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He Completes Me
Chapter 28-Have You Ever?


Sakura...

Oh my God, this cannot be happening, how could such a travesty befall such a sweet and innocent individual? My Syaoran- my
guardian angel in every possible way, except the obvious one- his mortality...but now..now all that could change. Damn you
Jason. You've claimed your undying, unwavering love for me like there was no tomorrow time and time again through these chapters
of my life, and yet you wasted virtually no time in attempting to yank away all of which I hold near and dear to my heart and
soul. How could such an evil prevail? How could such a horrid creature exist? How could something so ugly be born into this
world, into any world for that matter. Now I look downwards, gazing upon the face of my beloved whoes life hangs from a mere
thread... His eyes are closed, living under the lids, but I know they are nearing lifelessness. His face is bathed in beads of sweat, proof of physical
being, yes. Proof of life? No. Not really. His chest rises and falls like any other living human's, showing vital signs, yes.
But Proof that his soul is still among the living, only dormant in this bliss stricken physical being? No. My beloved is caught
in between two worlds: the world of the living, and the world of the dead. I pray to God that He may spare my one true love,
the one that completes me..but I fear my desperate pleas have gone unanswered. Why has the Lord forsaken us in such a way?
No. The blame is now being ill-placed. The true blame lies on the man responsible for all the hatred within me, the true blame lies
solely on Jason who has commited numerous crimes, none of which I possess the energy to forgive. All these thoughts swirl
relentlessly around, drowning other thoughts in the process. Not too long ago my greatest worry was what colour my prom dress
would be...and now...now it has all changed... And so the question remains, these changes, are they merely temporary? Like a dream
that plays out like a movie before my eyes, or will the consequences of Jason's actions be fatal for my dear Syaoran?

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It all begins to unfold before my eyes again and again... Time has stopped, almost "on pause" as if life was a video game
being played by some child whoes fingertips change the world in a mere movement of his pinky finger. I recall the horrid
events in my mind over and over...and it always reaches the same open ended conclusion where I, the major player in this
horrid video game of life is forced to make the ultimate choice for my one true love...each time my decision changes, but
I am never able to see the consequences of my choices...

I remember the wait...that heart breaking wait in the O.R....and now I can watch it all unfold...I watch myself over
and over as I await the painful news-

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I wait eagerly for the doctor to come out of the O.R. I can't help but feel nervous. Was Syaoran going to keep his promise?

"Excuse me miss?"

I turn around and hold my breath.

"How is he doctor?"

"Mr. Syaoran Li needs a blood transfusion...do you have type O blood by any chance?"

I freeze. Type O. My blood is type A. Tomoyo's is type A. Eriol is AB. There is only one other person who has blood type O.

Jason.

I stare at the doctor in complete and utter shock, unable to move- paralyzed by this feeling of dread and sadness...
The one person who nearly killed us all, is the very man that could do the very opposite. Sheer irony
in it's harshest form.

"Miss? Do you know anyone who is in this vicinity who can possibly donate blood to save the young man's life?"

I shut my eyes, as if attempting to fall asleep and quickly awake, finding out this was all some horrible nightmare...
I open my eyes... a dream? No. If only that were the case.

"Miss? Do you know-"

"I HEARD you doctor...I heard you..." I pause for a moment and words began to escape my closed lips.

"The man responsible for putting my fiancé in this nightmare..is the one man and possible only one that can spare him from
this nightmare...if that makes any sense, please clarify this for me because I..I- I am just so disgusted with it all at the moment...
Jason O Reily..."

The doctor nods. He too looks appauled by such horrid irony, but tries desperately to hide it.

"Well then, where is this man? As inhumain as this Jason is-"
The doctor pauses for a moment and continues "Your fiancé is running out of time, this Jason creature is our best shot, otherwise..Mr. Syaoran
will ..die"

Die. My Syaoran? There must have been some mix up with fate and destiny somewhere! Jason has hurt so many people and yet
he is in better shape than the hero? It seems as though our entire predicament has been orchestrated by some writer of a
twisted thriller meets romance novel! (W/N: ^.^ hehehee)


"Excuse me Miss, did you hear what I said?"

I nod. Of course I heard him, I was just praying that I had heard wrong...

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Syaoran..

Darkness. All around me there is darkness. Where did all of this pitch black-ness come from? It feels so cold...so empty..
so lost and unfulfilled. Could this be my heart? I don't understand. Where am I? Maybe I'm dead. I wonder... Oh Sakura,
I guess the moment I proposed was the last moment we would have together...what I would give just to hold you in my arms one..last
time.. Sakura..

Jason...

There are bright lights everywhere! Am I in heaven? Am I dead? ..Ouch. Nope. Still alive. I feel my arm is numb, I must
have broken it during the struggles with the police before I was...arrested? But ..wait where am I? Not in jail, not in my room...
Oh, the hospital... Wow I'm alive! I survived!

Eriol...

I wonder what is going to happen... Tomoyo and I have been in and out of the waiting room, pacing back and forth. What will become
of Syoaran? That seems to be the question of the hour... and if something were to happen to him... what of Sakura? Can she
handle such a monstrosity? If her other half were to vanish off the face of the earth, what would become of the sweet cherry
blossom that we have come to know and love? She would be changed for all time. I wish to God there was something I could do..
I wish I could wipe the tears of worry from Tomoyo's face, I wish I could revive my friend and loyal descendent...but I alone
do not possess such power... Who am I kidding? Even with such power...one cannot possess the power that could alter fate,
changing it at will..no.. no fate is something that cannot be altered, not completely... I truly believe that fate is something
we humans cannot controle, it is something that controles us.. Fate, no matter how horrible it may seem at times...fate is the
inevidable..it will happen one way or another...no matter how hard we try to fight it..fate...fate is destiny, nothing more,
nothing less...

Tomoyo...

I keep looking into Eriol's deep eyes. I can tell he is deep in thought. Poor Eriol, he loves Syaoran and Sakura, and what
they mean to each other. I suppose to Eriol, they are our proof, our guarrantee that all is well in love and war. The horrible
thing, is that nothing lasts forever, not really... What of love? Can't love last forever and a day? Even that I have come
to doubt. How can anyone go on loving someone who has long passed? Perhaps this is something I cannot comprehend...or maybe
love is something that cannot be easily defined, catagorized and/or easily referenced. Maybe love is just some mystery that
has yet to be solved. And even so, I think of Syaoran and Sakura's love for each other...and I wonder can love be enough?
Will it be enough to save Syaoran? To salvage a future which has yet to be thought of?
I reach over and grab Eriol's free hand. He snaps out of his thoughts and peers into my eyes, my heart and my soul.
His lips begin to curve into a smile, as if he had been listening to my private conversations.

"Love is something that will forever remain a mystery, much like fate and destiny Tomoyo. When all of these elements
come together, we are put into the mix and everything changes. Love is more than seeking and fostering the good of others
in the context of the concrete situation..love is so much more than words can define...which is why I know that Syaoran
will live, and I dont mean live on as an incomplete soul...no..no he will return to us, to her...because love will guide
the way..So you see Tomoyo, love is enough, love is a mystery...but it's enough."

I am shocked, had he been listening to my thoughts? Or maybe he knows me better than anyone else in the world, and knows
what I am thinking...maybe that's all part of love...our love...true love.

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Sakura...

There he is. Lying in his hospital bed, acting as if he were someone important, ordering the nurses and doctors left and right.
"Nurse get me this..Nurse get me that", it's quite unerving and very disturbing. I look away in disgust, here was the man that
put us through such horrid misery...and yet he is being treated so perfectly as though he were in some five star hotel! Where
was the justice in this picture? This I cannot see! I reach to touch the doorknob but something stops me. My fast beating
heart. Was this really the only solution? The cards won't help restore Syaoran, this I cannot understand. I reach for the
doorknob yet again..and the door opens...there he was, the most disgusting being in the world...Jason O Reilly.
It is taking every ounce of will power not to barge in and strangle him with his own I.V. tube!

"Sakura, hey babe I didn't hear you come in!"

Evidently neither did I!

"I'm setting ground rules Jason, first one being..I do the talking...and the second, you keep those
murderous hands to yourself. Are we clear?"

"You got it babe!"

"Oh and there's a third one...DON'T call me babe!"

Suddenly the door opened and a police officer entered.

"Is there a problem in here?"

"No officer, Sakura was just paying me a wonderful visit"
He looks my way and turns his back, ready to leave the room but whispered something to me on his way out.

"My friends and I are right outside the door Miss, if you need anything, just holler"

"I'll be fine officer, thank you for your concern"

The officer nods to me, turns to Jason and glares. If looks could kill, Jason wouldn't have had a chance.

"Well now that we're alone ba- I mean Sakura...I have a few things I'd like to tell you..."

"I thought you said you understood the conditions Jason- I talk, YOU listen"

"Sakura...I understand how you must hate me.."

"No, no you don't, no one could understand this hatred unless they were in my position! Trust me Jason, if I were here by choice it certainly would not be for small talk...it would be to slice your throat and watch as your blood leaked out and slowly but surely, I'd watch you die and live a happy life!"

"Well then, Sakura...why ARE you here?"

"I'm here because-.."

I want to scream at fate! Yell like there was no tomorrow! Damn him! Damn you Syaoran for needed him to live! Damn you for being so wonderful! Why did you have to save me! If only it were me, dying in that bed! Damn you fate! Damm this
crude world and it's horrid irony! This pain is just too much for me! And now I look at Jason, all nice and snug in his
hospital gown with his clean pillows fluffed to perfection. Since when do criminals get treated so well? Damn you Jason!
Damn you hell for not taking his sorry ass and yanking him from his self righteousness!

"Sakura?"

He dares speak my name! He dares speak at all! What a crude monster! A true criminal...

"Sakura?.."

"I thought the conditions were clear!!! DAMMIT keep your mouth shut!"

I felt my heart leap from my chest and into my throat, if I didn't know any better I'd say that I just bruised his ego and
stabbed his soul! Who knew such a thing could possess a soul? One would need to be human to possess such a gift... I feel
time has paused just for my analysis. I look into his eyes now and I see...I see something that I've always seen in Syaoran's
eyes...could it be love? Maybe Jason possessed a heart afterall...maybe just maybe he can love...maybe the world turned upside
down on him...maybe he felt so vulnerable...maybe he loves someone who loves another...someone who will return his love..

"I'm sorry Sakura..."

"Listen, I've come to you because...you're the only one who can save Syaoran..."

"Save Syaoran? Syaoran is dying? Oh...you must have me confused with someone else- someone who CARES!"

"You are the cruelest person I have ever met! I can't believe I bothered with you I- "

"Wait wait, don't go Sakura...my sweet darling Sakura...what do you need?"

"First, wipe that smug look off your face Jason. Look, Syaoran needs ..your help believe it or not. He needs a blood transfusion
and your blood type is the only type that can save him...and by the looks of it your our only possible solution..because he...
he's running out of time Jason...so please, if you have any humanity left...you'll save him.

This is the moment of truth. Will he agree? Will this horrid, poor excuse for a human being save a life for nothing in return?
I doubt it. I'm sure he'll want something in return...i just hope it won't be too extreme...
He looks up at me with his twisted brown eyes and smiles.

"If I donated some of my blood to him, what do I get in return?"

I knew it, I KNEW he would pull something like this.

"The satisfaction of saving a life...and maybe a sentence of community service instead of prison, I don't know Jason, but I
do know that there is some part of the Jason I used to say hi to when we were younger...I know he's still there...he's telling you
to do this, to save a man's life...."

"If I do this, I have some terms..."

"Terms?"

"Yes, little conditions if you will."

I hold my breath, gee I wonder what they could be...if a kiss from me is on that list, I'll make sure it's the kiss of death from some..
Komodo dragon or something!

"My terms are..."

Here we go..

"The terms are that you vouch for me if I need someone on my side at a trial should it come to that, obviously I mean you.
Also, I want forgiveness"

"Forgiveness?"

"Yes, I need you to forgive me for the awful things I've done to you and everyone else. I know...I know I need help Sakura and I'm truly,
deeply sorry for the pain and hurt that I have caused you...so I ask forgiveness."

I am shocked. I am speechless. Has Jason accepted reality?

"My final term...more like a request...is to tell you how I truly feel...all I ask..is that you listen...I know you don't feel the same way
I realize that...I've always known the truth...reality if you will...and I'm sorry... But anyway...here's how I feel, please listen..
Have you ever loved somebody so much.. It makes you cry?
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything
To make them understand
Have you ever had someone
Steal your heart away
You'd give anything, oh
To make them feel the same

Have you ever search for words
To get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start


Have you ever find someone
You dreamt of all your life
You'd do just about anything
To look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one
You've given your heart to
Only to find that one
Won't give their heart to you

Have you ever closed your eyes
And dreamt that they were there
And all you can do is wait
For the day when they will care
Have you ever loved somebody

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms, baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand
How I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
Cuz baby I can't sleep


Have you ever? (A/N: Brandy- "Have you Ever?")


My eyes fill up with tears, I think i'm feeling guilty? Maybe I have been too harsh on Jason! It's not like he knew any better...
But still, Syaoran is laying there, near death! ...I don't know what to do!

"Sakura...I'm sorry, I made you cry! Please forgive me..."

"Jason if you do this...if you save him...I agree to your terms...please Jason..please save Syaoran..
You asked me a lot of questions...I can relate to what your saying...when Syaoran and I first met, I loved him right there...
but I was afraid he wouldn't reciprocate his feelings...in which case I probably would have lost my mind...is..is that what happened
to you Jason? Did you just..snap?"

Jason.....

Why didn't I try this before? Get on her good side!? I dont know why I reverted to violence when all I had to do was give her some
sob story about how much of a victim I am! This is perfect! I look into her tear-filled eyes and nod, smiling apologetically.
Bingo! Brandy got through to her. Now all I need to do is save Syaoran...and she'll be mine...ALL mine...
Perfect plan Jason! I know Jason! Thanks Jason for being so smart! I know Jason is soooo smart! SHUT UP JASONS I"M TRYING TO LISTEN!

"Will you do it then Jason? Will you save Syaoran?..."

Sakura...

My heart beats faster and faster, I put the guy on trial and convicted him too early. I've been too harsh. I should learn not to judge
people! I'm so horrible! I ask Jason again, nicely, calmly, sweetly...and he looks at me, places his free hand on mine and says:

"Yes."



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