IRONY

Um…hi!?

First, I just want to say sorry to all those RxT fans. I know that they make a great couple and I have nothing against them. But I just really like Tsukasa's fiery personality that butts with Tsukushi. I mean, it's like they sizzle with chemistry. So, to all those RxT fans, I apologize if you don't like the pairing.

Next, I want to dedicate this fic to a very good friend of mine-Sereace. You might have heard of her. Well, if not, let me enlighten you. This is one talented writer. She blows me away with her reflections and writings. Try her. She's really good, especially with her fic, entitled, 'Love becomes you.'

Sereace, wherever you are, thank you for your convenient and very helpful black jacket. It really means a lot to me. Thank you….

I also owe Sereace for this idea. This fic was inspired by one of the things that she told me. Once, she told me that if Rui didn't let go of Tsukushi for Tsukasa, if he actually fought for her instead of being on the sidelines, then Tsukushi would have chosen him instead of Tsukasa. Actually, I'm still experimenting on the idea, so somehow, this fic will loosely follow that plot.

Oh and before I forget the title is also dedicated to Sereace. Did I ever tell you guys that Sereace is an RxT fan? And to think that I'm dedicating to her a TxT fic.

In one word…Irony.

If you had asked me whom I loved then, I wouldn't have said it was you. You were the opposite of everything I was and I am. You stood for your principles with a strong determination but…with broken limbs. While I…I'm one of the kings of this jungle. What I say is law and what I do is trend. I am who I am and nothing can change it. Until there was you. I admired you the first time I saw you. You persisted and got into my system without me knowing it. Or maybe I just didn't want to admit it. I wasn't ready. But ready or not, it spread all over until you took a part of my heart that I thought would remain faithful to another. And so, here I am. I've let go of one unrequited love for another. What a laugh. What an irony, ne? Just another dead end. Take your pick. Either way it still hurts.

This is not your fault. It is more of a reassurance for me than for you. This scalding pain in my heart…God, I wish it would stop hurting so. This is all my fault. I should have known I loved you. I should admitted that I love you. I should have told you. I should have… a thousand I should haves. But most of all, I should just have never let you go. I should have let you stayed and forced you to make a choice. Maybe then, I would have the chance, or maybe then my heart would be split into two.

But surely it would be better than this. Never knowing if I ever was your choice. Ignorance is bliss…I don't think so. Ignorance, it is for cowards out there who were afraid to take the chance. Stupid fools who never knew what they were missing and will miss. Like me.