Name: The Realization That You´re Inlove.
Author: merykey X-5 495
E-Mail: merykey_x5495@yahoo.com
Summary: Alec realizes that he loves someone, but she has a boyfriend. M/A. After HG & DDA and before SAH & LATR.
Disclamer: The characters of Dark Angel do not belong to me. They belong to a guy named James and I think the other´s one name is something like Eglee or something like that.
Author´s Note I: Sorry it took me so long to update! So... I was watching Bamboo´s MVChapter 4 (if you don´t know what I´m talking about go to www.terra.dti.ne.jp/~bamboos/tribute.html or to www10.plala.or.jp/jensen-ackles/ ; they are videos!!) and I saw how different the Max in Season 2 is compared to the Max in Season 1. I thought in S1 she looked.. I don´t know... freer in some way... happy... and much prettier! This is a chapter in which people will do drastic things to get the control of their lifes back... or something... Enjoy! and Review!! Oh! Thanx to all of those who reviewed my last chapter!!!
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Chapter 20

Have you ever wake up, look at the mirrow and don´t recognize the person strearing back at you? I do... every day since I came back from my last visit to Hell, aka Manticore. I stear at the reflection and I´m not sure if that looking back at me is still Max Guevara. Long black hair, sad dark eyes, thin as hell... I lost the control of my life but I´m not sure how. It all happen so suddenly.

"Cindy!!" Max called her friend from the bathroom. They had just arrived home from a long day at JamPony, but for Max it had been more than a long day... it had been a long year of tiredness and extreme sadness. But now, things were changing, and she was feeling the old Max, the one that, even though a secret Goverment Agency was after her, still hung at Crash, drunk beer, and was the happiest she could be... =) Even though the africans were after her to do experiments on her, she still stayed in Seattle, becouse this city was the only one she felt like calling it 'home'.

"What is it boo?" Cindy asked.

This last year Max had forgot ´bout her. Between White, Logan, the virus, Joshua, the hundreds transgenics who needed to be saved, the runes, Sandeman, Normal, Zack, and a millon other things, she had forgot who she was. So now, she wanted to change. But she knew this kind of changes she wanted to do were going to take a little while... Baby steps, right?

Now that Logan was definetely out of her life, at least out of the hart matters, she could start again. But for some reason, she couldn´t help but feel lost, guilty and not sure if she had done the right thing.

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NEXT DAY AT JAMPONY...

"Come on Boo, take it off."

"No, I won´t take the hat off, ok? So stop asking me to." Max said to Cindy, in the entrance of JamPony.

"What ever..."

Max went straight to her locker to get her things when Sketchy and Cindy approached her, and while Sketchy was telling Max ´bout the honey he had met last night at Crash, Cindy took this opportunity to take Max´s hat off her head...

"Wow" Sketchy said when he saw Max hair, "What happen?"

Max, trying unsuccesfully to hide her hair with her hands, said "Cindy did it... I just asked her to cut it a little..." And then, the last person she wanted to see her like that appeared.

"Maxie?" he asked to this girl, who had Max face, her eyes, nose, beautiful mouth with those kissable lips, her body, but... that was definetely not Max´s hair... Max´s hair was long, dark, sad... almost like one of those gothic elements romantic literature writers used to make their stories darker but romantic at the same time.

Oh... God... Just kill me now...

But now, the hair looked... happy? Can hair look happy? No? Ok, then the hair made Max´s face happy. Let´s just say it made her look different... Different in a good way.

He´s smiling?? He is smiling!! He´s gonna make fun of my hair!!

"What happen?" he asked to Max, who was hearing the question for the second time.

"Well, I asked OC to cut it a little, but I don´t know what happen... I think the hair wasn´t ready for such a big change..."

"I like it."

What??

"See, OC told you. It just needed some time to get used to its new shape." Cindy told Max giving back her hat. What a great analogy, isn´t it?? Cindy always knows what to say and how to help.

"I guess." Max answered.

Last night, after Cindy had cut and dry the hair, it looked kind of funny. Voluptuous I may say. And this morning it had tricked Max, making her think that it was still in a very bad shape. Now, we all know Max ain´t the king of girl who actually cares ´bout this things, but you should have seen it. It was like a monster was coming out of her head, like 'Alien' but instead of coming out of her stomach it was coming out of her head... but aparently the hat had help. It wasn´t as straight as it was last night, or as curly as it had been a year and so ago, it had a hole new shape. The shoulder-long hair made her look like a grown up, more mature, and Alec liked it becouse, even though it made her look more mature, she looked like a whole new Max... Like if she had got rid of that heavy piano over her shoulders. Does that make any sence??

They went all back to their bussines, well, Normal´s bussines.

OC and Max went to have some lunch, and they started talking... well, Max started talking, there was something in her head, beside of her stupid treacky hair, and she needed OC´s help.

"I mean, I broke up with Logan and I told him... I told him I wasn´t inlove with Logan and he hasn´t made any move on me!! It´s been a week and he hasn´t made a single move on me!! If he was interested in me, Alec would´ve already made a move on me!! Right? God! I don´t know why I heard you! I don´t know why I let Sam´s words sunk me! The theory that Alec is crazy ´bout me is a total fiasco..."

"Boo, STOP!" Cindy almost yelling. "First of all, OC´s never wrong ´bout hart matters. Second of all, Alec doesn´t know you like him like that. For all we know, he could be afraid of saying anything... Afraid you´d kick his ass. Come on boo, you´re an amazona, baby. You´re strong, independent... He´s not used to make moves on some one like ya, girl... All his conquests are blonde stupid bimboos. "

"So, what do I do?"

"Well, ya could always..."

"No way! I ain´t gonna tell him anything! It would be suicide!"

"Why you say something like that? You don´t know what he would say..."

"Well, all I can think of is something like this: 'Hey, Alec, I have feelings for you' and he would be all like 'Aha, ok, I have feelings for your boobs'!"

Cindy laughted. Yeah, Max had a point. But she was 99.9% sure Alec had feelings for Max... I mean, even a blind person would see it.

"Point taken. Then, we go Plan B."

"Plan B? We had a Plan A?" asked Max confused.

"We check our sources."

"What sources?"

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That night at Crash...

Cindy was trying to talked to a very much drunk Sketchy.

"Come on Sketch, talk to me. Has Alec ever say anything ´bout Max? Something that would make you think that he likes her?"

"Well, little lady, my information will cost you..." he said, winking his left eye, not knowing that if he did that again, he would lose it.

Cindy just steared at him with a It-Ain´t-Gonna-Happen look.

"Ok, ok, I´ll cooperate. What do you want to know?"

"Cindy wanna know if Alec ever told ya something that made ya think he likes Max?"

"Define 'likes'"

"'He likes her' as in 'he´s inches of being inlove with her'"

"Now, why do ya wanna know something like that?"

"Just curious. Are ya gonna answer or not??" Cindy said hitting him on the shoulder, letting him know what was gonna happen if he didn´t talk.

"Alec never said anything to me ´bout Max."

"Ya mean anything?"

"Yeah, anything. He only said something ´bout her when I asked him where did they meet each other. He said they had met on Max vacations, which I thought it was weird ´couse Max told everyone she had been absent becouse of a hart transplant. But who was I to tell the great Monty Core he was lieing? Hey... where did they meet, anyway? I bet they met at... Manticore." he said the last part in a whisper.

"Yeah suga´. So, nothing else?."

"Well, there was this time I saw both of them in this strip club... together." he said incinuating something to Cindy which she totally picked. "Yeah, the next day I asked him what had happen and he said 'Nothing, Max´s just a friend, I could never do that to her.' "

Uh.. That could mean something...

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.:FlashBack:.

"Come on Max... I´ll go to talk to Sketchy, get him drunk so he won´t remember a thing, and you talk to your boy Biggs."

"But if I ask him he´ll know I like Alec and he´ll tell the ass ´bout it!"

"Max, if I could, I´d talk to him, but he´s at TC, and OC ain´t transgenic... Just try to be... subtle. Ya know? And stop acting like a school girl, k? Ya can´t be afraid of asking your friend if Alec has a thing for ya... So just go!"

:.End FlashBack.:

So, here she was, at TC searching for Biggs insteed of being in Crash having fun and drinking as she did every friday night... well, almost every night.

She went to the HQ first to say hi to the guys, Josh, Luke, Dix, Mole and the rest. Luckily, Biggs was there, helping Dix with some computer equipment.

"Hey, Biggs" she said from behind, taking the man by sorprise.

"Oh! Hey, Max... Hey, you cut your hair! It looks great!" he said, facing her.

She smile, she was happy her hair didn´t look like some bird´s nest or anything.

"Could I talk to you?"

"Yeah, sure, what´s up?" he asked.

"Let´s go outside."

"You wanna check out my new crib?"

"You already find a decent... 'crib' here?" she asked as they were leaving the building into the cold streets of Terminal City aka Freak City.

"Well, is not decent, but is salvageable."

"Ok, let´s go."

They left without noticing that there was someone else in the HQ, someone who had been seeing Max since she came in, hoping she would see him and say hi at least... someone who felt terribly jelaous of Biggs right now. Jelous of his friend.

He followed them to the building where Biggs had decided to live, where he had helped Biggs to bring all the things he had left in their appartment... What are Biggs and Max going to do in his apartment in the middle of the night on a friday night?

Duh! said a little voice inside of him, Are you stupid or what? Your best friend and the girl you´re inlove are in the guy´s appartment... alone... Tell me, what would you be doing right now if that were you??

Uh! Tough question... Noo!! If that was the girl my friend loves I wouldn´t do anything like it! he answered to the nasty little voice.

Oh! Come on, Alec!! You got to be kidding me! I know you better than you do.

Alec looked up to a window. The lights had just been turn on which meant they were already there. Alec wasn´t sure if to hear to that stupid annoying voice or to hear his... hart (not actually his hart, becouse well, harts don´t talk, right? But to the feeling in his stomach... very different to the one he had when something bad was about to happen... or maybe to so different.)

Was his friend betraying him? Were Max and Biggs going to... consumate their forbidden love? Forbidden love? What forbidden love?? Max doesn´t love him! Alec argued with the voice. Uhg!! It was so God damn annoying!

Yeah, well, lets just say that they´re up there, doing only God knows what, and you´re down here, in the cold, thinking what are they actually doing... Jajaja!! You´re so whipped!

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Author´s Note II: Please Tell Me What You Think Of This!!! So, Alec´s jealous of Biggs... What´ll happen?? Also, what you thought ´bout Max cutting her hair?? Bad? Good? Tell me, all you have to do is press that nice little button at the bottom and tell me what you think... It sucked? It rocked your world? TELL ME!!!!