Hey! Here's chapter 5! Thank you to Amanda Panda for telling me about the anonymous reviews! I had no clue I was blocking those! Thank you also to everyone who has reviewed my story so far! I really appreciate it! Please review, and I hope ya enjoy!

" " Talking ' ' Thoughts *~*New scene

On with the story.

Rita laughed watching Sakura do a little dance around the parking lot. Her initiation was now only two days away, and she had shown much improvement. Herself, as well as Todd had been shocked when Sakura hit the target" three times in a row on just her second day. She wouldn't tell them what her newfound motivation was, but they often caught her muttering, "that will show him." Now, on her third day, Sakura was still a little shaky, but managing to hit the target at an average of 7 out of 10 shots. "She's a fast leaner," Todd chuckled, placing an arm around her shoulder.

She smiled, and absently twisted her engagement ring. Everyone had been surprised when they had told them, but Tomoyo most of all. After yelling out "Congrats!" she turned and pounced on Eriol in an instant. "SEE! Another couple has just got engaged! They've been dating for a shorter time than us! Come on! Just ask me already!" Eriol had just simply placed a hand on her shoulder, smiling knowingly. "Not until your ready," he said, the four words Tomoyo had grown to loath the most. She had then thrown her hands up in frustration, yelling "If you don't ask me soon, I'm gonna ask you!" before running over to give Rita a big hug.

"I'm so happy," Rita whispered, snuggling closer to her Fiancé. He nodded, pulling her closer, "So am I."

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Chiharu and Tomoyo sighed listening to Sakura stomp around her room. "He has no respect for me! He treats me like a child!" she complained and sat down on the bed. Sakura had been staying with them for under a week, and already she and Syaoran had become worst enemies. At the moment, he was now considering postponing her initiation, which Sakura was actually secretly thankful for. However, the fact that he thought she wouldn't be ready in the regular amount of time a Wolf was given to prepare, pissed her off. Deep down, Sakura knew she wasn't ready, and probably never would be for something this drastic, but she couldn't let him know that. Her mind was made up, and she wanted to prove herself worthy.

"Come on Sakura," Chiharu said softly, "He probably just wants to make sure nothing goes wrong. If the tiniest little mistake is made, all chaos could break loose!" Sakura sighed in desperation. "I'm ready.I can do this." Was all she said before getting up and walking out of the room. She passed Takashi in the hallway and gave him a weak smile before continuing to the front door. Tomoyo sighed and watched her leave. 'Poor Sakura. I know she doesn't want to do this. She's pushing herself too hard. Chiharu sat silently beside her, thinking the exact same thing.

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Sakura walked quickly through the deserted street. She wrapped her arms around her body, shivering, and cursing herself for not bringing a jacket. She didn't know where she was heading, or how long she had been gone all ready, but she just needed some time to think. A tear slowly trickled down her cheek as she felt herself being enwrapped in the loneliness of dusk. She wanted her old life back. No matter how horrible it was. She wasn't cut out for all this gang stuff. She didn't even know what possessed her to join in the first place. 'I'm not a member yet,' She reminded herself, but still felt no escape. She had pushed herself so hard to show them she could do it. She couldn't admit she was wrong. She couldn't give HIM the satisfaction.

Sakura felt a tangle of emotions surge through her at the thought of Syaoran. Hate, admiration, envy, appreciation, disgust, lo. Sakura chocked on her own thoughts. She bit down hard on her lip, trying to push all of her feelings aside. She could feel a small trickle of warm blood run into her mouth, and loosened her clench. 'What's wrong with me?' she thought and sat down on a curb. She buried her head in her lap, trying to gain control of her emotions. "This can all go away you know." Sakura shot up, hearing the whispered words. She looked around her, but there was no one there. "Hello?" she called out into the fading light. No one answered.

Sakura shivered and pulled her legs closer to her body. 'Calm down. Just calm down.' She glanced around nervously. She had that feeling again. Like someone was watching. Standing up slowly, Sakura turned back in the direction she had come and began to walk. Her pace quicken with every step until she broke out into a slow run. A light suddenly appeared around her, and she glanced back to see a car slowing as it approached her. Sakura's heart pace quickened. She began to shake. 'Keep moving, keep moving.' She told herself over and over. The car pulled up beside her, and she faintly heard someone call her name. Her ears throbbed with the pounding of her heart, and she took off, sprinting down the street. She turned from the road; dashing across a field, fear overwhelming her.

She felt someone grab her arms and pull her back. "NO! LET ME GO! LEAVE ME ALONE!" she screamed. The grip tightened on her arm, and Sakura blindly tried to fight off her attacker. Her other arm was grabbed, and she felt her self pulled into a tight lock. "Let.let me go." she continued to sob. "Sakura." Sakura stopped struggling at the sound of the voice. She looked up, and through her tears was able to make out the shape of Mei Lin's worried face. "Mei Lin!" Sakura gasped. She felt her body weaken, as the rest of her strength slowly drained from her body. Mei Lin helped her stumble back to the car, and slide her into the passenger seat. She closed the door, and walked around to the other side, pulling out her cell phone. " Got her." She said when they picked up. "Oh, and Syaoran, I think someone was following her again." Mei Lin hung up, and opened the car door. "Let's go home." She said with a worried glance at Sakura.

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Sakura groaned and rolled over in her bed. She felt weak and tired; her brow was furrowed in sweat. She swallowed, and winced at the burning sensation. 'I must be sick.' She slowly sat up, the room slightly spinning around her. Glancing over at her alarm clock, she had to rub her eyes to make sure she saw right. "11:30?!?! I'm over two hours late!!!" Sakura grabbed her throat. Her voice was hoarse, and rough. She heard a gentle knock on the door, but didn't answer. Instead she sat still and waited until it was opened. She was surprised to see Syaoran stick his head through the door, but still didn't speak. Seeing her up, Syaoran walked in carrying a tray and placed it on her night table.

"Mei Lin made you some soup earlier, so I heated it up." He waited for her to reply, but she just sat silently starring at him. "Um.she said for you to rest and not worry about school today." Sakura just continued to stare at him. "The girls all went out.they'll be back in an hour or two, so eat.and get more sleep." Syaoran gave Sakura a quizzical look. "What? For once you can keep your big mouth shut?" He saw anger flare up in her eyes, but she stayed silent, clenching her mouth in a thin line. Syaoran sighed, "Just get some sleep. You can choose whether or not to go to school tomorrow, but I'm defiantly postponing the initiation. "No!" Sakura heard he hoarse voice cry out. She immediately grabbed it in pain, but continued to speak. Her voice wasn't even recognizable anymore. "I can do it! I'm ready!"

Syaoran shook his head at her. "No, your sick now. I can't have you screw things up. Will continue with our plans on Friday, but without you." He turned to leave, but Sakura shot out from under the covers and grabbed his arm. She gripped him tightly; kneeling on the bed with determination in her eyes, "I'm fine!" she spat out, although the sound of her voice suggested other wise. "I want to do this. Give me a chance." Syaoran turned around and stared at her. She let go of his arm, becoming aware she was only in black panties and a skimpy black tank top as his eyes roamed her body. She quickly scrambled back and grabbed a sheet, wrapping it around her as she blushed. Syaoran shook his head. "It's your fault you ran outside without a jacket. Face the consequences."

Sakura seethed as she watched him leave. 'I'm not gonna back down. Just you wait.'

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Mei Lin excused herself to go to the washroom and left, much to Syaoran's annoyance. After shutting the door, she turned and raced upstairs instead, heading for Sakura's room. She smiled seeing Sakura's sleeping form tangled in the sheets, and made her way over. "Hey! Sleepy head! Wake up!" she called softly, and shook her. Sakura groaned and rolled over. She opened one eye and caught sight of Mei Lin. "How you feelin?" she asked. Sakura rubber her eyes and sat up. "Better," she said, her voice still scratchy. Mei Lin nodded, "Good, Syaoran's holding a meeting about tomorrow right now, so I suggest you hurry up and get your little butt down there!" Sakura's eyes shot wide open, and she scurried out of bed to her closet. Mei Lin laughed at her determination, and headed back downstairs.

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Syaoran pointed to the positioning marks on the map. "Eriol I need you here. If anything goes wrong, they'll make a break for it this way." Eriol nodded and gripped Tomoyo's hand. This was the first mission in a long time that she wouldn't be close to him. He hated the feeling of not knowing whether she was safe or not. Syaoran sighed happily, "Good. Once he's taken out, we'll finally have revenge on Jason's death and." his sentence was interrupted as an angry Sakura burst into the room. Syaoran gaped at her in surprise, then turned to Mei Lin accusingly. She shrugged her shoulders, a guilty smile on her face, and snuggled further back into Jess' arms. "What is it?" Syaoran asked Sakura impatiently. "I told you I could do this!" she seethed. "I'm not going to quit! I'm ready!" Syaoran raised an eyebrow in disbelief.

"What do you think?" he asked turning to Todd. Todd looked at Sakura, and then back at Syaoran, "Honestly, I think she's ready." Syaoran just stared at him emotionless. He had to be joking. He turned to look back at Sakura, and saw the determination burning deep in her eyes. Sighing he gave up. "Fine. Your in." he glanced around the room at the approving faces before addressing Sakura once more. "But if anything goes wrong, I'm blaming you."

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The rest of the day Sakura spent in training, trying to perfect her shot before the big event. She glanced up a couple of times to see Syaoran watching her intently, and the determination once again flared up inside of her. What Sakura didn't know, was that Syaoran admitted to himself that she was pretty good.for a beginner anyways.

Sakura wiped the sweat off her brow and put down her gun. Her arms were aching, but the practice was worth it. She now had almost total confidence in her shot. She nodded to Todd and Kado before heading up to her room for a cold shower. She let the icy water splash against her overheated skin and shivered pleasantly. Her throat was still aching, but Tomoyo had given her some medicine that would hopefully start working soon.

She stepped out of the shower, grabbing a towel to dry off. Her mind was still caught up in a fury of unrest. She was going to do this. She was actually going to kill someone. Sakura felt sick to her stomach with the thought, yet an odd thrill rushed through her body, and itched her fingertips. She had gotten over her momentary lapse of the previous night, and made it clear to everyone she didn't want to talk about it.

When she stepped out of the washroom, Sakura was surprised to see a new outfit laid out on her bed. She walked over to it, glancing at the accompanying note: ' Change and meet us downstairs. ~Mei Lin' She smiled, and held up the outfit. It consisted pf a strapless black top, exposing a little skin with a criss-cross tie up down the front, as well as a short black mini skirt. She found black leather boots that went just below her knees nearby, as well as a small holster that fit would fit around her leg. She quickly changed, and strapped the holster on, making sure it was hidden under her skirt, then placed the gun Todd had given her inside. She looked down uneasily at her skirt, with a fear of the gun accidentally going off in her mind. Sighing, Sakura pulled her hair half back, leaving the rest falling stylishly down, and with a quick glance in her mirror, headed downstairs.

Rita winked at her as she came down the stairs. Everyone else was already gathered, and waiting patiently. She plunked down on a couch beside Naoko and waited like the others, except she had no clue what to expect. Takashi walked over and gave her a reassuring smile. "Were just gonna have a little fun tonight! Check out the positions, make sure everything's ready for tomorrow, the usual drill." Sakura nodded as she felt both excitement and fear bubble up in her at the same time.

At last Syaoran, Mei Lin, Eriol and Tomoyo walked into the room. All of the girls were wearing similar outfits as Sakura, while the guy's sported black pants and leather jackets. Eriol smiled looking around the room, "Everyone ready?" Tomoyo rushed over to Sakura, and dragged her off the couch. "Come on! Let's get going!" Sakura nodded; laughing as Tomoyo half dragged her to the door in excitement. A smirk appeared on Eriol's lips as he caught Syaoran staring at Sakura's retreating figure. "Something interest you?" he asked. Syaoran broke his trance and glared at Eriol. "No," he said gruffly, before following the rest out.

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Sakura watched as everyone zipped around, laughing, and yelling to each other in excitement. She watched as Tomoyo climber on a motorcycle behind Eriol, Chiharu, Rita, Naoko and Mei Lin doing the same with Takashi, Todd, Kado and Jess. Sakura gulped uneasily. Motorcycles scared the shit outta her. Even worse, she glanced around, noticing everyone had paired up except for her and Syaoran. 'Pleas no!' she looked on helplessly, as Syaoran pulled the bike up beside her. "Hurry up and get on, I don't have all night!" Sakura just stared at him, "Ummm..umm." she stammered. Syaoran stared back at her, a look of amusement passing over his face. "Don't tell me your scared." Sakura glared at him. "I'm not," she stated coolly, "I just don't trust you." Syaoran just continued to stare at her. "Come on!" Mei Lin yelled impatiently from behind them, "Syaoran just take it slow! It's her first time!" Syaoran grinned at her, an evil twinkle in his eye, "I never go slow." Sakura glared at him, "Then I'm not getting on!"

"Suit yourself," Syaoran shrugged, "I couldn't care less whether you come or not." Mei Lin sighed and got off her bike. "Sakura, go with Jess, he'll ride slower for you. I'll ride with Syaoran." Sakura nodded in appreciation, shot another glare at Syaoran, and headed towards Jess. He winked at her, and helped her on the bike, "Just hold on tight, and tell me if anything is wrong." Sakura smiled, "Thanx Jess." "Hey! No problem!" he replied, "Just doin my job!"

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The girls chattered happily, sitting on the old fence railing and swinging their feet. Sakura had finally stopped shaking from the previous rides. Jess had kept his word and rode extra slow for her, yet she was still scared shitless when they first took off. This was the fifth place they had ridden to, and by now she was finally getting the hang of it. They guys stared around at the vicinity a few feet away. They had to make sure everything was perfect for tomorrow night. If any little thing wasn't taken into account, it could be total disaster. Or, so Sakura thought. To the rest of them, this was a simple, basic routine with almost no danger what so ever, yet it still never hurt to be careful.

"So you nervous?" Chiharu asked, addressing Sakura. Naoko slapped her playfully, "Of course she's nervous! Everyone's always nervous their first time!" Sakura smiled at them. Her complexion may not have shown it, but she was terrified inside. "I just can't wait till this is over! Then we can all take Sakura to get her tattoo!" Tomoyo squealed. Sakura paled, "Ta.ta.tattoo?" Rita nodded. "Ya, every Wolf has one." Mei Lin hoped off the fence and pulled up her shirt, tugging the back of her pants slightly to reveal a small wolf head on her lower back. "All female Wolf's get one exactly like this. It's small, and easy to hide if necessary," Rita continued. Sakura looked at the Wolf on Mei Lin's back and shuttered. "Did it hurt.?" she managed to whisper. Naoko nodded, but seeing the look in Sakura's eyes quickly added, "A little, but not too bad. The guy's get a larger one on their shoulders. It's a lot more painful to them!" Sakura still looked worried, but had no more time to ask questions, as the guys headed back towards them.

"We're good to go," Syaoran updated them, "We'll run through the plans again tomorrow, and head out by night fall." The girls nodded happily and hoped off the fence. Sakura slowly slide off, staring at the ground. She suddenly heard Mei Lin gasp. "Syaoran.. are those lights?!?!" Syaoran shot his head up and watched as soft lights rolled down the path towards them. "I have no clue what the hell that is.but let's get out of here." He nodded, and in an instant everyone rushed, about jumping onto their bikes. Sakura got lost in the confusion, and quickly rushed to get on behind Jess. She gasped as she felt him quickly pull of and speed down the track. Sakura closed her eyes, and greatly tightened her grip. 'What the hell is he doing!!' "Jess! Jess slow down!" she called out. She felt him stiffen as she called his name, but didn't bother changing speeds.

Sakura bit down hard on her lower lip to stop a whimper, and held on for her life. She felt dizzy and lost; everything seemed to swirl around her in a sickening mess. She felt her grip slip. She felt herself falling from reality. In shock, Sakura snapped awake, and realized she was actually falling from the bike. Her arms were sliding off from around his waist, yet she could not get a grasp. Her body would not react, and she watched in horror as she slowly slid to her death.

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Syaoran tensed when he heard Sakura call out Jess' names. She had gotten on the wrong bike. He felt her grip tighten, and instantly knew she was petrified. 'Why do I care?' he struggled to regain control of his mind, and keep focus on the road ahead. That's when he started to feel her grip slip. 'SHIT!' He felt her arms slowly slide from his waist. She was going to fall. Syaoran slowed the bike; he had no time to think. He would have to act on impulse. Swerving to the side of the road, he swung the bike on its side, grinding the tires against the pavement, daring it to stop. At the same moment he swung his upper body around, gabbing hold of Sakura's waist, and pulling her down. He leaned forward, and at the perfect moment pulled both of their bodies from the bike, letting them gently roll of into the dirt. The bike continued sliding across its side, coming to a stop, a couple of meters away.

He panted heavily and looked down as Sakura who lay beneath him. Her eyes were open in awe; her mouth was dry, and her body numb. She couldn't move and just lay there, looking up as Syaoran in horror. He sighed and rolled off her, getting up, and pulling her along with him. "Don't you dare pull a stunt like that again," she heard him grumble as he went to pick up the bike. He looked at her, aware that her whole body was shaking like crazy. "Come on.I'll drive slower."

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Sakura hoped off the bike as soon as Syaoran slowed down. She was still pretty badly shaken up, although she was trying not to show it. Turning to Syaoran, she looked at him in disgust. "I hate you!" she whispered loud enough for him to hear, before stomping inside and up to her room. Syaoran stared after her in shock. He didn't know why, put he felt a sharp stab of pain across his body as she uttered those words. "Fuckin idiot. Damn well nearly got herself killed!" he muttered to himself, and turned around to put the bike away.

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Sakura sighed deeply and glanced at her watch. 2 hours left. She had been counting down the hours all day, dreading each minute that passed. 'I can do this! Stay strong! Don't let him have the satisfaction of seeing you fail!' She hadn't spoken a single word to Syaoran all day, although this had proved rather hard as she attended meeting after meeting. Now she had some final time alone to prepare before her life would be changed forever. "How did I let it go this far?" she asked herself for the fiftieth time, yet still no answer came. She would be paired with Syaoran tonight, and he would be watching her every step of the way. She just had to keep a cool head, and do everything according to the plan.

She looked up, hearing a soft knock on the door, and smiled as Tomoyo poked her head in. "Hey Sakura! I just wanted to see how you were doing!" Sakura smiled at Tomoyo. She as well as the other girls would be great bonus to joining the gang. "I'm fine!" Sakura chimed. Tomoyo strolled over and plopped down on the bed beside her. "Rita and Chiharu picked up your school work earlier, so you don't need to sweat about it," she glanced as Sakura unsure if she should continue. She sensed Sakura was having trouble at home, yet the girl wouldn't fully open up to her. "I was just wonder.if you.you know wanna visit home before you go out tonight." Sakura tensed. She hadn't thought about her father in the longest time. She was trying to push him out of her mind. Out of her life.

She smiled up at Tomoyo, trying to cover her grief with a fake mask. "No thanx, Tomoyo. Perhaps I'll go sometime next week. I just really want to relax right now." Tomoyo nodded, and stood up. "Alright, it's your call. I'm gonna go get ready my self! See you in a bit!" She winked at Sakura before exiting the room.

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Sakura walked out the door, tugging at her leather jacket, her whole body tense with anxiety. She didn't want to ride a motorcycle with Syaoran again tonight, but she knew he would take one just to piss her off. She was dressed in black kakis with a red t-shirt and leather jacket over top, more clothes compliments of Mei Lin. She looked around for Syaoran hoping he wouldn't show, that something would go wrong, and the whole thing would be cancelled. She was shocked when he pulled up to her in a black corvette. "Let's go," he grumbled. She nodded and hopped inside. 'This is it.'

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"Stay low." She heard Syaoran murmur. They had made their way over to the warehouse, and lay in the nearby shadows, waiting for their target to appear. Eriol waited inside with the bait, a large shipment of drugs. They had made a personal one on one fake sale with the man, although they knew he would not show up alone. The rest of the gang was positioned all around the larger property, most on the other side of the factory, to cut off the easy escape route. Syaoran and Sakura now knelt out of view of the others. The main task would be up to Sakura.

She gulped as she saw a lone car advance down the dark path, leading to the factory. The car stopped, yet the man stalled getting out, making Sakura sweat in anticipation. She gasped in shock as gunshots went off in the distance, and Syaoran clamped a firm hand around her mouth. 'So, he knew it was a trap," Syaoran thought. He heard a bike start up, and knew Eriol had bailed, as he instructed him to do at the first sign of danger.

The man slowly opened the door, and got out of his car. He walked towards the door, and punched in a combination code. To his surprise it wouldn't unlock. In frustration, he continued to punch more random numbers, completely unaware of the danger lurking in the nearby shadows. Sakura starred at the man. She took aim, and gently put pressure on the trigger. Syaoran watched as she prepared for her first kill. She held her position for a couple of moments before lowering her gun in frustration. "I can't do it! I just can't!" she whispered, the noise from the gunfire allowing them to talk quietly.

Syaoran held her arm, making her raise the gun once again, "Yes you can, come on." Sakura held her breath and fixed her eyes on her target. 'PULL,' her mind screamed, 'PULL!' "Come on," she heard Syaoran mutter encouragingly. Sakura just shook her head at him sadly. Syaoran sighed, "Sakura you have to. If you don't, you can't become a Wolf!" Sakura looked away and bit her lip. "I know.but I just can't do it." "Wait here," came Syaoran's reply, after a moment of silence between them. He slipped off into the darkness, leaving Sakura huddled by herself. She watched as he came out from behind the man, taking him by surprise, and with a quick jab to the neck, and rendering him unconscious.

Syaoran signaled for her to come closer. "There," he said gripping her shoulder in support, "he won't feel a thing." Sakura once again aimed her gun. Her arms were shaking like crazy, but Syaoran held her steady. "You can do this," he breathed in her ear. Sakura felt safe being so close to him, almost like everything would be all right. However, the sickening feeling in her gut reminded her is wouldn't. "I.I.I'm so sorry." she said dropping her gun to the ground. Syaoran looked at Sakura with worry. His emotions were rapidly bubbling up. Everyone always had problems with their first kill, but no like this. Sakura just seemed too innocent.

"Turn away," he said gently as Sakura quietly sobbed. She starred at him until he repeated himself, "Turn away." She did as she was told, and felt Syaoran move from beside her. She heard a soft click, no doubt the silencer had done it's job. Sakura knew what had happened. She knew what Syaoran had done, yet she still could not stop herself from turning around to look at the man. A thin trail of blood trickled down his face, and a great sorrow arose inside of Sakura. 'What if he had a family? What id he had children?' She felt Syaoran take her arm and start to lead her away, "Come on, let's go."

Sakura got into the car and put on her seatbelt, starring hard at the dashboard, the images of the man continuing to flash through her head. "You ok?" Syaoran asked surprising her. She remained silent for a while before answering, "Yea." Syaoran looked over at her worriedly, 'Why do I care?'

"So I guess we better make arrangements to get your tattoo done." Sakura's head shot up as she heard his words. "Whaa." Syaoran glanced at her, "Well, if you're going to become a Wolf, you'll need a tattoo of course." Sakura just stared at him in disbelief, "But.but I didn't pass the initiation." Syaoran smile over at her, sending shivers down her spine, "No one has to know." Sakura smiled for the first time that night. 'Maybe he's not so bad after all!'

Author's Notes: So what did you think of Chapter 5? I hope you liked it, cause it took me a LONG time to write! I'm not sure when I'll be able to update next, I'm pretty swamped with homework and stuff, but I'll try for a soon as possible! It should only take a couple days at the most. Next chapter you'll find out just how many things can go wrong when trying to get a simple tattoo! I hope you enjoyed! Please Review!!

Ja ne! ~Fallen Angel