An Attempt To Make Things Better
**I have to. It's all my fault.. No one.. not ever again..** It was the longest walk to the Astronomy Tower Harry ever made. The clomb up the stairs seemed to be more harder than usual. But then again, when you're walking with a heavy heart, everything seems harder. **Almost there Harry**
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Draco was still back at the field dwelling in self pity. Pondering why he hadn't at least stop to listen to what Harry and to say.
"I'm a fool" Draco said to himself
"Yes. You are." **What??**Draco wasn't expecting an answer. Then he looked up and saw her.
"Well are you just going to sit there? Our are you going to at least try to save him?"
"Save who? What in the bloody hell are YOU talking about?"
"Here" Kairi threw him his broom "You were almost stupid enough to leave this behind. Ask no questions and you'll waste no time. Go. Astronomy Tower. NOW!"
Draco wasn't used to talking orders from strangers. But he made an exception this time. There was something in her voice that made him go. **What is she playing at** Draco got onto his Nimbus 2001 and raced off to try and save a mysterious person at the Astronomy Tower **This is Gryffindor stuff.**
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Harry finally made his was up the Astronomy. The wind was pushing him to the edge whispering "You wont" into his ear. **I won't eh?** Harry threw of his invisibility cloak and breathed in the cold night air. He raised his head to the sky. Let the tears run down his cheeks. Opened his arms. And said his final goodbyes.
"I'm sorry. For all of you that died trying to save me. I repay you with my own life. And Draco. I'm sorry for every second of pain I caused you. I was just scared. because I.I.I think I'm in love with you." And then he jumped.
Draco couldn't believe that he saw Harry Potter jumping from the Astronomy Tower.
"Harrrryyyy!!!!" He screamed as he raced as fast as he could to save Harry. But Harry kept falling and falling and Draco seemed so far away. He kept flying. And as Harry was a few feet from ending it all something caught him and was gently placing him on the ground. When they landed Harry opened his eyes and saw it was Draco. He had a bewildered look on his face. It was a cross of I-should-kill-you-for-trying-to-kill-yourself look and a please- don't-ever-try-to-leave-me-again-my-love look. As for Harry, he had a duh- I-don't-know-whats-going-on look.
"What were you thinking Harry!! Killing yourself like that!! You're going nutters!" Were the only words tat managed to escape Draco's mouth. "I..I.." but then Harry stopped..he wasn't going to try to explain himself. He wasn't going to tell Draco that when he saw him cry it was the straw that broke his back. Besides from trying to sort out his emotions with Draco he was trying to deal with all the losses he suffered from the war. Especially Sirius. Especially him. Yes. It was a long time ago. But he still couldn't get over it. So Harry sat in silence. Head down. And cried.
Draco just took pity on him. He knew it was a chance for heartbreak but he couldn't leave him there. And he couldn't let him go back to his commmon room in that state. There would be to many questions. And Draco didn't want Harry to have to deal with that. So he did what he thought he had to do. Invite him to his room.
"Harry. Would you like to go to my room to..er.pull yourself together. I have my own room so no one would bother you or anything. And.uh..we could just talk if you like..or we don't have to talk at all..i mean I could just" Draco was rambling and he only stopped when he heard a small "yes" come from Harry's mouth.
"Alright then..just get on my broom and we'll fly in through my window.."
"Okay.and Draco.. Thankyou." Harry got on Draco's broom and layed his head on Draco's chest. It was heaven. For the both of them.
Harry and Draco were so busy with eachother they didn't notice they had and audience. Someone was lurking in the shadows, watching them both.
"Excellent."
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Draco and Harry arrived to Draco's room safe and unseen.
"The shower is in there.you can clean yourself off and put these on.you might be more comfortable." Draco hand Harry a pair of pajamas.
"Thankyou" was the only words Harry could manage.
**He's being nice to me**
** I'm being nice to him**
Harry took his shower and desperately tried to wash off all the guilt and shame he could. Unfortunately, when he got out. That transparebt layer of guilt and shame were still there. Forever haunting him. He got dressed and the silk pajamas felt good against his skin. He went back to the bedroom and there was Draco sitting in front of the fire.
Draco was waiting all his life to have Harry in his room. By himself. So he could make sweet love to him. But sex was the furthest thing from his mind right now. He wanted to know why the Golden Boy was about to give it all away. He wanted to know Harry. Read him again. And most of all, wanted to understand. Understand why he stole that sweet kiss and then ignored him for all this time.
Draco's thoughts were interrrupted as Harry stepped into the room. **He looks so good in those** Draco smiled.
"Here. Come sit here by the fire. It's warmer."
Harry didn't answer. He just moved. Like a zombie. He had no desire to live. Draco stole that oppurtunity from him. Yet again, Harry did still that kiss. They were even.
The sat in silence for the longest time. Silence can be a great thing. It can be a healer. A mentor. A friend. It's always there. Always watching. Always listening.
The silence was broken by a simple "Why?"
"Pardon" Harry said.he didn't quite catch that
"Why.Why did you try to do that?"
"Draco.you don't want to know.it's stupid..really.im sure you have better things to do than listen to the 'Golden Boy' ramble about how much he hates his life."
**Damn. He doesn't think I care..**
"Well, If I had better things to do then I wouldn't have aske. Would you tell me..please" **Damn..I'm begging**
"Do you really want to know?"
"Yes..Tell me.."
**I have to. It's all my fault.. No one.. not ever again..** It was the longest walk to the Astronomy Tower Harry ever made. The clomb up the stairs seemed to be more harder than usual. But then again, when you're walking with a heavy heart, everything seems harder. **Almost there Harry**
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Draco was still back at the field dwelling in self pity. Pondering why he hadn't at least stop to listen to what Harry and to say.
"I'm a fool" Draco said to himself
"Yes. You are." **What??**Draco wasn't expecting an answer. Then he looked up and saw her.
"Well are you just going to sit there? Our are you going to at least try to save him?"
"Save who? What in the bloody hell are YOU talking about?"
"Here" Kairi threw him his broom "You were almost stupid enough to leave this behind. Ask no questions and you'll waste no time. Go. Astronomy Tower. NOW!"
Draco wasn't used to talking orders from strangers. But he made an exception this time. There was something in her voice that made him go. **What is she playing at** Draco got onto his Nimbus 2001 and raced off to try and save a mysterious person at the Astronomy Tower **This is Gryffindor stuff.**
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Harry finally made his was up the Astronomy. The wind was pushing him to the edge whispering "You wont" into his ear. **I won't eh?** Harry threw of his invisibility cloak and breathed in the cold night air. He raised his head to the sky. Let the tears run down his cheeks. Opened his arms. And said his final goodbyes.
"I'm sorry. For all of you that died trying to save me. I repay you with my own life. And Draco. I'm sorry for every second of pain I caused you. I was just scared. because I.I.I think I'm in love with you." And then he jumped.
Draco couldn't believe that he saw Harry Potter jumping from the Astronomy Tower.
"Harrrryyyy!!!!" He screamed as he raced as fast as he could to save Harry. But Harry kept falling and falling and Draco seemed so far away. He kept flying. And as Harry was a few feet from ending it all something caught him and was gently placing him on the ground. When they landed Harry opened his eyes and saw it was Draco. He had a bewildered look on his face. It was a cross of I-should-kill-you-for-trying-to-kill-yourself look and a please- don't-ever-try-to-leave-me-again-my-love look. As for Harry, he had a duh- I-don't-know-whats-going-on look.
"What were you thinking Harry!! Killing yourself like that!! You're going nutters!" Were the only words tat managed to escape Draco's mouth. "I..I.." but then Harry stopped..he wasn't going to try to explain himself. He wasn't going to tell Draco that when he saw him cry it was the straw that broke his back. Besides from trying to sort out his emotions with Draco he was trying to deal with all the losses he suffered from the war. Especially Sirius. Especially him. Yes. It was a long time ago. But he still couldn't get over it. So Harry sat in silence. Head down. And cried.
Draco just took pity on him. He knew it was a chance for heartbreak but he couldn't leave him there. And he couldn't let him go back to his commmon room in that state. There would be to many questions. And Draco didn't want Harry to have to deal with that. So he did what he thought he had to do. Invite him to his room.
"Harry. Would you like to go to my room to..er.pull yourself together. I have my own room so no one would bother you or anything. And.uh..we could just talk if you like..or we don't have to talk at all..i mean I could just" Draco was rambling and he only stopped when he heard a small "yes" come from Harry's mouth.
"Alright then..just get on my broom and we'll fly in through my window.."
"Okay.and Draco.. Thankyou." Harry got on Draco's broom and layed his head on Draco's chest. It was heaven. For the both of them.
Harry and Draco were so busy with eachother they didn't notice they had and audience. Someone was lurking in the shadows, watching them both.
"Excellent."
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Draco and Harry arrived to Draco's room safe and unseen.
"The shower is in there.you can clean yourself off and put these on.you might be more comfortable." Draco hand Harry a pair of pajamas.
"Thankyou" was the only words Harry could manage.
**He's being nice to me**
** I'm being nice to him**
Harry took his shower and desperately tried to wash off all the guilt and shame he could. Unfortunately, when he got out. That transparebt layer of guilt and shame were still there. Forever haunting him. He got dressed and the silk pajamas felt good against his skin. He went back to the bedroom and there was Draco sitting in front of the fire.
Draco was waiting all his life to have Harry in his room. By himself. So he could make sweet love to him. But sex was the furthest thing from his mind right now. He wanted to know why the Golden Boy was about to give it all away. He wanted to know Harry. Read him again. And most of all, wanted to understand. Understand why he stole that sweet kiss and then ignored him for all this time.
Draco's thoughts were interrrupted as Harry stepped into the room. **He looks so good in those** Draco smiled.
"Here. Come sit here by the fire. It's warmer."
Harry didn't answer. He just moved. Like a zombie. He had no desire to live. Draco stole that oppurtunity from him. Yet again, Harry did still that kiss. They were even.
The sat in silence for the longest time. Silence can be a great thing. It can be a healer. A mentor. A friend. It's always there. Always watching. Always listening.
The silence was broken by a simple "Why?"
"Pardon" Harry said.he didn't quite catch that
"Why.Why did you try to do that?"
"Draco.you don't want to know.it's stupid..really.im sure you have better things to do than listen to the 'Golden Boy' ramble about how much he hates his life."
**Damn. He doesn't think I care..**
"Well, If I had better things to do then I wouldn't have aske. Would you tell me..please" **Damn..I'm begging**
"Do you really want to know?"
"Yes..Tell me.."
