Chapter 2

"I loved him and he loved me back, those few years of us being together were the happiest times of my life, it was like a dream, but Akito woke me up on the day he confronted me," her voice can only be made barely louder than a whisper, "He asked me to go to his room that day. He didn't hit me, but his words hurt me more than imaginable. He told me I was going to break the heart of the person I loved, even if I knew it or not. Of course I didn't know what he was talking about, but he explained-"

~~~~~Flash back~~~~~ (or more like reliving it, adding her opinion while explaining to Tohru.)

"You can't be with him Ame," Akito whispered in to my ear with his face next to mine, "You belong to me and you know it. Not matter how much time you spend with him or telling him much you love him, you can never be with him, because you would have to marry me. It's your life being the mistress of the family, despite you liking it or not."

He pulled me closer, I could feel his hair brushing against my cheek, and hear as well as feel every breath he took, "this is just a warning for your own good. I wouldn't lead him too far if I were you, you might break his heart even more. If you really love him, you'd let him down easy, and give him the time to recover, so when it comes to our wedding day, he wouldn't hit rock bottom or try to stop the wedding. If he even try to do so, I will make sure to wipe his existence off of the face of this planet."

I knew he was right like always. How could I have been so stupid? How could I allow myself to fall in love with him, even when I knew I couldn't be with him? I guess I just got carried too far away. I knew I had to do the right thing. So later that day when I finally gathered up enough courage, I went to the place I knew I would find him, the Martial Arts Dojo. Even so, it took me all of my strength to break up with him.

"I'm… I'm sorry," I whispered, not daring to look at him, for I knew I would shatter my heart into more pieces than it already was. "Why…?" I could hear him ask. I didn't know what to say, all I managed to do was to shake my head. I stared hard at the ground; I knew if I looked up, he would see the tears in my eyes that's about to fall. I could feel him; I knew I broke his heart, for I broke mine as well. I used all of my self-control to stop my self from hugging him and tell him that everything will be all right, and that I will always love him. But I knew I couldn't. So I gathered up all of my strength to keep a stern tone despite what I was feeling on the inside, "I just don't love you anymore. It's over," I could hear myself talk, but it seemed to be somebody else saying it, not me. When he left the room, he took a part of me with him. The part of me that everybody adored, the part that always loved life, and full of happiness. I felt as if I would never be happy again, and I still feel that way.

They were there when that happened. Yuki, Kyo, and Kagura. They were all there, watching me. I knew they hated me for breaking Haru's heart. (Yes it's Haru.) But Kyo was the only one who said anything about it. "You're heartless!" he yelled at me before running after Haru, while Kagura and Yuki looked at me reproachfully. I didn't know what to do. Wither to break down and cry or try to explain it to them. I ran out of the room, outside, to the cold December evening. I didn't know where I was going nor did I care. All I wanted to do was to get away from them, maybe just a little while, so I could think this over.

What was I going to do? How was I going to live my life without him? I didn't know, and I still don't. On that day, I lost all that was precious to me. I no longer cared about school nor my life; all I wanted was for him to be happy, and me as well. I couldn't help but wonder if Kyo was right, was I heartless as he called me? Maybe I am, maybe that's how I managed to break up with him. I just don't care anymore, about anything. And this is how I managed to become the person today. I never blamed anybody for this beside for my self. I knew the Forbidden Law, but I broke it anyways. It was my fault for breaking his heart, not anybody else's. Akito never did anything. He was right, it was my fault for starting it in the first place, and maybe I have done the right thing for breaking up with him. At least his wound healed with Rin's help, but it has been broken once again, by another girl he loved.

~~~~End of Flash back~~~~~~

"I don't know what to do anymore, Tohru," she finished, with tears running down her grey eyes, "I don't want to be sad anymore. It has been so long since I felt anything beside for grief, I forgot what happiness, anger, annoyance, or disappointment felt like."

"Shhh…" she held the younger girl close, letting her sob on her shoulder, "it's all right, everything will be fine. It already happened, there's nothing you can do about it, you can't go back it time and change it, so let it be. If you could, would you do it?"

"No…" was the soft reply coming from the sobbing girl, "I wouldn't have changed anything, this was the best…for Haru. At least he's happy now."

"Then why are you so sad?" she asked, looking at Kyami truthfully, "you wanted him to be happy and he is. Don't you think he would've want you to be happy as well, if he really loved you then he would feel the same way? It's probably hurting him more to see you suffering like this."

"You are right," said Kyami finally, wiping her tears away, giving her a soft smile, "there's nothing I can do anymore, I've done all I can. Things turned out for the best anyway…" she added as an after thought, " it may still hurts me, but I've done the right thing by breaking up with him. It was better sooner than later. It would've hurt him more if I did it now. I'm not going to make him worry about me anymore. I'll go on with my life, hiding the scar on the inside, so it would never affect anybody else, making him or her miserable because of me. Now I under stand… I can be myself again."

"All of your friends and families were worried about you," said Tohru, letting go of her, "they'll be glad to know you've finally figured things out. And I know for a fact that a lot of people missed you."

They heard a soft knock coming from the other side of the door, soon followed by the soft voice of Hatori, coming to tell them that it was time for her to get back to bed. Tohru quickly got up and Hatori entered. "Ha-chan? Can I restart my martial arts lessons again? I have to get back into shape. I'm growing weak and lazy," she smiled teasingly at him, as he stared at her in shock, not having seen a true smile from her in nearly 2 years.

"Of course," he replied, getting in to her bed again, "I'll call Kasuma, and you can start as soon as you loose that fever of your. "

"Well… good night, Ha-chan, and you too Tohru-san," she turned her back toward them as she closed her eyes, "thanks."

They left the room quickly, and closed the door behind before they went down the stairs into the living room. Hatori looked at Tohru in pure gratitude. "Whatever you did, thank you," he said to her sincerely, "I haven't seen her like this in years. It made me happy just to see her back to her old self."