Author's Notes:- Thanks to Stonedtoad for betaing.


SAM

I don't know how long I've been crying but I just can't seem to stop.

Daniel's gone.

For the past few hours since he disappeared in a ball of light I've been sitting here being hugged by my father. I'm so tired. I don't remember the last time I slept though maybe I am sleeping and this is all a dream. I wish that were true because I could wake up from this and he'd still be here.

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Daniel became like a brother to me, Jack would tease us about being twins and in a way we were. I adore him and I have since the moment I met him. Okay, my gushing hello earned me a confused look from him and a 'keep away' look from Sha're. Though she never had to worry about anyone taking him from her, Daniel worshipped her. After Sha're was taken Daniel lived to find her and I was lucky enough to become his friend. When she died I feared he would leave us but he pulled through.

Now he's gone.

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Dad keeps telling me it's not my fault, there was nothing I could have done and I know this is true, I do. But as usual there's this small part of me that keeps thinking maybe I missed something. Watching him die though, watching him in agony was unbearable and I agreed with Janet in her wish just to stop his suffering. It tore her apart that she couldn't save him.

It's odd after all these years we've pulled ourselves out of the fire and come home together that SG1 now no longer exists. Well it does but not in the way it should. It's going to be hard over the next few months trying to work without him there. Daniel was an integral part of SG1's incredible dynamic.

After he'd gone Teal'c whispered something then Selmac added something else. Dad told me it was a sort of blessing in his memory.

Dad became friends with all of SG1 and I know he had a soft spot for Daniel because that was what Daniel did. He got to you and you found yourself wanting to protect him. He had so many friends and admirers within the SGC that he didn't realise about and everyone is in mourning for his loss.

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After he left we split. Janet went to write her report and work out how to tell Cassie. I can't do that, Cassie has always adored Daniel and to lose him without the chance to say goodbye will be devastating for the little girl who's already lost so many people she loves. Teal'c told us he needed to enter Kel-no-reem soon otherwise he would become ill. General Hammond also had to write a report and the Colonel just left. I don't understand why he doesn't seem to care?

He smiled strangely before disappearing. I always thought they were closer than any of us, I knew how much Daniel depended on Jack yet he's not even slightly sad Daniel's gone. He seems, not happy but in some way pleased.

Not pleased but…it's hard to describe. I want to ask him how he knew that Daniel wanted Dad to stop and I will. I don't know if he'll tell us but I have to ask.

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I'm going to miss Daniel so much but wherever he is I hope he's finally got the peace he deserves.