Immediately, when Ashley got upstairs, she headed into her bedroom. She grabbed an old towel from the scraps bag her mom kept for sewing, and put it on the floor and sat on it. Not even caring if her mom found her doing this, Ashley started cutting up both arms.
Over and over and over and over. She wasn't even thinking anymore. Her mind was totally blank. All she cared about was the blood. She knew it was over. Ellie had found out. But now all she wanted to do was cut. She needed to cut. Had to cut.
She didn't even notice the doorbell ring, and Ellie come in.
"She's in her room Ellie. You can just go on up. If you two need something, I'll be in the kitchen," her mom said.
"Thanks," Ellie said, taking the stairs two at a time.
Ashley was still cutting her arms. Longer and deeper the cuts were. She was so involved, she didn't even notice Ellie open the door and walk in. She didn't notice anything until she heard Ellie gasp.
"Oh my God! Ashley, what the hell are you doing?!" Ellie asked in a whisper, hardly able to believe what she was seeing.
"Just leave me alone Ellie, I have to. You don't understand, I have to do this," Ashley said, sobbing. She had been crying while she was cutting, and she didn't even notice.
"Stop it Ash. Stop it now!" Ellie said frantically. She took the knife away from Ashley. "What were you doing?"
"Please, give it back," Ashley pleaded, still sobbing hard.
"I can't do that," Ellie said. She put the knife in her pocket. Ashley started rocking back and forth, sobbing. Not even caring about Ashley's bloody arms, Ellie grabbed her in a hug, forcing her to stop rocking. "Ash, it'll be okay. Shhh, it'll be okay. Don't worry," Ellie just kept repeating. After a while, Ashley quieted down. She finally stopped crying.
"We need to talk," Ellie said. "Away from your parents. Put on an old sweatshirt, and we'll go to my house. Oh, and I'm gonna grab a shirt too, I'm all bloody now. You can just sleep over tonight." She didn't leave any room for argument. Ashley packed an overnight bag.
They headed downstairs, and Ashley called to her mom. "I'm going to Ellie's house. Is it alright if I sleep over?" Ashley was amazed at how normal her voice sounded. Her world was about to crumble.
"Sure honey, that's fine. Have a nice time. Call me if you won't be home for dinner tomorrow, ok?"
"Ok mom. Love you," Ashley said, as she kissed her mom goodbye.
The few blocks to Ellie's house were silent, and they were the longest few blocks Ashley had ever walked in her whole life.
Over and over and over and over. She wasn't even thinking anymore. Her mind was totally blank. All she cared about was the blood. She knew it was over. Ellie had found out. But now all she wanted to do was cut. She needed to cut. Had to cut.
She didn't even notice the doorbell ring, and Ellie come in.
"She's in her room Ellie. You can just go on up. If you two need something, I'll be in the kitchen," her mom said.
"Thanks," Ellie said, taking the stairs two at a time.
Ashley was still cutting her arms. Longer and deeper the cuts were. She was so involved, she didn't even notice Ellie open the door and walk in. She didn't notice anything until she heard Ellie gasp.
"Oh my God! Ashley, what the hell are you doing?!" Ellie asked in a whisper, hardly able to believe what she was seeing.
"Just leave me alone Ellie, I have to. You don't understand, I have to do this," Ashley said, sobbing. She had been crying while she was cutting, and she didn't even notice.
"Stop it Ash. Stop it now!" Ellie said frantically. She took the knife away from Ashley. "What were you doing?"
"Please, give it back," Ashley pleaded, still sobbing hard.
"I can't do that," Ellie said. She put the knife in her pocket. Ashley started rocking back and forth, sobbing. Not even caring about Ashley's bloody arms, Ellie grabbed her in a hug, forcing her to stop rocking. "Ash, it'll be okay. Shhh, it'll be okay. Don't worry," Ellie just kept repeating. After a while, Ashley quieted down. She finally stopped crying.
"We need to talk," Ellie said. "Away from your parents. Put on an old sweatshirt, and we'll go to my house. Oh, and I'm gonna grab a shirt too, I'm all bloody now. You can just sleep over tonight." She didn't leave any room for argument. Ashley packed an overnight bag.
They headed downstairs, and Ashley called to her mom. "I'm going to Ellie's house. Is it alright if I sleep over?" Ashley was amazed at how normal her voice sounded. Her world was about to crumble.
"Sure honey, that's fine. Have a nice time. Call me if you won't be home for dinner tomorrow, ok?"
"Ok mom. Love you," Ashley said, as she kissed her mom goodbye.
The few blocks to Ellie's house were silent, and they were the longest few blocks Ashley had ever walked in her whole life.
