Title: Five Pilots and a Baby pt. 3/?
Authors: Deathangelgw and Sarit
Disclaimer: we don't own the boys, but boy are we gonna have fun with them!!!
Warnings: AU, dark, shounen-ai, angst, sap, fluff
Rating: PG-13 for language.
Pairings: if you ARE wondering, the bois are a bit…loose with each other. Hinted 2x1, 2x3, 2+4 in this along with 2+5, 4+5, 3+5, 1+5
Note: AGAIN MORE!! *cackles and falls over* Enjoy and please review!!
'thoughts'
Wufei went into his room and got ready for bed, not turning on the lights. He needed to think on things then make contact. He blinked, as he looked over, his shirt just off as Duo came into the room. "Maxwell what is it now?" He asked somewhat grumpily. Duo arched an eyebrow upward at the shirtless Wufei. He smirked evilly, then firmly shut the door to Wufei's bedroom. Cocking an eyebrow, Wufei faced Duo. "Maxwell...what do you want?" He asked in a low voice, his shirt dropping down slightly.
"What do I want? Well let's see...there are a lot of things that I want. I'd like a nice car...or no...a motorcycle!" Duo grinned, his eyes never leaving Wufei as he walked over. He placed his hands on the naked chest before him. "But right now all I want is you."
Blinking in surprise, Wufei stared at Duo in surprise. It was true he cared for all of the other pilots...respected them deeply. But this...was something new. "Me? Maxwell quit joking around." He snorted out and turned from Duo, heading for his bed. "Is there anything else more important? Or can I go to bed now?"
Arching an eyebrow upwards, Duo turned his head to hide the hurt look on his face. "I guess not, if you don't feel it's important. I won't bother you again, Wufei." He should have known, really. He'd always thought Wufei was filled with honor and someone he could look up to. That sense had gradually turned to a bit more than friendship for the braided pilot, but obviously not for his friend. "I'm sorry for disturbing you, Wufei. It won't happen again."
Blinking at that, Wufei looked over his shoulder at Duo. He saw the hurt look and his eyes widened in surprise. "You...weren't joking?" he asked softly, not even realizing he'd said out loud.
"Of course I wasn't joking. I may joke around about a lot of things, but I don't that." Duo replied, unable to keep the hurt from his voice. He kept his back to Wufei, so the Chinese pilot couldn't see his trembling.
"Duo...." Wufei said softly, suddenly feeling like a heel. He reached out, then stepped over silently, placing a gentle hand on Duo's shoulder. "Forgive me...I never meant to say otherwise...." He whispered softly, apologetically.
"Hey, it's not a problem. I shouldn't have said anything. I'll go so you can get to bed." Duo said gruffly, keeping his eyes averted. He hadn't expected Wufei's rejection to feel this bad.
Swallowing hard, Wufei looked away. "I...understand. If that is what you wish...." He said quietly and took his hand back before turning back to his bed. "I...am sorry, Duo." He said quietly.
"What I wish? No, it isn't but it's what you wish." Duo said softly, almost whispering the painful words. He closed his eyes, gritting his teeth in anger. Anger at himself and this whole situation. "I'm sorry, Wufei...I didn't mean to say anything that would damage our friendship."
"Would it be considered...damaged? I pray not." Wufei said softly as he looked over his shoulder at Duo. "You...are special to me...Duo."
If anything, those words stopped Duo in his tracks. He looked up, his blue eyes filled with shock. "I...I am?"
Wufei turned his face away, nodding sharply. "All of you are special to me. But you...I am sorry, Duo. I never meant to hurt you with such callous words." He said quietly and went over to his bed.
"It's...okay. Don't worry about it." Duo turned, giving Wufei one of his dazzling smiles. Inside, however, he still felt his heart break. 'We're all special to him...equally no doubt. I really am a fool...'
"Why do you give me a false smile, Duo? Have I truly blundered so badly in my words?" Wufei asked softly, feeling hurt and sorrow well up inside of him. Duo usually would hide his feelings behind that very smile...especially when he was hurting.
It wasn't the first time and Duo had no illusions it would be the last that he did in fact hide behind his smile. He shook his head, trying to allay Wufei's fears. It wasn't Wufei's fault that Duo wasn't...desirable enough. "Nothing's wrong! Honest!" But Duo knew differently. 'Should show me to try and give my heart out again. Every time I try, it only gets trampled on. I should know better by now.'
Looking away, Wufei closed his eyes tightly. He couldn't help the few tears that rolled down his face. "I...see...." He whispered softly as his fist clenched tightly. 'What have I done? What can I do? He's lying to me...'
Turning away, Duo stood at the entrance to Wufei's bedroom. His hand on the doorjamb, he looked at the closed door, his hand so close to the doorknob. "Don't worry, Wufei. I won't mention this again. I didn't mean to offend you with my...desires. We'll stay friends, the way you want it to be. Good night."
"De...sires?" Wufei whispered softly, finally understanding what Duo had been covering for. He paled as he realized what he'd said. "Duo...don't leave. Please." He whispered softly as he looked up and reached for his friend.
"Hey, it's okay! I don't mind, really. I should have known, after all." Duo said bitterly, his eyes on the floor so he didn't see Wufei reaching out to him. "I mean...it's obvious you're not like that." 'Of course he isn't...Heero's right. You are a baka. How could he be when he had a wife? I really need to start thinking things through. Maybe then I wouldn't hurt myself so much.'
"If you think that, then you don't know me, Duo." Wufei whispered softly, feeling hurt and shame well up in him. He got up silently and went to the tense form. He wrapped his arms around Duo's shoulders, nuzzling the soft neck. "I ask again...please don't leave me."
Flinching slightly at the touch, Duo looked up. Looking behind him at the man holding him, he fought back tears. "I'd never leave you, Wufei. No matter what you wanted, I'd never leave."
"You were just going to..." Wufei whispered softly, trying to fight his own tears. "Forgive me, Duo...what I said was truth...but so is this truth. I care deeply for you. When you...said you wanted me...I was shocked. I didn't think you could ever want me in that special way. I was wrong...please forgive me."
"It...it is?" Duo couldn't quite believe what he was hearing. Did this truly mean that Wufei...cared? "Why not? Why didn't you think I could? Am I that hard to...to love?"
"Far from it. I just felt that...you wouldn't want someone so...stuffy, as you say, like me." Wufei said softly as he tightened his hold on Duo, drawing him closer. "You are so...carefree, even at the hardest times. I admire that so much and feel so...stiff and boring around you. I fear that you wouldn't want me. And....you always propositioned the others, so I thought that, again, I was being left out." He said quietly in shame and loneliness.
It was Duo's turn to feel ashamed. He lowered his head, staring at the floor as he spoke softly. "I've never thought of you as stiff and boring. You're so much more than I am, so much more honorable than I could ever be. Hell...you're a much better person than I am." His face flushed as he thought of the rest of what Wufei said. "I never propositioned you because I always knew I didn't stand a chance with the likes of you. You're too noble and honorable for someone like me. I did Heero mainly because it was a challenge...same with Trowa. Quatre is just my friend."
Wufei blinked in surprise at these words. "You...." He turned Duo around and gazed at him steadily, searching his eyes. "Why would you think you are less than I? You are my equal...always will be...." He whispered softly.
"No I'm not." Duo said calmly, his blue eyes showing no emotion. It was as if his words had long been accepted. "You're far more than I. I'm nothing more than a street rat who got lucky enough to find Dr. G and get saddled with a Gundam."
"Duo." Wufei whispered softly, feeling a tear of pain roll down his cheek. He'd never heard this from his friend. "Please don't say that...please. Do you call our judgement wrong? Do you call *my* judgement on you wrong?" He whispered softly, voice shaking with hurt.
"No, I don't. I just know the truth about myself." Duo said softly, his own eyes filled with pain. He'd never spoken to anyone of what he'd been through prior to finding Dr. G. "My words are true, Wufei. I'm sorry to have hurt you with them, but they are true nevertheless. I'm nothing but a street rat, always have been and always will be."
"Then we are all nothing...for I know I for one will not lose you to such...ridiculous words!" Wufei said firmly before hugging Duo to him. "I watched you...with the little one. Such love and tenderness...kindness...that doesn't exist in a nothing. That exists in a someone."
"Hey, never said I was a 'nothing.' I said I was a street rat." Duo mumbled against Wufei's chest, his arms instinctively wrapping around his friend. He tried to hold back his tears, but soon found himself sobbing against his friend.
"You said you are nothing, Duo...and you aren't. You aren't at all." Wufei said softly as he rubbed Duo's back soothingly. He moved back carefully, then sat down on the bed, holding Duo to him on his lap. "You are special...you are mine."
"You-yours?" Duo stuttered, feeling a flush creep over his cheeks. He looked at Wufei, a question in his eyes. He couldn't quite believe what he was hearing.
Wufei smiled softly, closing his eyes and making a decision. "Mine. And....I'm yours...if you'll have me." He whispered softly as he brushed his lips over Duo's lips. Wufei's words were almost more than he could ever have dreamed. Duo gave a soft sob against the lips against his own. He returned the kiss, almost desperately. He'd long tried to hide his feelings for the Chinese pilot, but with Wufei's own admission, his resolve had crumbled into nothing and he willingly gave himself over to his friend and love. Smiling into the kiss, Wufei tasted Duo gently, holding him close, soothingly. He rubbed the longhaired pilot's back gently as he leaned back. "I ask again...please don't leave me." He whispered softly.
"Never. I promise I won't leave you." Duo said faintly, his eyes slightly wide with wonder as he gazed at Wufei. He couldn't help but chuckle, then grin. "It would seem little Shaina has changed us all much more than we expected."
"A baby can do that...they are, afterall, a gift of life." Wufei said softly, eyes flashing slightly in sorrow before becoming clear again. He smiled again. "Now...do you want to get ready for bed?"
"They are...I guess." Duo tilted his head, then touched Wufei's cheek briefly. "Now I'm going to be a pest and ask you what's wrong."
Eyes saddening, Wufei hugged Duo close. He buried his face as the past came up, haunting him. "Life is precious, Duo...I must always remember that, even when I snuff it out." He whispered softly, cryptically.
"I know how you feel." Duo closed his eyes, remembering Father Maxwell and Sister Helen. "But what we're doing is so others won't be hurt, like we were. We must never forget that either."
"I know, Duo...I know." Wufei said softly as he held Duo closer to him. With a sigh, he pulled back and smiled gently at Duo. "Did you want to get some clothes for the night?"
A sly smirk fell across Duo's lips as he grinned at his friend. "Oh? Why would I need spare clothes?" Wufei opened his mouth to reply, then blushed deeply. He...hadn't thought of that. In fact...he hadn't slept with anyone since his wife...and certainly not of the same sex. "Ya know...you look cute in red." Duo quipped with a smirk. He was definitely feeling like his old self again. Of course, he'd never do anything to hurt Wufei. 'Hell, chances are he's never even been with a guy. He had been married, after all.'
"Idiot..." Wufei whispered in embarrassment, but it was affectionate. He nuzzled Duo gently before kissing him softly, running his fingers up into the bound hair.
"Yeah yeah...tell me something else I don't know." Duo smirked, returning the soft kiss. He shivered at the touch on his hair; it had always been a spot of pleasure for him. Smirking as he noticed the shiver, Wufei massaged softly at the base of Duo's neck as he kissed the other youth. He ran his fingers down and began unraveling the soft silk. If it had been anyone else, the very touch to his braid would have meant instant death. But Duo let Wufei unbraid his hair, eager to see the look on his friend's face when he saw the long chestnut mane fall around them.
As he undid the soft locks, Wufei's eyes softened with love. "Oh Duo....you look so..." He blushed slightly as he brought his eyes up to Duo's while his hands slowly ran through the soft hair. Duo found himself blushing slightly at the look Wufei was giving him. He flushed, running his fingers through a lock of hair. Running his fingers through the hair, Wufei laced his fingers with Duo's fingers, smiling softly. "It's so soft...like you. So gently warm and soothing. So...lovely." He whispered softly.
"Really? Thanks." Duo couldn't help the blush that came over his cheeks at Wufei's soft words. He hadn't heard anyone say that to him before. Strangely, he didn't take Wufei's words that he was soft badly.
Chuckling softly, Wufei kissed the blushing cheeks softly. "So...lovely..." He breathed out softly, nuzzling Duo as he ran his fingers through the soft hair.
"So are you." Feeling adventurous, after all Wufei had taken his own hair down, Duo let his fingers pull out the hair tie. He smiled, running his fingers through the shoulder length black hair.
Blushing brightly, Wufei brought a hand up to his hair and cleared his throat in embarrassment. Even his *wife* had never had the gall to do that without permission! "D-duo...I..."
"What? It's only fair. You took my hair down, now I should get to take yours down." Duo smirked, arching an eyebrow in challenge at Wufei.
Smirking at the challenge, Wufei moved slowly. "A challenge, hm?" He purred out as he laid Duo out on the bed and stretched out over him.
"Think you're up to it?" Duo asked, not just in regards to the challenge, but to what Duo hoped was about to happen. He looked up at Wufei sincerely, knowing he wouldn't be at all hurt if Wufei said no.
"Perhaps...at another time when there is no danger of being found or of waking a certain little one." Wufei whispered softly, his voice filled with promise as he smiled gently. He leaned up onto his elbows and gazed down at Duo, feeling so at ease with Duo that he knew he'd been right in his decision. Knowing that Wufei had made the right decision as well, Duo smiled softly. He wrapped his arms around Wufei's neck, just gazing at him softly. In time they would, he knew. But he was in no hurry to rush things along. Leaning forward, Wufei brushed his lips softly over Duo's lips, then leaned up again, eyes twinkling. "You sure you don't want to get some other clothes for the night?" he asked softly before shifting to the side.
For a minute Duo was confused. He tilted his head to the side, blinking owlishly. "Why would I need a change of clothing for the night?"
"Idiot..." Wufei said with a smile before scooting out of his bed. He went to his dresser and pulled out a soft silk nightshirt and tossed it at Duo before stripping and putting one on himself. "I don't think you'd want to have your dirty day clothes on at night, do you?"
"Well no..." Duo eyed the nightshirt with slight distaste. "Actually...I don't usually wear anything to bed, but if you insist..."
Wufei blushed brightly at that information. "I-I..." He fidgeted, then looked away, clearing his throat. "If that is what you want, that is fine..."
Duo snickered at the blush on his friend's face. He bounced to his feet, taking the nightshirt. "Nah, it's cool. Don't worry about it. Besides, it'll just mean you have to wait longer to see all of me." He grinned, winking as he bounced up to change.
Clearing his throat, Wufei opened his mouth while staring at the opposite wall. "Duo...what is it like? Sleeping with a man?" He finally said, blushing brightly.
"Huh? Oh." Duo had forgotten for a moment that Wufei had never done such a thing. Changing quickly, he turned back to his friend and wrapped his arms around Wufei gently. "It's odd you should ask that, since I've actually been with both." He flushed, looking at Wufei with concern. He didn't want Wufei to think that he slept around all the time.
"Oh? I see." Wufei said quietly as he leaned into Duo. He kept his gaze on the wall, silently thinking on what was said. "I...my wife and I were always close. I loved being with her." His throat closed unexpectedly with tears and he shook his head. "But you don't want to know that. I am sorry." He whispered softly as he brought his hands up and patted Duo's.
"Oh stop it. Why wouldn't I want to know that?" Duo shook his head, then smiled softly as he hugged his friend. "Let me finish. It's...different, certainly. It depends on what position you're in but...it is just as wonderful as when you are with a woman. There are things...feelings, you have when you're with a man that you can never have with a woman." He tilted his head to the side and hugged his friend tightly. "You've never let yourself grieve for her, have you?"
Wufei's mouth thinned and he looked away. "Please...I...I don't want to talk about this, Duo." He whispered softly, then shrugged down, and took Duo's hands, leading him to the bed silently.
"All right." Duo sighed, nodding briefly. His friend was still hurting badly over his wife's death. 'Like I am with Sister Helen and Father Maxwell, no doubt. Pain...is that all that binds us all together?' Shaking his head to clear it of such thoughts, he allowed himself to be led to the bed.
Crawling under the covers, Wufei found himself smiling softly up at Duo, his soft ebony hair brushing his silken nightgown as he lay out. "Come to bed, Duo."
Nodding, Duo smiled back as he climbed into bed. Crawling underneath the covers to join Wufei, Duo smiled at his friend as he wrapped his arms around Wufei. "Hmm...much better."
Smiling softly, Wufei settled down as he wrapped his own arms around Duo's shoulders. "Agreed. Good night, Duo." He said softly, smiling.
"'Night, Fei." Duo yawned hugely, then settled down into the warm covers and quickly fell asleep. Smiling softly, Wufei pressed a kiss to Duo's head then fell asleep. He smiled in content as he dreamed of days past and future.
TBC
Authors: Deathangelgw and Sarit
Disclaimer: we don't own the boys, but boy are we gonna have fun with them!!!
Warnings: AU, dark, shounen-ai, angst, sap, fluff
Rating: PG-13 for language.
Pairings: if you ARE wondering, the bois are a bit…loose with each other. Hinted 2x1, 2x3, 2+4 in this along with 2+5, 4+5, 3+5, 1+5
Note: AGAIN MORE!! *cackles and falls over* Enjoy and please review!!
'thoughts'
Wufei went into his room and got ready for bed, not turning on the lights. He needed to think on things then make contact. He blinked, as he looked over, his shirt just off as Duo came into the room. "Maxwell what is it now?" He asked somewhat grumpily. Duo arched an eyebrow upward at the shirtless Wufei. He smirked evilly, then firmly shut the door to Wufei's bedroom. Cocking an eyebrow, Wufei faced Duo. "Maxwell...what do you want?" He asked in a low voice, his shirt dropping down slightly.
"What do I want? Well let's see...there are a lot of things that I want. I'd like a nice car...or no...a motorcycle!" Duo grinned, his eyes never leaving Wufei as he walked over. He placed his hands on the naked chest before him. "But right now all I want is you."
Blinking in surprise, Wufei stared at Duo in surprise. It was true he cared for all of the other pilots...respected them deeply. But this...was something new. "Me? Maxwell quit joking around." He snorted out and turned from Duo, heading for his bed. "Is there anything else more important? Or can I go to bed now?"
Arching an eyebrow upwards, Duo turned his head to hide the hurt look on his face. "I guess not, if you don't feel it's important. I won't bother you again, Wufei." He should have known, really. He'd always thought Wufei was filled with honor and someone he could look up to. That sense had gradually turned to a bit more than friendship for the braided pilot, but obviously not for his friend. "I'm sorry for disturbing you, Wufei. It won't happen again."
Blinking at that, Wufei looked over his shoulder at Duo. He saw the hurt look and his eyes widened in surprise. "You...weren't joking?" he asked softly, not even realizing he'd said out loud.
"Of course I wasn't joking. I may joke around about a lot of things, but I don't that." Duo replied, unable to keep the hurt from his voice. He kept his back to Wufei, so the Chinese pilot couldn't see his trembling.
"Duo...." Wufei said softly, suddenly feeling like a heel. He reached out, then stepped over silently, placing a gentle hand on Duo's shoulder. "Forgive me...I never meant to say otherwise...." He whispered softly, apologetically.
"Hey, it's not a problem. I shouldn't have said anything. I'll go so you can get to bed." Duo said gruffly, keeping his eyes averted. He hadn't expected Wufei's rejection to feel this bad.
Swallowing hard, Wufei looked away. "I...understand. If that is what you wish...." He said quietly and took his hand back before turning back to his bed. "I...am sorry, Duo." He said quietly.
"What I wish? No, it isn't but it's what you wish." Duo said softly, almost whispering the painful words. He closed his eyes, gritting his teeth in anger. Anger at himself and this whole situation. "I'm sorry, Wufei...I didn't mean to say anything that would damage our friendship."
"Would it be considered...damaged? I pray not." Wufei said softly as he looked over his shoulder at Duo. "You...are special to me...Duo."
If anything, those words stopped Duo in his tracks. He looked up, his blue eyes filled with shock. "I...I am?"
Wufei turned his face away, nodding sharply. "All of you are special to me. But you...I am sorry, Duo. I never meant to hurt you with such callous words." He said quietly and went over to his bed.
"It's...okay. Don't worry about it." Duo turned, giving Wufei one of his dazzling smiles. Inside, however, he still felt his heart break. 'We're all special to him...equally no doubt. I really am a fool...'
"Why do you give me a false smile, Duo? Have I truly blundered so badly in my words?" Wufei asked softly, feeling hurt and sorrow well up inside of him. Duo usually would hide his feelings behind that very smile...especially when he was hurting.
It wasn't the first time and Duo had no illusions it would be the last that he did in fact hide behind his smile. He shook his head, trying to allay Wufei's fears. It wasn't Wufei's fault that Duo wasn't...desirable enough. "Nothing's wrong! Honest!" But Duo knew differently. 'Should show me to try and give my heart out again. Every time I try, it only gets trampled on. I should know better by now.'
Looking away, Wufei closed his eyes tightly. He couldn't help the few tears that rolled down his face. "I...see...." He whispered softly as his fist clenched tightly. 'What have I done? What can I do? He's lying to me...'
Turning away, Duo stood at the entrance to Wufei's bedroom. His hand on the doorjamb, he looked at the closed door, his hand so close to the doorknob. "Don't worry, Wufei. I won't mention this again. I didn't mean to offend you with my...desires. We'll stay friends, the way you want it to be. Good night."
"De...sires?" Wufei whispered softly, finally understanding what Duo had been covering for. He paled as he realized what he'd said. "Duo...don't leave. Please." He whispered softly as he looked up and reached for his friend.
"Hey, it's okay! I don't mind, really. I should have known, after all." Duo said bitterly, his eyes on the floor so he didn't see Wufei reaching out to him. "I mean...it's obvious you're not like that." 'Of course he isn't...Heero's right. You are a baka. How could he be when he had a wife? I really need to start thinking things through. Maybe then I wouldn't hurt myself so much.'
"If you think that, then you don't know me, Duo." Wufei whispered softly, feeling hurt and shame well up in him. He got up silently and went to the tense form. He wrapped his arms around Duo's shoulders, nuzzling the soft neck. "I ask again...please don't leave me."
Flinching slightly at the touch, Duo looked up. Looking behind him at the man holding him, he fought back tears. "I'd never leave you, Wufei. No matter what you wanted, I'd never leave."
"You were just going to..." Wufei whispered softly, trying to fight his own tears. "Forgive me, Duo...what I said was truth...but so is this truth. I care deeply for you. When you...said you wanted me...I was shocked. I didn't think you could ever want me in that special way. I was wrong...please forgive me."
"It...it is?" Duo couldn't quite believe what he was hearing. Did this truly mean that Wufei...cared? "Why not? Why didn't you think I could? Am I that hard to...to love?"
"Far from it. I just felt that...you wouldn't want someone so...stuffy, as you say, like me." Wufei said softly as he tightened his hold on Duo, drawing him closer. "You are so...carefree, even at the hardest times. I admire that so much and feel so...stiff and boring around you. I fear that you wouldn't want me. And....you always propositioned the others, so I thought that, again, I was being left out." He said quietly in shame and loneliness.
It was Duo's turn to feel ashamed. He lowered his head, staring at the floor as he spoke softly. "I've never thought of you as stiff and boring. You're so much more than I am, so much more honorable than I could ever be. Hell...you're a much better person than I am." His face flushed as he thought of the rest of what Wufei said. "I never propositioned you because I always knew I didn't stand a chance with the likes of you. You're too noble and honorable for someone like me. I did Heero mainly because it was a challenge...same with Trowa. Quatre is just my friend."
Wufei blinked in surprise at these words. "You...." He turned Duo around and gazed at him steadily, searching his eyes. "Why would you think you are less than I? You are my equal...always will be...." He whispered softly.
"No I'm not." Duo said calmly, his blue eyes showing no emotion. It was as if his words had long been accepted. "You're far more than I. I'm nothing more than a street rat who got lucky enough to find Dr. G and get saddled with a Gundam."
"Duo." Wufei whispered softly, feeling a tear of pain roll down his cheek. He'd never heard this from his friend. "Please don't say that...please. Do you call our judgement wrong? Do you call *my* judgement on you wrong?" He whispered softly, voice shaking with hurt.
"No, I don't. I just know the truth about myself." Duo said softly, his own eyes filled with pain. He'd never spoken to anyone of what he'd been through prior to finding Dr. G. "My words are true, Wufei. I'm sorry to have hurt you with them, but they are true nevertheless. I'm nothing but a street rat, always have been and always will be."
"Then we are all nothing...for I know I for one will not lose you to such...ridiculous words!" Wufei said firmly before hugging Duo to him. "I watched you...with the little one. Such love and tenderness...kindness...that doesn't exist in a nothing. That exists in a someone."
"Hey, never said I was a 'nothing.' I said I was a street rat." Duo mumbled against Wufei's chest, his arms instinctively wrapping around his friend. He tried to hold back his tears, but soon found himself sobbing against his friend.
"You said you are nothing, Duo...and you aren't. You aren't at all." Wufei said softly as he rubbed Duo's back soothingly. He moved back carefully, then sat down on the bed, holding Duo to him on his lap. "You are special...you are mine."
"You-yours?" Duo stuttered, feeling a flush creep over his cheeks. He looked at Wufei, a question in his eyes. He couldn't quite believe what he was hearing.
Wufei smiled softly, closing his eyes and making a decision. "Mine. And....I'm yours...if you'll have me." He whispered softly as he brushed his lips over Duo's lips. Wufei's words were almost more than he could ever have dreamed. Duo gave a soft sob against the lips against his own. He returned the kiss, almost desperately. He'd long tried to hide his feelings for the Chinese pilot, but with Wufei's own admission, his resolve had crumbled into nothing and he willingly gave himself over to his friend and love. Smiling into the kiss, Wufei tasted Duo gently, holding him close, soothingly. He rubbed the longhaired pilot's back gently as he leaned back. "I ask again...please don't leave me." He whispered softly.
"Never. I promise I won't leave you." Duo said faintly, his eyes slightly wide with wonder as he gazed at Wufei. He couldn't help but chuckle, then grin. "It would seem little Shaina has changed us all much more than we expected."
"A baby can do that...they are, afterall, a gift of life." Wufei said softly, eyes flashing slightly in sorrow before becoming clear again. He smiled again. "Now...do you want to get ready for bed?"
"They are...I guess." Duo tilted his head, then touched Wufei's cheek briefly. "Now I'm going to be a pest and ask you what's wrong."
Eyes saddening, Wufei hugged Duo close. He buried his face as the past came up, haunting him. "Life is precious, Duo...I must always remember that, even when I snuff it out." He whispered softly, cryptically.
"I know how you feel." Duo closed his eyes, remembering Father Maxwell and Sister Helen. "But what we're doing is so others won't be hurt, like we were. We must never forget that either."
"I know, Duo...I know." Wufei said softly as he held Duo closer to him. With a sigh, he pulled back and smiled gently at Duo. "Did you want to get some clothes for the night?"
A sly smirk fell across Duo's lips as he grinned at his friend. "Oh? Why would I need spare clothes?" Wufei opened his mouth to reply, then blushed deeply. He...hadn't thought of that. In fact...he hadn't slept with anyone since his wife...and certainly not of the same sex. "Ya know...you look cute in red." Duo quipped with a smirk. He was definitely feeling like his old self again. Of course, he'd never do anything to hurt Wufei. 'Hell, chances are he's never even been with a guy. He had been married, after all.'
"Idiot..." Wufei whispered in embarrassment, but it was affectionate. He nuzzled Duo gently before kissing him softly, running his fingers up into the bound hair.
"Yeah yeah...tell me something else I don't know." Duo smirked, returning the soft kiss. He shivered at the touch on his hair; it had always been a spot of pleasure for him. Smirking as he noticed the shiver, Wufei massaged softly at the base of Duo's neck as he kissed the other youth. He ran his fingers down and began unraveling the soft silk. If it had been anyone else, the very touch to his braid would have meant instant death. But Duo let Wufei unbraid his hair, eager to see the look on his friend's face when he saw the long chestnut mane fall around them.
As he undid the soft locks, Wufei's eyes softened with love. "Oh Duo....you look so..." He blushed slightly as he brought his eyes up to Duo's while his hands slowly ran through the soft hair. Duo found himself blushing slightly at the look Wufei was giving him. He flushed, running his fingers through a lock of hair. Running his fingers through the hair, Wufei laced his fingers with Duo's fingers, smiling softly. "It's so soft...like you. So gently warm and soothing. So...lovely." He whispered softly.
"Really? Thanks." Duo couldn't help the blush that came over his cheeks at Wufei's soft words. He hadn't heard anyone say that to him before. Strangely, he didn't take Wufei's words that he was soft badly.
Chuckling softly, Wufei kissed the blushing cheeks softly. "So...lovely..." He breathed out softly, nuzzling Duo as he ran his fingers through the soft hair.
"So are you." Feeling adventurous, after all Wufei had taken his own hair down, Duo let his fingers pull out the hair tie. He smiled, running his fingers through the shoulder length black hair.
Blushing brightly, Wufei brought a hand up to his hair and cleared his throat in embarrassment. Even his *wife* had never had the gall to do that without permission! "D-duo...I..."
"What? It's only fair. You took my hair down, now I should get to take yours down." Duo smirked, arching an eyebrow in challenge at Wufei.
Smirking at the challenge, Wufei moved slowly. "A challenge, hm?" He purred out as he laid Duo out on the bed and stretched out over him.
"Think you're up to it?" Duo asked, not just in regards to the challenge, but to what Duo hoped was about to happen. He looked up at Wufei sincerely, knowing he wouldn't be at all hurt if Wufei said no.
"Perhaps...at another time when there is no danger of being found or of waking a certain little one." Wufei whispered softly, his voice filled with promise as he smiled gently. He leaned up onto his elbows and gazed down at Duo, feeling so at ease with Duo that he knew he'd been right in his decision. Knowing that Wufei had made the right decision as well, Duo smiled softly. He wrapped his arms around Wufei's neck, just gazing at him softly. In time they would, he knew. But he was in no hurry to rush things along. Leaning forward, Wufei brushed his lips softly over Duo's lips, then leaned up again, eyes twinkling. "You sure you don't want to get some other clothes for the night?" he asked softly before shifting to the side.
For a minute Duo was confused. He tilted his head to the side, blinking owlishly. "Why would I need a change of clothing for the night?"
"Idiot..." Wufei said with a smile before scooting out of his bed. He went to his dresser and pulled out a soft silk nightshirt and tossed it at Duo before stripping and putting one on himself. "I don't think you'd want to have your dirty day clothes on at night, do you?"
"Well no..." Duo eyed the nightshirt with slight distaste. "Actually...I don't usually wear anything to bed, but if you insist..."
Wufei blushed brightly at that information. "I-I..." He fidgeted, then looked away, clearing his throat. "If that is what you want, that is fine..."
Duo snickered at the blush on his friend's face. He bounced to his feet, taking the nightshirt. "Nah, it's cool. Don't worry about it. Besides, it'll just mean you have to wait longer to see all of me." He grinned, winking as he bounced up to change.
Clearing his throat, Wufei opened his mouth while staring at the opposite wall. "Duo...what is it like? Sleeping with a man?" He finally said, blushing brightly.
"Huh? Oh." Duo had forgotten for a moment that Wufei had never done such a thing. Changing quickly, he turned back to his friend and wrapped his arms around Wufei gently. "It's odd you should ask that, since I've actually been with both." He flushed, looking at Wufei with concern. He didn't want Wufei to think that he slept around all the time.
"Oh? I see." Wufei said quietly as he leaned into Duo. He kept his gaze on the wall, silently thinking on what was said. "I...my wife and I were always close. I loved being with her." His throat closed unexpectedly with tears and he shook his head. "But you don't want to know that. I am sorry." He whispered softly as he brought his hands up and patted Duo's.
"Oh stop it. Why wouldn't I want to know that?" Duo shook his head, then smiled softly as he hugged his friend. "Let me finish. It's...different, certainly. It depends on what position you're in but...it is just as wonderful as when you are with a woman. There are things...feelings, you have when you're with a man that you can never have with a woman." He tilted his head to the side and hugged his friend tightly. "You've never let yourself grieve for her, have you?"
Wufei's mouth thinned and he looked away. "Please...I...I don't want to talk about this, Duo." He whispered softly, then shrugged down, and took Duo's hands, leading him to the bed silently.
"All right." Duo sighed, nodding briefly. His friend was still hurting badly over his wife's death. 'Like I am with Sister Helen and Father Maxwell, no doubt. Pain...is that all that binds us all together?' Shaking his head to clear it of such thoughts, he allowed himself to be led to the bed.
Crawling under the covers, Wufei found himself smiling softly up at Duo, his soft ebony hair brushing his silken nightgown as he lay out. "Come to bed, Duo."
Nodding, Duo smiled back as he climbed into bed. Crawling underneath the covers to join Wufei, Duo smiled at his friend as he wrapped his arms around Wufei. "Hmm...much better."
Smiling softly, Wufei settled down as he wrapped his own arms around Duo's shoulders. "Agreed. Good night, Duo." He said softly, smiling.
"'Night, Fei." Duo yawned hugely, then settled down into the warm covers and quickly fell asleep. Smiling softly, Wufei pressed a kiss to Duo's head then fell asleep. He smiled in content as he dreamed of days past and future.
TBC
