ALRIGHT you wonderful R&R-ers! Hows it going? Well this week was really stressful for me so I was kinda
preoccupied with school to work much on this fic. But, as Geo pointed out in the last review-the weekend
is here so I can write more!! YAYAYAYA Thanks to everyone! for ALL the support! AND the reviews
I owe you guys! Just a note though, this fic is FAR from over...trust me, Ive got ideas that will
last me for..quite a while...is that oky doky? lol. So read on guys S&S ALL THE WAY!!!!!
He Completes Me
Chapter 12- You!
Sakura...
Although Jason is in custody I can't help but tremble profusely at the very thought of him.
Syaoran, my wonderful, kind and caring Syaoran. He would do just about anything if it meant saving me....he possess a pure
heart. A shame how he never let anyone know it existed long ago...still..I always knew he had a heart of gold...I knew he
was capable of more than he was letting on simply because I loved him since the moment we met...since the moment his eyes
met mine...there was trouble for a quite a while..but once the skies cleared...once the insignificance of pety things were
forgotten..we both let our guards down..we both let go of it all...we both just...fell into each other..completed each other
like a giant jigsaw puzzle of the world..the final two pieces, him and I complete the world ...if only I could put all my
feelings into words. I feel the utmost appreciation for this man...but it goes deeper than that...deeper than I had ever
anticipated, life without him is just not worth living at all...he completes me...I pray he realizes how true that statement
is...before its too late...
"Sakura...are you sure you ll be alright ...here in your house...alone...I mean maybe I should go in and check if .."
"Syaoran...it's alright Im just fine, trust me...goodnight."
I kiss him goodnight, slapping on my best smile, but somehow I know he knows me better than I know my own self...he knows
how I truly feel..so why do I bother to hide it from him?
"Sakura...don't pretend like that with me...not with me...I know you better than that, I love you..let me love you...let me
protect you like I used to..I swear I d rather die first than let anything happen to you my love...don't ever doubt it..."
I am touched by his words...but I know his eyes reflect questions...many questions...but I know him..he doesnt want to push
me...good to know not all guys were like Jason..
Here I am sitting in his car, in front of my house unsure of what to do...so what can I do other than follow my heart...
"Syaoran...take me home..."
He pauses for a minute to process. I smile a real smile and he understands. By "home" I meant none other than his home.
"Syaoran...we're sitting in front of my house...the house I grew up in..the house where my life progressed my entire
existence...I should feel safety, comfort...a sense of contentment. All I feel Syaoran...is fear...fear of what may lurk
in the shadows...fear that someone...something is drinking me in...all of me..Do you know what violation is?
I mean truly being violated...because let me tell you, the number one way to feel that is what Tomoyo and I experienced.
In the safety of my home, she trusted me, my home, she trusted that there were no hidden photos being taken of her as she
sang in the shower...
I trusted my house...I trusted what I thought was sacred....Syaoran he knows me..all of me...and it scares me to death.."
Syaoran wraps his strong arms around me, holding me, trying to make the pain go away, trying to place a band aid upon the
wound...trying to make things better...but truth be told...nothing could make things better...no one would ever be able
to right the wrongs committed...no one can give me back my innocence...knowing that the man I loved would be the only one
to see all of me...I was just an empty corpse now with a spirit which was ripped to shreds, irreperable because I was forever
damaged. Forever lost. Forever changed.
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Syaoran...
I drive some more, trying to think of something to ease her pain, but there is not a damn thing I can do for her, not a single
solitary thing I can say that will extinguish the flames of deceit, of pain, of violation...he tried to take her innocence away
more than once and he still lives content...while his victim..the love of my life struggles to keep herself from falling
apart. I dont know what to do. I want to just ...I want her to be...Sakura...the one I fell in love with long ago...the one
I continue to fall in love with.
We finally arrive at my home. She makes her way to the couch and sits down. I look into her eyes and that spark she always
had was weak...damaged...possibly burned out.. I couldnt let her give up on herself...
"Sakura.."
"It's ok Syaoran...uhm..I understand if you feel we should break up considering I will no longer be the girl you fell in love
with. I am no longer Sakura. Not anymore. I am someone not even I recognize when I gaze at my so called reflection. I dont
know who I am anymore. He stole me away from myself Syaoran. He took me to a place and I will forever remain as his prisoner
in his warped little mind. Even now, I sit here speaking, I am here, but not all of me. He is thinking of me right now.
He will think of me each morning, every night before he goes to sleep, he will dream of me, all of me...I will never be
the full person I once was because I exist in pieces..."
"SAKURA LISTEN TO YOURSELF YOU VE GIVEN UP!"
She is taken aback by my tone so I take the opportunity to continue.
"Sakura, yes this is horrible. Yes, your life has taken a bad turn. Yes, the psycho will remain a psycho dreaming of you,
but YOU are not with him because YOU, the real YOU is with me! With me, here, sitting on this couch feeling sorry for yourself.
You know what, I love you, I would love you no matter what. Nothing will take you away from me every again, I won't allow such
an occurance to happen because you are my world, you are my life. You complete me. I need you. Without you...I only exist...I am not
alive. I will not live...unless you are living by my side."
She looks away obviously moved by my words. It was only the beginning. I ll be damned if Im going to let Sakura, my Sakura,
stay like this for the rest of her life. She will not live in fear, she will never be afraid because I will never leave her
side...never again...
I look into Sakura's eyes. I can tell she wants to tell me something...I fear what it might be...perhaps a confirmation that
he truly took a very sacred piece of her away...and ripped it away from her...forever..
"Syaoran...I know your wondering...I mean...I know your thinking ..."
"Sakura...you don't have to tell me anything...I..just know that I'm here for you"
"Syaoran, I love you so much...and it's because I love you taht I will tell you exactly...what happened."
Syaoran gulps hard and prepares to hear the confirmation from her very mouth.
"I..was going down the stairs to the basement...I think I was getting more pudding for Kero...he asked me to.."
"OOOH that's right he's in for it, the next time, that piece of.."
"SYAORAN!"
"Sorry...but..he was suppose to protect you!!!"
"Syaoran...I"
"Im sorry Sakura, go on.."
"I uhm, eventually made my way to the ground. I uh..called out to him..."
"You WHAT!? Wait..wait a minute! You KNEW he was there? ...You...KNEW that he would...be in your house...waiting for you...
and he knew that you knew! YOU KNEW HE KNEW! YOU WANTED US OUT OF THE HOUSE! DAMMIT SAKURA WHY WOULDNT YOU WANT US TO PROTECT
YOU!?"
"Syaoran!...I ..I...I!"
"WHAT YOU WANTED TO GET KILLED...OR WORSE!"
"SYAORAN!"
"SAKU...Sakura im sorry...I didnt mean to...Im such a jerk..."
"Yes..yes you are!..."
Syaoran's face turned different shades quickly.
"But that's part of why I love you so damn much!"
Sakura leans over and kisses her boyfriend lovingly before she continued.
"Yes, I knew he would be there, I just had a feeling I guess. I didnt want...you to get hurt..especially not you..never you!
I love you too much to ever let you ..get hurt because of me! God Syaoran, you mean so much to me...He eventually came out
and pulled a knife on me. He said he knew all about everything, that he knew me better than anyone..even knew about the clow
cards and kero. He eventually cornered me...and kissed me. Once I turned away, he was angry...he sl..apped me across the face
and took his knife and cut off some buttons off my shirt...he didn't have the chance to...DO anything else because..you..
my knight in shinning armor came to rescue...and I dont know what I would have done without you..."
Syaoran let the words process into his mind. Yes it was true, Sakura's privacy had been violated but still, there she sat
intacked...more or less. Scared. Frightened. Wounded emotionally, but physically okay. He was relieved to say the least.
"I don't know what I would have done if he killed you Syaoran..I wouldnt have been able to live with myself! Look, I love you
and that's poison...it isnt over Syaoran..he's going to come after you..maybe if..we gave him what he wanted...you wouldnt
be in so much danger and he wouldnt feel the need to-"
Syaoran...
"Sakura...honey..sweetheart...my baby you are the reason I survive...."
Sakura's attention is suddenly directed at me.
"As i look into your eyes "
i see all the reasons why
my life's worth a thousand skies
you're the simplest love i've known
and the purest one i'll own
know you'll never be alone
I know she feels irrepreable...but that is temporary because the future waits for no one, and without her there is no
future...
"my baby you "
are the reason i could fly
and 'cause of you
i don't have to wonder why
baby you
there's no more just getting by
you're the reason i feel so alive ...
Sakura actually smiles up at me as I sing to her hoping to make her life a little less horrible. I only wish she could
see herself the way I see her...
though these words i say are true
they still fail to capture you
as mere words can only do
how do i explain that smile
and how it turns my world around
keeping my feet on the ground
Suddenly I can't help but notice the barely visible flicker begin to burn brighter in her beautiful once vibrant eyes.
It will take a while before she can go back to being the Sakura we all know and love, but she will get there because
I wont let her give up...
my baby you
are the reason i could fly
and 'cause of you
i don't have to wonder why
baby you
there's no more just getting by
you're the reason i feel so alive ...
I owe her everything and I will give her anything her beautiful heart desires. I will give her everything the world has to
offer and then some. She changed me, showed me what true love was...and I will show her the same and more...much much more..
it has only begun, my baby-Sakura...I love her, I will love her..I will never stop loving her...
i will soothe you if you fall
i'll be right there if you call
you're my greatest love of all .....
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Sakura...
I can't help but cry tears of joy, his efforts are staggering. He doesnt give up not for a second. He truly loves me, and
I truly love him. I only wish I could hurry up and become the woman I once was...because he's right, I dont want to give up.
Why should I? All I need is Syaoran...if I have him...why would I give him up????
my baby you
are the reason i could fly
and 'cause of you
i don't have to wonder why
baby you
there's no more just getting by
you're the reason i feel so alive
His voice speaks so softly to me. There is no song playing in the background, just him. His beautiful voice, with his
captivating mouth pronouncing each word...how did I live 10 years without him? I did I exist without him? Before him
I didn't know what living was...I didn't know anything....until him....he makes me feel alive...
i feel so alive............
I can't help but smile. I suddenly grin widely which is returned from his lucious lips which seem to be getting closer.
I prepare myself for impact, but I cannot because his touch just blows me away. Our lips touch and melt together, move
together, kiss together...they hug each other as our tongues dance together. My hands playing with his hair, while his arms
circle my waste claiming my entire body as his own. I am his. He is mine. For eternity.
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Jason...
Here I am, in a nut house..I don't deserve this! I mean all I did was love a girl who loved me back! What is the harm
in that? Syaoran is the one that should be locked up in here, he's the crazy one for not killing me when he had the chance.
He's a fool and that is a fatal mistake which will be met with a fatal outcome...
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Sakura...
It has been over a month since Jason was commited. I still get goosebumps each time I say his name. Even now, after all
that has happened, my dreams continue to haunt me...it isnt over is what they tell me, not by a long shot...there will be
something standing in our way...someone...Jason.... I will never be able to erase what he tried to do to me, and all the
things he had done to me over the years without my knowledge. I am shocked I survived the entire ordeal, but I am even more
shocked that I survived the aftermaths of it all. It was a tough time, but Syaoran helped me through it. He took me
by the hand and
walked each step with me. He truly loved me, all of me, faults and all...even when I was broken he tried to fix me, I pray
the scars will heal...
I stand in front of my mirror, alongside Tomoyo who is making the finishing touches on my new dress...5 days until Prom
afterall...With Jason put away, no one would be able to stand in our way...
But still...I shut my eyes and I feel the knife pressed up against my throat...I can't help but wonder...is it really over?
end of chapter 12
R&R PLZ! S&S fans no worries it ll get even mushier!!!thankies!
preoccupied with school to work much on this fic. But, as Geo pointed out in the last review-the weekend
is here so I can write more!! YAYAYAYA Thanks to everyone! for ALL the support! AND the reviews
I owe you guys! Just a note though, this fic is FAR from over...trust me, Ive got ideas that will
last me for..quite a while...is that oky doky? lol. So read on guys S&S ALL THE WAY!!!!!
He Completes Me
Chapter 12- You!
Sakura...
Although Jason is in custody I can't help but tremble profusely at the very thought of him.
Syaoran, my wonderful, kind and caring Syaoran. He would do just about anything if it meant saving me....he possess a pure
heart. A shame how he never let anyone know it existed long ago...still..I always knew he had a heart of gold...I knew he
was capable of more than he was letting on simply because I loved him since the moment we met...since the moment his eyes
met mine...there was trouble for a quite a while..but once the skies cleared...once the insignificance of pety things were
forgotten..we both let our guards down..we both let go of it all...we both just...fell into each other..completed each other
like a giant jigsaw puzzle of the world..the final two pieces, him and I complete the world ...if only I could put all my
feelings into words. I feel the utmost appreciation for this man...but it goes deeper than that...deeper than I had ever
anticipated, life without him is just not worth living at all...he completes me...I pray he realizes how true that statement
is...before its too late...
"Sakura...are you sure you ll be alright ...here in your house...alone...I mean maybe I should go in and check if .."
"Syaoran...it's alright Im just fine, trust me...goodnight."
I kiss him goodnight, slapping on my best smile, but somehow I know he knows me better than I know my own self...he knows
how I truly feel..so why do I bother to hide it from him?
"Sakura...don't pretend like that with me...not with me...I know you better than that, I love you..let me love you...let me
protect you like I used to..I swear I d rather die first than let anything happen to you my love...don't ever doubt it..."
I am touched by his words...but I know his eyes reflect questions...many questions...but I know him..he doesnt want to push
me...good to know not all guys were like Jason..
Here I am sitting in his car, in front of my house unsure of what to do...so what can I do other than follow my heart...
"Syaoran...take me home..."
He pauses for a minute to process. I smile a real smile and he understands. By "home" I meant none other than his home.
"Syaoran...we're sitting in front of my house...the house I grew up in..the house where my life progressed my entire
existence...I should feel safety, comfort...a sense of contentment. All I feel Syaoran...is fear...fear of what may lurk
in the shadows...fear that someone...something is drinking me in...all of me..Do you know what violation is?
I mean truly being violated...because let me tell you, the number one way to feel that is what Tomoyo and I experienced.
In the safety of my home, she trusted me, my home, she trusted that there were no hidden photos being taken of her as she
sang in the shower...
I trusted my house...I trusted what I thought was sacred....Syaoran he knows me..all of me...and it scares me to death.."
Syaoran wraps his strong arms around me, holding me, trying to make the pain go away, trying to place a band aid upon the
wound...trying to make things better...but truth be told...nothing could make things better...no one would ever be able
to right the wrongs committed...no one can give me back my innocence...knowing that the man I loved would be the only one
to see all of me...I was just an empty corpse now with a spirit which was ripped to shreds, irreperable because I was forever
damaged. Forever lost. Forever changed.
***************************************************************
Syaoran...
I drive some more, trying to think of something to ease her pain, but there is not a damn thing I can do for her, not a single
solitary thing I can say that will extinguish the flames of deceit, of pain, of violation...he tried to take her innocence away
more than once and he still lives content...while his victim..the love of my life struggles to keep herself from falling
apart. I dont know what to do. I want to just ...I want her to be...Sakura...the one I fell in love with long ago...the one
I continue to fall in love with.
We finally arrive at my home. She makes her way to the couch and sits down. I look into her eyes and that spark she always
had was weak...damaged...possibly burned out.. I couldnt let her give up on herself...
"Sakura.."
"It's ok Syaoran...uhm..I understand if you feel we should break up considering I will no longer be the girl you fell in love
with. I am no longer Sakura. Not anymore. I am someone not even I recognize when I gaze at my so called reflection. I dont
know who I am anymore. He stole me away from myself Syaoran. He took me to a place and I will forever remain as his prisoner
in his warped little mind. Even now, I sit here speaking, I am here, but not all of me. He is thinking of me right now.
He will think of me each morning, every night before he goes to sleep, he will dream of me, all of me...I will never be
the full person I once was because I exist in pieces..."
"SAKURA LISTEN TO YOURSELF YOU VE GIVEN UP!"
She is taken aback by my tone so I take the opportunity to continue.
"Sakura, yes this is horrible. Yes, your life has taken a bad turn. Yes, the psycho will remain a psycho dreaming of you,
but YOU are not with him because YOU, the real YOU is with me! With me, here, sitting on this couch feeling sorry for yourself.
You know what, I love you, I would love you no matter what. Nothing will take you away from me every again, I won't allow such
an occurance to happen because you are my world, you are my life. You complete me. I need you. Without you...I only exist...I am not
alive. I will not live...unless you are living by my side."
She looks away obviously moved by my words. It was only the beginning. I ll be damned if Im going to let Sakura, my Sakura,
stay like this for the rest of her life. She will not live in fear, she will never be afraid because I will never leave her
side...never again...
I look into Sakura's eyes. I can tell she wants to tell me something...I fear what it might be...perhaps a confirmation that
he truly took a very sacred piece of her away...and ripped it away from her...forever..
"Syaoran...I know your wondering...I mean...I know your thinking ..."
"Sakura...you don't have to tell me anything...I..just know that I'm here for you"
"Syaoran, I love you so much...and it's because I love you taht I will tell you exactly...what happened."
Syaoran gulps hard and prepares to hear the confirmation from her very mouth.
"I..was going down the stairs to the basement...I think I was getting more pudding for Kero...he asked me to.."
"OOOH that's right he's in for it, the next time, that piece of.."
"SYAORAN!"
"Sorry...but..he was suppose to protect you!!!"
"Syaoran...I"
"Im sorry Sakura, go on.."
"I uhm, eventually made my way to the ground. I uh..called out to him..."
"You WHAT!? Wait..wait a minute! You KNEW he was there? ...You...KNEW that he would...be in your house...waiting for you...
and he knew that you knew! YOU KNEW HE KNEW! YOU WANTED US OUT OF THE HOUSE! DAMMIT SAKURA WHY WOULDNT YOU WANT US TO PROTECT
YOU!?"
"Syaoran!...I ..I...I!"
"WHAT YOU WANTED TO GET KILLED...OR WORSE!"
"SYAORAN!"
"SAKU...Sakura im sorry...I didnt mean to...Im such a jerk..."
"Yes..yes you are!..."
Syaoran's face turned different shades quickly.
"But that's part of why I love you so damn much!"
Sakura leans over and kisses her boyfriend lovingly before she continued.
"Yes, I knew he would be there, I just had a feeling I guess. I didnt want...you to get hurt..especially not you..never you!
I love you too much to ever let you ..get hurt because of me! God Syaoran, you mean so much to me...He eventually came out
and pulled a knife on me. He said he knew all about everything, that he knew me better than anyone..even knew about the clow
cards and kero. He eventually cornered me...and kissed me. Once I turned away, he was angry...he sl..apped me across the face
and took his knife and cut off some buttons off my shirt...he didn't have the chance to...DO anything else because..you..
my knight in shinning armor came to rescue...and I dont know what I would have done without you..."
Syaoran let the words process into his mind. Yes it was true, Sakura's privacy had been violated but still, there she sat
intacked...more or less. Scared. Frightened. Wounded emotionally, but physically okay. He was relieved to say the least.
"I don't know what I would have done if he killed you Syaoran..I wouldnt have been able to live with myself! Look, I love you
and that's poison...it isnt over Syaoran..he's going to come after you..maybe if..we gave him what he wanted...you wouldnt
be in so much danger and he wouldnt feel the need to-"
Syaoran...
"Sakura...honey..sweetheart...my baby you are the reason I survive...."
Sakura's attention is suddenly directed at me.
"As i look into your eyes "
i see all the reasons why
my life's worth a thousand skies
you're the simplest love i've known
and the purest one i'll own
know you'll never be alone
I know she feels irrepreable...but that is temporary because the future waits for no one, and without her there is no
future...
"my baby you "
are the reason i could fly
and 'cause of you
i don't have to wonder why
baby you
there's no more just getting by
you're the reason i feel so alive ...
Sakura actually smiles up at me as I sing to her hoping to make her life a little less horrible. I only wish she could
see herself the way I see her...
though these words i say are true
they still fail to capture you
as mere words can only do
how do i explain that smile
and how it turns my world around
keeping my feet on the ground
Suddenly I can't help but notice the barely visible flicker begin to burn brighter in her beautiful once vibrant eyes.
It will take a while before she can go back to being the Sakura we all know and love, but she will get there because
I wont let her give up...
my baby you
are the reason i could fly
and 'cause of you
i don't have to wonder why
baby you
there's no more just getting by
you're the reason i feel so alive ...
I owe her everything and I will give her anything her beautiful heart desires. I will give her everything the world has to
offer and then some. She changed me, showed me what true love was...and I will show her the same and more...much much more..
it has only begun, my baby-Sakura...I love her, I will love her..I will never stop loving her...
i will soothe you if you fall
i'll be right there if you call
you're my greatest love of all .....
********************************************************************************************************
Sakura...
I can't help but cry tears of joy, his efforts are staggering. He doesnt give up not for a second. He truly loves me, and
I truly love him. I only wish I could hurry up and become the woman I once was...because he's right, I dont want to give up.
Why should I? All I need is Syaoran...if I have him...why would I give him up????
my baby you
are the reason i could fly
and 'cause of you
i don't have to wonder why
baby you
there's no more just getting by
you're the reason i feel so alive
His voice speaks so softly to me. There is no song playing in the background, just him. His beautiful voice, with his
captivating mouth pronouncing each word...how did I live 10 years without him? I did I exist without him? Before him
I didn't know what living was...I didn't know anything....until him....he makes me feel alive...
i feel so alive............
I can't help but smile. I suddenly grin widely which is returned from his lucious lips which seem to be getting closer.
I prepare myself for impact, but I cannot because his touch just blows me away. Our lips touch and melt together, move
together, kiss together...they hug each other as our tongues dance together. My hands playing with his hair, while his arms
circle my waste claiming my entire body as his own. I am his. He is mine. For eternity.
***********************************************************************************************************
Jason...
Here I am, in a nut house..I don't deserve this! I mean all I did was love a girl who loved me back! What is the harm
in that? Syaoran is the one that should be locked up in here, he's the crazy one for not killing me when he had the chance.
He's a fool and that is a fatal mistake which will be met with a fatal outcome...
************************************************************************************************************
Sakura...
It has been over a month since Jason was commited. I still get goosebumps each time I say his name. Even now, after all
that has happened, my dreams continue to haunt me...it isnt over is what they tell me, not by a long shot...there will be
something standing in our way...someone...Jason.... I will never be able to erase what he tried to do to me, and all the
things he had done to me over the years without my knowledge. I am shocked I survived the entire ordeal, but I am even more
shocked that I survived the aftermaths of it all. It was a tough time, but Syaoran helped me through it. He took me
by the hand and
walked each step with me. He truly loved me, all of me, faults and all...even when I was broken he tried to fix me, I pray
the scars will heal...
I stand in front of my mirror, alongside Tomoyo who is making the finishing touches on my new dress...5 days until Prom
afterall...With Jason put away, no one would be able to stand in our way...
But still...I shut my eyes and I feel the knife pressed up against my throat...I can't help but wonder...is it really over?
end of chapter 12
R&R PLZ! S&S fans no worries it ll get even mushier!!!thankies!
