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A/n; Hey all….heh I got a really good review a while ago, she asked me where I was heading with this fic……I'm sorry if it isn't very clear, but I just write what comes out, never actually planning anything. That last chapter sorta went against everything Kai believed he should allow himself to have. I guess it's not making much sense, I'll try to get it moving along in this chapter, heh I'd actually been considering the previous chapter being the second last and this was just finishing everything off, but it seems I need to give this fic some direction. Sorry for messing this up, it's my first BeyBlade fic and I keep putting the writing off so yeah…… I gotta get working, and now it's summer holidays so updating shouldn't be a problem… I hope. Well thanks so much for all the reviews, hope this chapter is enjoyable!

****Note: this ** ** ** means the events between is a dream sequence****

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Opening my eyes, I observed my surroundings. I was in a dark tunnel, the dampness and cold penetrated my bones and I shivered. Suddenly a dark figure stepped out of the shadows, violet hair caught the light, and that dark mask that was overly familiar came into my vision.

"Boris," I mouthed.

He glanced at me with his cruel smirk, and stepped towards me. I stood my grounds, until I noticed the gun in his hand. I took a quick look around me, turned and bounded off in the opposite direction.

Soon I'd gone through enough twists and turns of the maze to realize I'd lost him. That's when I heard his voice, Voltaire's.

"Kai! You are to do as I say!"

I crept around a corner to where his voice was coming from and saw that he was circling me! Well another me. Except a much younger me, I looked to be about seven. He circled the young me giving that menacing glare he liked to intimidate me with. In his hand hung a coiled up whip. I flinched at the memory of how he tormented me with that thing. He gripped the torture weapon tightly and let a little bit of slack loose. My younger self looked at him with defiant, fierce crimson eyes, and stood his ground. Voltaire raised his hand with the whip and struck the child.

I flinched at the memory, and felt the anger rise up in me. I couldn't do anything then when I was a child to defend myself, but I could sure do something about it now. I dashed into the room, and grabbed the child away, but as I touched him he began to fade away. Locking eyes with me, he smiled at my attempt and gave me a look of gratitude. He slipped away fading away into the darkness, along with Voltaire's violent form. Confused I glanced about the shadows trying to locate the young one and Voltaire, but they were no where to be seen.

Sighing, I walked on through the labrynth, seeing glimpses of my past, leading all the way up to the recent events. I saw wins with the blade breakers, the thoughts contented me, though I showed no expression.

Then I began seeing excessive images of Rei, or rather, I'd started focusing more on Rei in all the happenings we'd been through together.

Rei melted the coldness from my bitter heart, he brought me to question my conduct and desiring to please him, I'd tried to be kinder towards the other members of the team. However, I would never reveal more to anyone about myself than Rei. Reminiscing all the times I'd spent with Rei, I felt completely at peace and content with life.

Reaching the end of the labrynth, I gazed down one hallway before the apparent exit, and saw a vision of the golden- eyed neko-jinn himself. He was sitting against the wall in a corner, with his head on his knees. Pain gripped me, and I ran towards him. I touched his shoulder and he looked up at me with fear and hurt in his eyes. Curious, I wanted to ask what he was afraid of. He stared at me with those piercing eyes of his, and I knew then he was afraid of…….me.

I let go of his arm and he scurried out of the corner down the hallway. He looked back only once and kept running. I stood up, my heart heavy, and headed towards the exit. When I reached the desolate door, and pushed it open, there revealed was another maze. Angry, I slammed the door and searched desperately for another exit. Time and time again, I was led into a bigger, more complex maze, completely frozen and alone, forever. Rei was gone, I had nothing.

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My eyes flashed open, and I panted heavily. 'A bad dream,' I thought.

Warmth radiated from my right side, and I looked down to see the sleeping neko-jinn curled up against me. Rei seemed content, though my mind was in turmoil from the nightmare.

Not wanting to awaken the light sleeper, I laid there quietly thinking. My hands found their way to Rei's silky raven locks, and began running through them as gently and softly as possible. A purr was audiable as my fingers ran through the strands.

A soft russling led me to believe Rei had awakened.

"Kai? Are you okay? Is there something on your mind?" the soft voice echoed.

I looked at him to see a golden eye cracked open sleepily. He gave me a concerned gaze when I shook my head no.

He propped himself up on his elbows on the pillow and stared me down.

"C'mon, I know something must be up," he said persistantly, and continued, "I can see it in your eyes."

Surprised, I looked at him.

'How could he know so much about me, just by looking?' I wondered.

I turned my head away, and shook my head. I wondered vaguely if he really could sense my emotions or if he was just trying to get me to open up to him.

"I uh…..just had a bad dream, that's all," I said quickly, trying to get away from the subject, "it was really nothing."

He eyed me expectantly and drew closer to me. It made me a little nervous, and I allowed my expression to take it's cold menacing look. He was persistant though, he leaned his head on my shoulder and waited for me to continue.

"So……what happened?"

"I uh…..nothing, it was just memories, and you-"

I stopped when I said that, I couldn't believe I'd just blurted that out.

With renewed curiousity, he prodded me to continue.

I decided to take a new angle, "Are you afraid of me?"

Shocked he said, hesitating only slightly, "No of course not, I mean I might have been at one time……it's just……." His face had a tinge of blush to it now.

Sighing, he continued, "Sometimes I'm afraid, I know your childhood wasn't kind to you and the fact that you've never really been close to anyone nor confided in anyone has me a little unnerved that you might never trust me. I really wish you would though. I trust you, I wish you would trust me. I mean I really like you a lot…….more than you'll ever know."

His head down, he waited for a response.

The neko-jinn's confession shocked me and yet I felt butterflies going wild in my stomach. I knew there was attraction in this……relationship we'd formed, and that Rei respected me and vice versa. I knew I enjoyed Rei's company and that he knew when to stop prodding me, unlike some members of the blade breakers * cough cough Tyson cough cough *. I didn't quite understand what Rei found so fascinating about me, I didn't even understand how he came to respect me, other than the fact that I gave him the most credit out of the entire group. Why he'd want to hang around a cruel bastard like me, was beyond my understanding. Yet he wanted me to open up to him, I wasn't even sure I was ready to open up to anyone, seeing as I'd had more than my fair share of hurt and pain in this world. Showing feelings and being vulnerable would surely lead to heartbreak and pain, wouldn't it? So why was I letting this kitten in? When we were together, everything felt right and I felt like I had a purpose, it was wonderful. On top of that, Rei was wonderful. Both attractive and kind. He was compassionate towards everyone and yet he was one of the strongest beybladers I'd ever come to know.

The bed shifted and I must've zoned out for a while, because Rei had turned away from me.

"Sorry," I murmured, "I was just thinking. All I want to know though is, why?"

He turned back to me, rubbing his teary eyes, instantly making me feel regret, "Huh?"

"Why do you like me?"

He laughed lightly at that, I wondered utterly perplexed.

We got up, dressed in a matter of moments, and headed out the door. Rei had suggested we go to the park for some fresh air, and to get away from the younger blade breakers, of course I'd agreed, on the deal that he would answer my question when we got there.

"So?" I questioned when we got there, sitting beneath the shade of a cherry blossom tree.

With a smile he said, "I think you're the most fascinating person I've ever met. You show you are an intolerable bastard on the outside, and you don't let anyone get close to you. You pretend you're all high and mighty, and though your skills and determination are admirable, you're only human so you do make mistakes. As far as I know, I'm the only person who's ever gotten this close to you, I'm still not sure why you chose to open up to me. But I do know one thing, you aren't untouchable, I've gotten this far into getting to know the real mysterious you. I know that your past has defined who you are, and I understand that. Truthfully, I want to know you inside out, and I appreciate that you've let me in. I guess I'm just curious."

To say the least, I was very surprised, though the last comment about his trait of curiousity made me respond with a smile, "Just like a kitten."

He grinned with a blush, and punched at me playfully. He jabbed me lightly in the stomach and bounded off, motioning me to chase him. He laughed as I ran towards him, and circled a tree a few times. When he thought he was safe, he ducked down behind a bush, and I would have missed him if the end of his ponytail hadn't given him away.

I quitely crept towards the tree's trunk and waited til he was still. Then I flew out of my hiding place and pounced Rei. I had him pinned to the ground, and he was laughing the whole time, tears of joy forming in his eyes. After a moment, as I sat on top of him, he stopped laughing and look at me with a smile. I was caught in his hypnotic gaze and everything became serious.

He studied my eyes with such intensity, making me curious and a little daring. Before I realized it myself, we were both leaning forward, and our lips met in a passionate kiss. It was a soul shattering kiss that I would never forget. He slipped his tongue into my mouth, and I did the same. After a moment, we pulled away, breathing hard. He grinned, his tiger's fangs catching the light. I gave him a small smile.

Everything was pretty quiet, until a rusling caught my attention. My head shot up to where the noise came from. I spotted three figures walking down the path not too far off. Rei seemed to have noticed the intrusion and looked up to the path. He shook his head.

"Ah well, I suppose it wasn't meant to last too long. Here come the others."

With a sigh, I got up and helped him to his feet. I took his hand, and leaned forward, kissing him once more, lightly. He responded and pulled away as he heard the rest of our team getting closer.

I could hear Tyson's loud complaining echoing in the distance and almost pitied the poor boy, thinking of all the difficult training I would have to put him through.

I leaned quickly towards Rei once again and whispered into his ear, "We'll continue this later, Kitten."

He grinned and took my hand. We started towards the group and let our hands go as we came into their view. It was our little secret for now.

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A/n: Cute enough? Hehe, I hope so. Anyways, no need to worry, I don't intend on making this any higher than PG-13, because well…… I can't really write anymore, in the way of lemons and such. Please review, even though I made you guys wait soooooooo long, I'm so sorry, I probably don't deserve your gracious reviews, but they're still nice to receive. Next chapter will be up as soon as I can get it up. I'm gonna be working for the next couple of days, and I have to keep up with my drawings, poetry and soccer, so hopefully soon I can have time to update this fic. By the way, I've been working on a one-shot Kai/Rei fic, it's another song fic ( Linkin Park – the one and only hehehe!), I wanna get that one up as soon as I'm finished it.