I'd Miss You Still Chapter 13

by obi's girl

Chapter 13, Post 1

Jaina Solo willed herself not to cry another tear, but her will wasn't that strong as Jag finally arrived. She didn't turn to him as he settled on the bed and wrapped his arms around her waist. Jaina turned to him and smiled and then cried some more. "I hope I didn't take you away from anything important,"

He nodded and smiled, "I was just talking to Uncle Wedge, nothing important...What I'm worried about is you. The last time I saw you, were happy and now, you're in tears,"

"It's just too much death, Jag. I know people die in wars all the time, but I can't take it anymore. I mean, is this the type of universe you want to bring our twins into?"

Jag shrugged, "No. I would have liked to have waited until the war was over, actually,"

"Exactly my point, Jag," Jaina cried, "Tyria and now, Sera..what will happen if one of us dies? I know I'm less likely to die since I've already been dead, but still, it's risky,"

Jag nodded and grasped her hands, "Life is risky, Jaina. Life is dangerous, but that can't stop you from living and wanting to grow," he smiled and rested his hand on Jaina's stomach, "I am more than happy I get to be a father again and this time, get the chance to see watch both of them grow up and hold their little hands,"

Jaina smiled and touched Jag's left cheek with her hand, rubbing it, "I know you'll be a great father. I love you, Jagged Fel,"

"I know," he smiled and blushed, "I love you, Mrs. Fel,"

"Mrs. Fel, Mrs. Jaina Solo Fel," Jaina mused and hugged Jag, "If you're not too busy right now, could you stay with me for awhile?"

"As long as you wish, my love," he whispered.

~~

Kyp Durron walked idly into the lounge and grabbed himself a place at the bar, ordering a glass of Corellian ale. As he turned around to survey the room of pilots, he frowned when he saw Cherith and Valin alone in a booth. His mouth nearly dropped as he stared at them. They weren't kissing but Valin had left his place and sat next to her and they were talking, well, Cherith was talking more than Valin.

The Jedi Master debated whether he should walk over and say something or not say anything at all. Was it really his right as her Master to say something, or did those rights belong to her parents? Kyp grunted, stood up, straightened his cloak and started to walk towards the booth and then stopped.

No, keep walking, Durron, he commanded himself. They're both too young to be in a relationship.

Yes, another voice said, but they have a special bond and they're young. Let them live their lives.

Where did you come from? The first voice demanded, Continue your walk, Durron and give them a lecture,

Not to be the third voice, but I think the second echo is right, Kyp interrupted himself. They are just friends. Cherith told me as much and I believed her,

What do you know, Durron? The first voice retorted.

I trust both Valin and Cherith, he replied, So, I'm just going to walk over and say hello. No lectures, period. End of discussion!

He heard the second voice laugh at the first voice but Kyp didn't bother to say anything else to his self and simply walked over the booth. Cherith saw him and began to breathe faster. Valin on the other hand simply grinned and said hi. "Hey Cherith, I hope I'm not interrupting. I just wanted to say thanks for cutting our sparring session short today,"

Cherith looked at Valin and smiled, "No problem, Master Durron...Um, was there something else you wanted?"

Kyp shrugged, "Nothing else. You two enjoy your dinner," he grinned and left the two teens alone. Cherith looked at him curiously as he left and sat down again at the bar, thanking the bartender.

"Okay, that was weird," she mused, "I almost got the impression he came over to lecture us,"

"Don't worry about it, Cherith," Valin smiled and from under the table, grasped her hand in his.

~~

Jag backed away a little as Jaina's sobs subsided and she smiled through her tears. He'd seen her cry once before their first kiss. She was so vulnerable, so innocent and her eyes...To see her brown eyes turn cold like that with fear and to see it again, stung his heart. Jag brushed away some of her tears with his hand and kissed her forehead.

"Are you feeling any better?" he whispered, hugging her tightly.

Jaina nodded, "A little, thanks for staying with me, Jag,"

"I'll always be here for you, Jaina. Always. We made a promise to each other, remember?" He grinned and kissed her cheek, this time brushing away her bangs.

Jaina smiled and snuggled closer to her husband as he wrapped his arms around her waist and held her. She realized people die in wars, but for her, the death was hitting too close to home. Before the war started, she was young and so innocent, only 16 years old. She was with her brothers then, Anakin and Jacen. Jaina never really needed to be protected then because she took care of herself, but then Jacen and Anakin died, she was alone and forced to deal with her pain. To live life without them by her side. "I miss them," she whispered, "I miss my brothers...I'm pregnant with twins, their nieces or nephews and they'll never get the chance to know them or Cherith,"

Jag rubbed her cheek lovingly, smiled and then frowned, "I know the feeling. I wish Davin and Cherith were here too to meet their niece."

"The pain, it never goes away, does it? It's always there?" Jaina questioned, not really expecting an answer from him.

"I wish it did, but it never does," Jag replied as he stroked her brown hair and kissed her temple. "This may sound corny, but they're always watching you. How else would they know to come to you when you were dying? They knew and they wanted to ease your pain, because they didn't want to see you in pain,"

Jaina nodded and smiled a little, "I guess they were watching me those last days,"

Jag smiled and kissed her cheek, "Of course, they were watching you," he whispered and kissed her temple again. Jaina turned to him and smiled again. For the first time, she noticed how loving he was...Well, yes she knew he loved her but the feeling, sensing the warmth and love within, made her blush and her breath quicken as Jag kissed her. For one moment, she forgot all her sadness and only felt the love of her husband.

tbc