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Help Me Feel Again

Chapter 4

Phil and Lil DeVille approached the Finster household. They had just gotten back from a trip with their mother and father but about as soon as they got back they heard a whispered rumor running through the teenagers of their town. Tommy Pickles and Chuckie Finster were going out. Rumors had been spreading about Tommy since the death of Dill with things of he was unstable and the like. But no one had come to them and said that he was gay. They rang the doorbell and were answered by a rather moody looking Kimi.

"Hi Kimi. Is Chuckie home?" Phil asked.

"Yeah. He's in his bedroom" She said without her usual enthusiasm. She moved out of the way and when they were settled inside she shut the door, screamed her brother's name, and then went back to the kitchen.

They looked to the stairs and saw Chuckie Finster at the top. "Hey guys come on up." He said and they followed the red haired boy to his room.

The room was just exactly as it had been when they had left. The bed was still there with its sky blue sheets in the left corner. The walls were still covered in sky blue paint. The floor was still white with carpet. Be side the bed was a night table and in the right corner was a desk. Posters still covered the walls. They only saw one thing different. A damp Tommy in nothing but some pants leaning against the desk beside an open window.

"What happened to you?" Lil said.

"Hi Lil it's nice to see you too." Tommy said sarcastically.

"Oh sorry, hi Tommy." She said her cheeks burning a little.

"I got pushed into the pond at the park. Some idiot was skate boarding along and then pushes me face first into the lake." He said sounding a little pissed. (Course I would be too.)

"Some people are just jerks." Phil said. He strode over to Chuckie's desk chair and straddled it so he could put his arms and head on the back. He gave one of his all famous calm look before asking, "So what have you two been doing?" Chuckie and Tommy looked at each other. They knew this had secret meaning. They both know that rumors had been flying around for the past few days about the duo. Apparently the twins had heard as well.

"We've been shagging every chance we get." Said Tommy like he was discussing the weather. Both twins looked at him like he had revealed himself to be Saddam Hussein. Then Tommy and Chuckie started roaring with laughter at the looks on the twins faces. Phil and Lil then looked a little cross over the joke that had made them into fools. When the two calmed down they gave their attention back to the twins.

"So you two are going out?" Lil asked.

"Since a few days ago." Tommy said.

"Wow, you miss out when you don't stick around town." Said Phil.

"Well pay up bro." Said Lil. Phil grumbled and then handed her some money from his pocket.

"You had a bet on us?" Said Chuckie.

"Yeah. My guess was that you would start you're relationship before next school year. Phil thought it wouldn't be until the middle of the school year." Lil explained.

"I wonder what other twisted bets you have on us." Tommy said staring out the window.

"None right about now." Phil told him.

There was a knock at the door. "Hello kids. Dinner is almost ready. Phil, Lil would you like to join us?" Kira Finster asked.

"We were just going to get a burger but yeah sure." Said Phil.

"Thanks." Said Lil. And soon after they approached the kitchen for dinner.

Lil and Phil were lying on their separate beds in their room at the DeVille home. Tommy and Chuckie had filled them in on all that had happened the last few days. About seeing Miracles in the park, about Kimi, plus, about Angelica and her homophobia. They had been silently pondering their friend's new found relationship. Phil looked to Lil. "What do you think about it?"

"Not sure. I mean it doesn't bother me or anything. Heck we've known it was going to happen sooner or later but it still is a bit of a shock."

"Yeah. But I just can't understand Angelica. When Dill died she was crying and screaming. She wasn't as bad as Miracles but still she was just about to loose it at his funeral."

"Speaking of Miracles I wonder how he's doing. I know that Tommy and he have been writing letters back and forth but Tommy has never really said anything to us about him." Lil told him.

"I know and with a father like his no telling." Phil said.

"Did you know that at his mother's funeral he never he even shed a tear. He died even appeared upset. From what I heard they wanted him to say a few things about her but he had said that he had nothing good to say so he wasn't going to say it at all."

"Where did you hear that?" Phil asked her.

"Miracles's cousin who lives in town. Said she overheard Miracles and his father talking about it."

"That's pretty bad. Poor Miracles." Phil said shaking his head.

Tommy approached a small house that looked almost desolate. The paint was peeling amongst the walls and the house looked like it shouldn't be standing any longer. The yard looking like it hadn't seen water in years. He approached the front door and Tommy knocked. The door was opened a few seconds later by a bruised pale face.

Miracles stood their in white shorts and nothing else. His entire body was covered in black and blue bruises. His blonde hair cascading down his shoulders. "Oh hello Tommy." He said.

"Hey Miracles. I wanted to see how you were doing since you didn't write back after my last letter." Tommy said.

"Boy where the hell are you?" They heard from the back of the house.

"I.Let's go for a walk." Miracles said leaning over to the side and picking a sweater from a couch behind him. It too was white. When Dill had died Miracles had thrown away anything with color in it and wore all white all the time. He pulled on the jacket and then exited the house closing the door behind him. 3

"So how have you been doing?" Tommy asked.

"Don't even play Tommy. You know how I am doing. You saw the bruises. Course I certainly wasn't trying to hide them."

"Sorry. So did your father do that to you?" Tommy asked. Miracles stared down at the ground then slowly shook his head. "Why?"

"He was drunk." Miracles said shortly. Miracles started to shiver.

"Are you cold?" Tommy said. Miracles nodded. Tommy removed the jacket he had been wearing and placed it on Miracles shoulders.

"Thanks." Miracles said giving a small smile that Tommy returned.

"Why do you stay? It's not like he would try to get you back should you leave." Tommy said.

"I have no where to go Tommy. My grandparents are dead, my mother has been rejected from her family me along with her, and my father has no brother or sisters. You know as well as I do that I have no friends besides yourself."

"Come live with us. I know my mother wouldn't mind. She's always thought of you as another son and me well I've always thought of you as another brother." Said Tommy.

"I don't know Tommy. For one you never know about your mother and well I just don't know if I could live in the same house as the only man I've ever loved. I've never told anyone this but Dill and I were planning on well.getting married after high school."

"I remember Dill asked me what I thought about that idea. I told him it sounded like a good idea. I understand your distress. Listen why don't we at least try it. If need be I'm sure the Finster's would take you in. I'll discuss it with my mom tonight over dinner. You can stay with me and Chuckie. It'll be a sleep over."

Miracles stopped walking for a moment. He stood in thought. It was a good deal. And if he had to he could always go home no questions asked. His father wouldn't have cared where he had been. He nodded his head and felt an arm wrap around his shoulders and pull him close and they started walking again.

Well that was Chapter 4. WOO HOO. Are you proud of me? Well I hoped you liked reading that as much as I did writing it. So sorry it took so long to get done and get up and everything but I was busy with the first chapter of the sequel to Dark Diaries. Check it out if you're a Beyblade Kai x Rei fan. Well guess I'll leave you alone now. Love ya,

Screamarie.