Name: The Realization That You´re Inlove.
Author: merykey X-5 495
E-Mail: merykey_x5495@yahoo.com
Summary: Alec realizes that he loves someone, but she has a boyfriend. M/A. After HG & DDA and before SAH & LATR.
Disclamer: The characters of Dark Angel do not belong to me. They belong to a guy named James and I think the other´s one name is something like Eglee or something like that.
Author´s Note I: This chapter is sort of like Chapter 8, except it´s an Alec/Biggs friend talk. I´m really sorry I didn´t updated this earlier but I´ve been busy with Collage and all. So I don´t think I´ll be posting new chapters once a week anymore, maybe once every 10 days, yes. Anyway, thank you to those who review my last chapter, Jace and Panda... and my new german friend, Spookyslayer. This one is for you guys! I hope all of you like this!! BTW, I´m gonna keep Biggs alive, just so you know!
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Chapter 17

Alec entered to Crash, saw, drunk and left. In short words: what he saw made him drink and leave the place. Max, the only person he knew who would be all serious even if Jim Carrey would appear in the middle of Crash and did one of his acts, was now laughing out loud at something Biggs had said.

His blood was boiling, but not becouse Biggs had made her laughed like that, or becouse another man had done it, if that´s the matter. But becouse he had let himself believe Joshua´s words. 'Max wants to be with Medium Fella.' Yeah, right. Becouse she using him meant she wanted him; becouse she being with another man meant she wanted him; becouse she treating him like dirt meant she wanted him.

I don´t think so. Is time to forget. No good will come from this. One of this days, sooner than later, I´m gonna start acting like an jealous idiot, and that´s when the ass kicking´ll start. No, thank you, I pass. I rather be an ass than the stupid with a 'crush' on Max.

So, he drunk just one whisky and left.

From his seat, Biggs saw Alec entering the place and leaving in less than 5 minutes. He was leaving in a slow way. His eyes down like he was thinking, like he was on his own world, never seeing the two girls he bumped into the stairs. Alec looked, to Biggs, like defeated, but defeated on what, he didn´t know. Then he saw Max next to him, laughing, beautiful actually, and then he understood.

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A couple of hours later, Biggs was back to the appartment Alec had offered to share with him only two days before, and saw his fellow X-5, his friend, sitting on the couch, watching some old sitcom and drinking a beer.

"Hey, Al." said Biggs as he approached the couch and sat on it, next to Alec´s slumped body.

"Hey." Alec simply said.

"You left Crash early. Why?"

"Well, I wasn´t in the mood to hang ´round Max." Alec said using the 'Truth Factor' though not revealing all the truth.

Then, out of nowhere, Biggs asked, "What´s up between you and Max?"

Alec looked up to his friend now, very surprised. "What?!" said, almost spilling all his drink over the couch as he straightened up.

"Yeah, I mean, are you guys... together? Or were together? Or is just a rounding ´round each other thing?"

"We´re... nothing." answered Alec with a bit of sadness in his voice, which Biggs totaly picked up.

"You mean... nothing at all?"

"Yeap, nothing." the blond X-5 said again, watching at the tv again as if everything was ok. "Why? You wanna talked her into 'taste' a little of Biggs?" he said again, this time trying to make the conversation a little more macho like. But Biggs had other plans.

"Maybe, I don´t know."

"Becouse, I´m telling ya, Max´s not the kind of girl who does 'one night stand's. Besides she´s crazy ´bout a guy, Logan. Mr. Save-the-world-for-tuesday."

"She´s got a boyfriend? She didn´t say anything."

"Well, that´s becouse they´re not together anymore. Or at least for a while."

"What do you mean with 'at least for a while'?" Biggs asked.

"Well, it´s kinda long story."

"I got nowhere else to go... I live here. I got time."

"Well, Manticore put this virus in Max which only affects Logan, becouse its target is his DNA. They´ve been round each other a year before the virus thing and never something happen, and when they were ready to face their feelings the virus thing happen and now Max is using me so Logan won´t be near her."

"Oooh... that´s why you´re so mad at her, right?"

"Yeap." Alec simply answered. Then neither of them talked for a while. Biggs watching at his friend trying to hid his hurt behind that mask he always used to use and that, apparently, he still used. He felt sorry for the guy. Alec was in love with this girl. And he thought he didn´t have a chance with her. Yeah, all that was written on his face and in his words. Only an expert could see that.

Ok, ok, so, OC, Josh and Biggs were the ONLY ones who could read him like an open book. It was like everyone knew exactly how he felt. He had worked so hard all his life to built this hard walls so his feelings wouldn´t be shown, and then, less than a year in the outside had made that walls to break. How did this happen?

"She talked ´bout you." said Biggs, finally breaking the silence, which wasn´t silence at all becouse of the tv.

Alec was confused. "Who?"

Duh! You idiot! Max! Who else?! "Max. She only talked ´bout you. Tonight, at Crash."

Alec just looked at his friend; he wasn´t sure what to say. Maybe an 'Oh' or a 'really?', but none of them seamed like a right answered, so he just didn´t say anything.

"You know I would never do anything to steal her from ya, right?" continued Biggs.

"She´s not mine to be stolen." said Alec in a low voice. Like if he couldn´t find his voice. He cleared his throat, pretending to have something there. Yeah, right, dude.

None of them said nothing for a while, they just looked at the crazyness of Lucile Ball, until Biggs became with a question, though not exactly TO Alec, but more general. "You ever thought ´bout having a girlfriend?"

Oh, no! He wants her! He wants her bad! He wants her to be his girlfriend! Alec didn´t answer right away. He thought Biggs´ words, found their meaning, became with an answer, a true answer, and said to his friend, "I dont´think we can attach to someone like that."

Biggs saw the sadness in his eyes. True, that sadness was all over his face when he thought or talked ´bout... You know... Her.

"You say that becouse of... her?" Biggs said, not able to say her name out loud infront of Alec.

Back in Manticore 494 had said a thing or two ´bout the Berrisford assignment, but 472 had managed to get hold of the report of 494´s mission, the reason why his friend had gone to Psy-Ops for over 6 months.

Alec knew Biggs wasn´t talking ´bout Max, this time he was talking about... her. The girl he once loved and which forbidden love got her killed. Rachel. He wasn´t surprise that his friend knew ´bout her.

"Sort of." answered Alec. The conversation had definately became a corny one. Here, there were two hot machos, who could be talking ´bout sex and hot chiks and whaterever it had to do with sex and hot chiks. Instead, they were talking ´bout love. That´s a first.

Then Alec stood quiet, thinking. Thinking ´bout Rachel, how his stupid heart had gotten her killed. Well, not his heart, but the stupid good soldier inside of him. He knew back then that someone like him could never fall inlove. Not becouse he couldn´t emotionally, becouse he could, after all he had felt it, but becouse he knew he would put that person he loved in danger... again.

"Though, it... would be nice, you know... to have someone to take care of... maybe love even." That was a very corny thing to say from Alec, and he knew it, but what the hell, he was talking with an old friend.

"You think you could ever love someone with such an intensity?" asked Biggs.

"I don´t know."

Biggs wanted to know what his friend felt for Max and, becouse Alec obviously wasn´t gonna tell Biggs jack, he asked, "Are you inlove with Max?"

Wow! That was damn straight! Lately all Biggs questions took Alec by sorprise.

"What?! What the hell are you talking about?!" Alec asked stearing at his friend with shock eyes and a mix of annoyance.

"Come on, dude. How long have we known each other? Too long, and even though Manticore thought their soldiers were loners, we knew the real truth. You could have at least one friend in there. And that´s what we were and, hopefully, still are. So don´t play fool with me, k? Becouse I saw you leaving Crash tonight, the way you left. Like if someone had suck the life from your body. And you know why you were so upset? Becouse I was talking to Max. I´m not stupid."

"I have no idea what you´re talking about." said Alec standing up, leaving Biggs on the couch, to get some beers from the fridge.

"Oh! Come on Alec! You can´t tell me you don´t fell at least a bit attracted to her!"

"Attracted, yes. Inlove, no." Ok, just keep repeating yourself that. Maybe you´ll believe it. "Max´s hot, yeah, and it would be a dream come truth to take her to bed, big deal. But that´s all it is. Hormones. Not love, just hormones."

"Fine. If you say so." said Biggs giving up.

Alec went back to sitting in his spot on the couch and handed Biggs one of the beers. "I say so."

"Just so you know, there´s nothing wrong ´bout love. Just becouse we spent our entire lifes in a Goverment Facility, it doesn´t mean we can´t fell inlove. And, Alec, Manticore´s gone. You can start acting like a 23 year old guy."

Alec thought Biggs words. "You ever fall inlove?" he asked.

"No, but I heard that, in normal circumstance, it´s the best feelling ever."

"You really think so?"

"Well, it´s a popular known. It´s in the movies, in songs, cards, everywhere. Going to bed, see you in the morning."

"Yeah, bye."

Alec thought his friends words. Maybe Biggs was right. Maybe there was nothing wrong ´bout love. Though he was afraid of it. A really, really, very bad experience would do that to you.

Alec smiled. He turn off the tv, and went to sleep. Yeap, he was inlove.

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