Warnings:
1. This is a YOAI story meaning male + male relationships.
Please do not read if you're not comfortable with/into this.
2. There's probably some OCC in this too, so I'm warning just in case.
This is my first YYH fanfic so please go easy on me. No flames, my fragile ego
wouldn't be able to take it. I don't on Yu Yu Hakusho all the characters belong
to Yoshihiro Togashi. If I did own it I'd add a few more cool female
characters. Enough of my rambling. Hope you enjoy the fic.
-Yami Yue
Don't Lead Me On
by Yami Yue
Chapter One: Confusion
I watched Yusuke and Kuwabara work intently on the math assignment I had just
finished helping them with. Confident that they could hold their own, I closed
my eyes and turned my attention to my own problem. Recently I became aware of a
new feeling (or feelings) within me. Whether it was some yet unexperienced
human emotion coming to surface or I was coming down with some disease, I
didn't know. I felt this longing within me, a craving demanding to be sated,
but I had no idea how to sate it. Curiously there was also happiness, sadness
and a strange floaty feeling. Two emotions I knew all too well were also a part
of this strange puzzle - lust and desire. I also noticed that Hiei's presence
intensified this tangle of emotions I felt. When he was around I was more than
just glad he was near me, I was elated and the longing I felt was to be near
him, see his smile(that made me weak in the knees), and hear his voice. There
was also a longing for something more, what I wasn't sure. I found myself
craving his presence more and more since his last visit. His absence had
affected me differently than it had in the past. It wasn't unusual for me to
feel sad, but now the sadness was stronger combined with the longing for his
presence. I found that my mind constantly wandered to thoughts of the fire
apparition, even when I tried my hardest to concentrate. I didn't understand
any of this strangeness and it frustrated me to no end.
"Kurama." Yusuke called, rousing me from my thoughts. I opened my eyes and looked at the spirit detective, letting him know he had my undivided attention. "Are you ok?" he asked. "You seem kinda out of it." I gave him a small smile. "I'm fine." I assured him. "I was just thinking." Kuwabara looked up from his homework. "Are you sure?" the redhead asked. "You look troubled." Yusuke nodded in agreement. "Not to mention you haven't been yourself since Hiei left." he added. "Spill Kurama, what's eating you?" I debated for a moment weather or not to tell them. "What harm could it do?" I thought. "Perhaps they might actually be able to help." "I must be desperate." I thought with amusement as I tried my best to describe the feelings coursing through me. I made sure to leave out Hiei's effects on these strange feelings. Yusuke and Kuwabara listened intently until I finished. Yusuke's serious expression held for a moment before melting into his trademark grin. "Sounds to me like you're in love." he said. I blinked in surprise. "What?" I sputtered once I'd gotten over my initial shock. "That's impossible." Kuwabara and Yusuke looked at each other and shook their heads. "He's in denial." they said in unison. "Are you sure it couldn't be anything else?" I asked. Yusuke shook his head. "I'm surprised you didn't figure it out." he said. "Given the stories I've heard about you." "If you're referring to my reputation for acquiring lovers, I doubt I was ever truly in love with any of them." I said. "If I was, I don't remember it feeling like this." "So who have you got your eye on Kurama?" Kuwabara asked. I shook my head. "It doesn't matter." I said. "It wouldn't work out anyway." Kuwabara started to say something else but a look from Yusuke silenced him. I stood and stretched as the teakettle I'd put on earlier began to whistle. "I'll help." Yusuke offered to my surprise. I nodded my consent and headed into the kitchen with the spirit detective in tow. "So, when are you gonna tell him?" Yusuke asked softly once we were out of the range of Kuwabara's hearing. I looked at him in confusion. "I know you're in love with Hiei." Yusuke said seriously. "I've seen the way you look at him, and since he left you haven't exactly been the same." "I'm not going to tell him." I said as I set three mugs on the counter. "I don't want to loose him Yusuke. He's my best friend and I couldn't bear it if this tore us apart." "He deserves to know Kurama." Yusuke said. "You're the one he's closest to, maybe he likes you as well." He added as I prepared the tea. "With my past reputation I doubt he'd want me." I responded with a sigh as he handed me a tray. "Youko Kurama didn't exactly have the best reputation when it comes to fidelity." I added as I set the tray on the counter and placed the mugs on it."...but you're not exactly Youko Kurama anymore are you?" Yusuke asked, then took the tray and headed back into the living room. I couldn't bring myself to believe that I really was in love with Hiei. If I was, it brought to mind a bigger problem - What was I going to do about it?
