Charlie's POV

He pressed himself instinctively against the wall as I walked towards him. He had the expression of guilt and I should have been wearing it too…But I wasn't.

"How could you?" I advanced on him, until his back was flattened against the wall, and I was in his face. He couldn't bring himself to respond.

"Here I am…come to apologize for acting like a jerk this morning, to find you…" I didn't need to drive the point; he looked plenty remorseful.

"I…I'm sorry." His voice was soft…weak almost. I would have given any number of things to have known what was going through his mind right then. I shook my head at him.

"Why?" It was more demanding than I wanted it to sound, but he looked no more daunted than before.

"I…I thought you didn't…thought you wouldn't…" He swallowed and blinked at me.

"What did you think?" I shouted, taking his shoulders and shaking them as gently as I could through my anger.

"I thought you didn't love me anymore!" He shouted back at me. Only now could I see the tears welling up in his eyes. I was slightly stunned for a moment, and found myself staring.

I almost felt for him…almost.

"How could you think that?" I lowered my voice. It was a stupid question, which I needn't have asked. I knew the answer. I'd been ignoring him, spending more time with Koon and being a selfish ass! I felt bad about it, but he was leaving…and…it wouldn't help anything if I was so attached when he left that I wore black for the rest of my life.

"You seemed…you seemed taken." He managed, blinking back his emotion.

"I what?" I snapped, eyeing him. That was another question I needn't have asked. I knew he was referring to Koon, and how much time I'd been spending with him. I silently uttered a prayer that this would turn out for the best, although I should have known better.

"You seemed…preoccupied. Like you had your eye on some one else…like I was leaving, so you were getting ready to find fresh meat to pounce on the moment I left." I muttered a string of curse words under my breath. He knew. That's the first time it really donned on me…

He knew me far too well for me to get away with pulling a stunt like I'd just done. I couldn't lay all the blame on him and hope to get away with it. He'd seen what was going on with me, and with Koon. It was all in the eyes. He didn't have to say a word…I just knew. He'd known what I'd been planning to do once he left…he knew that I had my eye on Koon. He knew it all. I guess you can't be another person's other half without knowing them…but this was eerie. His eyes flashed the story for my to read, and it swept me with anger…boiling rage.

I turned away from him, running my hand through my hair. I made a mental note to go have it cut sometime soon. I didn't think about my hair for very long, however. My thoughts were on what he'd just said. I knew that he'd known, but I had no idea how he'd figured it out. Within reason, I'd expect him to be skeptical, but never did I expect him to know. It was obvious to me, now, that he did.

When I turned to look back at him, his expression, through his tears, held an almost smitten hint. This sent my already lit fuses sizzling to the depths of my agitation. I clenched my fist at my side, and struck. It was as quick as lightening, and I kid you not.

The second contact was made, I regretted it. I'd punched him in the stomach, and he'd bent forward. His eyes rolled slightly back, so that I could see the whites of them. I shuddered, and drew my fist back immediately.

So much for not being a selfish ass! I'd just lost myself! I'd known that he'd had an ulcer, and I'd punched him anyway. I knew that he was fighting it, and just barely keeping ahead…but I'd punched him anyway. I didn't actually know why I'd punched him, but I had.

He began to sink to the floor, crouching against the wall. I inhaled slowly, and stepped back. Watching the destruction, I felt like I could kick myself.

Instead of kicking myself, I stepped quickly forward, gaining momentum, and kicked him full in the side. I immediately took a few stumbling steps backwards, and began breathing erratically.

This was exactly the kind of treatment he'd received as a kid…what was I thinking? How was I going to gain his trust now? I closed my eyes slowly, and rubbed my forehead.

I re-opened my eyes and looked down the hallway…no one was there, and there were no signs of anyone coming. I watched as he began to cough violently, his entire body shaking with the force of it. I shook my head in shame. How could you, Charlie?

I walked forward towards the wall, furious at myself. I considered the power-white wall for a moment, and seemed to be staring it down.

As sudden as my strike to Adam, I lashed out at the wall, drawing back slowly, as I could barely move my hand. My knuckles were shrouded by crimson, and I wiped it absently off on my jacket. I looked down at Adam, and the guilt from everything finally swept over me.

Tears were drawn to my eyes as I looked down at him. He was still groaning in pain.

I couldn't believe what I'd just done. I'd never had an ulcer, or any stomach problems, come to think…So, I really couldn't relate to how much pain he was in. The fact that it was a lot was rather obvious. I had caused that pain… I had caused him so much pain in the past two weeks. Everything seemed like it was falling apart, and as I was contemplating my fate, our dorm-room door began to swing open.

I nearly jumped a foot in the air, and looked back down at Adam, who was breaking out in a cold sweat. I felt my chest heave, as Koon's face peeped out of the doorway. I looked down the hall a final time; to make sure there wasn't anyone else around.

Then…

I ran.

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AN - Sorry, it's kind of a short chapter… =P was a bit longer, but Word froze and I lost a lot of it - I forgot some of it when I went to re-do it, so… Enjoy!