Chapter 4

When I woke up I was in my own room in my own bed. For a minute I thought I was still in that metal hospital, but then Jesse was sitting on my bed so I knew I wasn't. I sat up in bed and he looked at me with those sexy brown eyes.

"Susannah are you all right you were having a bad dream?" he said then everything about the hospital came back to me. I didn't know what to do. What if everything the doctor said was right what if I'm making all this up. No I couldn't be. Right? Right! I've been able to see ghosts for almost seventeen years now. I looked up at Jesse he was looking at me again.

"Yeah Jesse everythings fine I just had a bed dream thats all." I knew I was lying to Jesse and hopefully he couldn't see through it. Thankfully he didn't.

"Do you want to talk about it?" he asked in that sexy spanish voice of his.

"I was in that room again. The one in the metal hospital. The doctor asked me some questions and then gave me a shot that would make me go to sleep then I woke up here. Thats all I remember."

I lied to him again. I just didn't want him to make a big deal about it and say I should call Father Dom. about it.

"Are you sure thats it? Nothing else happened?"

"No, thats it."

"I think I should tell Father Dominic about this. You should get some sleep." then he disappeared.

I laid there thinking about everything that happened at the mental hospital. Both my parents were there. My dad was alive there. Thats what I've always wanted was for my dad to be alive and he was, only there. Then I thought about what the doctor had said about ghosts not being real. Jesse was real. I loved him. But that doctor said that I was just looking for love, but Jesse didn't love me. Then there was my stepbrothers and stepfather I know I seem like I don't like them, but really I do. They kind of grow on you after a while. Father Dominic was like a second dad. I have friends here Cee Cee and Adam. But there I had both parents. I thought about it for a while and all it did was give me a headache so I laid down and went back to sleep.

When I woke up again I was in the same white room with doctors all around me. I still had the headache. The doctor's were talking really soft so that I couldn't here them. I watched them for a while and then one of them seen that I was awake.

"Susannah we would like to talk to you for a moment. Is that alright?"

"Um, yeah I guess."

"Susannah everyone here wants you to get better and we thought that a walk with your family on the grounds might help you. You know getting out around people and seeing normal things might help you get better, faster. How does that sound?"

"I guess its ok." was all I said. I keep thinking about everything thats happening. Then my mom and dad came in and we went out for a walk. Once we were outside I noticed that nothing looked like Carmel. There were tall building everywhere. It looked alot like New York.

"We aren't in Carmel are we? Were in New York." I said mostly to myself.

"Honey you always lived in New York, remember? You grow up here, with all your friends and school." mom told me. I just looked at her and keep walking. We walked a little bit more and then sat down on a bench.

"Suze we have a surprise for you." my dad said. Then someone walks around the corner, I couldn't really tell who it was until she got closer. Gina!

"Hey Suze how you feeling? You better be getting better so we can go out and party some time." she said and I just stared at her. Then it sank in and I rush at her and embraced her in a hug.

"Gina I missed you so much. It gets so lonely where I'm at. You should come a visit me sometime." now it was her turn to stare at me.

"Suze I visit you once a week, you know that." she said with a little laugh.

"Oh yeah I remember now." so I lied a little. She was here know after all. We walk around some more and me and Gina talked for a while about her life while I was in the 'hospital'. She had a boyfriend named Grant. They've been dating for three months. It was like old times. Until I had to go back to that weird hospital. I said bye to Gina and we walked back.

"Suzie you seemed to have a good time out today." my mom broke the silence.

"Um yeah. Its nice talking to Gina again. I guess."

"Honey all you have to do is admit to everyone and yourself that you cannot talk to ghosts and they'll let you go home. Thats all."

"But.."

"No buts about it just tell them that you don't talk to ghosts and everything we'll back to normal. Suze we really miss you at home. Things can be the way they were." my mom said with tears in her eyes. I felt so bad right then. "Just think about it."

We went back to the hospital and I went back to my room. I sat on my bed and listening to the people passing my room and thinking about Gina and my parents and what they said.