Rebirth of the Soul

Chapter two: Sorrow

Author: Sakura Avalon or Kinomoto

Authors notes: Konnichiwa minna-san . . yea, it's me Saki here again. This story will be full agnst.. .. sad, ne? In this story, it's as if Kodomo no Omocha never happened. They are way OOC, but hey . . it's my story. Onegai, review!! Your reviews are what keeps me alive.. grr.. . lol ..Welp, please r&r!!

Disclaimer: I don't own Kodomo no omocha, so don't sue me..

the itaclis are the girl's thoughts.

the underlined are the guy's thoughts.

Rebirth of the Soul: Sorrow

            Being sad, but not shedding a tear. Insecure and full of fear.

            I carefully examined the mirror infront of me. I helplessly reached over and touched my reflection, scared that it would somehow go--disappear if I didn't hold onto it. Who is that girl I see, staring straight back at me.

            A world without love, a world without hope. What kind of a world is that? A life without love, a life without hope. That's my life--a life not worth living.

            Today was May13th, a Tuesday---it was also my birthday, as well as the day I almost killed myself. ( I know that's not her real birthday but, my friend wanted me to put that as her birthday since it's hers and mines as well.. kkekeee..)

            ' Watch out, she's suicidal.'

            My dad hit me again; I have bruises all over. I'm sick of my life. I'm sick of me. I'm sick of everything in this damn world.

            I silently ate my breakfast, rice and egg. The egg was uncooked and watery. The rice was cold and hard. This is my breakfast, the same thing everyday. I never learned how to cook, I never did and never will.

            Curse this place. Curse everything.

            I looked at the clock, 8:50 a.m.

I'm going to be late on my first day. Ugh! I checked the mirror one last time, practiced my fake smile, and ran out the door.

            8:50, shit! I'm going to be late! School, my one and only refuge. My sanctuary.

            Smile, just smile. All you need to do is smile. Smile as if I have never been hurt. Smile as if heaven is on earth. Smile, smile.

            " This is Sana. I expect all of you to be nice to her!" the teacher shouted enthusiastically. She gave a smile and winked at the boys. I envied her, I wanted to be life her. Standing side by side I noticed something. I noticed that we were totally opposites.

            She's happy and full of zest while I'm depressed and full of sorrow. She's the day and I'm the night..she's the sun, while I'm the moon. This thought saddens me. I once agni realize that I am not normal. I am cursed--I'm a disease. I'm the devil in disguise, I'm a machine..I'm a monster.

            We have a new student here at my school. Her name is Sana. Her eyes look so sad and tired. She's like me in a way. I need to know more. I want to know more. Something about her makes me want to know more..something..something.

            Smile Sana. You can do it! I know you can. Just smile..smile. Crying is a sign of weakness, don't cry..Smile.

            --flashback--

" You bitch!"

A slap..once, twice.

I shakily stood up but was knocked down once again...

-- end of flashback--

            " Sana? Sana?" the voice of my concerned teacher awoke me from my daydream, my nightmare. She stared at me and whispered, "Sit next to Hayama Akito."

She pointed to gorgeaous guy. His hair was a nice shade of brown. His eyes, they looked so black..as dark as the night sky. They drew me in..pulled me in.

            Why is she staring at me?

I shook my head, took a deep breath, and walked toward my new seat.

            So, she's sitting here. This'll be interesting.

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To be continued...

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