I'd Miss You Still Chapter 5, Post 1

By obi's girl

"What's going on with you two?" Iella asked her niece as they gathered up all the dishes. Wedge took Jag out for a drink and the girls were with Cherith in their room, playing.

Jaina looked up at her aunt and shrugged, "I don't know what you're talking about,"

"I mean you and Jag...Don't think I didn't notice you came to breakfast separately and hardly talked to each other the entire time," Iella said.

"It's complicated, aunt Iella," Jaina started, "Jag had a fling with another woman and now, I'm giving him a second chance so we're taking things slowly,"

Iella laughed, "Sorry honey," she mumbled, "It's a very slow peace,"

She rolled her eyes and nodded, "I just don't want to rush things...I know what I'm doing,"

"Does Cherith know about what happened?"

"No, she doesn't but I think she understands why I want to take things slowly," she mused. Iella was silent, not saying another word as she set the remaining dishes in the sink.

~~

"Why didn't you come to breakfast with Jaina this morning?" Wedge asked as he sat beside Jag at the bar.

Jag shrugged and laughed, "I'm surprised you didn't ask me why Jaina and I weren't kissing or giving each other looks during breakfast," he mumbled.

Wedge didn't laugh at his nephew dry humor, "Jag, what's going on?"

"Everything is all right...Jaina just wants to take things slowly," he started and turned, leaning back against the bar as Luke and Corran walked in. Wedge turned to them as the Jedi approached them, "Hello Uncle Luke,"

Luke smiled, "Good morning... Jag, I need to talk to you about Cherith's future with the Jedi,"

"Why talk to me? Why not Jaina?" he raised an eyebrow.

Corran stepped forward, "Because..." he started and then turned to Luke again, "Why are we talking to Jag again and not Jaina about this?"

"I had a vision, concerning Cherith," Luke stated bluntly.

Jag glanced at Wedge and stood up, "Can we talk about this later? I have something special planned for Jaina this afternoon,"

Wedge smiled, "What is it?"

He turned to his Uncle and held up his finger, as if talking to him as a child, "No, I'm not going to tell you but I will ask if it's possible that Cherith stay over at your place a little while longer?"

"Sure, she can stay at our place."

Jag looked at Luke and Corran, "Whatever her destiny with the Jedi is, I know it'll be a great one." He finished and rushed out of the bar.

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Chapter 5, Post 2 by obi's girl

Wedge watched his nephew leave as he lay back against the bar and took another drink. Corran shrugged and took Jag's seat, ordering himself a drink as well but Luke only stood there, replaying the vision in his head. Wedge raised his glass and smiled, "To the saga of Jag and Jaina...first they're together, then they're not and now they are, but they're kinda not," he turned to Luke, "And you know what the worst part of it is, we can't even interfere,"

"We can't?" Corran almost choked as Wedge looked at him, "Luke told me about everything on our way over," Wedge nodded and Corran slumped his shoulders and glanced at Luke and smiled. Luke caught onto his thought and started to laugh himself.

"What is it?" Wedge asked.

Luke laughed some more and then looked at his friend, "Corran was just saying how Jag and Jaina's courtship is definitely less complicated compared to what Mara and I went through,"

Wedge smiled smugly, "Yes, I think we can all be a little happy Jaina never thought about killing Jag or whipping him around,"

The Jedi Master laughed some more, "Nevertheless, the courtship will certainly be interesting."

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"Can you do another trick, cousin Cherith?" Myri pleaded as Syal sat next to her little sister. For the last hour, Cherith had been entertaining the girls with Force 'tricks' as she called them. It was very un-Jedi like but it was the only thing that girls really enjoyed.

Cherith smiled, "Hmm, I don't know...Would you guys rather read a story?"

Syal and Myri looked at each other and then grinned evilly at Cherith, chanting, "Force trick! Trick! Trick!"

Cherith picked up several colored blocks and set them in the middle as she raised her hand, thus raising all the blocks in the air, making them trail around Syal and Myri's heads in a circular motion. Myri clapped and wanted to reach and grab a block but Syal stopped her. After awhile, Cherith slowly lowered her hand and the blocks sat again on the floor.

Ever since she bonded with her great Uncle Luke, Cherith had become more attuned to the Force. She could reach into it and manipulate it, as she did a few minutes ago. But this wasn't the first she tapped into it. She did it last night when she stopped by the Antilles place, but didn't realize she had. Cherith remembered talking to her aunt and uncle, and then blanking out -- a time she guessed was when she tapped into the Force -- and used it to say hello to her little cousins.

Also last night, after seeing Wedge and Iella, she made Threepio stop by the pilot's lounge and look for Kyp. She wanted to ask him to be her Master, to teach her about the Force.

Cherith honey, it's time to go, Jaina told her daughter through the Force. Cherith frowned and as she stood up, she stopped and smiled, sensing her father's presence and sat back down again. We need to leave now...

Cherith didn't say anything in return as Jaina broke off the connection and answered the door.

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"Jag, what is it?" Jaina asked, staring into his mischievous green eyes. She knew he was planning something and in a way, it thrilled her. He glanced up at Iella, she smiled at him and she went into the other room, checking on Cherith and her daughters.

"I was wandering if I may have your company this afternoon, Ms. Solo --- I have something special planned for this afternoon," Jag said formally but still smirked a little.

Jaina rolled her eyes and sighed, holding her chin high, "I would love to join you this afternoon, Colonel Fel,"

~~

Cherith smiled and laughed to herself, watching her parents re-connect through the Force. Soon, soon they would be a family again.

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Chapter 5, Post 3 by obi's girl

"Kyp," Iella started, "What are you doing here?" She hadn't expected him to come by. In fact, like her husband, Iella didn't trust or like Kyp Durron. Her eyes narrowed as she looked threatening at him, but Kyp didn't seem to notice.

The Jedi Master smiled in return, bowing slightly, "I'm here to talk to Cherith...I saw Jag and Jaina leave here earlier so I assume Cherith is still here?"

Iella huffed, crossing her arms, "What do you want with my grandniece? What do you want to talk to her about?"

Kyp expected that type of reaction from her, "Please Iella, it's very important that I talk to Cherith," he mused and sent a mental message to the girl he was at the door, and then a moment later, Cherith left the girls' room and joined her aunt and Kyp at the front door. "Cherith, I need to talk to you,"

Cherith turned to her aunt and smiled, "I swear I'll kick him out as soon we're finished,"

Iella glared at Kyp and then looked at Cherith, "As soon as you're finished," she echoed and went to the girls' room. Cherith watched her leave and shut the door behind her, and then turned back to Kyp, "Please, come in," The Jedi Master bowed and walked inside the apartment as she continued, "So, you've made a decision about us? About my offer?"

"I have," he whispered, "And I still think your Uncle Luke or your mother would be a better choice but you asked me and I am honored you did.."

Cherith frowned and slumped her shoulders. "You don't need to go into a speech to spare my feelings, Kyp," she interrupted, "If your decision is 'no', just say it and I won't ask again,"

"You're quick to judge, ya know that?" Kyp pointed out, "I didn't say I was going to say 'no' or 'yes', maybe even, but my answer is yes. I will train you but if your mother disapproves, I won't disobey her, I'll stand by her wishes,"

She smiled and flung her arms around Kyp, "Oh, thank you, Kyp! Thank you, thank you so much!"

Kyp rolled his eyes and patted her back, "You're welcome, Cherith,"

~~

Sera sighed, grabbing her beer and found a spot over by the corner, where she could be alone. She hadn't seen Kyp since last night and even though she should have been worried about him, Sera just wanted to relax.

"Fey`lina,"

She looked up and scowled, when she noticed Wedge Antilles and Corran Horn walk over and grab themselves a chair. Corran grinned, "Hope you don't mind if we join you,"

"Why not?" she muttered, "What do you two want?"

Wedge glanced at his friend and smiled, "Corran just told me something really funny and I was hoping you could clear up a few things," Sera grunted but didn't say anything as he continued, "He said you and Kyp are an item..."

"You didn't get that this morning on the HoloNet gossip column, Antilles? I'm shocked," she joked and laughed.

"It's true then," Wedge started, "You are dating Kyp Durron,"

Sera rolled her eyes and took another drink, "And this is big deal because...? I really don't see why this sudden revelation is a big shock to people, I've known him for years,"

Corran laughed, "It's a big shock Sera because we always believed Kyp would live out his life as a lonely Jedi Master and die alone,"

"I don't want to die alone," Sera mumbled, "And Kyp doesn't deserve that type of life, either,"

Both men frowned and looked at her, "You're really serious about him, aren't you?" Corran asked.

"Let's just drop the subject," Sera commanded, "How's Jaina doing?"

"She's fine, she, Cherith and Jag came over for breakfast this morning," Wedge smiled, "It was weird though,"

Sera frowned, "Weird? How?"

Wedge shrugged and leaned back, "It was weird because they came to breakfast separately, but I talked to Jag awhile ago and he said he's planning something special for Jaina, but he wouldn't elaborate,"

"How long have they been out?"

"Awhile, I guess," Wedge mused, "Since breakfast finished, Cherith's staying over at our apartment until Jaina gets back from her date,"

Sera smiled, "If and when she comes back," she whispered, "I know Jaina loves Jag a lot...that's one of the reasons she decided to give him another chance. They need this time to be together, to start over,"

"I agree," he mused and looked at Sera, "We all deserve a chance to start over, even Kyp,"

Sera raised an eyebrow, "You're not bashing him, Antilles? I'm impressed or should I be scared?"

"What Wedge is saying, Sera," Corran started, "Is just be careful with him,"

"I am careful," Sera muttered and stood up, "I know what Kyp's been through these last couple years...I don't want Kyp to feel that type of pain again."

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Chapter 5, Post 4 by obi's girl

A/N: I had a little trouble looking for the right song for this chapter, but I finally found one. Unstoppable is by The Calling.

~~

Come and lay right on my bed, sit and drink some wine

I'll try not to make you cry

And if you get inside my head, then you'd understand

Then you'd understand me

~~

"Where are you taking me?" Jaina asked Jag as he led her blindfolded to a spot in the middle of a park, but Jaina didn't know that. He smiled mischievously but again, Jaina wouldn't have known that. Jag glanced around the park -- this was where they had their first date, this was their place...

He huffed and moved behind her, removing the blindfold from hers but as he started to do so, Jag leaned over her shoulder, "If you want to, you can guess where we are,"

Jaina shrugged, smiling a little, "I won't...You want this to be a surprise and I want it to be that way,"

Jag smirked and removed the blindfold from her eyes. "Open your eyes, my love,"

"Jag, this place," she started, staring at her surroundings and then turned her head abruptly to him and realized Jag's face was so close to hers. Her eyes averted to his lips and felt the urge to cover her lips over his but pulled away, fighting back the temptation to give in that easily. Jag frowned and realized why she pulled away and frowned, putting the blindfold away and directed her to the blanket of food. Jaina smiled at him as she settled on the blanket, looking around the park.

~~

Why I've felt so alone, why I kept myself from love

and you became my favorite drug

so let me take you right now and swallow you down,

I need you inside

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Jag settled down and reached for the picnic basket beside Jaina, brushing her arm slightly. The movement sent a shiver down her spine but Jag didn't notice. She looked at him again and tilted her head, resting her right hand on the blanket, "What do you have for us to eat?"

He shrugged, "You have to remember I'm not a cook, so I asked your dad what your favorite dishes were and replicated them,"

Jaina smiled, staring at him, "That's fine, Jag," She watched as he opened the basket and removed some soups, cold pasta and bread.

"Some soup for tasters, cold pasta and bread -- will that please you, m'lady?" he asked, raising his chin and smirking.

"That's wonderful," Jaina mused and didn't say anything as he grabbed some tongs and put some pasta on her plate with a roll.

~~

Why am I ignoring him? Jaina asked herself as she stared at him, ignoring her own food. She knew she loved Jag, she knew she wanted him but her heart was scared to make that first step. What if she started the conversation, she would end up yelling at him? Jaina didn't want that of course, but what if there wasn't anything salvageable in their relationship? They'd been apart for so long...Was it even possible to return to the way things used to be, Jaina wandered.

You need to stop wandering, Jaina's conscious told her and cleared her throat, smiling at Jag, "Um, this lunch is wonderful and really sweet, Jag," Yes, that was a nice beginning.

He shrugged, "I'm glad you approve," Jaina fidgeted, searching her mind for what else she could say. Thankfully, Jag beat her, "We need this time together, Jaina...Not only for Cherith, but for yourselves. I have a lot of faith we can make this work, somehow we'll find our way back to each other,"

"You have that much faith in your relationship?" she questioned.

"I do; don't you?"

Jaina looked down and sighed, "I used to have a lot of faith in us..." Jag frowned and she immediately, backed up and tilted her head again, "You realize we can't go back entirely to the way things used to be..."

Jag scowled, "I thought the whole point of this was to forget the past, all the mistakes we made and start over?"

"I want to forget them," she cried, "But it's hard,"

"This isn't hard, Jaina," he pleaded and looked away, playing with the grass, "I want us to work, I want this to work.."

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If we had this night together

If we had a moment to ourselves

If we had this night together, then we'd be unstoppable

~~

Jaina looked away as well, staring at the grass and then turned back to Jag, with a determined look, "I love you, I still love you but I'm scared to love you again, Jag,"

Jag turned to her and nodded, "You don't have to be afraid," he choked.

"I know I don't, but I am," she whispered and started to cry, "Every day I was away from you, up there, it killed me. I wanted to be with you, to hold you but I couldn't, and then you found love somewhere else that wasn't with me..."

He leaned closer to Jaina, holding her shoulders and smiled, "I wanted those same things, too. You saw the pain I was in, I couldn't stand it,"

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Do you think that this right, or is it really wrong

I know that this is what we've been wanting

And all this burning in my soul, it fills up to my throat

It fills up 'till my heart is breaking

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"Jaina, there are a lot of things we both could have done differently but we both can't change the past, but we can change the future," Jag started, removing his hands from her shoulders and instead, braced her face. Jaina sat still as Jag moved closer toward her and kissed her. Jaina didn't back away, wrapping her arms around Jag and deepening the kiss.

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If we had this night together

If we had a moment to ourselves

If we had this night together, then we'd be unstoppable

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"No, we shouldn't do this so soon," she whispered between kisses and finally pulled away. Jag nodded and backed away, playing with the blades of grass again. "I'm sorry but we shouldn't move this quickly,"

Jag shrugged and glared at her, "How long will this go on, Jaina? We have a daughter, a teenage daughter together...Our love should be enough for you, our history should be enough!" he paused and rolled his eyes, "You said you still love me but every time we're close, you pull away from me,"

Jaina sobbed and looked at him, "I don't want to pull away but I'm afraid if we move to fast, we'll end up hurting each other,"

"Don't you mean 'you'?" he shot back.

"Yes, I mean me because I have so much more to loose if one of us screws up," she retorted and stood up, "I love our daughter very much, Jag and that's why I don't want her to grow up without her father,"

Jag stood up, looking down at her, "And what about you, Jaina? What does your heart want?"

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Now, we can both learn

Somehow, you'll see it's all we have

Love, it keeps us together

And I need love

~~

She shrugged, staring into his green eyes. Jaina wanted to love him but she was scared. She didn't hate Jag and she couldn't not love him either but that fear, that fear she'd risk so much than her emotions was tormenting Jaina's soul. "You're right, this shouldn't be hard because of our past together, but it is for me. Jag, I need you to wait for me." He looked away again but Jaina continued, "I want to be able to come home, rest in your arms and know I'm safe with you,"

"You can have that, Jaina," he murmured and looked at her, "You are safe with me,"

"Am I? Is my heart safe with you, Jag?" she questioned, "I know I love you but can I place my heart safely in your hands?"

~~

When I wake up without you, knowing you're not there

I'm only feeling half as good

Well I'm gonna find a way

To wrap you in my arms, you make me feel alive

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"Jaina, you know we're meant to be. We wouldn't have been given this second chance if we weren't," Jag reasoned and raked a hand through his hair, pacing, "I love you, I don't know how many times I can say that before it finally sinks in."

Jaina looked away and sighed, catching sight of two lovers, enjoying their picnic and each other's company. She wanted to be like them, to lay in Jag's arm and laugh and smile. Jaina turned to Jag again...She and Jag could be like that again, she wanted to be like that again but if she allowed herself to feel that way, would it be real?

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If we had this night together

If we had a moment to ourselves

If we had this night together, then we'd be unstoppable

If we had this night together

If we had a moment to ourselves

If we had this night together, then we'd be unstoppable

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