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Recrudesce of Evangelion
Chapter 2: Honor and Courage
Shinji had already finished cooking breakfast when Asuka came out of her room. Her body had stopped hurting so she had decided to forgo the wheelchair. When he saw her, Shinji almost panicked.
"Good morning."
"Asuka! Are you sure you're well enough to walk about?"
"You're not my father," Asuka replied, though not as sharply as usual. "I'm fine. So how about greeting me back?"
"Good morning Asuka."
For some reason there had been a change in Shinji's tone. He seemed more subdued, which was pretty hard to accomplish considering Shinji's attitude towards life.
"What's for breakfast?"
"Same as usual. I'm going out today to try to get some more food."
Asuka nodded and took her seat. She ate the food placed before her and kept quiet for most of the meal. Shinji didn't try to make any conversation either, though he kept glancing at her with a worried look in his eye. For some reason Asuka started feeling uneasy. It wasn't as if Shinji had changed on the outside. But when the shadows were on him just right, Asuka swore she saw someone else. Was that a good thing?
"Asuka?"
Asuka lost her train of thought and blinked.
"Hmm?"
"Are you listening?" Shinji asked.
"Oh, yeah. What were you saying?"
"I said maybe you should use the wheelchair for long trips into the city," Shinji repeated, "Around the house you can walk around to get your muscles working properly again."
"Well, since I see nothing wrong with that, I'll go along with it. But don't think this means you can order me around."
"Of course not."
Narrowing her eyes, Asuka studied Shinji carefully. Something was eating at him but she had no idea what. Was it because he had choked her? Granted she'd probably had it coming after this long but he had seemed fine yesterday. So what had changed? What could have happened overnight? Thoughts of the dream drifted into Asuka's head. Was that it? Was Shinji dreaming too? No, that couldn't be. That would be way too easy.
Shinji finished washing the dishes and pulled out the motorized wheelchair for Asuka. She got on and the two went outside again.
"Hey Shinji, why don't we have some fun today?" Asuka suggested, "I mean, the past two days or so haven't exactly been that relaxing for either of us. We need to unwind some."
"What? Well, I guess there's no harm in it."
"Good. Let's go to that ice cream place then."
"Hey wait! We can't steal!"
"Shinji, ice cream is also food. Just come with me and stop complaining about stealing for once, okay? I promise not to steal clothes or anything like that. Does that satisfy you?"
"But, it feels wrong."
"Shinji, sometimes you let go of your feelings, and sometimes you follow them. This time, just trust me and follow. Okay?"
Reluctantly nodding his head, Shinji found himself several minutes later in an ice cream parlor making Asuka a Sunday.
"Remember Shinji! With a cherry on top!"
"I know!"
Shinji came out a few seconds later and handed Asuka the Sunday. She took the spoon and started slurping it, enjoying every bite. Shinji simply sat there and watched her. He had nothing to say but many things to think about. What was he going to do? Was he really the Antichrist? It certainly seemed unlikely if not outright impossible. But that man, Apollyon, had seemed sure and had asked what his orders were. Or that person was trying to trick him. But why? That question kept popping him. Why him? Why Asuka? Why were they the only ones on Earth? There had to be some way around all this. If only he could find a way to bring the rest of humanity back to Earth.
"Hey, earth to Shinji."
"Huh? What?"
"Now who's spacing out? I asked if you wanted something."
"Oh, no."
"You're such a boring boy," Asuka whined, "Come on! We have an entire city to ourselves! And don't tell me you're trying to figure out a way to reverse Third Impact."
"Why not?" Shinji asked.
"Because if you keep worrying you'll get nothing done. Unwind some! Okay, I'm not going to get anywhere with this approach. Let's make a deal, Third Child. If you have fun with me today, tomorrow we'll continue looking for a way to reverse Third Impact. And the day after that we'll work on making sure we keep getting power and water. How's that sound?"
"Fine," Shinji said, letting in.
"Good. And if you don't get rid of that lousy mood you won't be having any fun."
After Asuka had finished her Sunday the two left and headed towards some place Asuka thought Shinji might like. Shinji walked and Asuka rode through the remaining districts and came to a large park. They strolled through it, taking in the scenes. Despite himself, Shinji started to relax. Finally he started getting tired so he sat down on a bench. The morning drifted away and they spent most of their time walking in the park, making small talk. Neither tried to ask about the other's past but instead they talked about their interest. For once, the two were having a polite conversation without any danger of Asuka turning it into an argument. It was actually nice and Shinji enjoyed the sound of Asuka's voice, so carefree. He tried to push away his worries and managed to succeed for the morning.
The two stopped at a café and Shinji made burgers for them. When he returned Asuka started giggling.
"If someone besides us were actually here they'd think we were on a date," she joked.
Shinji's face reddened as he realized what Asuka was implying.
"Umm, well, this isn't really a date, you know."
"Hmm. One would think you'd take some initiative," Asuka responded, "Sit down and eat, Shinji. We still have more places to go."
"Ah, okay."
"You know something, you haven't apologized at all today, and it's kind of refreshing. Keep it up and I might reward you."
Something was definitely wrong here. Not only was Asuka being nice to him, she was also flirting with him, in a way. What had happened to her?
"Asuka, are you sure you're feeling okay?"
"What? Why?"
"Well, you're usually not so, umm." At a lost for words, Shinji decided to stop before she started pounding him.
"Nice to you? Oh, I suddenly decide to be nice to you and you think it's weird? Well, maybe I should start insulting you again! Idiot!"
"No! I mean, I, well, I'm not used to it. I didn't really mean anything, I was just curious."
"Humph. Well, be less curious in the future. Now, eat up. We've gone through the peaceful stuff. It's time to go do something I like."
Shinji took a bite into his burger and found that it was good. A lot better than he'd expected. Since he had been raised in Japan, he'd learned from his elders that American food was too greasy and tasted bad. When he arrived in Tokyo 3, American food was a relief from the stuff Misato made. Still, it was a rare treat to eat at a McDonald's, though how that company survived Second Impact was nothing short of a miracle. He finished his lunch and followed Asuka as they went to a large store.
"Umm, what's this place for?" Shinji asked.
"Well, since you won't let me get any clothes, I'm going to do the next best thing. Try them on and tempt you!"
Shinji swallowed. This was going to be one hell of a day.
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Shadows swarmed from all over to this single spot. They had traveled across the world, awakening when humanity had begun its ascension. They were the left behind, the bitter, the ones that should have died and yet did not. They had one goal, one single purpose in their existence. Prepare the way for their master, and then serve with all their abilities and lives.
A massive standard was raised. The standard was blood red with a black upside down cross etched in its center. Slowly the pole that held the standard rose as the citadel started to take shape. Bricks, steel, and other construction material broke off of the buildings and flew to the citadel. The framework was slowly placed and construction began. Once their master awakened, the citadel would be ready.
And thus, Babylon arose again to greatness.
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"Umm, Asuka, are you sure you need to wear that?" Shinji asked nervously.
Said girl was currently posing in front of Shinji in a two-piece swimsuit, a little skimpier than her previous one.
"Of course I don't have to, but you're so fun to tease! So, what do you think?"
"Umm, beautiful as ever?"
"At least you have decent taste. So, what do you think?"
Asuka leaned forward a little to give Shinji a better view of her assets. Though she normally would have called him a pervert for even glancing at them, this time she was having too much fun.
"A-Asuka, are you sure you need to do that?"
"Such a boring little boy," Asuka repeated, "Why don't you take a risk and live life? After all you've been through, one would think you learned at least that."
"I guess I haven't been trying to learn. But if I died, it would be kind of like wasted effort."
Asuka bopped him on the head.
"Shinji, wake up. This is post-Third Impact. While I still don't know why I'm stuck with you I'm at least trying to make the best of it. Don't ruin my effort, or you may start regretting it, okay?"
Asuka had said it sweetly but Shinji sensed the tension underlying it. He nodded complacently.
"Good. Now, what should I try on next?"
"Asuka, shouldn't we get dinner?"
"Oh? It's that late already? Well, why not."
Suddenly Asuka's stomach growled. She glared down at it, as if it had betrayed her.
"Fine. Should we go home?"
"Yeah."
They went home, Shinji loaded down by some fresh food they'd gotten while Asuka carried a light load. By the time they were through the door and into the apartment, Shinji was exhausted.
"I'll cook tonight," Asuka stated, "You get some rest. I don't want to eat burnt food just because you were tired and didn't notice it catching on fire."
The young man was just glad for a chance to sit down. He was sweating from the walk and so he took a shower before the meal. The hot water felt nice, but it was cut off as Asuka had finished dinner. Shinji came out wearing a blue shirt and gray shorts. Asuka had made quite a spread and this might be the first time they'd actually have leftovers. The two took their seats and ate, enjoying their meal. Again, the meal was silent, but neither was bothered by it. This gave both of them time to think. All the worry that Shinji had pushed away started surfacing again. He tried to ignore them and eat, but they kept returning. Finally, he finished and took care of the dishes. Just as he was about to plop down on the couch Asuka called to him.
"Shinji! Get over here!"
He walked out onto the balcony and saw Asuka leaning against the railing, looking into the horizon. The sun was setting and a beautiful glow lit the sky. Orange and red colors seemed to flow across the sky and bounce off of the clouds, keeping the evening alight for one final act. The sun slowly went below the skyline and Shinji couldn't help but smile.
"That was beautiful," he said, once the sun was gone and darkness had settled on the world.
"How beautiful?" Asuka asked.
Shinji thought about it for a few seconds. Finally he came up with an answer.
"As beautiful as you."
Asuka sniffed. "Don't expect to get anywhere with flattery, Mr. Ikari, especially if it's not true. I'm much more beautiful as that sunset!"
Shinji smiled as he looked upon Asuka. With the twilight upon her, she certainly was. Asuka noticed him staring at her and glared a little, but had trouble keeping her face straight. She suddenly burst out into laughter and went back inside. Shinji, himself surprised at her sudden breakdown of composure, followed her.
"I'm going to take a shower now," Asuka said, "Don't peak. Be a good boy and get some sleep. Tomorrow we have work to do."
Shinji smiled and went to bed, exhausted. Overall, today had been a great day. Tomorrow, he was sure they'd get some work done.
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Shinji found himself standing in a massive plaza, the stone covering completely black. Actually, all of the buildings and walls were black. There was a massive tower at the center, like an obelisk but more structured. It didn't go up and then end in a point, it went up in segments. Also, the thing was gigantic.
"Welcome to your citadel, master."
Shinji spun around and saw Apollyon standing a few feet away.
"You. What the hell am I doing here?"
Apollyon held his arms open, as if to say why are you asking me.
"This is your citadel. True, it has only been partially completed, but one would think this was the greatest city in the world."
"I'm not who you think I am," Shinji said in a dangerously low voice.
"It is you who does not know who you are," Apollyon shot back, "Think, my lord. Think and consider. How else would you have even reached the first level of Hell without dying, without being a servant or a damned soul? You came because you are the master. It is your destiny to break humanity and rule. It is your destiny to destroy the Heavens and bring the Host to its knees."
"No. I'll never do that."
"You must, for fate chose you for this task."
There was such conviction in Apollyon's voice that Shinji had trouble doubting him. But a part of him kept on fighting all that Apollyon had said. There was no way he'd turn on his friends and family. No way he'd destroy all that he loved and cherished. He was not the Antichrist.
"I will never enslave humanity," Shinji said, strength returning to his voice. "I will not. Do you hear me!"
Shinji's hands tightened into a fist. Sonic waves rippled through the air as his voice boomed. They struck Apollyon and threw him across the plaza, knocking him against one of the black walls. A crack sounded and Apollyon fell to the ground, shaken by the display of power. The crack above him disappeared as the shadows repaired the damage. He looked at Shinji but said nothing. A second later he shimmered and disappeared.
Shinji took a deep breath and tried to focus. Apollyon was wrong. He was not the Antichrist. He'd never hurt anyone he loved.
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For the first time since returning to Earth, Asuka had an undisturbed night of sleep. She rolled over as her body rested, undisturbed by any dreams, good or bad. A serene smile was on her face, as Asuka slept on completely unaware of the turmoil that was developing in the room next to hers.
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"Apollyon! Come out and show yourself!" Shinji screamed as he raged through the city.
There was no reply as he walked around the citadel. Perhaps that last outburst had frightened him, but Shinji doubted a small display like that could scare a man known as the Destroyer. He stalked around the plaza and found dozens of statues decorating the place. The city by itself was stupendous but every aspect of it showed the darkness. The black color over everything made the place forbidding while the various statues of monsters and demons did not reassure him at all. Right now, despite his nature, Shinji wished he had a weapon.
Apollyon shimmered and stood before Shinji, still cloaked in the black robe.
"You called, my lord."
"I have been calling for a while," Shinji responded, "Why have you been avoiding me?"
"You needed time to think," Apollyon answered.
"I had time to think. I am not the Antichrist. Stop bothering me with this! I am not your master! Find someone else to worship!"
"It is not my decision who is the Antichrist," Apollyon persisted, "I merely do as I am bidden. Whoever is the Antichrist is my master, and you are my master."
"Damn you Apollyon, damn you for eternity!"
This time Shinji's eyes lit up with fury and blue light shone out. An intense blaze shot out at Apollyon, blasting him across the plaza and out of the city proper. After the light had receded, Shinji fell to his knees, panting. All that power, it had nearly overwhelmed him. What was he? How was he doing all this?
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Asuka had watched Shinji all morning and on their little trip back to the Geofront. He'd been extremely tense and had spoken little, even though she herself had tried to open him up. Something was eating at him again and he was working like a maniac now. So far Asuka had seen him go through dozens of files on Units 01 and 05-13. It was very likely he'd just become an expert on them even without understanding any of the technical aspects. She herself was having trouble understanding how exactly Unit 02 worked. What had been so clear before was now so muddled. No surprise there. Before, she had known very little so there wasn't that much to truly understand. Now, with all this new stuff thrown in, it complicated matters.
Yawning, Asuka tried to keep her eyes open. It was getting harder and harder to concentrate on this. Slowly, the pilot drifted off to sleep.
She seemed to float in thin air, her eyes closed and her body limp. Asuka's mind was silent as her form slowly made its journey. The realm that she was traveling through was beautiful, and yet the traveler was not awake to enjoy it. Lights spiraled around her, coming into and out of existence. Finally everything seemed to collapse and Asuka fell to the earth. As she got closer, her descent slowed. By the time she had reached the ground, she was at a complete stop. When her back came into contact with the soft bed, Asuka's eyes opened. She got up and looked around. Again she was among the white robed figures.
"Not again," Asuka muttered.
She got up and walked around, wondering where Eve was. None of the others looked like they could offer her any answers so she didn't even try to talk to them. Suddenly a breeze hit her from behind. Asuka spun around and saw Eve standing behind her.
"Oh, there you are. Why am I back?" Asuka demanded.
"You are back because you are in search of answers," said Eve, "though how you managed to return is beyond me."
"Look, I don't have time for your cryptic messages. Just tell it to me plain and simple. Why shouldn't I be here?"
"Because you are not the one."
"Not the Messiah?" Asuka concluded, her arms crossed.
"Correct."
"Well no duh! I'm hardly a good Samaritan. And I don't need answers so if you'll tell me how I'm supposed to get out of here I'll gladly go."
"If I knew how to keep you out I would have done so already," said Eve, "You are somehow piercing the barrier between your world and this plane. I suggest you learn how to control your dreams better."
"I'm sleeping?" Asuka said, "Well, good. That idiot should wake me up soon."
Eve's eyebrow rose slightly. "Why do you persist in calling him an idiot?"
"Shinji? Because he is, that's why! Why should you care?"
Asuka's current posture showed just how much she cared about Eve, though for some reason the young pilot didn't do anything to insult Eve openly. One reason was fear and the other was curiosity. Like how she was even getting here.
"You are struggling to understand your own feelings regarding the Third Child. Why don't you just tell him already?"
"Tell him what? He already knows how I feel about him!"
Eve chuckled and started walking. Her step was light and graceful, as if she had all the answers to all the problems in the world.
"Hey, hold it!"
Asuka started running and caught up with Eve. The two didn't talk to each other, they simply walked. Finally Asuka ran out of patience two minutes later.
"Okay, spill. What do you know about me and Shinji?"
"I know you care deeply for him," Even answered, "I know that the two of you share many commonalities and that if the two of you had met under different circumstances the two of you would have fallen in love."
"Me? Love him! Get real, whoever you are. You say you're Eve, but even Eve doesn't have the power to see things like that."
"Are you sure? Shinji is a fine young man and is strong. He is currently fighting a battle within himself that if he loses, could very well mean the conclusion of Third Impact and end humanity for good."
"What? What are you talking about? There's nothing wrong with him," Asuka persisted.
"You have not noticed the stress he seems to be experiencing? I'm disappointed in you, Second Child. The only reason he hasn't lost yet is because of you, though even he doesn't know that. Are you going to help him?"
"Shinji doesn't need my help. He's invincible. Not even an Angel could stop him. Humph! He's a glory-hog!"
"Don't justify your own faults because of the success of others. It's unbecoming of you."
"What? What did you say!" Asuka screamed, furious. She almost moved to slap Eve but something held her back. She didn't know what it was, but waited for Eve to continue.
"Asuka, listen to yourself. Bury your pride and just listen. Ignore everything about trying to beat Shinji. Maybe you'll learn something." Eve paused for a second, as if realizing something. Then she continued. "I think it's time you left."
"Huh?"
Before she knew what was going on, Asuka felt herself being shaken.
"Asuka, wake up."
"Huh? What? Oh, sorry Shinji."
"It's okay. Didn't get much sleep?"
"No, it's all this lousy information. I can't make heads or tails out of it and it's so boring it's putting me to sleep!" Asuka ranted.
A brief smile appeared on Shinji's face but it disappeared quickly.
"Well, if you don't want to look over this you don't have to. I can take care of it myself."
"Oh no you don't Third Child, you're not going to get all the credit for ending Third Impact," Asuka said defiantly, "I'm going to help and that's that."
The smile returned, but again it was very brief. This time Asuka knew she wasn't imagining it. Something was eating away at Shinji. Was Eve right? No, that was preposterous! Why would Shinji care for her? And yet he had. Damn it, stop thinking like this! Asuka shook off the feeling and went back to work, going at a furious pace. She was so concentrated in the research that she didn't notice Shinji walking back to his console. A few minutes later Asuka came back to reality and reflected on what had happened. Shinji had shown her kindness again.
Goddamn it, she thought. Why does he keep having to do that? It's not like I treat him nicely or anything, he just does it as if it's the most natural thing in the world for him!
After fuming for a few more seconds, Asuka returned her attention to the designs of Unit 02. The technology behind the EVAs, especially her own, fascinated her. Apparently, Unit 00, 02, 03, and 04 were all designed utilizing aspects of Adam. Most of their internal structures were identical and thus they were said to be made of Adam. A little of Adam's DNA didn't hurt either. However, Unit 01 and the EVA series were so different. Though they both originated from Angels, Lilith was another thing entirely when compared with Adam. Both were made of a substance very much like solidified light but otherwise Asuka had no idea what was truly going on.
The other thing that kept drawing Asuka's attention was the S2 organs. They were powerful tools but only one EVA besides the EVA series had one, Unit 01. What made that unit so special? Why did it go berserk so many times? It couldn't have just been the fact that it was made from Lilith. Or could it? Asuka brought up another file, the one on the report about the failed experiment with Unit 04 and the prototype S2 engine. Unit 04 was built from Adam and the S2 organ failed. It might have been just flawed design in the engine, but coincidences rarely happened when EVAs and Angels were involved. Unit 01 had a S2 organ and so did all of the EVA series. They were all built from Lilith and were thus fundamentally different.
"Adam and Lilith. So what's their story?"
This course of thinking caused Asuka to delve into more background information regarding the Angels themselves. Unfortunately, that led to a dead end. The Dead Sea Scrolls had a lot of information on these beings but they were unattainable. The MAGI had no idea where they were and Asuka was pretty sure that Shinji wouldn't know either. As they were the only two humans left on Earth, anything they didn't know how to get at was basically lost.
"Damn it!" Asuka uttered in frustration.
"Something wrong?"
"Oops. Didn't think I was so loud. Yeah, something is wrong, but neither of us can solve it. Just go back to whatever you were doing."
One second later Asuka's stomach started growling.
"On second thought, Shinji, could you get us some food?"
"Uh, sure."
He was about to leave when suddenly Asuka turned around in her wheelchair and followed him.
"Oh second thought, I'm coming with you."
Shinji raised an eyebrow before continuing. It wasn't like Asuka to want to accompany him. What was happening to her? And was it a good thing? They walked to the cafeteria and again Shinji had to make something from whatever he found in the kitchen. When he was done, the meal actually looked eatable, though how eatable mystery meat is one should never explore too far.
They had just started eating when Shinji suddenly froze. Asuka looked at him and waved a hand in front of his face.
"Hey Shinji. Shinji? You okay? Shinji!"
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The young man found himself plummeting down a sea of orange water. Apparently it wasn't really water as he could breathe. As Shinji looked around, he thought he saw forms of people. But who were they?
It was then that Shinji realized he was floating in LCL, the same liquid that was used for synchronization with EVAs. He reached out with his hand and it swam through the watery like substance slowly. Shinji then looked closely at the images that passed him. They did resemble people, but again, who were they? Just then he thought he caught sight of someone in a red jacket. He spun around, catching one more glimpse of the person. At the last moment, that person turned around and Shinji stared right into those brown eyes.
"Misato. Misato!"
Shinji tried to run or swim towards the person, but he wouldn't move. The fleeting image disappeared, leaving the young man alone again. Suddenly he felt another familiar presence close by. He turned around and at first saw nothing. Then, those orange glasses appeared and the rest of the man materialized. Shinji's face contorted into one of absolute rage.
"Father!"
This time Shinji wasn't trying to chase whatever it was, be it his father or a phantom. He was trying to attack. His feet suddenly seemed to touch something of substance and he ran. A second later, Shinji leapt and tried to ram into his father, but instead flew through the phantom and into the arms of another. When he opened his eyes, he found that they were locked onto a pair of blue eyes so like his own. It was his mother.
"Mom."
The phantom smiled and seemed to hug him. Shinji returned the embrace but felt a chill. He let go and turned around. His father was there again.
"Damn you Father!" he screamed.
All the pent-up rage inside him finally let loose. A giant shockwave burst out and swept across the vast ocean. Shinji felt the LCL boiling around him but didn't care. Nothing mattered now.
"Shinji!"
That voice cracked through his rage and the shockwave dissipated. He turned around and saw his mother again, worry on her face.
"Shinji, don't."
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"Shinji!"
His eye's snapped open and Shinji found himself floating in the air, red static crackling around him. The table had been wrecked and Asuka was a few feet away, as if afraid to approach him. He came down onto the ground again and stood there.
"Asuka, I'm sorry."
He then ran away as fast as he could. Without looking back, Shinji Ikari fled again. This time, it was to keep the monster within him from hurting those he loved.
"Shinji!" Asuka cried after him, "Shinji, come back! Please!"
Ignoring the yells, Shinji disappeared into the complex.
Asuka couldn't do anything. Her entire body was frozen. She'd just seen red energy start whirling around Shinji and been thrown back before the table and their meal was smashed into splinters. Whatever had been eating away at Shinji had finally surfaced. Asuka started to run after him but her body was suddenly wrecked with pain. She collapsed on the ground and curled into a ball, shivering for several seconds before unclenching. Getting back onto her feet, Asuka leaned against the wall for support. She didn't know why her body had such a reaction but didn't want to risk another.
She was about to go back to her wheelchair and chase after Shinji using that when her eyes glassed over.
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Asuka moaned as she realized where she was. She had started to hate Eve and those robed people in this so-called sanctuary. The trees were still there and that damnable light still shined upon the garden. And this time, Eve was standing there waiting for her.
"What do you want?" Asuka snapped, "If you have nothing useful to tell me then send me back. I have to find Shinji!"
"I know where he is headed," Eve replied calmly, "though it is a surprise that you would want to find him. You've been complaining about being stuck on Earth with him."
"Well, uh, he's useful right now. Besides, it's too much work trying to take care of myself."
"You mean you need him to help you," Eve said.
"Wh-what? I don't need anybody!" Asuka screamed, outraged.
"Asuka, I know who you are and I know who Shinji is. Right now, he needs you and you need him. The two of you share a bond that neither of you will understand until later, but believe me on this. You are the most important person in the world to him, and he's the most important person to you."
"No he isn't!"
"Then who is?" Eve questioned.
"Why, Kaji. Yeah, it's Kaji."
"No he is not," Eve countered, "You sound as if you're trying to convince yourself of that. Lose that damn pride of yours before you lose something far more important, Asuka. I am offering you the help that you need. If only just this once, take it."
"No. I don't need help!" Asuka screamed, her face starting to get red.
"Then you don't want to find Shinji, I assume."
Asuka didn't answer. Instead, she pouted.
"I will tell you how to find Shinji, if you are willing to swallow your pride. It is not that hard, or can you not do it?"
That single challenge was enough. Asuka glared at Eve but nodded ever so slightly. Eve took it as in the positive and so told Asuka in detail where Shinji would be going. Once she was done, Asuka found herself back in the NERV compound. She returned to her wheelchair and started out after the "idiot."
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Shinji looked out into the sea and saw the partially melted MP EVA still standing there. He did his best to ignore it but it wouldn't go away if he simply didn't look at it. Shinji sat down in the sand and let the water run up to him. Perhaps he should end it here to make sure Asuka wouldn't get hurt around him. It wasn't as if she truly needed her. He didn't know how to swim either so he could easily just jump into a deep area and his troubles would all be over. So why didn't he?
Shaking his head, Shinji made up his mind and got up. He walked up to a ledge and looked down. The water might not be too deep, but if he allowed the current to carry him a little that would be enough. Taking one last look at the ruined city behind him, Shinji Ikari jumped.
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Asuka had just come over the last ridge, given up on the wheelchair to get to the beach because of the dunes. She saw a figure on top of a ledge and realized it was Shinji. Before she could shot, the figure disappeared. Her eyes shot wide open as Asuka realized the horrible truth of what Shinji had just done.
"Shinji!"
End of Chapter 2
Took a while but don't complain. Also, Adaptation is progressing but slowly. All other EVA fics are on hold. Also, if any of you submitted a review on June 4, according to the owners of ff.net, they were deleted so resend if you have to.
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Recrudesce of Evangelion
Chapter 2: Honor and Courage
Shinji had already finished cooking breakfast when Asuka came out of her room. Her body had stopped hurting so she had decided to forgo the wheelchair. When he saw her, Shinji almost panicked.
"Good morning."
"Asuka! Are you sure you're well enough to walk about?"
"You're not my father," Asuka replied, though not as sharply as usual. "I'm fine. So how about greeting me back?"
"Good morning Asuka."
For some reason there had been a change in Shinji's tone. He seemed more subdued, which was pretty hard to accomplish considering Shinji's attitude towards life.
"What's for breakfast?"
"Same as usual. I'm going out today to try to get some more food."
Asuka nodded and took her seat. She ate the food placed before her and kept quiet for most of the meal. Shinji didn't try to make any conversation either, though he kept glancing at her with a worried look in his eye. For some reason Asuka started feeling uneasy. It wasn't as if Shinji had changed on the outside. But when the shadows were on him just right, Asuka swore she saw someone else. Was that a good thing?
"Asuka?"
Asuka lost her train of thought and blinked.
"Hmm?"
"Are you listening?" Shinji asked.
"Oh, yeah. What were you saying?"
"I said maybe you should use the wheelchair for long trips into the city," Shinji repeated, "Around the house you can walk around to get your muscles working properly again."
"Well, since I see nothing wrong with that, I'll go along with it. But don't think this means you can order me around."
"Of course not."
Narrowing her eyes, Asuka studied Shinji carefully. Something was eating at him but she had no idea what. Was it because he had choked her? Granted she'd probably had it coming after this long but he had seemed fine yesterday. So what had changed? What could have happened overnight? Thoughts of the dream drifted into Asuka's head. Was that it? Was Shinji dreaming too? No, that couldn't be. That would be way too easy.
Shinji finished washing the dishes and pulled out the motorized wheelchair for Asuka. She got on and the two went outside again.
"Hey Shinji, why don't we have some fun today?" Asuka suggested, "I mean, the past two days or so haven't exactly been that relaxing for either of us. We need to unwind some."
"What? Well, I guess there's no harm in it."
"Good. Let's go to that ice cream place then."
"Hey wait! We can't steal!"
"Shinji, ice cream is also food. Just come with me and stop complaining about stealing for once, okay? I promise not to steal clothes or anything like that. Does that satisfy you?"
"But, it feels wrong."
"Shinji, sometimes you let go of your feelings, and sometimes you follow them. This time, just trust me and follow. Okay?"
Reluctantly nodding his head, Shinji found himself several minutes later in an ice cream parlor making Asuka a Sunday.
"Remember Shinji! With a cherry on top!"
"I know!"
Shinji came out a few seconds later and handed Asuka the Sunday. She took the spoon and started slurping it, enjoying every bite. Shinji simply sat there and watched her. He had nothing to say but many things to think about. What was he going to do? Was he really the Antichrist? It certainly seemed unlikely if not outright impossible. But that man, Apollyon, had seemed sure and had asked what his orders were. Or that person was trying to trick him. But why? That question kept popping him. Why him? Why Asuka? Why were they the only ones on Earth? There had to be some way around all this. If only he could find a way to bring the rest of humanity back to Earth.
"Hey, earth to Shinji."
"Huh? What?"
"Now who's spacing out? I asked if you wanted something."
"Oh, no."
"You're such a boring boy," Asuka whined, "Come on! We have an entire city to ourselves! And don't tell me you're trying to figure out a way to reverse Third Impact."
"Why not?" Shinji asked.
"Because if you keep worrying you'll get nothing done. Unwind some! Okay, I'm not going to get anywhere with this approach. Let's make a deal, Third Child. If you have fun with me today, tomorrow we'll continue looking for a way to reverse Third Impact. And the day after that we'll work on making sure we keep getting power and water. How's that sound?"
"Fine," Shinji said, letting in.
"Good. And if you don't get rid of that lousy mood you won't be having any fun."
After Asuka had finished her Sunday the two left and headed towards some place Asuka thought Shinji might like. Shinji walked and Asuka rode through the remaining districts and came to a large park. They strolled through it, taking in the scenes. Despite himself, Shinji started to relax. Finally he started getting tired so he sat down on a bench. The morning drifted away and they spent most of their time walking in the park, making small talk. Neither tried to ask about the other's past but instead they talked about their interest. For once, the two were having a polite conversation without any danger of Asuka turning it into an argument. It was actually nice and Shinji enjoyed the sound of Asuka's voice, so carefree. He tried to push away his worries and managed to succeed for the morning.
The two stopped at a café and Shinji made burgers for them. When he returned Asuka started giggling.
"If someone besides us were actually here they'd think we were on a date," she joked.
Shinji's face reddened as he realized what Asuka was implying.
"Umm, well, this isn't really a date, you know."
"Hmm. One would think you'd take some initiative," Asuka responded, "Sit down and eat, Shinji. We still have more places to go."
"Ah, okay."
"You know something, you haven't apologized at all today, and it's kind of refreshing. Keep it up and I might reward you."
Something was definitely wrong here. Not only was Asuka being nice to him, she was also flirting with him, in a way. What had happened to her?
"Asuka, are you sure you're feeling okay?"
"What? Why?"
"Well, you're usually not so, umm." At a lost for words, Shinji decided to stop before she started pounding him.
"Nice to you? Oh, I suddenly decide to be nice to you and you think it's weird? Well, maybe I should start insulting you again! Idiot!"
"No! I mean, I, well, I'm not used to it. I didn't really mean anything, I was just curious."
"Humph. Well, be less curious in the future. Now, eat up. We've gone through the peaceful stuff. It's time to go do something I like."
Shinji took a bite into his burger and found that it was good. A lot better than he'd expected. Since he had been raised in Japan, he'd learned from his elders that American food was too greasy and tasted bad. When he arrived in Tokyo 3, American food was a relief from the stuff Misato made. Still, it was a rare treat to eat at a McDonald's, though how that company survived Second Impact was nothing short of a miracle. He finished his lunch and followed Asuka as they went to a large store.
"Umm, what's this place for?" Shinji asked.
"Well, since you won't let me get any clothes, I'm going to do the next best thing. Try them on and tempt you!"
Shinji swallowed. This was going to be one hell of a day.
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Shadows swarmed from all over to this single spot. They had traveled across the world, awakening when humanity had begun its ascension. They were the left behind, the bitter, the ones that should have died and yet did not. They had one goal, one single purpose in their existence. Prepare the way for their master, and then serve with all their abilities and lives.
A massive standard was raised. The standard was blood red with a black upside down cross etched in its center. Slowly the pole that held the standard rose as the citadel started to take shape. Bricks, steel, and other construction material broke off of the buildings and flew to the citadel. The framework was slowly placed and construction began. Once their master awakened, the citadel would be ready.
And thus, Babylon arose again to greatness.
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"Umm, Asuka, are you sure you need to wear that?" Shinji asked nervously.
Said girl was currently posing in front of Shinji in a two-piece swimsuit, a little skimpier than her previous one.
"Of course I don't have to, but you're so fun to tease! So, what do you think?"
"Umm, beautiful as ever?"
"At least you have decent taste. So, what do you think?"
Asuka leaned forward a little to give Shinji a better view of her assets. Though she normally would have called him a pervert for even glancing at them, this time she was having too much fun.
"A-Asuka, are you sure you need to do that?"
"Such a boring little boy," Asuka repeated, "Why don't you take a risk and live life? After all you've been through, one would think you learned at least that."
"I guess I haven't been trying to learn. But if I died, it would be kind of like wasted effort."
Asuka bopped him on the head.
"Shinji, wake up. This is post-Third Impact. While I still don't know why I'm stuck with you I'm at least trying to make the best of it. Don't ruin my effort, or you may start regretting it, okay?"
Asuka had said it sweetly but Shinji sensed the tension underlying it. He nodded complacently.
"Good. Now, what should I try on next?"
"Asuka, shouldn't we get dinner?"
"Oh? It's that late already? Well, why not."
Suddenly Asuka's stomach growled. She glared down at it, as if it had betrayed her.
"Fine. Should we go home?"
"Yeah."
They went home, Shinji loaded down by some fresh food they'd gotten while Asuka carried a light load. By the time they were through the door and into the apartment, Shinji was exhausted.
"I'll cook tonight," Asuka stated, "You get some rest. I don't want to eat burnt food just because you were tired and didn't notice it catching on fire."
The young man was just glad for a chance to sit down. He was sweating from the walk and so he took a shower before the meal. The hot water felt nice, but it was cut off as Asuka had finished dinner. Shinji came out wearing a blue shirt and gray shorts. Asuka had made quite a spread and this might be the first time they'd actually have leftovers. The two took their seats and ate, enjoying their meal. Again, the meal was silent, but neither was bothered by it. This gave both of them time to think. All the worry that Shinji had pushed away started surfacing again. He tried to ignore them and eat, but they kept returning. Finally, he finished and took care of the dishes. Just as he was about to plop down on the couch Asuka called to him.
"Shinji! Get over here!"
He walked out onto the balcony and saw Asuka leaning against the railing, looking into the horizon. The sun was setting and a beautiful glow lit the sky. Orange and red colors seemed to flow across the sky and bounce off of the clouds, keeping the evening alight for one final act. The sun slowly went below the skyline and Shinji couldn't help but smile.
"That was beautiful," he said, once the sun was gone and darkness had settled on the world.
"How beautiful?" Asuka asked.
Shinji thought about it for a few seconds. Finally he came up with an answer.
"As beautiful as you."
Asuka sniffed. "Don't expect to get anywhere with flattery, Mr. Ikari, especially if it's not true. I'm much more beautiful as that sunset!"
Shinji smiled as he looked upon Asuka. With the twilight upon her, she certainly was. Asuka noticed him staring at her and glared a little, but had trouble keeping her face straight. She suddenly burst out into laughter and went back inside. Shinji, himself surprised at her sudden breakdown of composure, followed her.
"I'm going to take a shower now," Asuka said, "Don't peak. Be a good boy and get some sleep. Tomorrow we have work to do."
Shinji smiled and went to bed, exhausted. Overall, today had been a great day. Tomorrow, he was sure they'd get some work done.
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Shinji found himself standing in a massive plaza, the stone covering completely black. Actually, all of the buildings and walls were black. There was a massive tower at the center, like an obelisk but more structured. It didn't go up and then end in a point, it went up in segments. Also, the thing was gigantic.
"Welcome to your citadel, master."
Shinji spun around and saw Apollyon standing a few feet away.
"You. What the hell am I doing here?"
Apollyon held his arms open, as if to say why are you asking me.
"This is your citadel. True, it has only been partially completed, but one would think this was the greatest city in the world."
"I'm not who you think I am," Shinji said in a dangerously low voice.
"It is you who does not know who you are," Apollyon shot back, "Think, my lord. Think and consider. How else would you have even reached the first level of Hell without dying, without being a servant or a damned soul? You came because you are the master. It is your destiny to break humanity and rule. It is your destiny to destroy the Heavens and bring the Host to its knees."
"No. I'll never do that."
"You must, for fate chose you for this task."
There was such conviction in Apollyon's voice that Shinji had trouble doubting him. But a part of him kept on fighting all that Apollyon had said. There was no way he'd turn on his friends and family. No way he'd destroy all that he loved and cherished. He was not the Antichrist.
"I will never enslave humanity," Shinji said, strength returning to his voice. "I will not. Do you hear me!"
Shinji's hands tightened into a fist. Sonic waves rippled through the air as his voice boomed. They struck Apollyon and threw him across the plaza, knocking him against one of the black walls. A crack sounded and Apollyon fell to the ground, shaken by the display of power. The crack above him disappeared as the shadows repaired the damage. He looked at Shinji but said nothing. A second later he shimmered and disappeared.
Shinji took a deep breath and tried to focus. Apollyon was wrong. He was not the Antichrist. He'd never hurt anyone he loved.
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For the first time since returning to Earth, Asuka had an undisturbed night of sleep. She rolled over as her body rested, undisturbed by any dreams, good or bad. A serene smile was on her face, as Asuka slept on completely unaware of the turmoil that was developing in the room next to hers.
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"Apollyon! Come out and show yourself!" Shinji screamed as he raged through the city.
There was no reply as he walked around the citadel. Perhaps that last outburst had frightened him, but Shinji doubted a small display like that could scare a man known as the Destroyer. He stalked around the plaza and found dozens of statues decorating the place. The city by itself was stupendous but every aspect of it showed the darkness. The black color over everything made the place forbidding while the various statues of monsters and demons did not reassure him at all. Right now, despite his nature, Shinji wished he had a weapon.
Apollyon shimmered and stood before Shinji, still cloaked in the black robe.
"You called, my lord."
"I have been calling for a while," Shinji responded, "Why have you been avoiding me?"
"You needed time to think," Apollyon answered.
"I had time to think. I am not the Antichrist. Stop bothering me with this! I am not your master! Find someone else to worship!"
"It is not my decision who is the Antichrist," Apollyon persisted, "I merely do as I am bidden. Whoever is the Antichrist is my master, and you are my master."
"Damn you Apollyon, damn you for eternity!"
This time Shinji's eyes lit up with fury and blue light shone out. An intense blaze shot out at Apollyon, blasting him across the plaza and out of the city proper. After the light had receded, Shinji fell to his knees, panting. All that power, it had nearly overwhelmed him. What was he? How was he doing all this?
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Asuka had watched Shinji all morning and on their little trip back to the Geofront. He'd been extremely tense and had spoken little, even though she herself had tried to open him up. Something was eating at him again and he was working like a maniac now. So far Asuka had seen him go through dozens of files on Units 01 and 05-13. It was very likely he'd just become an expert on them even without understanding any of the technical aspects. She herself was having trouble understanding how exactly Unit 02 worked. What had been so clear before was now so muddled. No surprise there. Before, she had known very little so there wasn't that much to truly understand. Now, with all this new stuff thrown in, it complicated matters.
Yawning, Asuka tried to keep her eyes open. It was getting harder and harder to concentrate on this. Slowly, the pilot drifted off to sleep.
She seemed to float in thin air, her eyes closed and her body limp. Asuka's mind was silent as her form slowly made its journey. The realm that she was traveling through was beautiful, and yet the traveler was not awake to enjoy it. Lights spiraled around her, coming into and out of existence. Finally everything seemed to collapse and Asuka fell to the earth. As she got closer, her descent slowed. By the time she had reached the ground, she was at a complete stop. When her back came into contact with the soft bed, Asuka's eyes opened. She got up and looked around. Again she was among the white robed figures.
"Not again," Asuka muttered.
She got up and walked around, wondering where Eve was. None of the others looked like they could offer her any answers so she didn't even try to talk to them. Suddenly a breeze hit her from behind. Asuka spun around and saw Eve standing behind her.
"Oh, there you are. Why am I back?" Asuka demanded.
"You are back because you are in search of answers," said Eve, "though how you managed to return is beyond me."
"Look, I don't have time for your cryptic messages. Just tell it to me plain and simple. Why shouldn't I be here?"
"Because you are not the one."
"Not the Messiah?" Asuka concluded, her arms crossed.
"Correct."
"Well no duh! I'm hardly a good Samaritan. And I don't need answers so if you'll tell me how I'm supposed to get out of here I'll gladly go."
"If I knew how to keep you out I would have done so already," said Eve, "You are somehow piercing the barrier between your world and this plane. I suggest you learn how to control your dreams better."
"I'm sleeping?" Asuka said, "Well, good. That idiot should wake me up soon."
Eve's eyebrow rose slightly. "Why do you persist in calling him an idiot?"
"Shinji? Because he is, that's why! Why should you care?"
Asuka's current posture showed just how much she cared about Eve, though for some reason the young pilot didn't do anything to insult Eve openly. One reason was fear and the other was curiosity. Like how she was even getting here.
"You are struggling to understand your own feelings regarding the Third Child. Why don't you just tell him already?"
"Tell him what? He already knows how I feel about him!"
Eve chuckled and started walking. Her step was light and graceful, as if she had all the answers to all the problems in the world.
"Hey, hold it!"
Asuka started running and caught up with Eve. The two didn't talk to each other, they simply walked. Finally Asuka ran out of patience two minutes later.
"Okay, spill. What do you know about me and Shinji?"
"I know you care deeply for him," Even answered, "I know that the two of you share many commonalities and that if the two of you had met under different circumstances the two of you would have fallen in love."
"Me? Love him! Get real, whoever you are. You say you're Eve, but even Eve doesn't have the power to see things like that."
"Are you sure? Shinji is a fine young man and is strong. He is currently fighting a battle within himself that if he loses, could very well mean the conclusion of Third Impact and end humanity for good."
"What? What are you talking about? There's nothing wrong with him," Asuka persisted.
"You have not noticed the stress he seems to be experiencing? I'm disappointed in you, Second Child. The only reason he hasn't lost yet is because of you, though even he doesn't know that. Are you going to help him?"
"Shinji doesn't need my help. He's invincible. Not even an Angel could stop him. Humph! He's a glory-hog!"
"Don't justify your own faults because of the success of others. It's unbecoming of you."
"What? What did you say!" Asuka screamed, furious. She almost moved to slap Eve but something held her back. She didn't know what it was, but waited for Eve to continue.
"Asuka, listen to yourself. Bury your pride and just listen. Ignore everything about trying to beat Shinji. Maybe you'll learn something." Eve paused for a second, as if realizing something. Then she continued. "I think it's time you left."
"Huh?"
Before she knew what was going on, Asuka felt herself being shaken.
"Asuka, wake up."
"Huh? What? Oh, sorry Shinji."
"It's okay. Didn't get much sleep?"
"No, it's all this lousy information. I can't make heads or tails out of it and it's so boring it's putting me to sleep!" Asuka ranted.
A brief smile appeared on Shinji's face but it disappeared quickly.
"Well, if you don't want to look over this you don't have to. I can take care of it myself."
"Oh no you don't Third Child, you're not going to get all the credit for ending Third Impact," Asuka said defiantly, "I'm going to help and that's that."
The smile returned, but again it was very brief. This time Asuka knew she wasn't imagining it. Something was eating away at Shinji. Was Eve right? No, that was preposterous! Why would Shinji care for her? And yet he had. Damn it, stop thinking like this! Asuka shook off the feeling and went back to work, going at a furious pace. She was so concentrated in the research that she didn't notice Shinji walking back to his console. A few minutes later Asuka came back to reality and reflected on what had happened. Shinji had shown her kindness again.
Goddamn it, she thought. Why does he keep having to do that? It's not like I treat him nicely or anything, he just does it as if it's the most natural thing in the world for him!
After fuming for a few more seconds, Asuka returned her attention to the designs of Unit 02. The technology behind the EVAs, especially her own, fascinated her. Apparently, Unit 00, 02, 03, and 04 were all designed utilizing aspects of Adam. Most of their internal structures were identical and thus they were said to be made of Adam. A little of Adam's DNA didn't hurt either. However, Unit 01 and the EVA series were so different. Though they both originated from Angels, Lilith was another thing entirely when compared with Adam. Both were made of a substance very much like solidified light but otherwise Asuka had no idea what was truly going on.
The other thing that kept drawing Asuka's attention was the S2 organs. They were powerful tools but only one EVA besides the EVA series had one, Unit 01. What made that unit so special? Why did it go berserk so many times? It couldn't have just been the fact that it was made from Lilith. Or could it? Asuka brought up another file, the one on the report about the failed experiment with Unit 04 and the prototype S2 engine. Unit 04 was built from Adam and the S2 organ failed. It might have been just flawed design in the engine, but coincidences rarely happened when EVAs and Angels were involved. Unit 01 had a S2 organ and so did all of the EVA series. They were all built from Lilith and were thus fundamentally different.
"Adam and Lilith. So what's their story?"
This course of thinking caused Asuka to delve into more background information regarding the Angels themselves. Unfortunately, that led to a dead end. The Dead Sea Scrolls had a lot of information on these beings but they were unattainable. The MAGI had no idea where they were and Asuka was pretty sure that Shinji wouldn't know either. As they were the only two humans left on Earth, anything they didn't know how to get at was basically lost.
"Damn it!" Asuka uttered in frustration.
"Something wrong?"
"Oops. Didn't think I was so loud. Yeah, something is wrong, but neither of us can solve it. Just go back to whatever you were doing."
One second later Asuka's stomach started growling.
"On second thought, Shinji, could you get us some food?"
"Uh, sure."
He was about to leave when suddenly Asuka turned around in her wheelchair and followed him.
"Oh second thought, I'm coming with you."
Shinji raised an eyebrow before continuing. It wasn't like Asuka to want to accompany him. What was happening to her? And was it a good thing? They walked to the cafeteria and again Shinji had to make something from whatever he found in the kitchen. When he was done, the meal actually looked eatable, though how eatable mystery meat is one should never explore too far.
They had just started eating when Shinji suddenly froze. Asuka looked at him and waved a hand in front of his face.
"Hey Shinji. Shinji? You okay? Shinji!"
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The young man found himself plummeting down a sea of orange water. Apparently it wasn't really water as he could breathe. As Shinji looked around, he thought he saw forms of people. But who were they?
It was then that Shinji realized he was floating in LCL, the same liquid that was used for synchronization with EVAs. He reached out with his hand and it swam through the watery like substance slowly. Shinji then looked closely at the images that passed him. They did resemble people, but again, who were they? Just then he thought he caught sight of someone in a red jacket. He spun around, catching one more glimpse of the person. At the last moment, that person turned around and Shinji stared right into those brown eyes.
"Misato. Misato!"
Shinji tried to run or swim towards the person, but he wouldn't move. The fleeting image disappeared, leaving the young man alone again. Suddenly he felt another familiar presence close by. He turned around and at first saw nothing. Then, those orange glasses appeared and the rest of the man materialized. Shinji's face contorted into one of absolute rage.
"Father!"
This time Shinji wasn't trying to chase whatever it was, be it his father or a phantom. He was trying to attack. His feet suddenly seemed to touch something of substance and he ran. A second later, Shinji leapt and tried to ram into his father, but instead flew through the phantom and into the arms of another. When he opened his eyes, he found that they were locked onto a pair of blue eyes so like his own. It was his mother.
"Mom."
The phantom smiled and seemed to hug him. Shinji returned the embrace but felt a chill. He let go and turned around. His father was there again.
"Damn you Father!" he screamed.
All the pent-up rage inside him finally let loose. A giant shockwave burst out and swept across the vast ocean. Shinji felt the LCL boiling around him but didn't care. Nothing mattered now.
"Shinji!"
That voice cracked through his rage and the shockwave dissipated. He turned around and saw his mother again, worry on her face.
"Shinji, don't."
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"Shinji!"
His eye's snapped open and Shinji found himself floating in the air, red static crackling around him. The table had been wrecked and Asuka was a few feet away, as if afraid to approach him. He came down onto the ground again and stood there.
"Asuka, I'm sorry."
He then ran away as fast as he could. Without looking back, Shinji Ikari fled again. This time, it was to keep the monster within him from hurting those he loved.
"Shinji!" Asuka cried after him, "Shinji, come back! Please!"
Ignoring the yells, Shinji disappeared into the complex.
Asuka couldn't do anything. Her entire body was frozen. She'd just seen red energy start whirling around Shinji and been thrown back before the table and their meal was smashed into splinters. Whatever had been eating away at Shinji had finally surfaced. Asuka started to run after him but her body was suddenly wrecked with pain. She collapsed on the ground and curled into a ball, shivering for several seconds before unclenching. Getting back onto her feet, Asuka leaned against the wall for support. She didn't know why her body had such a reaction but didn't want to risk another.
She was about to go back to her wheelchair and chase after Shinji using that when her eyes glassed over.
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Asuka moaned as she realized where she was. She had started to hate Eve and those robed people in this so-called sanctuary. The trees were still there and that damnable light still shined upon the garden. And this time, Eve was standing there waiting for her.
"What do you want?" Asuka snapped, "If you have nothing useful to tell me then send me back. I have to find Shinji!"
"I know where he is headed," Eve replied calmly, "though it is a surprise that you would want to find him. You've been complaining about being stuck on Earth with him."
"Well, uh, he's useful right now. Besides, it's too much work trying to take care of myself."
"You mean you need him to help you," Eve said.
"Wh-what? I don't need anybody!" Asuka screamed, outraged.
"Asuka, I know who you are and I know who Shinji is. Right now, he needs you and you need him. The two of you share a bond that neither of you will understand until later, but believe me on this. You are the most important person in the world to him, and he's the most important person to you."
"No he isn't!"
"Then who is?" Eve questioned.
"Why, Kaji. Yeah, it's Kaji."
"No he is not," Eve countered, "You sound as if you're trying to convince yourself of that. Lose that damn pride of yours before you lose something far more important, Asuka. I am offering you the help that you need. If only just this once, take it."
"No. I don't need help!" Asuka screamed, her face starting to get red.
"Then you don't want to find Shinji, I assume."
Asuka didn't answer. Instead, she pouted.
"I will tell you how to find Shinji, if you are willing to swallow your pride. It is not that hard, or can you not do it?"
That single challenge was enough. Asuka glared at Eve but nodded ever so slightly. Eve took it as in the positive and so told Asuka in detail where Shinji would be going. Once she was done, Asuka found herself back in the NERV compound. She returned to her wheelchair and started out after the "idiot."
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Shinji looked out into the sea and saw the partially melted MP EVA still standing there. He did his best to ignore it but it wouldn't go away if he simply didn't look at it. Shinji sat down in the sand and let the water run up to him. Perhaps he should end it here to make sure Asuka wouldn't get hurt around him. It wasn't as if she truly needed her. He didn't know how to swim either so he could easily just jump into a deep area and his troubles would all be over. So why didn't he?
Shaking his head, Shinji made up his mind and got up. He walked up to a ledge and looked down. The water might not be too deep, but if he allowed the current to carry him a little that would be enough. Taking one last look at the ruined city behind him, Shinji Ikari jumped.
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Asuka had just come over the last ridge, given up on the wheelchair to get to the beach because of the dunes. She saw a figure on top of a ledge and realized it was Shinji. Before she could shot, the figure disappeared. Her eyes shot wide open as Asuka realized the horrible truth of what Shinji had just done.
"Shinji!"
End of Chapter 2
Took a while but don't complain. Also, Adaptation is progressing but slowly. All other EVA fics are on hold. Also, if any of you submitted a review on June 4, according to the owners of ff.net, they were deleted so resend if you have to.
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