Sorry almost no R & R in this chapter, but they already had their happy ending and C & M story needed more attention :).
Chapter 13 "Fairy tale endings"
"Kathy!" (--Ok you got me :P) He yelled and stood up quickly like a kid who had been caught stealing candies from the store. Monica looked at Chandler sadly. It was obvious to her that he still loved the woman who was standing in front of them.
Chandler stared Kathy. He felt so angry at her for messing with his heart again.
"I'm gonna leave you two alone." Monica whispered.
"No you don't..."
"That would be nice!" Kathy interrupted him quickly after seeing the way he looked at Monica.
Monica left to her room closing the door behind her, but it didn't stop her from hearing everything that went on in the living room. She had been very surprised to see Kathy here. The whole time she had thought that she was married to his brother.
"What are you doing here?" Chandler asked after hearing Monica close the door.
"What a silly question." She said." I'm here to ask for your forgiveness and begging you to take me back."
"What?!" He couldn't believe what he was hearing. All this time he had wanted her to come back to him and say those words and now when it happened it felt nothing like he expected it to feel. Normally he would have jumped from joy, but now.... Now his heart was full of emptiness. He felt nothing towards the woman.
"I want you back." Kathy repeated a little louder."I want to marry you and start a family with you. I want all the things you said you wanted to have with me. I just wasn't ready then but now I am...I know I am!" she continued seeming very sincere.
Monica felt tears coming down from her eyes when hearing the woman's words. She and Kathy had something in common. They both wanted the same things. The only difference was she could never have those things...she could never have him.
Chandler swallowed hard. Hearing those words from her was like a dream come true well at least it should have been. But now he didn't know how to feel or what to feel.
"It's too late" He finally said.
"What do you mean too late?" Kathy asked. "Are you involved with some one?" He didn't answer her 'cause he honestly didn't know what to say.
"That woman Mona or what her name was..."
"Her name is Monica." Chandler answered a little harshly.
"What ever... Are you involved with her or something? She is a caterer for God's sake."
"So what?! It doesn't make her any less of a person than you or me or anyone else for that matter!"
Monica was surprised to hear him standing up to her like that. She was great full that he did though. That Kathy woman was really starting to get on her nerves. What was she doing here and where was Ross anyway? She couldn't help but to get her hopes up where Chandler was concerned. Since he wasn't welcoming Kathy with his open arms there might be still a change for her too. Besides when Kathy had just asked him was he involved with her he didn't say that he was but he didn't really deny it either. She smiled at the thought but shook her head to remind her that she didn't yet know what Chandler felt for her if he felt anything at all.
"So you admit that you are involved with her then?"
"I don't feel obligated to tell you that. You were the one who left me, remember!"
"Yes I remember and I regret it every day." tears fell from her eyes when she said it. It really sounded honest. Chandler looked in to her eyes and got a bit closer.
"Please don't cry...." He whispered. "I've always hated to see you cry." He whipped a single tear away from her cheek and she smiled.
"Please say that you take me back...I need to hear you say that." Kathy whispered. Quietness returned and both Kathy and Monica were holding there breaths to hear what he had to say. Some one was ought to get hurt, that was for sure. But who? That was up to him?
***
(Dum, Dum, Dum --- Monica Bing singing some dramatic music for you all. She is in charge of the music in my fics ;-))
"I Will." He whispered but as soon as the words had escaped from his lips he regretted them. He just hated to see her cry. He wanted to take the pain away. He wanted to go back were it used to be. It was secure and he needed to feel secure. He couldn't take the risk of resuming another relationship. Kathy was a safe call. There would be no surprises. He knew her all ready. It was the right choice he kept telling himself. Maybe someday he will believe in it too. Maybe...some day.
Monica burst into tears. She had lost yet again. Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. All though she knew it was true it felt so wrong...But she was certain of one thing: she would never regret the time she had with him.. nor the way he made her feel. Monica quietly whipped her tears away as she stood up. It was time for her to leave.
She opened the door and wasn't shocked at all to see Kathy and Chandler kissing because that was what she expected to see. She knew it was gonna hurt to see them like this but she had to get out of here as soon as possible.
She coughed lightly to get their attention. It worked 'cause soon after they turned at her direction. Chandler smiled sadly to her and Monica took it as pity. And she was right. It was pity, but not towards her but towards himself for not being able to take a risk...for being the coward he was and most of all not ever knowing if it would had worked out or not. Now he would never know and that killed him more inside than anything else.
"I should go now." Monica said to them.
"No you don't have to." He told her
"But I do have to...I really do."
After few minutes of insisting Chandler that he didn't have to drive her back to New York Monica finally gave in. She was great full that Kathy decided to stay back at the cottage because she really wasn't looking forward to spending any more time together with the lovebirds than necessary. But she was also afraid of what might happen when she was left alone with Chandler during the long tree hour drive back to New York city. And it was most certainly going to be a long drive. The first hour they droved in complete silence afraid to say anything to each other. In the second hour Chandler had finally turned on the radio and it was playing some mushy pop songs. It did help to ease the awkwardness a bit. In the third and the final hour of the drive Chandler finally felt obligated to start a conversation.
"I'm sorry that you felt like you had to leave." he said nervously.
"It would have been nice if you had stayed for just a few more days." He continued.
"Who are you kidding. You're dying to spend some quality time with Kathy and don't try to deny it!" Monica said it jokingly but it hurt.
"No really I mean it. It's gonna be weird without you there now. I was getting used to you clumsiness."
"My clumsiness? What do you mean by that anyway?"
"So I have to remind you of the chair incident?" he smiled.
"Oh That's not fair." They laughed and it made the situation a little easier.
Chandler parked the car into the first available parking space that was near enough for Monica to walk home. She felt relieved that soon she'd be able crawl in to her own bed and let all the emotions out.
"So thanks for the ride. Bye!" she said quickly and got out of the car. Put he grabbed her hand tightly to stop her.
"Don't think for a minute I'm gonna let you walk home alone at this hour. I'm gonna accompany you."
"No you really don't have to. I have walked here millions of times before. I'll be okay." Monica assured him.
"You should sometimes just try the phrase "yes thanks that would be great" and not always deny when people are offering you their company. Besides It was more like a command than a request. I need to get on my feet anyway after tree hours of driving."
"Fine. It's a free country. Accompany me if you want." she said annoyed when he didn't get that she wanted to be left alone to grief. Did he really want to kick her when she was down.
They started walking in silence not looking at each other. The night seemed to be full of romance all of sudden everywhere they looked there were couples in love. It made both Chandler and Monica feel a bit uncomfortable. They finally reached Monica's apartment and it seemed like a scene from a first date movie. The sky was clear and starts were shining brightly.
"This is me." Monica said looking into his eyes.
"It most certainly is." He smiled weakly.
"Look, before you go." He continued." I have to tell you some thing."
"What?" Monica said excitedly getting her hopes up all of a sudden.
"We have been trough a lot lately and I wanna say..."
"yes" she urged him to continue.
"I'm great full for Kathy about one thing in particular"
"Oh...and what is that?" She asked hating herself for actually thinking Chandler would have confessed his undying love for her. How naive was she really!?.
"If she wouldn't have left me in the altar I never would have gotten to know you like I did. And for that I'm forever great full to her." he took her hand in his and hold it gently.
"You are a wonderful woman and someday you are going to make some man very happy." He continued sadly.
"Where is he?" She asked.
"You mean your Mister Right?" Chandler whispered unsure.
"Yes? Were is my Mr. Right? When am I gonna find him?"
"Maybe you all ready have. Found him I mean. Maybe he is closer than you think." He tried to comfort her in her moment of despair. He couldn't help but think if he could be her Mr. Right, If it wasn't too late yet. But it was stupid to think that. A Perfect woman that she was could never fell for some one like him.
"It's easy for you to say." She whispered a single tear falling from her eye.
"Why is it easy for me to say?"
" 'Cause you have all ready found the one... Haven't you?" She wasn't sure why she had asked such a silly question. Why would she wanna know if Kathy was the one for him. She all ready knew that she was when she saw them together, Why would she wanna hear it from his mouth.
"Yes I have." Chandler said sadly. He had found him Miss Right and now it was time to let her go. The best thing he could ever offer her was her freedom and that was exactly what he would do.
"It was nice knowing you Chandler"
"It was nice knowing you too Monica"
Everything happened so slowly when Monica's hand slipped away from Chandler's hold. She was gone in seconds but he stayed even though it started to rain. He didn't dare to move. He wanted to memorize everything she had ever said to him...everything she had done...her every move. He couldn't help but cry, but his tears were soon lost in the rain. The love of his life was gone. Letting her go was the right thing to do he kept reminding himself. The right thing to do...Well it most certainly didn't feel right. Again he had been the loser. But there had been no winners this time. Not even Kathy. You see who would want a man who was deeply in love with some one else. No one, that is for certain.
Monica crawled into her bed crying. It wouldn't have worked out anyway she kept telling herself that over and over again to make her feel better...it wouldn't have worked out.
***
Time passed by and the long waited Ross and Rachel wedding was finally at hand. Monica and Rachel had gotten really close after Monica returned back to NY and she was now Rachel's maid of honor. Ross had asked his best friend Joey (--- I did put some Joey in this fic after all... Huh! :-)) to be his best man. Rachel's friend Phoebe and Megan (--- And some Phoebe too! We all love her. I can't write a fic without mentioning her at least once now can I?!) were other bride maids.
"You really are the most beautiful bride." Monica smiled while setting Rachel's veil into a better position.
"Well thank you. I'm just so happy! I love your brother so, so, sooo much. I can't really put my feelings into words." Rachel was clearly the happiest person in the world at that moment, Monica could see that. And although she was very happy for her friend she couldn't help, but to feel a little jealous for her too. She would give anything if she was the one walking down the altar. And who would she picture standing at the end of the altar waiting for her? Chandler of course! She still thought of him, Every week, Every day, Every second of every minute of every hour.
"I'm so nervous...What if something goes wrong. What if Ross sees what a mistake he had made asking me to marry him what if...??"
"That is never gonna happen. He loves you more than anything. He is dying to make you his wife." Monica tried to assure her. "Besides you ARE already married."
"Okay...I just want everything to be perfect tonight." Rachel smiled to her dear friend.
"It is going to be perfect. I'm sure of that."
"Could you go get me a class of water please."
"Of course Rach. I'll be back soon." Monica said leaving the room.
***
It had took her at least ten minutes to find a class where to pour the water. She knew Rachel was probably wondering what the heck was taking her so long but it wasn't like she could hurry in the dress she was wearing not to mention the high heels. She was just about to enter the dressing room when a deep male voice which came behind her stoped her.
"Can you tell me where I could find Ms. Rachel Green?" The voice said. The voice that she could recognize from anywhere. It was him...
All the feelings came at the same time. She felt afraid but safe, happy but sad... but most of all she felt love. And when she turned around to look at him in to his deep blue eyes her heart jumped. She was under his spell and a simple "Hi" was all she was able to say.
He was speechless. He didn't expect to see her so soon all though he knew she was going to be here tonight. "That woman just keeps getting more and more beautiful everyday.. if it's even possible" he thought. It made it harder for him not to just grab her in to his arms and never let go. He had dreamed about that every night in the couple of months after their goodbyes when he had been too afraid to tell her about his feelings.
"Oh I'm sorry...I didn't know it was you." he stated avoiding the eye contact.
"It's okay..."
"So..." they both said nervously not knowing what else to say.
"You..." they started at the same time and laughed afterwards but the uncomfortable silence was soon returned.
"You go first. What were you about to say?" Monica finally spoke.
"I was just going to say that you look really beautiful." He said matter-of-factly.
"Shouldn't you be saying that to somebody else?" she asked.
"What exactly do you mean by that?"
"Well Kathy...I mean...never mind...just forget it."
"Oh I know what you're getting at and for your information Ms. Geller I didn't come here with Kathy." He stated.
"Oh really. Where is she then?"
"I really don't know. Last time I heard she was of to marrying a guy name Josh."
"So she left you again..."She said a little too excitedly. "I'm sorry." she added quickly changing her tone.
"She didn't leave me actually. I left her." He replied her.
"Oh you did? Why?"
"I have fallen in love with somebody else." He smiled sadly to her.
"You have?" She asked bitterly. "Is she here today?"
"Yes she is actually." he answered. "How Clueless she really was about his feelings?" he wondered to himself.
"How about you? What is up with you?" He spoke after a brief silence.
"If you're asking me am I here with someone then the answer is no. I came alone." she replied quickly. She really didn't want him to think of her as a pathetic woman. It was not like she couldn't get a date it was more like she didn't want one not if it wasn't him.
"But anyways I have to go" She said showing the class of water to him. "Rachel is waiting for her water."
"Oh I understand...But I want to say one thing before you go. It maybe my only chance left and this time I don't want to be the coward"
"What do you mean a coward?" she asked worried to hear what the man was eager to tell her.
"A coward like I was the night when we said goodbye..."
"You're not making any sense." she replied. But was soon cut out of guard when he suddenly kissed her deeply in to the lips but the kiss was over before it even started.
"Monica just listen." he quickly stoped her before she had the change to speak. "A wise woman once told me that you can't choose who you fall in love with." he continued nervously.
"Yes I know...but an even wiser man once told me that you can choose whether to act on your feelings or not." she replied sadly.
"You should always act upon them before it's too late. And I hope it's not too late for me yet." Chandler said almost whispering.
"It may not be...the only way to know is to tell her how you feel."
"I love you" He said deeply from the heart. It was the most easiest but the same time the most hardest thing he had ever had to say.
"What did you say?" she couldn't believe what she was hearing.
"I love you Monica." he repeated." I love you more than anything...and I know you may never love me back but I just have to tell you. I have hold it back too long. I don't want to go one more sleepless night wondering what if..." She tried to hush him but he continued.
" I tried to move on I really tried, but all I could think was you and I just couldn't keep lying to myself anymore or to Kathy."
"Shh... Chandler" She said to him but again he continued speaking nervously.
"That was when I left her. I couldn't be with her when you where the one I really loved. I'm not expecting anything from you I just wanted to..."
"Just shut up for a while so I can speak." She laughed."I was yours long time before you even opened you mouth." She smiled.
"You were?"
"Yes...I fell in love with you the day I met you and I haven't stoped loving you ever since. I couldn't 'cause my love was too strong. I couldn't move on either all though I really tried but every time some guy came to ask me out I just refused. It just didn't feel right."
"I can't believe what I'm hearing." Chandler smiled."I'm so happy. It's just too bad that we both had to be such cowards. Otherwise we could have been together long time ago."
"I know...but we are together now aren't we?" she asked unsure.
"Oh my sweet darling why are you still so uncertain about my love. I though I told you clearly enough." he asked.
"Maybe it's better if you just showed me." She smiled to him sweetly and how could he have refused her.
***
The ceremony started and Rachel, looking like an angel, walked down the aisle to the man she loved. The emotions were high and neither Rachel or Ross could fight the tears of happiness anymore. The priest asked Ross to say his vows.
"Rach, honey, Our love begun with unusually circumstances. Actually it begun with all the wrong reasons. There was scheming and money and betrayal involved. But still our love, our relationship turned out to be so pure and so deep. We have been trough a lot together and it has only made us stronger and I know that what ever we'll have to go trough in the future we'll be ok, 'cause those wrong reasons have now turned into right ones, I'll love you forever and my feelings will only grow as the time goes by."
Rachel smiled sweetly before starting her own vows. She was touched. Ross' vows were so beautiful and hers didn't seem so great anymore.
"Yesterday night I tried to come up with beautiful vows but now after hearing yours they don't seem right anymore. But it's hard to make vows of our love, because that would mean putting our love into words and I can't do that. There isn't enough words or words strong enough to describe what we feel for each other. All I know is that I loved you a lot in the past, I love you now even more and I will love you the most in the future."
The wedding went by beautifully without any complications and Rachel was so happy. She had finally gotten the wedding she had always dreamed of... She had finally gotten the life she had always dreamed of.
THE END...or is it? *muhaahaaahaa "evil laugh"*
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Chapter 13 "Fairy tale endings"
"Kathy!" (--Ok you got me :P) He yelled and stood up quickly like a kid who had been caught stealing candies from the store. Monica looked at Chandler sadly. It was obvious to her that he still loved the woman who was standing in front of them.
Chandler stared Kathy. He felt so angry at her for messing with his heart again.
"I'm gonna leave you two alone." Monica whispered.
"No you don't..."
"That would be nice!" Kathy interrupted him quickly after seeing the way he looked at Monica.
Monica left to her room closing the door behind her, but it didn't stop her from hearing everything that went on in the living room. She had been very surprised to see Kathy here. The whole time she had thought that she was married to his brother.
"What are you doing here?" Chandler asked after hearing Monica close the door.
"What a silly question." She said." I'm here to ask for your forgiveness and begging you to take me back."
"What?!" He couldn't believe what he was hearing. All this time he had wanted her to come back to him and say those words and now when it happened it felt nothing like he expected it to feel. Normally he would have jumped from joy, but now.... Now his heart was full of emptiness. He felt nothing towards the woman.
"I want you back." Kathy repeated a little louder."I want to marry you and start a family with you. I want all the things you said you wanted to have with me. I just wasn't ready then but now I am...I know I am!" she continued seeming very sincere.
Monica felt tears coming down from her eyes when hearing the woman's words. She and Kathy had something in common. They both wanted the same things. The only difference was she could never have those things...she could never have him.
Chandler swallowed hard. Hearing those words from her was like a dream come true well at least it should have been. But now he didn't know how to feel or what to feel.
"It's too late" He finally said.
"What do you mean too late?" Kathy asked. "Are you involved with some one?" He didn't answer her 'cause he honestly didn't know what to say.
"That woman Mona or what her name was..."
"Her name is Monica." Chandler answered a little harshly.
"What ever... Are you involved with her or something? She is a caterer for God's sake."
"So what?! It doesn't make her any less of a person than you or me or anyone else for that matter!"
Monica was surprised to hear him standing up to her like that. She was great full that he did though. That Kathy woman was really starting to get on her nerves. What was she doing here and where was Ross anyway? She couldn't help but to get her hopes up where Chandler was concerned. Since he wasn't welcoming Kathy with his open arms there might be still a change for her too. Besides when Kathy had just asked him was he involved with her he didn't say that he was but he didn't really deny it either. She smiled at the thought but shook her head to remind her that she didn't yet know what Chandler felt for her if he felt anything at all.
"So you admit that you are involved with her then?"
"I don't feel obligated to tell you that. You were the one who left me, remember!"
"Yes I remember and I regret it every day." tears fell from her eyes when she said it. It really sounded honest. Chandler looked in to her eyes and got a bit closer.
"Please don't cry...." He whispered. "I've always hated to see you cry." He whipped a single tear away from her cheek and she smiled.
"Please say that you take me back...I need to hear you say that." Kathy whispered. Quietness returned and both Kathy and Monica were holding there breaths to hear what he had to say. Some one was ought to get hurt, that was for sure. But who? That was up to him?
***
(Dum, Dum, Dum --- Monica Bing singing some dramatic music for you all. She is in charge of the music in my fics ;-))
"I Will." He whispered but as soon as the words had escaped from his lips he regretted them. He just hated to see her cry. He wanted to take the pain away. He wanted to go back were it used to be. It was secure and he needed to feel secure. He couldn't take the risk of resuming another relationship. Kathy was a safe call. There would be no surprises. He knew her all ready. It was the right choice he kept telling himself. Maybe someday he will believe in it too. Maybe...some day.
Monica burst into tears. She had lost yet again. Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. All though she knew it was true it felt so wrong...But she was certain of one thing: she would never regret the time she had with him.. nor the way he made her feel. Monica quietly whipped her tears away as she stood up. It was time for her to leave.
She opened the door and wasn't shocked at all to see Kathy and Chandler kissing because that was what she expected to see. She knew it was gonna hurt to see them like this but she had to get out of here as soon as possible.
She coughed lightly to get their attention. It worked 'cause soon after they turned at her direction. Chandler smiled sadly to her and Monica took it as pity. And she was right. It was pity, but not towards her but towards himself for not being able to take a risk...for being the coward he was and most of all not ever knowing if it would had worked out or not. Now he would never know and that killed him more inside than anything else.
"I should go now." Monica said to them.
"No you don't have to." He told her
"But I do have to...I really do."
After few minutes of insisting Chandler that he didn't have to drive her back to New York Monica finally gave in. She was great full that Kathy decided to stay back at the cottage because she really wasn't looking forward to spending any more time together with the lovebirds than necessary. But she was also afraid of what might happen when she was left alone with Chandler during the long tree hour drive back to New York city. And it was most certainly going to be a long drive. The first hour they droved in complete silence afraid to say anything to each other. In the second hour Chandler had finally turned on the radio and it was playing some mushy pop songs. It did help to ease the awkwardness a bit. In the third and the final hour of the drive Chandler finally felt obligated to start a conversation.
"I'm sorry that you felt like you had to leave." he said nervously.
"It would have been nice if you had stayed for just a few more days." He continued.
"Who are you kidding. You're dying to spend some quality time with Kathy and don't try to deny it!" Monica said it jokingly but it hurt.
"No really I mean it. It's gonna be weird without you there now. I was getting used to you clumsiness."
"My clumsiness? What do you mean by that anyway?"
"So I have to remind you of the chair incident?" he smiled.
"Oh That's not fair." They laughed and it made the situation a little easier.
Chandler parked the car into the first available parking space that was near enough for Monica to walk home. She felt relieved that soon she'd be able crawl in to her own bed and let all the emotions out.
"So thanks for the ride. Bye!" she said quickly and got out of the car. Put he grabbed her hand tightly to stop her.
"Don't think for a minute I'm gonna let you walk home alone at this hour. I'm gonna accompany you."
"No you really don't have to. I have walked here millions of times before. I'll be okay." Monica assured him.
"You should sometimes just try the phrase "yes thanks that would be great" and not always deny when people are offering you their company. Besides It was more like a command than a request. I need to get on my feet anyway after tree hours of driving."
"Fine. It's a free country. Accompany me if you want." she said annoyed when he didn't get that she wanted to be left alone to grief. Did he really want to kick her when she was down.
They started walking in silence not looking at each other. The night seemed to be full of romance all of sudden everywhere they looked there were couples in love. It made both Chandler and Monica feel a bit uncomfortable. They finally reached Monica's apartment and it seemed like a scene from a first date movie. The sky was clear and starts were shining brightly.
"This is me." Monica said looking into his eyes.
"It most certainly is." He smiled weakly.
"Look, before you go." He continued." I have to tell you some thing."
"What?" Monica said excitedly getting her hopes up all of a sudden.
"We have been trough a lot lately and I wanna say..."
"yes" she urged him to continue.
"I'm great full for Kathy about one thing in particular"
"Oh...and what is that?" She asked hating herself for actually thinking Chandler would have confessed his undying love for her. How naive was she really!?.
"If she wouldn't have left me in the altar I never would have gotten to know you like I did. And for that I'm forever great full to her." he took her hand in his and hold it gently.
"You are a wonderful woman and someday you are going to make some man very happy." He continued sadly.
"Where is he?" She asked.
"You mean your Mister Right?" Chandler whispered unsure.
"Yes? Were is my Mr. Right? When am I gonna find him?"
"Maybe you all ready have. Found him I mean. Maybe he is closer than you think." He tried to comfort her in her moment of despair. He couldn't help but think if he could be her Mr. Right, If it wasn't too late yet. But it was stupid to think that. A Perfect woman that she was could never fell for some one like him.
"It's easy for you to say." She whispered a single tear falling from her eye.
"Why is it easy for me to say?"
" 'Cause you have all ready found the one... Haven't you?" She wasn't sure why she had asked such a silly question. Why would she wanna know if Kathy was the one for him. She all ready knew that she was when she saw them together, Why would she wanna hear it from his mouth.
"Yes I have." Chandler said sadly. He had found him Miss Right and now it was time to let her go. The best thing he could ever offer her was her freedom and that was exactly what he would do.
"It was nice knowing you Chandler"
"It was nice knowing you too Monica"
Everything happened so slowly when Monica's hand slipped away from Chandler's hold. She was gone in seconds but he stayed even though it started to rain. He didn't dare to move. He wanted to memorize everything she had ever said to him...everything she had done...her every move. He couldn't help but cry, but his tears were soon lost in the rain. The love of his life was gone. Letting her go was the right thing to do he kept reminding himself. The right thing to do...Well it most certainly didn't feel right. Again he had been the loser. But there had been no winners this time. Not even Kathy. You see who would want a man who was deeply in love with some one else. No one, that is for certain.
Monica crawled into her bed crying. It wouldn't have worked out anyway she kept telling herself that over and over again to make her feel better...it wouldn't have worked out.
***
Time passed by and the long waited Ross and Rachel wedding was finally at hand. Monica and Rachel had gotten really close after Monica returned back to NY and she was now Rachel's maid of honor. Ross had asked his best friend Joey (--- I did put some Joey in this fic after all... Huh! :-)) to be his best man. Rachel's friend Phoebe and Megan (--- And some Phoebe too! We all love her. I can't write a fic without mentioning her at least once now can I?!) were other bride maids.
"You really are the most beautiful bride." Monica smiled while setting Rachel's veil into a better position.
"Well thank you. I'm just so happy! I love your brother so, so, sooo much. I can't really put my feelings into words." Rachel was clearly the happiest person in the world at that moment, Monica could see that. And although she was very happy for her friend she couldn't help, but to feel a little jealous for her too. She would give anything if she was the one walking down the altar. And who would she picture standing at the end of the altar waiting for her? Chandler of course! She still thought of him, Every week, Every day, Every second of every minute of every hour.
"I'm so nervous...What if something goes wrong. What if Ross sees what a mistake he had made asking me to marry him what if...??"
"That is never gonna happen. He loves you more than anything. He is dying to make you his wife." Monica tried to assure her. "Besides you ARE already married."
"Okay...I just want everything to be perfect tonight." Rachel smiled to her dear friend.
"It is going to be perfect. I'm sure of that."
"Could you go get me a class of water please."
"Of course Rach. I'll be back soon." Monica said leaving the room.
***
It had took her at least ten minutes to find a class where to pour the water. She knew Rachel was probably wondering what the heck was taking her so long but it wasn't like she could hurry in the dress she was wearing not to mention the high heels. She was just about to enter the dressing room when a deep male voice which came behind her stoped her.
"Can you tell me where I could find Ms. Rachel Green?" The voice said. The voice that she could recognize from anywhere. It was him...
All the feelings came at the same time. She felt afraid but safe, happy but sad... but most of all she felt love. And when she turned around to look at him in to his deep blue eyes her heart jumped. She was under his spell and a simple "Hi" was all she was able to say.
He was speechless. He didn't expect to see her so soon all though he knew she was going to be here tonight. "That woman just keeps getting more and more beautiful everyday.. if it's even possible" he thought. It made it harder for him not to just grab her in to his arms and never let go. He had dreamed about that every night in the couple of months after their goodbyes when he had been too afraid to tell her about his feelings.
"Oh I'm sorry...I didn't know it was you." he stated avoiding the eye contact.
"It's okay..."
"So..." they both said nervously not knowing what else to say.
"You..." they started at the same time and laughed afterwards but the uncomfortable silence was soon returned.
"You go first. What were you about to say?" Monica finally spoke.
"I was just going to say that you look really beautiful." He said matter-of-factly.
"Shouldn't you be saying that to somebody else?" she asked.
"What exactly do you mean by that?"
"Well Kathy...I mean...never mind...just forget it."
"Oh I know what you're getting at and for your information Ms. Geller I didn't come here with Kathy." He stated.
"Oh really. Where is she then?"
"I really don't know. Last time I heard she was of to marrying a guy name Josh."
"So she left you again..."She said a little too excitedly. "I'm sorry." she added quickly changing her tone.
"She didn't leave me actually. I left her." He replied her.
"Oh you did? Why?"
"I have fallen in love with somebody else." He smiled sadly to her.
"You have?" She asked bitterly. "Is she here today?"
"Yes she is actually." he answered. "How Clueless she really was about his feelings?" he wondered to himself.
"How about you? What is up with you?" He spoke after a brief silence.
"If you're asking me am I here with someone then the answer is no. I came alone." she replied quickly. She really didn't want him to think of her as a pathetic woman. It was not like she couldn't get a date it was more like she didn't want one not if it wasn't him.
"But anyways I have to go" She said showing the class of water to him. "Rachel is waiting for her water."
"Oh I understand...But I want to say one thing before you go. It maybe my only chance left and this time I don't want to be the coward"
"What do you mean a coward?" she asked worried to hear what the man was eager to tell her.
"A coward like I was the night when we said goodbye..."
"You're not making any sense." she replied. But was soon cut out of guard when he suddenly kissed her deeply in to the lips but the kiss was over before it even started.
"Monica just listen." he quickly stoped her before she had the change to speak. "A wise woman once told me that you can't choose who you fall in love with." he continued nervously.
"Yes I know...but an even wiser man once told me that you can choose whether to act on your feelings or not." she replied sadly.
"You should always act upon them before it's too late. And I hope it's not too late for me yet." Chandler said almost whispering.
"It may not be...the only way to know is to tell her how you feel."
"I love you" He said deeply from the heart. It was the most easiest but the same time the most hardest thing he had ever had to say.
"What did you say?" she couldn't believe what she was hearing.
"I love you Monica." he repeated." I love you more than anything...and I know you may never love me back but I just have to tell you. I have hold it back too long. I don't want to go one more sleepless night wondering what if..." She tried to hush him but he continued.
" I tried to move on I really tried, but all I could think was you and I just couldn't keep lying to myself anymore or to Kathy."
"Shh... Chandler" She said to him but again he continued speaking nervously.
"That was when I left her. I couldn't be with her when you where the one I really loved. I'm not expecting anything from you I just wanted to..."
"Just shut up for a while so I can speak." She laughed."I was yours long time before you even opened you mouth." She smiled.
"You were?"
"Yes...I fell in love with you the day I met you and I haven't stoped loving you ever since. I couldn't 'cause my love was too strong. I couldn't move on either all though I really tried but every time some guy came to ask me out I just refused. It just didn't feel right."
"I can't believe what I'm hearing." Chandler smiled."I'm so happy. It's just too bad that we both had to be such cowards. Otherwise we could have been together long time ago."
"I know...but we are together now aren't we?" she asked unsure.
"Oh my sweet darling why are you still so uncertain about my love. I though I told you clearly enough." he asked.
"Maybe it's better if you just showed me." She smiled to him sweetly and how could he have refused her.
***
The ceremony started and Rachel, looking like an angel, walked down the aisle to the man she loved. The emotions were high and neither Rachel or Ross could fight the tears of happiness anymore. The priest asked Ross to say his vows.
"Rach, honey, Our love begun with unusually circumstances. Actually it begun with all the wrong reasons. There was scheming and money and betrayal involved. But still our love, our relationship turned out to be so pure and so deep. We have been trough a lot together and it has only made us stronger and I know that what ever we'll have to go trough in the future we'll be ok, 'cause those wrong reasons have now turned into right ones, I'll love you forever and my feelings will only grow as the time goes by."
Rachel smiled sweetly before starting her own vows. She was touched. Ross' vows were so beautiful and hers didn't seem so great anymore.
"Yesterday night I tried to come up with beautiful vows but now after hearing yours they don't seem right anymore. But it's hard to make vows of our love, because that would mean putting our love into words and I can't do that. There isn't enough words or words strong enough to describe what we feel for each other. All I know is that I loved you a lot in the past, I love you now even more and I will love you the most in the future."
The wedding went by beautifully without any complications and Rachel was so happy. She had finally gotten the wedding she had always dreamed of... She had finally gotten the life she had always dreamed of.
THE END...or is it? *muhaahaaahaa "evil laugh"*
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