Disclaimer: um.. too tired to come up with a witty one.. juss so you know, I'm not J.K.R., if I was, why the hell would I come on this site? all i had to say.
A/N: By the By, Harry and Ginny will get together, but I'm thinking of puttin a twist in the end. you'll see what I mean.
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I couldn't sleep at all that night, thinking what Harry must've come up with to explain finding Draco and I like that. I just couldn't help but be sad. I mean Harry is the only guy that I ever had true feelings for, and after two week, he finds Malfoy and I... What must be going through his head? Thinking that I'm this easy girl who would do god knows what with the first person that comes her way... it was just unbarable. Since it was useless trying to fall asleep, I walked towards the living room, only to find it pitch black, but to my surprise, there came a little noise. I ran back to my room and took my wand and walked out.
"Don't you dare move. I have two guys here with me, so whatever it is you want to take, you should think twice before doing so." I said that with fear and whispered Lumos, and the room lit up a bit, and what I saw shocked me. Harry sitting on the sofa, looking as if he had lost his best friend.
"What's wrong?" I went and sat next to him, putting an arm around his shoulder, because he looked like he was going to cry. I had never seen him that way, and it bothered me. What could be wrong with him? "Why aren't you in bed? You should get your sleep."
"I should say the same goes for you." He looked at me, and shifted a bit, so that my arm whould fall off his shoulder.
"I couldn't sleep." I answered truthfully.
"ah... well, it's the same thing for me... I'm just not used to this place... being around you and Draco 24/7, you know? I'm used to my own flat, being there all alone."
"Well, if you're so uncomfortable here, no one's making you stay, you know? It's not like they're pointing a wand at you, saying that if you don't stay, they will take your life." I said, a bit offended. If he didn't want to be there, I sure wouldn't make him.
"That's not what I meant, Gin. You take everything so defensively." He said, looking into my eyes, regretting what he had said earlier. "I meant... I don't know how to have... let's call it social manners."
"Ah... ok." I said, also regretful of what I had said to him. "So, what's keeping you up?"
"I don't really know... a lot of things, I guess. There have been too many things happening these past few week, and well, I'm not sure if I could deal with them..."
"well, you know... I'm always here... if you need someone to talk to... you DO know that, right?" I said, trying to dig as deep as I can.
"Yeah, of course I know that... it's just... I'm not sure I could confide those things in you." He said. If his goal of the night was to piss me off, he was surely doing a good job. I just looked at him, saying nothing. What was up with him? I just didn't know what to say anymore. I got up to go back to my room, when I heard his voice.
"Would you mind terribly if I asked you to stay with me a little longer?" I looked at him, and he looked genuinly sincere. GOD, why couldn't I ever say no to him? I walked back to the couch and took my place next to him.
"Well, I guess I might as well come out and say it. Here's what's been bugging me. You see, I reallt like this girl- or woman- and... well, I don't know if she's interested, because... I get the feeling that she might be, but there's also this other guy who's interested in her, and I don't know which one of us she likes best. And you know, I can't just walk right up to her and say 'I can't stop thinking of you... you've been on my mind for a very long time and as I go on, it gets harder and harder not to think of you' I just... I really don't know what to do. It would be very much easier if I just kept it to myself, and see if she ever hints that she's interested. But it just kills me to see her with the other guy, and when I see them together, I just want to wipe the smile off the guy's face by a good punch, you know what I mean?" He blurted out, and I felt a little overwhelmed. Here I was, not sleeping, thinking what he must think of me after what he had witnessed, and he had his mind on this other girl, probably a rich blonde who's all over him and he's just too dumb to notice.
"Well, here's what I think. If you really care for her as much as you say you do, you should just tell her. Sometimes in life, taking risks is what makes something worthwhile. And even if she says she doesn't feel the same way, you would at least know and move on with your life... so I guess what I'm telling you is tell her and see where she stands." He looked really uneasy when I told him this, he kept moving on his seat as if he had ants in his pants or something. He looked at me with his deep green eyes and I felt blood rushing to my face... good thing there wasn't that much light, the only source of light was my wand which was now left on the coffee table, a good meter away from us.
"You mean... I should just go up to her and say: 'since my Hogwarts days, you're the only one that has been on my mind... I was too big of a prat to realise that, but just seeing your face makes me feel emotions I never knew a human being could feel, your beauty takes my breath away... When I'm near you, I feel like I have everything I have ever wanted my whole life, and when we're apart, just thinking of you makes my day. If you would just give me a chance, I promise you that I will give my life trying to make you as happy as I am, and if you don't want to be with me, I would accept that and promise not to bother you with rubbish like this... And envy the person who gets to hold you in his arms for the rest of my days." He said all of this very slowly, and after he was done, I became very aware of the fact that we had both leaned in, and our faces were merely inches apart now. I regained my posture and distanced myself from him.
"Yes, that's exactly what you should tell her... so when are you gonna?" I asked with curiosity, and much to my own dismay, cursing that girl over whom he had been so crazy. I would've given anything to be in her shoes when he would tell her all this. What did she have that I didn't, and what had she done to make him so crazy over her that would make him want to say that he would give his life just to make her happy? and thinking of this, I felt a salty tear making its way down my cheek, and once again, i felt thankful for the little light in the room.
"I think... oh jolly... I seriously don't know... I think I will just make a romantic setup for her and then, when she least expects it, tell her... What do you think?" And I felt two more tears streaming down my cheek. Why did all these things always happen to me? I was always the best friend. Nobody ever saw me as more than that... I was always the girl they went to for their problem, and never the girl they were romantically interested in.
"I think that's a great idea, really Harry, I really do. She's a very lucky girl, and I'm sure you two would be very happy together. I just hope that she's worthy. I think I will head back to bed now." I said all this very fast, because the tears just kept coming and there was no way I could control them. I let out a sob and I ran towards my room, cursing under my breath for ever giving myself false hope. I heard him say a simple "Are you all right, Gins?" but I just shrugged it off, slammed my bedroom door and letting myself fall on my bed. I cried all night long. It just kioled me knowing that he had those strong feelings for someone else. I mean if I hadn't known, I would still think as if we had a chance... but now... What does she have that I don't? Is all I kept telling myself, and everytime coming up with the same answer... She's probably very pretty, has a nice body... none of which i thought I had.
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Well, iunno... she might be a lil stupid, i know... but still, i like makin it sad... and for those who are wondering, yes he IS talking about her... she juss doesnt know it yet. she will pretty soon though. PLEASE R/r... let me know what you think, ok?
A/N: By the By, Harry and Ginny will get together, but I'm thinking of puttin a twist in the end. you'll see what I mean.
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I couldn't sleep at all that night, thinking what Harry must've come up with to explain finding Draco and I like that. I just couldn't help but be sad. I mean Harry is the only guy that I ever had true feelings for, and after two week, he finds Malfoy and I... What must be going through his head? Thinking that I'm this easy girl who would do god knows what with the first person that comes her way... it was just unbarable. Since it was useless trying to fall asleep, I walked towards the living room, only to find it pitch black, but to my surprise, there came a little noise. I ran back to my room and took my wand and walked out.
"Don't you dare move. I have two guys here with me, so whatever it is you want to take, you should think twice before doing so." I said that with fear and whispered Lumos, and the room lit up a bit, and what I saw shocked me. Harry sitting on the sofa, looking as if he had lost his best friend.
"What's wrong?" I went and sat next to him, putting an arm around his shoulder, because he looked like he was going to cry. I had never seen him that way, and it bothered me. What could be wrong with him? "Why aren't you in bed? You should get your sleep."
"I should say the same goes for you." He looked at me, and shifted a bit, so that my arm whould fall off his shoulder.
"I couldn't sleep." I answered truthfully.
"ah... well, it's the same thing for me... I'm just not used to this place... being around you and Draco 24/7, you know? I'm used to my own flat, being there all alone."
"Well, if you're so uncomfortable here, no one's making you stay, you know? It's not like they're pointing a wand at you, saying that if you don't stay, they will take your life." I said, a bit offended. If he didn't want to be there, I sure wouldn't make him.
"That's not what I meant, Gin. You take everything so defensively." He said, looking into my eyes, regretting what he had said earlier. "I meant... I don't know how to have... let's call it social manners."
"Ah... ok." I said, also regretful of what I had said to him. "So, what's keeping you up?"
"I don't really know... a lot of things, I guess. There have been too many things happening these past few week, and well, I'm not sure if I could deal with them..."
"well, you know... I'm always here... if you need someone to talk to... you DO know that, right?" I said, trying to dig as deep as I can.
"Yeah, of course I know that... it's just... I'm not sure I could confide those things in you." He said. If his goal of the night was to piss me off, he was surely doing a good job. I just looked at him, saying nothing. What was up with him? I just didn't know what to say anymore. I got up to go back to my room, when I heard his voice.
"Would you mind terribly if I asked you to stay with me a little longer?" I looked at him, and he looked genuinly sincere. GOD, why couldn't I ever say no to him? I walked back to the couch and took my place next to him.
"Well, I guess I might as well come out and say it. Here's what's been bugging me. You see, I reallt like this girl- or woman- and... well, I don't know if she's interested, because... I get the feeling that she might be, but there's also this other guy who's interested in her, and I don't know which one of us she likes best. And you know, I can't just walk right up to her and say 'I can't stop thinking of you... you've been on my mind for a very long time and as I go on, it gets harder and harder not to think of you' I just... I really don't know what to do. It would be very much easier if I just kept it to myself, and see if she ever hints that she's interested. But it just kills me to see her with the other guy, and when I see them together, I just want to wipe the smile off the guy's face by a good punch, you know what I mean?" He blurted out, and I felt a little overwhelmed. Here I was, not sleeping, thinking what he must think of me after what he had witnessed, and he had his mind on this other girl, probably a rich blonde who's all over him and he's just too dumb to notice.
"Well, here's what I think. If you really care for her as much as you say you do, you should just tell her. Sometimes in life, taking risks is what makes something worthwhile. And even if she says she doesn't feel the same way, you would at least know and move on with your life... so I guess what I'm telling you is tell her and see where she stands." He looked really uneasy when I told him this, he kept moving on his seat as if he had ants in his pants or something. He looked at me with his deep green eyes and I felt blood rushing to my face... good thing there wasn't that much light, the only source of light was my wand which was now left on the coffee table, a good meter away from us.
"You mean... I should just go up to her and say: 'since my Hogwarts days, you're the only one that has been on my mind... I was too big of a prat to realise that, but just seeing your face makes me feel emotions I never knew a human being could feel, your beauty takes my breath away... When I'm near you, I feel like I have everything I have ever wanted my whole life, and when we're apart, just thinking of you makes my day. If you would just give me a chance, I promise you that I will give my life trying to make you as happy as I am, and if you don't want to be with me, I would accept that and promise not to bother you with rubbish like this... And envy the person who gets to hold you in his arms for the rest of my days." He said all of this very slowly, and after he was done, I became very aware of the fact that we had both leaned in, and our faces were merely inches apart now. I regained my posture and distanced myself from him.
"Yes, that's exactly what you should tell her... so when are you gonna?" I asked with curiosity, and much to my own dismay, cursing that girl over whom he had been so crazy. I would've given anything to be in her shoes when he would tell her all this. What did she have that I didn't, and what had she done to make him so crazy over her that would make him want to say that he would give his life just to make her happy? and thinking of this, I felt a salty tear making its way down my cheek, and once again, i felt thankful for the little light in the room.
"I think... oh jolly... I seriously don't know... I think I will just make a romantic setup for her and then, when she least expects it, tell her... What do you think?" And I felt two more tears streaming down my cheek. Why did all these things always happen to me? I was always the best friend. Nobody ever saw me as more than that... I was always the girl they went to for their problem, and never the girl they were romantically interested in.
"I think that's a great idea, really Harry, I really do. She's a very lucky girl, and I'm sure you two would be very happy together. I just hope that she's worthy. I think I will head back to bed now." I said all this very fast, because the tears just kept coming and there was no way I could control them. I let out a sob and I ran towards my room, cursing under my breath for ever giving myself false hope. I heard him say a simple "Are you all right, Gins?" but I just shrugged it off, slammed my bedroom door and letting myself fall on my bed. I cried all night long. It just kioled me knowing that he had those strong feelings for someone else. I mean if I hadn't known, I would still think as if we had a chance... but now... What does she have that I don't? Is all I kept telling myself, and everytime coming up with the same answer... She's probably very pretty, has a nice body... none of which i thought I had.
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Well, iunno... she might be a lil stupid, i know... but still, i like makin it sad... and for those who are wondering, yes he IS talking about her... she juss doesnt know it yet. she will pretty soon though. PLEASE R/r... let me know what you think, ok?
