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It's been a long, long time since I looked into the mirror
I guess that I was blind
Now my reflection's getting clearer
Now that you're gone things will never be the same again…
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Inuyasha stared into space.
It was something that he often did ever since Kagome had disappeared from his life. He was beginning to realise how much she meant to him now; he missed her laughter, smiles and more over her kisses. He even missed her alluring scent that had somehow deposited itself in his system.
Where ever he went he could feel or sometimes even see her. His dreams would often end up with her, running away and he attempting to restrain her with all the power he had. But she was always out of reach...
He closed his eyes and placed his head between his hands; afraid he was going insane by just thinking about her. The only thing that kept him sane was the fact that he didn't find the chain in her apartment. She had taken it with her despite the circumstances and it gave him a little hope.
He didn't hear a certain someone entering his room until he stood before him, his shadow casting a blanket of darkness around his hunched form. He looked up to meet his brother's eyes. He sighed and got up only to be pushed rather violently back down with Sesshomaru making himself comfortable. "What do you want bro?" he growled out irritably.
"I think it's time you stop dwelling on what has happened and move on." His brother had a habit of coming to the heart of the problem. What really pissed him off was the fact that his brother could do or say things without affecting him physically or emotionally.
"What exactly do you mean?" Inuyasha asked before approaching the window to stare beyond the cityscape.
Sesshomaru sighed. Inu could be smart and ace all his exams and tests but when it came to relationships he failed miserably. "You're too caught up. You have to stop thinking about her and –"
"I would and will not ever stop thinking about her!" Inuyasha rounded his brother and glared furiously at his calm composure, "If you're saying that I should forget her then I think you've –"
"I said no such thing." Sesshomaru regarded his brother haughtily before he began to pace the room.
"You've had a month Inu, to let the situation rest. Instead you constantly bring it up at your own free will and regret that night that began all this."
"Well what do you want me to do?" he demanded defensively, "Listen to your shit for the rest of the afternoon and make me feel all shit guilty again?"
"Guilty?" he questioned his usage of words, "Ah, the guilt."
"Just shut the fuck up bro!" he roared when the word hit home. Inuyasha could feel all the disgust and heartache pour through him yet again and he instantly growled at the fact that his brother could carelessly talk about something that hurt him like hell.
"Cool it Inu. Getting aggravated is not going to make it any better."
He gritted his teeth and forced his temper to subside. It annoyed him yet again that his brother was right. "If you're here to lecture, you're in the wrong room."
Sesshomaru rolled his eyes but was patient. He decided to go straight to the point. "Do you want her back?"
"If I said no, would you go?" he countered and received a pointed glare.
Inuyasha snorted. Would the baka stop pacing the room? It was making him fucking dizzy. Inuyasha watched him pace back and forth before turning to admire the view.
"The guilt is eating at you Inu. You have to realise that it is more important to find her than to dwell on your faults." He stiffened at his advice and opened his mouth to yell only to close it again.
What could he say? Fuck you bro for being right? He sighed.
"I've made a couple of inquiries through private investigations but no one can seem to find her. It's like she's disappeared altogether."
"And you think that's enough to find her? Why don't you make a few inquiries?" He stopped pacing the room and came to stand next to him.
"Me? Who could I ask? The boogie man?"
Sesshomaru closed his eyes and shook his head. Whoever thought his motor mouth of a brother could be so baka? "What of her friends or family? She may have contacted them some time during the month?"
"I've asked her family to contact me as soon as they get any word of her, other than that, there's Sango…"
"I hear a but coming on. What's wrong with her?"
Inuyasha frowned. Sango and Kagome had been friends for as long as he could remember, as were he and Miroku. But… "I've asked her and she doesn't know."
At the corner of his eye, he watched him raise a brow inquiringly, "And you don't believe her?"
"Just the way she acts, it's so…" he paused trying to find the right words, "unconvincing."
"Now how does that work?"
"It's like she doesn't…" He tilted his head thoughtfully, "I just thought she might be a little determined to find her or at least angry at the fact her friend disappeared on her."
"Well there you go! Your first suspect!" Sesshomaru punched him playfully on the shoulder and ruffled his hair. "Now you're getting somewhere."
Inuyasha smiled wanly. "Now that I think about it… maybe she knows where she is. Probably protecting her somehow."
He smiled down at his little brother, glad that he was occupied with something other than thinking of the girl. He checked his wristwatch and sighed. "I got to go Inu. Good luck!"
He turned and headed for the door only to be stopped by the sound of his name.
"Thanks Fluff. I owe you one." He considers him for a moment before departing with a promise to contact him again.
"Oh crap!" Kagome stumbled out of bed and into the bathroom cursing every few minutes for not turning on her alarm again. She was getting a little forgetful nowadays and shook her head at her own folly.
Cleaning herself up, she grabbed a matching skirt and blouse and was ready in five minutes flat. She obtained her keys and checked her mobile for any new messages before she grabbed a breakfast bar and gulped down a glass of orange juice.
She managed to catch the bus and settled herself before munching on her brekkie bar. Sighing she stared at the passing scenery before her eyes and pondered on her life so far in Australia. She was enjoying it no doubt, doing what she loved best and making new friends everyday however…
Stiffening at her thoughts, she found herself idly twirling the chain around her neck and bit her lip. Ever since she ran away, she hadn't the heart to take off the necklace and mentally cursed at her hesitation. It was as if taking off the accessory meant a disconnection between her and Inuyasha.
She gaped. That was the first time that she had allowed his name to slip through her guard. Was she… she…? NO!
How could she forgive him? Not after that… that night!
Then why do you continue to wear his necklace? Her conscience scorned. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath, willing herself to forget.
Another working week had begun.
