Recap: Tomoyo and Eriol agreed to go out, even though it hasn't really happened yet...

Chapter 10

Tomoyo was living in bliss for a week. She and Eriol met each other everyday, as always, but the time never came for Eriol to ask her out. Tomoyo waited for him to ask her every time they met up, but he never did. He talked as if nothing has changed.

Maybe he's nervous. Tomoyo thought while laying in bed, I hope that's it. Tomoyo was trying to figure out more explanations for Eriol stalling. The most time she had for thinking was right before she went to sleep.

And right now, Tomoyo can't sleep with Eriol on her mind. She wanted to be more than just friends. She just wasn't sure why he wouldn't commit to her.

He's just afraid of me rejecting him, but he knows I like him! He's probably waiting for the perfect time to ask me. The thoughts continued like this. A few more days passed with no hint of Eriol asking Tomoyo to be his girlfriend. Tomoyo had a thought, but she didn't want to believe it. It wasn't true she kept saying to herself, but eventually Tomoyo came to the realization that: Eriol just doesn't like me anymore! She gasped and instantly became sad.

Tomoyo was so anxious about this, she decided to talk to Sakura about it.

"Sakura, it's Tomoyo," she said into the receiver.

"Konnichiwa, Tomoyo, how are you?"

"I'm ok," slight pause, "Sakura, I don't know what to do." she said worriedly.

"Tomoyo, what's wrong? Is everything ok?"

"Sakura, I'm afraid that Eriol doesn't like me anymore," Tomoyo said with sadness in every note of her voice.

"Oh, you can't think that. What happened?"

"I don't think Eriol likes me anymore."

"What do you mean?! Syoaran says he talks to Eriol, and he likes you a lot! He talks about you all the time." Sakura said with lightness and fun in her voice.

"Do you think so?" Tomoyo asked uncertainly.

"Yes, I'm sure of it. You just have to be positive!"

This made Tomoyo smile. "Thanks Sakura, I just hope that you are right. I'll talk to you later. Bye!"

"Bye."

They each hung up the phone and resumed whatever they were doing. Tomoyo didn't know what to do. Her emotions were spiraling and confusing.

She looked at herself in the mirror and saw nothing, but an empty porcelain face, one that looked as if life was about to stop. She searched her own face looking for faults of her own. Tomoyo was comfortable with her looks, she just doesn't know why Eriol hesitates on his feelings for her.

Tears started to well in her eyes. They were a perfect shape of water droplets. They threatened to fall, but were held back. She would have hope for a few more days. Tomoyo still believed that Eriol was going to ask her out when the time was right. Tomoyo nodded to herself.

Yes, she thought, there's still hope. But she could feel it in her, she could feel her heart sink lower and the cracks grow deeper.

The next few days passed as a fantasy. Tomoyo wasn't fully aware of what was going on. She did her school work like a robot, doing what it was told. The only thing Tomoyo focused on was school. She was still receiving excellent grades, but with no effort.

Eventually, she began to develop this feeling... she couldn't precisely place her finger on what feeling it is, but she could feel it get stronger with every passing day.

It was October. Tomoyo recognized the feeling instantly. It has been two months since Eriol said he would ask her out.

There was a constant pain in Tomoyo's chest. It hurt her to breathe everyday. It hurt her to think about the guy that she loves, her first love, and the first one to break her heart into a million in repairable pieces.

She felt it. She knew what the emotion was that she was now experiencing. Anger. And a lot of it. Tomoyo could feel the heat in her flame and grow as she walked and did her daily routine. She was being consumed by the anger. Everything made her angry. That was the way she thought now.

I can't believe it, she though for she recognized her own feelings, I can't believe what's going on. I'm so mad. At everything. At the world. She thought some more, but she hasn't yet reached the conclusion of what triggered this effect.

Tomoyo was transforming into something no one would recognize. She began wearing nothing but black. Her nail polish was black. And her make up was dark, black, and heavy. She looked down right evil.

Tomoyo stood in front of the mirror. She stared at herself; at what she had become. She liked it. It matched her mood. She was feeling nothing, but bitterness and anger. She wanted to show that she was nothing. The black matched her hair, her eyebrows and the violets of her eyes went well with the ensemble.

Her parents disagreed with this change. They believed that that much black is not good for a girl. They think that it's evil. And will consume and fill her with something bad. But Tomoyo didn't care. She was doing what she wanted. And she wanted to be different.

Some boys saw her at school, their locker was right next to hers. One of them gasped really loud; he was in shock, the good Tomoyo had turned into something un recognizable. Something was not right. People knew it.

Author's note: Sorry this took a while to take out. It's the end of the year and I've been really busy with projects and finals are coming up. Darnnit. (_) But I hope you enjoyed this chapter, sorry if it's a bit morbid. It will be a happy ending though. PLEASE READ AND REVIEW! THANKS!!