Hey Hey! LONNNNNNNNNNNNNG time no see eh? Well i'm sorry everyone! A lot has been happening! For one thing the original chapter 30 was
destroyed on one of my disks- well it was erased by a certain brother of mine :S. But anyway, without further adieu, tada! chapter 30- well
not as great as the original would have been, but here we go. If it doesnt seem like much, not to worry, I figure I'm gonna keep goin with the
chapters ti'l the story is done to my complete satisfaction ;). So, Enjoy!
He Completes Me
Chapter 30- Dont Dream It's Over

Sakura...

I can't help but feel utterly helpless, useless, powerless... My love, Syaoran, is lying here fighting for his life, and
there is nothing I can do. I can't help but stare so intently at him. His face is so pale, so death-like...I feel multiple chills
down my spine. Fear. I am afraid to leave his side. I am petrified of losing him, of being alone, of ..well..living. Syaoran.
He looks so fragile, so breakable, so inocent as he sleeps, like a newborn baby- completely oblivious to the dangers and the sorrows
that inevitably lie before it. Not long ago, he spoke to me about how he was worried for me, he spoke words that chilled me
to the bone, words that broke my heart in ways too complicated to explain. It seems to me that he was preparing me, preparing
me for the worst, the horrid fate that he feels awaits him. Is he really that convinced? Was death waiting for him? Would it steal
him away from me, forever?... Wow. Forever. For all eternity. Never again. My heart bleeds openly with every breath, my sorrows
and fears consume my entire being. Would he be lost to me in such a way that mere memories would be Syaoran? Would I lose him
now? Was God taking him away? Did God feel I needed to remain nothing? Nothing. How empty this word is. Nothing. The harshest
word I know, it soon would describe me if-... I can't think about this anymore, I can't. I won't.

"Hold on Syaoran, please I beg you, don't leave me behind. You have no idea what you've brought into my life, none whatsoever
do you?"

Silence.

Tears.

More tears.

"Syaoran...can you even hear me?...Have you been seduced by the glories death could entail?"

Silence.

"I know ..Syaoran that right now...right now death seems like the ultimate solution. No pain. Death. The place where nothing
prevails. Is that what you truly want? Nothing? Syaoran Li, listen to me. No pain may sound like an amazing thing, death
may not seem so horrible, it may even seem victorious and soothing...but let me tell you something, you would be nothing but
wrong Syaoran. Sure, in death there's no more to fear. Your soul would be set free to be wherever, whenever...but death..
let me tell you Syaoran death is not life. It is nothing like life. Stay with me Syaoran. Stay here. Choose life. Choose me.
Choose...us.

My head slumps down as if in defeat. Was this the end? Was I kidding myself?

"That was beautiful Sakura, truly beautiful"

"Do you think he heard any of it?"

"Yes, I know he did."

"Sakura..I-"

"Jason...please don't speak right now, I need..."

"I understand Sakura..."

Tears stream down my face. I wipe them away quickly and turn my head towards the door. That door brought me so much hope once
Tomoyo and Eriol burst earlier today. So much has happened since I spoke to Syaoran last.

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*Flashback*

"Hey" He says weakly.

"Hi" I say just as quietly.

"Sakura, ...I don't know how...long i've got to talk..so i'm going to say all I need to say in case..in case..I can't find
my way back.."

"Syaoran.."

Tears well up in my eyes, was he saying goodbye? I couldn't handle that. I wouldn't!

"This isn't goodbye Sakura, just...just a discussion."

"Just..don't give up on me...on us..."

"I wouldn't dream of it Sakura. I'd choose you over death any day."

"Oh Syaoran..."

"Sakura..."

"Yes?"

"How do I say this.."

"Easy. Whatever it is, just say it, can't be harder than asking me out or proposing right?"

He smiles and continues.
"So lately, I've been wonderin
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone, you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
And between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

[Chorus:]
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
The way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
Well I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

[Chorus]

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart and your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

[Chorus]

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go ..."

(A/N: Wherever You Will Go, The Calling)
"Sy..Syaoran that sounded like-"

"No, not goodbye alright, just..see you around..."

"Syaoran.."

"Sakura..."

"Goodnight Sakura..sweet dreams.."

"..ya..sweet dreams....Syaoran I love you, so hang in there..for me..for us...."

......
"Hold on Syaoran, just hold on."

The door flew open revealing Eriol and Tomoyo. They were completely out of breath- they ran to me regardless.

"Sa..kur..a....he...s..goin..g to..ma..ke it!"

Tomoyo was at a loss for words to say the least. She struggled to speak a mere sentence. I wonder what had happened?
What did I miss?

"I'm glad you feel so optimistic Tomoyo but how can you be so sure?"

I had to admit her sudden confident grin gave me a sense of relief and dare I say it- hope!

"What Tomoyo is trying to say, is that Syaoran is going to live!"

Did they have proof? Some sort of tangible evidence that Syaoran would return to me?

"Listen guys I hate suspense, what-"

"I'm going to save him Sakura, I swear it."

My mouth widened in shock.

"What did you say?"

"I'm going to save him...for you."

I find myself speechless. Eriol and Tomoyo were smiling like there was no tomorrow, it was as though they had won some
sort of victory! ...Perhaps they did! They must have, he had a change of heart. A complete 180. This surprises me.

His mouth curves into a smile. A real smile. Not an evil grin. Just...a smile. I blink once, twice, three times..
I wipe my eyes and look back to the door. He was no longer standing there smiling. Instead he was going to save my
Syaoran.

"Thank you..Thank you Jason O'Reilly"

I sigh in relief. Syaoran was going to live. Tears of joy escape my eyes as I turn to look at Tomoyo and Eriol once more.
They too had watery eyes- Eriol tried to blink them all back, but of course he failed miserably.

I couldn't help it. I giggled.

Eriol and Tomoyo were taken aback by this, but soon joined in.

"Uh ladies, don't tell my little descendent about uh...uhm well they're not tears just...uh...I uh...excuse me, I need
to uhm ..."

Tomoyo and I stiffled our laughter.

"Uh...uhm forget it, there must be something in my eyes.."

"Yeah, you know your right sweety...they are generally referred to as tears"

"Uh I'm going to go ..to..the bathroom..uh excuse me"

I blinked and Eriol ran out.

Once the giggles subsided. The cold blanket of silence engulfed the room.

"Sakura, why do you have that look on your face?"

"What look?"

"The look that world has come to an end?"

"..Well what...what if-"

"What if it doesn't work?"

I nod sadly.

"It's going to work."

"How..how can you be so sure?"

"I'm sure, because you are sure Sakura. I see the certainty in your soul. He completes you, as you complete him. One
cannot simply live without the other, you will always be together. In life and in death. So unless I missed something here,
you're 100% healthy, he will be too"

I smile and nod contently.

"You hear that Syaoran? You're going to pull through, otherwise Eriol will be crying his eyes out 24/7!"

We both smile at each other and look back to the sleeping Syaoran. He was going to be fine. I felt it.
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Syaoran...

I hear you Tomoyo. I hear you both. I even heard Eriol crying...hell he's still at it! I miss you guys. I'm bored over here, this death this is not
all it's cracked up to be. I'm thinking i'll stay living for a while longer. Is that ok with you guys? Hope you don't mind me hanging around, I'm not going
anywhere...

"That's right Syaoran, you're going to live, for my daughter"

My eyes widen in shock.

"You're...You're Sakura's mother.."

"Yes"

She smiled and giggled slightly. Sakura was her mother's daughter that was for sure.

"Well I-"

"Syaoran we haven't much time here since time here cannot exactly be defined as it is in life".

I nod. I understand.

"Once the transfusion begins Syaoran, you MUST return to the world of the living!"

"I have no intention of staying dead, honest. I would much rather spend a million lifetimes with Sakura if that's alright with you?"

I smile at her. She returns it, only for it to fade almost instantly.

"Listen to me carefully Syaoran, much danger is heading your way. Both you and Sakura will need each other to prevail, otherwise, everyone
you care dearly for will be destroyed in a puff of smoke!"

"Well you need not worry, I will protect Sakura no matter what, no matter who the offender may be, I promise-"

"Yes, I know you will. I have seen your heart. You haven't a lying bone in your body dear boy."

She smiles innocently. I know that smile. It's definitely the same one Sakura has! It makes me melt like ice in a desert.

"But I have to know something- will Jason be the one to threaten-"

"Syaoran, I regret to inform you that it is not my place to unveil the future. If I were to do that, well I doubt you would be able to
return to life. I know you have the best of intentions, and I praise God that you and Sakura have found each other. My only concern is that
well, you may be too-"

"I will never be "too late"! I swear! I know I have not always been there to protect her, but-"

"You need not explain Syaoran, I understand, and I do not blame you for all that has befallen my daughter. My only hope is for you to prevent
future occurences, similar to-"

"You're trying to tell me something without actually telling me, arent you? Subtle, I must give you that. But as I said, do not worry, I
will be on guard at all times."

"I thank you Syaoran. I know you will do everything in your power to protect my Sakura. Thank you. Now you best be ready."

"For?"

"For your homecoming dear boy. Sakura will be most pleased to have you back...but I caution you, the worst is not over."

I can't help but feel a stab of dismay. What did that mean? Would Sakura have more enemies? Would other forms of evil come her way? Well
one thing was for sure, she would never be alone. Besides, it's obvious that death, is a mere setback. A minor setback. Syaoran Li is coming
back. I'm on my way home Sakura. Just hold on.
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Sakura...

Beep beep beep. Other than Syaoran's heart monitor, it's completely silent. I watch his chest rise and fall. The blood transfusion will
soon be underway. I'm trying to stay completely positive, for both me, and for Syaoran, but I can't seem to rid myself of this horrible
feeling. It is not an "Uh oh I forgot something" feeling, it's something else. It's...I dont know what it is. But something tells me the
struggle isnt over.

"Oh Syaoran, I'm so tired. So tired of the struggle. Tired of fighting. Tired of all this drama in my life! I feel like we're just a bunch
of puppets being controlled by an invisible puppet master! This isnt the first time I've felt like this, but I can't seem to shake the feeling
that something or someone is controling what has and will happen. I suppose my best guess would be fate. Oh Syaoran, I feel like i'm talking
to these ugly walls! Come back! I need you!"

I take his hand into mine and intertwine our fingers.

"You're hands are as cold as ice Syaoran. I'm scared. Are you that far from me? That close to death? I wonder...You will return to me right?"

I sigh to myself. How long will I be able to keep this persona on? It feels like i'm living day by day with this happy, hopeful mask.

"If you want to know the truth Syaoran, I'm scared of losing you. And I know I should be hopeful, and keep the faith and all that, but forgive
me for giving into the doubt Syaoran. Please forgive me for not being completely convinced that you will be able to beat death to a bloody
pulp! Whatever happens Syaoran...I mean...if you come back...if you dont come back...just know that I loved you all along. Alright? I'm so
stupid, it's not like you can hear me, let alone answer me. I miss you though. I miss you like hell."

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Tomoyo..

Eriol and I are waiting outside Syaoran's door, watching as Sakura pours her heart out to her other half. My God. How can life be so cruel?
Life was going so well, so perfect and BANG! All this happens and the world is torn to bits! I'll never understand this life. Ever. Maybe
death is simpler in that sense... Still... Life has so much more! Love. Hate. Friendship. So many things to feel, so little time... I pray
to God that we all appreciate the time we have before we are robbed of tomorrow...
Eriol...
I know Tomoyo is worried sick. I am too in fact. Poor Syaoran did nothing wrong to deserve all that has happened to him, and Sakura-
her biggest, gravest sin was probably sneaking some food for Kero every day. They did not deserve any of this. Not any of it!
But now that I think about it, everything tends to happen for a reason. Perhaps in the end, it will all work out. I'm not completely naiive.
I do not believe that life is all fun and games, nor do I wish life was without it's struggles, but I must admit, sometimes life can just seem
surreal. I wonder if everything will end up alright... Don't give up hope Sakura, Syaoran, Tomoyo... life may be rough now, but each struggle
signals a worthwhile moment. The payoff will be worth the pain. All in due time. All in due time...

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Sakura...

Wow what a beautiful day. Clouds high up in the sky, perfectly white and angelic. So beautiful. All this needs is Syaoran and a picnic basket
full of food! I breathe in the cool air and feel free. For the first time in a long time I feel free. Well that definitely answers the burning
question- am i dreaming? Of course. When was the last time real life was this pure? Innocent? Peaceful? My God, I can't even pinpoint the moment
where things went downhill.

"Sakura.."

I find myself wrenched from my thoughts. I know that voice. I turn around slowly, scared that if I turn around that the voice was merely
the wind speaking my name.

"Sakura, it's me"

"Syaoran? How- But- I-...Right..I'm dreaming. You're hot in my mind and real life. Wow."

"Well, when you got it, you got it right?"

I giggle. Wow, this is the first time I've giggled and actually did it out of amusement!

"Oh Syaoran.."

I find myself leaping into his awaiting, caring arms.

"I've missed you so much Syaoran. Please tell me you're on your way home!"

"You bet I am! It's in the works sweety. The process has started!"

"What do you mean?"

"The blood transfusion is already taking shape. All we have to do is wait!"

"Are you sure? I am dreaming afterall how can I trust a dream?"

"Simple. You trust me don't you? When have I steered you wrong?"

"Well that's a good point."

"Besides, your mother is helping us out. Our thoughts are linked."

"My..mother? You spoke to my mother? How is she? Is she happy? Does she miss me? Does she love me? Is-"

"One question at a time sweetness!"

We smile as we gaze into each other's eyes.

"She is happy, though she does miss you as much as you miss her- and she loves you more than you'll ever know sweet Sakura."

Before I am able to apply, I hear a melodious voice whisper in the wind.

"Sakura, my dear daughter. I love you. I am always with you. I will always be by your side. And even though I am not with you in body, we will
always be linked."

"Mother", I choke out.

Syaoran is at my side, and is consolling my torn heart. He instructs me to shut my eyes and to dream on, for reality will soon take a utopian shape...
The wind whistles past me, and I tremble contently.

There is freedom within, there is freedom without
Try to catch the deluge in a paper cup
There's a battle ahead, many battles are lost
But you'll never see the end of the road
While you're traveling with me

Hey now, hey now
Don't dream it's over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
We know they won't win

Now I'm towing my car, there's a hole in the roof
My possessions are causing me suspicion but there's no proof
In the paper today tales of war and of waste
But you turn right over to the T.V. page

Now I'm walking again to the beat of a drum
And I'm counting the steps to the door of your heart
Only shadows ahead barely clearing the roof
Get to know the feeling of liberation and relief

Hey now, hey now
Don't dream it's over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
Don't ever let them win
"Now wake up Sakura, because when you do, I will be there with you..."
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