she makes up her mind, then I'll listen again. It hurts too much to be played- Ra, did I just admit that?!

If she really thinks I'm this cold, emotionless person, which I probably am, then she can treat me as everyone else does. Dead. Why the hell should it bother me?! She can go and live her life how she wants. Whatever. None of my business, and I don't intend to make it so. All I want is for her to stay far away from me.

~ And let me rest in peace

Let me rest in peace

Let me get some sleep

Let me take my love and bury it

In a hole six foot deep

I can lay my body down

But I can't find my sweet release

So let me rest in peace ~

Dead. Why does everyone think I'm just dead?! I WISH I were dead. Anything's better than this. I wish everyone else, including her, would just leave me alone and let me suffer with my half existence in solitude. But of course they won't. Everyone just HAS to help.

I wish I could just fade and disappear. No matter what I do, I always wake back up in this retched life. I can't die. I can't escape. I can never run away. And I hate it.

~ You know

You got a willing slave

And you just love to play the thought

That you might misbehave

But until you do

I'm telling you

Stop visiting my grave ~

Eventually, people learned to let me be for the better part of the day. Everyone but her. She kept coming back. I soon found myself warming up to her, taking comfort in her gentle presence. I quickly realized that she wasn't coming on her own anymore; I'd end up going to her.

I never thought I'd care about anyone again. I guess you could say I fell in love. I despise putting it that way. I don't know why they say it's falling. It's anything but falling until you're NOT in love anymore. Trust me, you're speaking to an expert.

~ And let me rest in peace

I know I should go

But I follow you

Like a man possessed

There's a traitor here beneath my breast

And it hurts me more than you've ever guessed ~

I can't believe I ignored the signals she gave off. I kept believing. I kept believing that she really cared about me. What was I thinking?! But I know what really happened. The true traitor wasn't her.

It was my own heart. Something I had done my best to freeze and harden beyond feeling. But it still had one part left, a little piece I kept, just in case. And that little shard fired up so quickly that the ice around it melted and I grew exposed once again.

~ If my heart could beat

It would break my chest

But I can see

You're unimpressed

So leave me be ~

She was the one person who made me long to be mortal again. She was the one that made me wish I could lay a hand to my chest and feel my own heart beating once more. But she was oblivious to what she'd done to me, and unmoved by my feelings for her.

Before I knew it, she was gone. And I was left to shrink back into the shadows and incase my heart in frost once again. She had gotten someone once thought heartless to trust, to love, then grown bored and decided she rather move on. And nothing could've hurt me more.

~ And let me rest in peace

Let me get some sleep

Let me take my love and bury it

In a hole six foot deep

I can lay my body down

But I can't find my sweet release ~

I can hear my hikari laughing. It amazes me how much better it makes me feel, just knowing he has something to be cheerful about even if I don't. I love it when he's happy. His smile always makes me sure that everything will be all right.

And now I know. I know that no matter how dark my world gets, I'll always have him there to brighten things when I truly need it. I'll always be the worthless tomb robber, but he'll always give me something to live for.

~ Let me rest in peace ~

~Owari~

Yes, it was Bakura. As for the girl, it's whoever you want it to be. Well, thanks for reading! R/R! Ja Ne! ~Missa