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He Completes Me
Chapter 27- How Do I?
Lisa...
Here I am, on the verge of death, and he's making out with HER!? I can't help this jealousy, he's making a monumetal mistake! I have a gun...I can change this picture, for good.
Syaoran...
I know that look, it's the look of jealousy, I must bare it also, but this girl, she's going to take it out on someone...it scares me because I know who her target will be...
Sakura...
I keep kissing Jason as he invades my body, I try not to feel his hands roaming my body so I can create the diversion everyone needs to escape, but I know they won't leave no matter what diversion I create. Somehow I manage to grab hold of Jason's gun from his pocket. Jason stops his hungry rampage in time to watch as I throw the gun to Syaoran.
"No! Sakura you lied to me! How could you!!!" Jason screamed at me and threw me off the stage. I landed on the ground in pain.
"Sakura!" I heard Syaoran scream his concern, but apparently he saw what I did not.
Syaoran...
Everything started to unfold in slow motion. Lisa's finger was about to pull the trigger while she screamed at Jason for not
loving her. I held my breath, this happened before! My legs began moving on their own in hopes that I
would reach her in time.
Bang.
Tomoyo...
Eriol and I seem to be watching everything in such horrible slow motion. We're paralyzed by the speed of time. We are unable to move as imperative as it may seem to be in this particular situation....we cannot seem to move a muscle in the right direction... The entire scene seems to play on before us, and I cannot help this pain and fear brewing inside me... I was thankful at this point in time that both Eriol and I find ourselves huddled into a corner, bundled up in each other's arms- partly out of fear, but mostly....this comfort would bring forth a mechanism that would ease our suffering..so we hoped. Milli seconds pass by, I blink in horror, hoping that between blinks, their lives don't change drastically... This fear continues to grow as I watch my friends' faces painted with fear and anxiety. What can we do? Besides watch helplessly as this fate unfolds all it's own. I look to Eriol for a split second, in hopes that his silence would provide me with some answers, with a feeling of relief and reasurance..but to no avail for I see plastered upon his face the emotions that I feel...
Eriol...
The scene plays on before us, Tomoyo and I, only spectators, as if critics criticizing a movie, rating it for our own pleasure. However, I know better. If only this truly were a movie awaiting it's moment for fame... I watch in horror as Sakura manages to grab hold of Jason's gun, tossing it over to Syaoran. I hold my breath, dear God, this could very well be over... Just as I am about to celebrate, I watch Syaoran dash across the endless room...for he saw what we all failed to notice...Lisa...gun in hand ready to fire. I pray to myself, wishing and hoping that we could all exit this room one last time freely and very much alive...but this could never happen..not ever again. This was a showdown...a duel...to the death perhaps... I see in the corner of my eye, Tomoyo holding me tighter, as if I were a stuffed animal providing her comfort and reasurance as her deep slumber traversing through this endless nightmare... I meet her gaze, only to greet her with eyes so full of concern and fear...not a speck of reassurace in my face...only worry and horror. I wanted to shield Tomoyo from this dispicable display of human rage...but I could not. We continue to witness the appauling display..paralyzed with fear.
Jason...
How could she? Sakura betrayed me! We embraced so deeply just now, displaying true emotion! Was it all a scam? to spare to her "sweet Syaoran?" What dispicable behavior or her behalf! Yet, I still want her. I think back to the years of watching from afar and realize that I was right! I would never be wrong! One can never be wrong when it comes to love! I LOVE her! He doesnt! If I had that gun of mine, he wouldn't be living right now! Here I am now, paralyzed as I continue to watch. Lisa suddenly aims her gun and steadies her shaky and hands. She wanted vengence. It was written all over her face. The second was here..
Sakura...
I seem to recall throwing the weapon over in Syaoran's direction. I never got the chance to watch it land, for once it flew out of my hands, I heard a loud crack of thunder ripping through the tension and fear. A gun. At some point in time, I closed my eyes, preping myself for what was to come...my demise. I could hear yelling and screaming, heart-filled and sorrowful hollers from each direction. Time seemed to slow itself down.....Tomoyo and Eriol huddled in their corner, their faces white and ghost-like, Jason's eyes peered towards the door at Lisa whoe's steady hands regained it's shaky composure, dropping the gun passing out into oblivion....Syaoran's face seemed to grow neared at light speed somehow. There he was, maintaining his dedication and devotion to me, protecting me to the bitter end...no words could explain the depth of my feelings for him...perhaps only actions...actions which would go unshown...
I watch in horor as the scene rolls on before me. I can taste the fear that surrounds me. I now stare at the oozing liquid that claims the floor as it's own. Another step has been taken. I feel a sudden jolt as I fall backwards, into the darkness, into the deprivational darkness that willingly consumes me whole. A sudden bright light welcomes my arrival but there is something holding me back. I hear the chaos suddenly drift away, voices are faint whispers. I see myself growing up in a matter a seconds before my eyes, scenes from my life
just flashing before me. I see my friends huddled in a corner shocked and in tears. I hear them screaming my name...screaming...screaming...just yelling "Sakura" I can no longer see them... I can no longer comfort them...and soon I will no longer be near them....Just then I hear someone yell to me! Syaoran, I know it is, it has to be, his melodic voice ringing in my ears unwilling to leave him, the only one that will ever complete me, the only man I will ever love...its all over now... The whispering in my ear, words of encouragement he yells to me soon stop...I am left in darkness yet again...I am alone...Perhaps I am dead...this is it...I will die incomplete...I never gave myself to him...I lived incomplete...I die...an incomplete soul and soon I find myself fading into the background, I no longer exist....I am incomplete...because he completes me...and I never said so...I never showed him....
'Syaoran...'
I hear screams, screams and more screams...yelling louder louder...
"Sak-ura..op-open your eye-s sweet-..hear..t it's...o-ver..all...o-ver..."
My eyes fly open only to be greeted with Syaoran's pain stricken face. His body lay on top of mine...we were both sprawled on the floor. I find myself recollecting my thoughts...my dream...exactly like my dream from many nights ago...it was a prophetic dream afterall? I recall my senses back to life...and realize that I myself am not in pain...no lead entry wounds...I...I felt no pain, only relief...Syaoran lay over me protectively telling me that it was all over. The horrible fears, the appauling dangers...it was all over. I smile suddenly, it was over. Suddenly I realize that the ground all around me is soaked with red liquid...my dress...soaked in that very same red sticky liquid...only my dress was not the same dress as in my dream...minor differences... I look into Syaoran's half closed eyes and he gently moves himself off my body and glides onto the blood stained ground and grunts.
"Sy..Syaoran what's the matter?"
"Nothing honey, really"
He smiles a weak smile but I know him better than he knows himself. I can't help wondering where this blood originated from...My heart leaps into my throat for I realize that this blood is none other than..... I gasp in shock and in panic. No. Oh God. No!
"SYAORAN!"
Syaoran...
I find myself laying on the ground, horrified and petrified. The very thought of what has just transcended disturbs me to the core. I shut my eyes briefly in hopes that once they open once more, I will see Sakura, laying besides me in the park, laughing and flashin her beautiful smile at me. Heaven. I open my eyes, and find Sakura...only her eyes are filled with tears, her face red and yet pale. Her appearance personifies pain and I feel a sudden jolt and panic. I realize I have been shot.... I remember seeing Lisa...her arm raised, gun pointed at it's target, ready for the kill. At first I thought her focus was Jason, for revenge...but her target was none other than Sakura. I gasped and leaped over to her praying I wouldn't be too late. I promised myself many times that I would protect her from harm...and so this was my time to prove myself. Which was exactly what I had done... I managed to push and shield Sakura allowing the lead to penetrate my skin. I remember falling and closing my eyes, thanking the Lord that she was spared. But now I see her face stricken with pain...the very pain I tried to shield her from. Was my sacrifice in vain? I smile to myself. No. Sakura was alive, that's all that mattered. Her happiness would be replenished with a new love...one day...right?
"Syaoran! Can you hear me!? Oh my God! SYAORAN!"
I cannot help but listen to her pleading voice so filled with frustration...sadness...pain! Pain. I prayed she would never endure that horrendous sentiment!
I have failed her many times in the past and I had hoped that I could protect her one last time from the pain and the horror she would have endured had the lead
penetrated her body rather than mine. I feel so powerless, her tears fall from both eyes, her petrified screams echo over
and over again within my ears. I hoped to God He would have shown her mercy! "Take me instead!" I remember yelling to Him seconds
before this unfortunate fate unraveled before its victims. Oh Sakura. The very thing I tried to protect you from has managed
to coil itself around your innocence. I had protected her from physical pain, but what about emotional? My sweet Sakura, what
have I done? Have I saved you? Or sealed your fate with a kiss?
"Sa-kura...I'm..so-r..sor-ry...I lov-e yo-u"
I try to speak in words the feelings and thoughts that encircle me, but to no avail, my body seems to be fading from this world...
Was this the end?
Sakura...
I watch my love slip away from me and I am powerless to stop his departure. Oh Syaoran. Why? Why did you bother to save me knowing that you would not live this life with me?
Why can't you understand how pointless and painful my life would be without you!? If only I could say all the things I've wanted to say...If only I had done all the things
I d wanted to do...why did I waste so much time? I took it all for granted didn't I?
He has grown very pale in a matter of moments. I dont know what to do! I find myself paralyzed with fear. How could I let this happen?
His hands...are so cold..so very cold. His eyes...seem to close for long periods of time followed by mere blinks... His lips,
have adopted a death-like color, blue almost... Beads of sweat roll down his face. Oh Syaoran.
"Syaoran, don't you even THINK about leaving me! If you leave me don't think for a second that I won't follow you!!!"
His eyes grow wide as if in fear and protest.
"No...Sak-ura...you..ne-ed to li-ve on...em-brace li-fe...em-brace ..an..ano-ther, be..hap-py..."
"Live life? A life without you Syaoran Li is not a life... LIVING WITHOUT YOU IS NOT LIVING!"
"SAK-URA! DO-N'T...BE STU-P..ID! I-"
"SHUT UP SYAORAN JUST SHUT UP! DAMN YOU! WHY THE HELL DID YOU SAVE ME? HUH? WHY!??? I DONT WANT TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU! DAMMIT!
DO YOU HEAR ME??? HUH??!!!"
Tomoyo...
Eriol and I watch from afar. The pain is so thick all around us. Tears, sweat and blood stain the gym floor. Oh how could such
a horrible thing happen? To Sakura? To Syaoran? Two angelic people who are so in love...Why did this happen?
Eriol...
Tomoyo and I are paralyzed in sorrow. Sakura. She has been through so much, such a terrible ordeal...which leaves me wondering
asking myself how much more can she take? If Syaoran were to..die... I cringe at the thought...but if it were to happen...
how would she handle it? Would her lips ever smile again? Will her eyes ever possess that innocent twinkle again? Would
she find a way to be whole again? Syaoran and Sakura... They are one of the same... life without the other... what kind of life
would that be? I hold Tomoyo tightly and protectively in my arms. I look over to Lisa...no movement at all. I look over to the devil himself,
he seems frozen, as if unable to move, to think, to repent...
Sakura...
"Syaoran..I love you..."
"I lo-ve you too..."
"Then you can fight for that love Syaoran! Fight to live! It isn't over!!! It's never too late! We've been through thick and thin
to be together, don't give up now! Don't leave me alone...Please... DAMMIT! CLOW CARDS! CLOW CARDS COME OUT HERE NOW!"
I find myself temporarily blinded by the bright lights merging into a spiritual being.
"Clo-w Cards...save him...please..please save him.."
"Mistress, do not be afraid...Master do not fret.."
"Clow Cards..he is dying...please don't let this happen! PLEASE!"
"Mistress...we hear your heart's desire...we hear it's pleading...we know you want us to somehow rectify this problem...
we feel your need for our Master...we know you would give your life for his...as he has done for you...but mistress this story
must play out this way..it must"
"NO! NO! IT WONT! I WONT LET IT!"
"Mistress, please understand, if we repeated this scene over and over again, falsifying time, time and time again, the end result
would be the same...this is fate's doing.."
"I WONT ACCEPT THIS CLOW CARDS! I AM YOUR MISTRESS! I COMMAND YOU! FIX THIS!"
"Do not worry Mistress, all is not lost... Master please hang on, fight a little longer, you can and you WILL overcome this.."
"NO! NO! I COMMAND YOU TIME CARD REVERSE TIME! SAVE SYAORAN!"
"Sa-kura...if ...if ti-me was...re-ve..rsed.. it wou-ld be yo-u o-n the ver-ge of de..death.. I can-t al-low that...I-"
"I WOULD DIE FOR YOU SYAORAN! I WILL DIE FOR YOU! TIME CARD!!!.."
"SAKURA DON'T!!!!"
I raise my head slowly, my eyes filled with anger and hate.
"You...YOU! YOU HAVE NO BUSINESS SPEAKING TO ME!"
"Sakura...please listen to me you need to live on..."
"Let me guess Jason, you would like me to "live on" WITH YOU! Well let me tell you something you freak! If you were dying
in a desert and you needed water, I would'nt even consider spitting on you to hydrate you!.."
"Sakura please-"
"NO! JASON!"
"Please Sakura, let me..help you, let me do something.."
"There is one thing you can do...GO TO HELL!!!"
Silence.
The tension was rising. All was quiet. While Syaoran lies in a pool of blood...
Syaoran...
I feel weaker by the second. I need to prepare her...I don't know how long I will last...I'm so sorry Sakura..
"Sa-kura...I-m so-rry..."
"How do I Syaoran? How do I do it? How do I get through one night without you? Syaoran, if I had to live without you, what
kind of life would that be? ...Oh, I need..I need you in my arms, I need you to hold! Syaoran, sweet Syaoran, you're my world,
my heart, my soul...oh...if..if you ever leave.... baby you would take away everything good in my life...so tell me now..
How do I live without you? I want to know Syaoran... How do I breathe without you...if you ever go? How do I..ever...EVER
survive??? Oh how do I do it? huh? How do I? How the HELL do I live??? Answer me Syaoran.."
"Yo-u...mu-st Sak-ura... I ne-ed you to li-ve on...pl-ease Sak-ura...life goes..on...you'll lea-rn to li-ve on..with-out
me.."
"You still haven't figured it out have you? Without you, there'd be no sun in my sky...there would be no love in my life...
There'd be no world left for me....And...And...And I,...Baby I don't know what I would do! I'd..I'd be LOST if I lost you...
Syaoran...please understand that if you ever leave...baby you would take away everything! real in my life! So tell me now,
How do I do it? How do I live without you? Huh? I want to know! Can you tell me that Syaoran? How do I breathe without you?
..If you ever go...how do I ever...EVER survive? How do I...how do..how do I? Tell me...how do I live? Please Syaoran tell me
...please tell me baby, how do I go on? If you ever leave...baby you would take away everything...dammit! I NEED you WITH me!
Baby don't you know that you're everthing, real in my life? ..TELL ME NOW...How do I live without you? I want to know... How do I
breathe without you? If ou ever go... How do I ever, ever survive? How do I, how do I, oh how do I live? How do I live without you?
How do I live without you baby?..Do you understand what I'm saying Syaoran, because I need you to know that I can't live
without that smiling face of yours! I can't breathe without you next to me! I have nothing if I dont have you..."
Syaoran, listen to me...you love me, I know that...you complete me Syaoran, I am nothing without you...Please fight for me,
fight for our unborn children, fight for our first time together! fight for our home together, fight for our future together!"
You have never given up on anything in your life Syaoran, why start now?!?"
Syaoran..
Sakura is right. I have never nor will I ever give up on anything! I refuse to give up our life together before it has begun.
Sakura...
"Syaoran, the ambulance is on it's way alright? We don't need magic to save you, just fight for us, for me..."
"I wo-'nt le-ave you..my lo-ve...Sak-ura"
"Shh, don't talk sweetheart, save your strength"
"Sak-ura....ma-rry me.."
I am overjoyed. Not only because of this proposal, but because this shows that he is fighting to live...fighting for us.
"Nothing would make me happier Syaoran...Yes I WILL marry you!"
Suddenly sirens were blaring and angels burst through the doors equipment in hand. I held my breath, would they save him in time?
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Syaoran...
I feel weak as I lie on this moving bed. I feel someone squeezing my hand, holding it tight, as if their grip was strong enough
to keep me here on earth...amongst the living. Sakura. I knew it was her. I could smell her sweet smell light years away.
My angel was trying to keep me with her... I would find my way back to her soon..I will Sakura, I will...and we will be married
and we'll have that future together..I promise you.. I find myself drifting to sleep...so peaceful, no Jason. Only me, and Sakura,
holding hands, kissing...in short completing each other like never before. Sheer heaven.
Sakura...
I feel so helpless. They tell me that Syaoran may not make it through this..they said to each other than he probably won't
make it to the hospital...they said that if he were to make it...he would be gone before they could extract the bullet from
his lifeless corpse.. Oh Syaoran.
"Do..do you think he can hear me?"
Someone answered sincerely.
"Yes, miss I believe he can...say what you need to say darling...give him something to hold on to.."
I nod. I open my mouth to speak, but the words won't come. There are too many. They bump into each other on their way out.
I cannot form the words I long to say...so instead I sing...I sing the words my heart has been acheing to speak..
(Midnight sons: if only tears could bring you back to me THANX RINI!)
"How will I start
Tomorrow without you here
Who's heart will guide me
When all the answers disappear..."
Oh Syaoran...don't leave me...please hold on to me...hold on to life..
Is it too late
Are you too far gone to stay
This one's forever
Should never have to go away
What will I do
You know I'm only
Half without you
How will I make it through
Life without you is just a burden...I need you beside me..otherwise I'm weak..too weak to live..
If only tears could
Bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do
What I would give
If you returned to me someday
Somehow, someway
If my tears could bring
You back to me
If only my tears could bring you home to me..home where you belond Syaoran...
I'd cry you an ocean
If you'd sail on home again
Wings of emotion
Will carry you
I know they can
Just light will guide you
And your heart will
Chart the course
Soon you'll be drifting
Into the arms of your true north
Look in my eyes
And you will see a
Million tears have gone by
And still they're not dry
If only tears could
Bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do
What I would give
If you returned
To me someday
Somehow, someway
If my tears could
Bring you back to me
I hold you close
And shout the words
I only whispered before
For one more chance
For one last dance
There's nothing that
I would not give and more
If only tears could
Bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do
What I would give
If you returned to me someday
Somehow, someway
If my tears could
Bring you back to me........"
"That was beautiful miss...I'm sure he's on his way back to you...your tears are going to bring him back."
"I hope you right...my boyfriend...my fiancé is my life..do you think he knows that he completes me? I mean really knows?"
"Without a doublt in my mind miss...your fiancé is coming back to you..."
"Thank you..."
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Tomoyo...
Eriol and I waited for the next ambulance to come and boarded it. Right now we're on our way to the hospital. Jason is with the police, in their car behind us.
Sadly Lisa passed away before the ambulance arrived. I feel sorry for her...she was manipulated by Jason and as a result she
died...well I hope her soul is at peace...Part of me hopes her soul is sent to an eternity of pain, but I could tell
that even during her moment of insanity brought on by jealousy, she was hurting..Jason hurt her..just another one of his vicitms,
An innocent victim...poor Lisa...maybe God will have mercy on her misguided soul...As for Syaoran, poor Syaoran, I pray love
will bring him back...I wonder if Syaoran will make it...
"Tomoyo..are you alright?"
"Not really Eriol..I can't imagine what Sakura is going through right now...she might actually lose the one thing that completes
her soul..."
"Tomoyo...Syaoran is strong...he would die for Sakura...he will live for Sakura.."
"Here's a stupid question...are you sure?"
"Tomoyo...I know him...I feel the same way for you as he does for Sakura...and I know that if it were me..I would move
heaven and earth to return to your loving arms...I love you Tomoyo..please trust and believe me my love..
"I love you too honey.."
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At the hospital...
Sakura..
I wait eagerly for the doctor to come out of the O.R. I can't help but feel nervous. Was Syaoran going to keep his promise?
"Excuse me miss?"
I turn around and hold my breath.
"How is he doctor?"
"Mr. Syaoran Li needs a blood transfusion...do you have type O blood by any chance?"
I freeze. Type O. My blood is type A. Tomoyo's is type A. Eriol is AB. There is only one other person who has blood type O.
Jason.
How was that people? I know it's been a really long time, so hopefully you enjoyed this chapter. Big thanks to Rini for
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on!!!! Next update will be a big one hopefully! I hope this is long enough for you guys for now! Enjoy! R&R PLZ! THANK YOU
TO ALL YOU READERS AND REVIEWERS! I'm honored and touched :)! Read on!
He Completes Me
Chapter 27- How Do I?
Lisa...
Here I am, on the verge of death, and he's making out with HER!? I can't help this jealousy, he's making a monumetal mistake! I have a gun...I can change this picture, for good.
Syaoran...
I know that look, it's the look of jealousy, I must bare it also, but this girl, she's going to take it out on someone...it scares me because I know who her target will be...
Sakura...
I keep kissing Jason as he invades my body, I try not to feel his hands roaming my body so I can create the diversion everyone needs to escape, but I know they won't leave no matter what diversion I create. Somehow I manage to grab hold of Jason's gun from his pocket. Jason stops his hungry rampage in time to watch as I throw the gun to Syaoran.
"No! Sakura you lied to me! How could you!!!" Jason screamed at me and threw me off the stage. I landed on the ground in pain.
"Sakura!" I heard Syaoran scream his concern, but apparently he saw what I did not.
Syaoran...
Everything started to unfold in slow motion. Lisa's finger was about to pull the trigger while she screamed at Jason for not
loving her. I held my breath, this happened before! My legs began moving on their own in hopes that I
would reach her in time.
Bang.
Tomoyo...
Eriol and I seem to be watching everything in such horrible slow motion. We're paralyzed by the speed of time. We are unable to move as imperative as it may seem to be in this particular situation....we cannot seem to move a muscle in the right direction... The entire scene seems to play on before us, and I cannot help this pain and fear brewing inside me... I was thankful at this point in time that both Eriol and I find ourselves huddled into a corner, bundled up in each other's arms- partly out of fear, but mostly....this comfort would bring forth a mechanism that would ease our suffering..so we hoped. Milli seconds pass by, I blink in horror, hoping that between blinks, their lives don't change drastically... This fear continues to grow as I watch my friends' faces painted with fear and anxiety. What can we do? Besides watch helplessly as this fate unfolds all it's own. I look to Eriol for a split second, in hopes that his silence would provide me with some answers, with a feeling of relief and reasurance..but to no avail for I see plastered upon his face the emotions that I feel...
Eriol...
The scene plays on before us, Tomoyo and I, only spectators, as if critics criticizing a movie, rating it for our own pleasure. However, I know better. If only this truly were a movie awaiting it's moment for fame... I watch in horror as Sakura manages to grab hold of Jason's gun, tossing it over to Syaoran. I hold my breath, dear God, this could very well be over... Just as I am about to celebrate, I watch Syaoran dash across the endless room...for he saw what we all failed to notice...Lisa...gun in hand ready to fire. I pray to myself, wishing and hoping that we could all exit this room one last time freely and very much alive...but this could never happen..not ever again. This was a showdown...a duel...to the death perhaps... I see in the corner of my eye, Tomoyo holding me tighter, as if I were a stuffed animal providing her comfort and reasurance as her deep slumber traversing through this endless nightmare... I meet her gaze, only to greet her with eyes so full of concern and fear...not a speck of reassurace in my face...only worry and horror. I wanted to shield Tomoyo from this dispicable display of human rage...but I could not. We continue to witness the appauling display..paralyzed with fear.
Jason...
How could she? Sakura betrayed me! We embraced so deeply just now, displaying true emotion! Was it all a scam? to spare to her "sweet Syaoran?" What dispicable behavior or her behalf! Yet, I still want her. I think back to the years of watching from afar and realize that I was right! I would never be wrong! One can never be wrong when it comes to love! I LOVE her! He doesnt! If I had that gun of mine, he wouldn't be living right now! Here I am now, paralyzed as I continue to watch. Lisa suddenly aims her gun and steadies her shaky and hands. She wanted vengence. It was written all over her face. The second was here..
Sakura...
I seem to recall throwing the weapon over in Syaoran's direction. I never got the chance to watch it land, for once it flew out of my hands, I heard a loud crack of thunder ripping through the tension and fear. A gun. At some point in time, I closed my eyes, preping myself for what was to come...my demise. I could hear yelling and screaming, heart-filled and sorrowful hollers from each direction. Time seemed to slow itself down.....Tomoyo and Eriol huddled in their corner, their faces white and ghost-like, Jason's eyes peered towards the door at Lisa whoe's steady hands regained it's shaky composure, dropping the gun passing out into oblivion....Syaoran's face seemed to grow neared at light speed somehow. There he was, maintaining his dedication and devotion to me, protecting me to the bitter end...no words could explain the depth of my feelings for him...perhaps only actions...actions which would go unshown...
I watch in horor as the scene rolls on before me. I can taste the fear that surrounds me. I now stare at the oozing liquid that claims the floor as it's own. Another step has been taken. I feel a sudden jolt as I fall backwards, into the darkness, into the deprivational darkness that willingly consumes me whole. A sudden bright light welcomes my arrival but there is something holding me back. I hear the chaos suddenly drift away, voices are faint whispers. I see myself growing up in a matter a seconds before my eyes, scenes from my life
just flashing before me. I see my friends huddled in a corner shocked and in tears. I hear them screaming my name...screaming...screaming...just yelling "Sakura" I can no longer see them... I can no longer comfort them...and soon I will no longer be near them....Just then I hear someone yell to me! Syaoran, I know it is, it has to be, his melodic voice ringing in my ears unwilling to leave him, the only one that will ever complete me, the only man I will ever love...its all over now... The whispering in my ear, words of encouragement he yells to me soon stop...I am left in darkness yet again...I am alone...Perhaps I am dead...this is it...I will die incomplete...I never gave myself to him...I lived incomplete...I die...an incomplete soul and soon I find myself fading into the background, I no longer exist....I am incomplete...because he completes me...and I never said so...I never showed him....
'Syaoran...'
I hear screams, screams and more screams...yelling louder louder...
"Sak-ura..op-open your eye-s sweet-..hear..t it's...o-ver..all...o-ver..."
My eyes fly open only to be greeted with Syaoran's pain stricken face. His body lay on top of mine...we were both sprawled on the floor. I find myself recollecting my thoughts...my dream...exactly like my dream from many nights ago...it was a prophetic dream afterall? I recall my senses back to life...and realize that I myself am not in pain...no lead entry wounds...I...I felt no pain, only relief...Syaoran lay over me protectively telling me that it was all over. The horrible fears, the appauling dangers...it was all over. I smile suddenly, it was over. Suddenly I realize that the ground all around me is soaked with red liquid...my dress...soaked in that very same red sticky liquid...only my dress was not the same dress as in my dream...minor differences... I look into Syaoran's half closed eyes and he gently moves himself off my body and glides onto the blood stained ground and grunts.
"Sy..Syaoran what's the matter?"
"Nothing honey, really"
He smiles a weak smile but I know him better than he knows himself. I can't help wondering where this blood originated from...My heart leaps into my throat for I realize that this blood is none other than..... I gasp in shock and in panic. No. Oh God. No!
"SYAORAN!"
Syaoran...
I find myself laying on the ground, horrified and petrified. The very thought of what has just transcended disturbs me to the core. I shut my eyes briefly in hopes that once they open once more, I will see Sakura, laying besides me in the park, laughing and flashin her beautiful smile at me. Heaven. I open my eyes, and find Sakura...only her eyes are filled with tears, her face red and yet pale. Her appearance personifies pain and I feel a sudden jolt and panic. I realize I have been shot.... I remember seeing Lisa...her arm raised, gun pointed at it's target, ready for the kill. At first I thought her focus was Jason, for revenge...but her target was none other than Sakura. I gasped and leaped over to her praying I wouldn't be too late. I promised myself many times that I would protect her from harm...and so this was my time to prove myself. Which was exactly what I had done... I managed to push and shield Sakura allowing the lead to penetrate my skin. I remember falling and closing my eyes, thanking the Lord that she was spared. But now I see her face stricken with pain...the very pain I tried to shield her from. Was my sacrifice in vain? I smile to myself. No. Sakura was alive, that's all that mattered. Her happiness would be replenished with a new love...one day...right?
"Syaoran! Can you hear me!? Oh my God! SYAORAN!"
I cannot help but listen to her pleading voice so filled with frustration...sadness...pain! Pain. I prayed she would never endure that horrendous sentiment!
I have failed her many times in the past and I had hoped that I could protect her one last time from the pain and the horror she would have endured had the lead
penetrated her body rather than mine. I feel so powerless, her tears fall from both eyes, her petrified screams echo over
and over again within my ears. I hoped to God He would have shown her mercy! "Take me instead!" I remember yelling to Him seconds
before this unfortunate fate unraveled before its victims. Oh Sakura. The very thing I tried to protect you from has managed
to coil itself around your innocence. I had protected her from physical pain, but what about emotional? My sweet Sakura, what
have I done? Have I saved you? Or sealed your fate with a kiss?
"Sa-kura...I'm..so-r..sor-ry...I lov-e yo-u"
I try to speak in words the feelings and thoughts that encircle me, but to no avail, my body seems to be fading from this world...
Was this the end?
Sakura...
I watch my love slip away from me and I am powerless to stop his departure. Oh Syaoran. Why? Why did you bother to save me knowing that you would not live this life with me?
Why can't you understand how pointless and painful my life would be without you!? If only I could say all the things I've wanted to say...If only I had done all the things
I d wanted to do...why did I waste so much time? I took it all for granted didn't I?
He has grown very pale in a matter of moments. I dont know what to do! I find myself paralyzed with fear. How could I let this happen?
His hands...are so cold..so very cold. His eyes...seem to close for long periods of time followed by mere blinks... His lips,
have adopted a death-like color, blue almost... Beads of sweat roll down his face. Oh Syaoran.
"Syaoran, don't you even THINK about leaving me! If you leave me don't think for a second that I won't follow you!!!"
His eyes grow wide as if in fear and protest.
"No...Sak-ura...you..ne-ed to li-ve on...em-brace li-fe...em-brace ..an..ano-ther, be..hap-py..."
"Live life? A life without you Syaoran Li is not a life... LIVING WITHOUT YOU IS NOT LIVING!"
"SAK-URA! DO-N'T...BE STU-P..ID! I-"
"SHUT UP SYAORAN JUST SHUT UP! DAMN YOU! WHY THE HELL DID YOU SAVE ME? HUH? WHY!??? I DONT WANT TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU! DAMMIT!
DO YOU HEAR ME??? HUH??!!!"
Tomoyo...
Eriol and I watch from afar. The pain is so thick all around us. Tears, sweat and blood stain the gym floor. Oh how could such
a horrible thing happen? To Sakura? To Syaoran? Two angelic people who are so in love...Why did this happen?
Eriol...
Tomoyo and I are paralyzed in sorrow. Sakura. She has been through so much, such a terrible ordeal...which leaves me wondering
asking myself how much more can she take? If Syaoran were to..die... I cringe at the thought...but if it were to happen...
how would she handle it? Would her lips ever smile again? Will her eyes ever possess that innocent twinkle again? Would
she find a way to be whole again? Syaoran and Sakura... They are one of the same... life without the other... what kind of life
would that be? I hold Tomoyo tightly and protectively in my arms. I look over to Lisa...no movement at all. I look over to the devil himself,
he seems frozen, as if unable to move, to think, to repent...
Sakura...
"Syaoran..I love you..."
"I lo-ve you too..."
"Then you can fight for that love Syaoran! Fight to live! It isn't over!!! It's never too late! We've been through thick and thin
to be together, don't give up now! Don't leave me alone...Please... DAMMIT! CLOW CARDS! CLOW CARDS COME OUT HERE NOW!"
I find myself temporarily blinded by the bright lights merging into a spiritual being.
"Clo-w Cards...save him...please..please save him.."
"Mistress, do not be afraid...Master do not fret.."
"Clow Cards..he is dying...please don't let this happen! PLEASE!"
"Mistress...we hear your heart's desire...we hear it's pleading...we know you want us to somehow rectify this problem...
we feel your need for our Master...we know you would give your life for his...as he has done for you...but mistress this story
must play out this way..it must"
"NO! NO! IT WONT! I WONT LET IT!"
"Mistress, please understand, if we repeated this scene over and over again, falsifying time, time and time again, the end result
would be the same...this is fate's doing.."
"I WONT ACCEPT THIS CLOW CARDS! I AM YOUR MISTRESS! I COMMAND YOU! FIX THIS!"
"Do not worry Mistress, all is not lost... Master please hang on, fight a little longer, you can and you WILL overcome this.."
"NO! NO! I COMMAND YOU TIME CARD REVERSE TIME! SAVE SYAORAN!"
"Sa-kura...if ...if ti-me was...re-ve..rsed.. it wou-ld be yo-u o-n the ver-ge of de..death.. I can-t al-low that...I-"
"I WOULD DIE FOR YOU SYAORAN! I WILL DIE FOR YOU! TIME CARD!!!.."
"SAKURA DON'T!!!!"
I raise my head slowly, my eyes filled with anger and hate.
"You...YOU! YOU HAVE NO BUSINESS SPEAKING TO ME!"
"Sakura...please listen to me you need to live on..."
"Let me guess Jason, you would like me to "live on" WITH YOU! Well let me tell you something you freak! If you were dying
in a desert and you needed water, I would'nt even consider spitting on you to hydrate you!.."
"Sakura please-"
"NO! JASON!"
"Please Sakura, let me..help you, let me do something.."
"There is one thing you can do...GO TO HELL!!!"
Silence.
The tension was rising. All was quiet. While Syaoran lies in a pool of blood...
Syaoran...
I feel weaker by the second. I need to prepare her...I don't know how long I will last...I'm so sorry Sakura..
"Sa-kura...I-m so-rry..."
"How do I Syaoran? How do I do it? How do I get through one night without you? Syaoran, if I had to live without you, what
kind of life would that be? ...Oh, I need..I need you in my arms, I need you to hold! Syaoran, sweet Syaoran, you're my world,
my heart, my soul...oh...if..if you ever leave.... baby you would take away everything good in my life...so tell me now..
How do I live without you? I want to know Syaoran... How do I breathe without you...if you ever go? How do I..ever...EVER
survive??? Oh how do I do it? huh? How do I? How the HELL do I live??? Answer me Syaoran.."
"Yo-u...mu-st Sak-ura... I ne-ed you to li-ve on...pl-ease Sak-ura...life goes..on...you'll lea-rn to li-ve on..with-out
me.."
"You still haven't figured it out have you? Without you, there'd be no sun in my sky...there would be no love in my life...
There'd be no world left for me....And...And...And I,...Baby I don't know what I would do! I'd..I'd be LOST if I lost you...
Syaoran...please understand that if you ever leave...baby you would take away everything! real in my life! So tell me now,
How do I do it? How do I live without you? Huh? I want to know! Can you tell me that Syaoran? How do I breathe without you?
..If you ever go...how do I ever...EVER survive? How do I...how do..how do I? Tell me...how do I live? Please Syaoran tell me
...please tell me baby, how do I go on? If you ever leave...baby you would take away everything...dammit! I NEED you WITH me!
Baby don't you know that you're everthing, real in my life? ..TELL ME NOW...How do I live without you? I want to know... How do I
breathe without you? If ou ever go... How do I ever, ever survive? How do I, how do I, oh how do I live? How do I live without you?
How do I live without you baby?..Do you understand what I'm saying Syaoran, because I need you to know that I can't live
without that smiling face of yours! I can't breathe without you next to me! I have nothing if I dont have you..."
Syaoran, listen to me...you love me, I know that...you complete me Syaoran, I am nothing without you...Please fight for me,
fight for our unborn children, fight for our first time together! fight for our home together, fight for our future together!"
You have never given up on anything in your life Syaoran, why start now?!?"
Syaoran..
Sakura is right. I have never nor will I ever give up on anything! I refuse to give up our life together before it has begun.
Sakura...
"Syaoran, the ambulance is on it's way alright? We don't need magic to save you, just fight for us, for me..."
"I wo-'nt le-ave you..my lo-ve...Sak-ura"
"Shh, don't talk sweetheart, save your strength"
"Sak-ura....ma-rry me.."
I am overjoyed. Not only because of this proposal, but because this shows that he is fighting to live...fighting for us.
"Nothing would make me happier Syaoran...Yes I WILL marry you!"
Suddenly sirens were blaring and angels burst through the doors equipment in hand. I held my breath, would they save him in time?
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Syaoran...
I feel weak as I lie on this moving bed. I feel someone squeezing my hand, holding it tight, as if their grip was strong enough
to keep me here on earth...amongst the living. Sakura. I knew it was her. I could smell her sweet smell light years away.
My angel was trying to keep me with her... I would find my way back to her soon..I will Sakura, I will...and we will be married
and we'll have that future together..I promise you.. I find myself drifting to sleep...so peaceful, no Jason. Only me, and Sakura,
holding hands, kissing...in short completing each other like never before. Sheer heaven.
Sakura...
I feel so helpless. They tell me that Syaoran may not make it through this..they said to each other than he probably won't
make it to the hospital...they said that if he were to make it...he would be gone before they could extract the bullet from
his lifeless corpse.. Oh Syaoran.
"Do..do you think he can hear me?"
Someone answered sincerely.
"Yes, miss I believe he can...say what you need to say darling...give him something to hold on to.."
I nod. I open my mouth to speak, but the words won't come. There are too many. They bump into each other on their way out.
I cannot form the words I long to say...so instead I sing...I sing the words my heart has been acheing to speak..
(Midnight sons: if only tears could bring you back to me THANX RINI!)
"How will I start
Tomorrow without you here
Who's heart will guide me
When all the answers disappear..."
Oh Syaoran...don't leave me...please hold on to me...hold on to life..
Is it too late
Are you too far gone to stay
This one's forever
Should never have to go away
What will I do
You know I'm only
Half without you
How will I make it through
Life without you is just a burden...I need you beside me..otherwise I'm weak..too weak to live..
If only tears could
Bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do
What I would give
If you returned to me someday
Somehow, someway
If my tears could bring
You back to me
If only my tears could bring you home to me..home where you belond Syaoran...
I'd cry you an ocean
If you'd sail on home again
Wings of emotion
Will carry you
I know they can
Just light will guide you
And your heart will
Chart the course
Soon you'll be drifting
Into the arms of your true north
Look in my eyes
And you will see a
Million tears have gone by
And still they're not dry
If only tears could
Bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do
What I would give
If you returned
To me someday
Somehow, someway
If my tears could
Bring you back to me
I hold you close
And shout the words
I only whispered before
For one more chance
For one last dance
There's nothing that
I would not give and more
If only tears could
Bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do
What I would give
If you returned to me someday
Somehow, someway
If my tears could
Bring you back to me........"
"That was beautiful miss...I'm sure he's on his way back to you...your tears are going to bring him back."
"I hope you right...my boyfriend...my fiancé is my life..do you think he knows that he completes me? I mean really knows?"
"Without a doublt in my mind miss...your fiancé is coming back to you..."
"Thank you..."
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Tomoyo...
Eriol and I waited for the next ambulance to come and boarded it. Right now we're on our way to the hospital. Jason is with the police, in their car behind us.
Sadly Lisa passed away before the ambulance arrived. I feel sorry for her...she was manipulated by Jason and as a result she
died...well I hope her soul is at peace...Part of me hopes her soul is sent to an eternity of pain, but I could tell
that even during her moment of insanity brought on by jealousy, she was hurting..Jason hurt her..just another one of his vicitms,
An innocent victim...poor Lisa...maybe God will have mercy on her misguided soul...As for Syaoran, poor Syaoran, I pray love
will bring him back...I wonder if Syaoran will make it...
"Tomoyo..are you alright?"
"Not really Eriol..I can't imagine what Sakura is going through right now...she might actually lose the one thing that completes
her soul..."
"Tomoyo...Syaoran is strong...he would die for Sakura...he will live for Sakura.."
"Here's a stupid question...are you sure?"
"Tomoyo...I know him...I feel the same way for you as he does for Sakura...and I know that if it were me..I would move
heaven and earth to return to your loving arms...I love you Tomoyo..please trust and believe me my love..
"I love you too honey.."
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At the hospital...
Sakura..
I wait eagerly for the doctor to come out of the O.R. I can't help but feel nervous. Was Syaoran going to keep his promise?
"Excuse me miss?"
I turn around and hold my breath.
"How is he doctor?"
"Mr. Syaoran Li needs a blood transfusion...do you have type O blood by any chance?"
I freeze. Type O. My blood is type A. Tomoyo's is type A. Eriol is AB. There is only one other person who has blood type O.
Jason.
How was that people? I know it's been a really long time, so hopefully you enjoyed this chapter. Big thanks to Rini for
sending me those lyrics which came in handy :)! R&R PLZ!
