Black and Blue : Watching From A Distance

I watched from a distance as they mourned over the loss of the grim reaper, Botan.

And did the same as Yusuke's sister came into our lives.

I also watched from a distance as she gave everything she had to save us, though I was right there drained of my energy.

I watched from a distance as she gave birth to her first child, Yusuke was right there beside her as she called out for me, begging one of the

three in the room to bring me in there.

I watched from a distance and fought my urge to take her in my arms the day she died, leaving me with our two year old daughter.

I watch the girl as I had Yukina, from hiding even though all I wanted to do was take my only child into my arms and tell her everything.

I watched her as she found a wind demon and fell inlove, and gave birth to a son a year later.

And I died as soon as that child turned twelve.

It's funny how I've always watched life from a distance.

As I now look down on the world, my thoughts turn toward Rei, and how, never once did I say that I loved her.

I guess I just though then that love was a weakness.

So, Rei, was this what you where trying to show me that night, the night you gave all your power to protect me, the night you held me in your

arms in that battle ground and said that I had to survive this, that night that you fell asleep on my cheast while we were in Koenma's office, the

night you told me you loved me and then sighed and said you where foolish to think I could love a halfling like you when I didn't answer, that

night you died and said that you trusted me in taking care of our daughter, is this what you where trying to show?

Because I love you, and always have.

I killed myself from the inside out fighting myself, keeping away from you.

I, Hiei, the forbidden child, love you, Rei Urameshi.

I love you and only you.