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"I'm so confused"

***Kurama's P.o.v.***

It took awhile for me to absorb the whole concept. The thought of it was rather amusing, but also very confusing! It didn't make sense. Why would Yukina kidnap her brother. If she ever wanted to talk to him all she would have to do was ask. Hiei would do anything for her. Maybe Yukina and Hiei plotted this themselves, I'm sure they would find it amusing to see their friends run all over Japan trying to find 'clues' to rescue their friend which didn't even need rescuing. Yes I'm sure if that was the case they would be having the time of their life, laughing at us. But that just wasn't Hiei, or Yukina. What in the world is going on. I'm so confused! But I then remembered Botan saying something, "Hiei was kidnapped by a bunch of girls" So if what she said was true then there was more than one kidnaper. But who else would assist Yukina in the kidnapping of her brother. Why thinking of other possible explanations and trying to figure out the other partners in crime, Yusuke made an announcement.

"Hey, what makes yall think Yukina even did it? I mean it could be a set up. you know like someone is trying to put the blame on Yukina? I mean why would she kidnap her own brother?"

The thought struck me rather hard. I hadn't even stopped to think about it. I normally thought of the motive first and worked out the problem from there, but I guess I was just getting aggravated, I really wanted this stupid game to end. I really didn't care who kidnapped Hiei or why. I just wanted this to be over!

"Ugh that makes me mad! Who ever is responsible for this is going to pay! Nobody gets away with blaming my perfect Yukina! I mean she's perfect in everyway she would never do something like this!"

"Oh shut up Kuwabara, besides what makes her YOURS?" (He's indicating the fact that Kuwabara said "MY YUKINA")

"That's it Urameshi, you're going to die"

"Stop it you two dimwits! I don't want any blood in my house, take your fighting outside!"

My mind was in a whirl, I couldn't keep it focused on one main point, it kept jumping around. I was so frustrated! *Didn't anybody care? Didn't anybody realize that Hiei was still being held hostage? Didn't anybody care that his own sister might have done it? Didn't anybody care that I had, had enough and was about to lose it? Well!!* "DOESN'T ANYBODY CARE?" I yelled at the top of my lungs. Not knowing the visitor that had enter in the room.

"I care."

I heard a timid voice say from behind me. I didn't need to turn around I knew who it was. I knew that voice well, that quiet but meaning full voice. Yes I knew who it was...

"Oh sorry Yukina, I didn't see you there. Do excuse my sudden out burst."

"It's ok Kurama. By the way what's bothering you?"

"Oh it's nothing."

"Oh really, last time I checked when someone screams 'doesn't anybody care' normally they have something that's bothering them. So why don't you tell me."

"That's alright. I really don't want to pull you down with my problems"

"No, I want to know. Besides I have nothing else better to do."

"Is that so.." I was getting madder by the minute. I normally didn't get upset especially with Yukina but this past week had been like Hell and wasn't getting any better. Maybe talking about it will help I'm sure Hiei already told her about my confession of love, but I wonder if he told her the "real" story?

"Well, are you going to talk or not?"

"huh, oh yea, but first, have you seen Hiei lately?'

"Humm, have I seen Hiei, let me think."

I was dying to hear her answer, her choosing yes or no would prove 2 things (well it wouldn't prove anything but one would assume) 1 she was the kidnapper of Hiei, and 2 whether she was a truly honest person.

"Yes I saw him today."

"Really, what about."

"He was just telling me something"

"Like." I couldn't keep my curiosity from wondering.

"Well aren't you nosey today."

"Well, can't I ask a simple question" I could tell she was joking, but so was I. She obviously spotted the joke because she could hardly stop snickering.

"Oh, I can't tell you."

"Why not?"

"Because"

"Because what" (a/n I do this with my friends all the time. They get so annoyed they end up giving in. Let's see how Yukina will hold up from Kurama's interrogation)

"Well, I don't feel comfortable telling you maybe you should ask him (Hiei)

"I would, but I can't find him."

"Oh really?"

"Yes maybe you could tell me where he is?"

"Sure, he's down at my small shrine"

"You have a shrine, what to?"

"Well it isn't mine its Genkai's but she lets me rent it."

"You haven't finished my question, what's the shrine to?"

"Oh nothing in particular it's just a place I go to get away."

'Away from what?"

"Away from all the people."

'People who ever comes to Genkai's temple?"

I could see her laughing, her face turning a bright red. It was rather amusing to see her blushing.

"Well this may offend you but you and Yusuke and Kuwabara, are always around."

I couldn't believe she just said that! Oh well I found it rather funny, I always thought she enjoyed are company. * Note to self, she is a good bluffer, beware when playing cards*

"No Yukina it doesn't bother me at all."

I could see her snickering again.

"What's so funny Yukina?"

"You, you aren't very good on staying on topic"

"Oh I almost forgot what got us talking" I was rather embarrassed I couldn't believe for the past 15 minutes I had jumped around to so many different things not completely finishing one topic before going on to the next one.

"Don't worry about. It but do excuse me I just thought of something that I have to do"

"Before you go may I ask you one more thing?"

"Sure what is it."

"Why?"

"Why what" she gave me a look of extreme confusement

"Why what? You know what I'm talking about." I said quite boldly.

"No Kurama, I don't understand, what are you talking about."

"Well, why did you kidnap Hiei, if that's what you call it when he is after all your brother."

She just gazed into my eyes, searching for an answer. I could see a hint of anxiety lurking out from the corners of her ruby red pools. I could tell the question had taken her by surprise, almost like she wasn't expecting me to ask, like she thought I knew somehow. Several times she would open her mouth getting ready to let words come out, but nothing ever came. I could see the utter confusement that danced wildly across her face. I couldn't tolerate anymore.

"Yukina, just answer the question"

"Oh I'm so sorry Kurama, I just wasn't expecting you to be so blunt about it, that's all."

"Well" my patience was growing thin, I wanted an explanation on why she made us play this stupid little game. Why she made us get all worried. Why she made, me so aggravated.

"You see Kurama, she stopped, she turned her eyes away from my cold stare and focused mainly on the floor. She then continued in a whisper " he was confused, I think we all get confused every now and then. We all at times don't understand, and to grasp a full concept on life we need to push our pride away, and realize how utterly lost we really are. That's why, for his good and yours." The minute she finished she bolted out the door. I could hardly move, the thought keep replaying through my mind, she set the entire thing up for Hiei and mostly for me. She was right I was confused, but Hiei, what was he confused about? The whole absurdity of it all left me more confused then I had started. Nothing made since anymore. Nothing at all. Well, at least not to me. I was completely engulfed by the whole concept, that I didn't even notice who was standing next to me.

"Kurama, are you alright you've been staring at that same spot for almost an hour."

*an hour who absurd, it hasn't hardly been 10 minutes since Yukina left*

"Kurama, are you there?"

"Oh course I'm here who else would you be talking to. Oh just to let you know it hasn't been an ho- I stopped only to see the digital clock place on the coffee table blinked bright red numbers. I was stunned the clock said 6:30, what he said was true it had been an hour. Have I completely gone mad?

"Kurama, please answer my question are you or are you not alright?"

"Listen I don't see what gives you the right to barge in and start asking pointless questions, if you only knew the pain, and suffering, and total agony I've been through this week, I don't think Kami would have the guts to ask "Are you alright"(in one of those preppy sarcastic tones) Why who do you think you are?"

I was furious, I couldn't believe how bitter I had gotten. *look at yourself Kurama, you snap at everybody. You know other people have problems to the world doesn't revolve around you, you know. * It was true I had become an extremely bitter, hateful person to be around. I was so off track. I had become another cold heartless soul.*Maybe Hiei is right, love is nothing but a human weakness. And to imagine all this started because of me. Because I couldn't handle the rejection. Gosh Kurama you swore that your life had been a living hell these past couple of days, and it was all because of some stupid feeling, some god damn stupid feeling. *Kurama, you have no right to blame other people for your misery. You brought this upon your self, all this hatred, all this pain, you and you alone made your life a living hell. As well as those closes to you. Kurama take a good long look at yourself.*

My mind was racing the thoughts consumed me. My senses shut off, I couldn't do anything, but stand there and stare at the spot on the wall. I heard my name being yelled at me by several different people, I could feel the violent shaking of my body as they tried to bring me back into sanity. Had I really lost it, gone over the deep in, had I really shut down? NO! I was determined I wasn't going to let anymore of this confusion bring me down. It was time I took my stand! (A/n I kinda took that from the Yu Yu Hakasho episode "Kurama's stand" hehe, don't tell!) It was time I faced my fears! It was time I took control of myself, and turned my life from a living Hell to a wonderful paradise! Yes, I here I go!

"KURAMA" My voice was being shouted out to me.

"Oh Kurama are you alright."

I could hear the silent sobs in the background of several different young girls, I could hear an old scratchy voice telling them to be silent everything would be alright, I could hear the voices of two boys shouting at me, but mostly I could hear the voice of..

"HIEI"

Everybody got quiet, all eyes were fixed on me.

"Kurama took you long enough to realize I've been shouting at you. You feel alright you look at little pale?"

I could feel my green orbs feeling up with water. I wanted to scream out, but I didn't. I wanted to run over to the small fire demon and give him a big hug, but I restrained. I couldn't believe it all my anger disappeared, all the hatred, all the bitterness vanished. It was like the starting off a brand new day, for once in a long time (well not really that long) I felt like everything was how it should be. Then my thoughts were destroyed when the harsh reality came hurling down and hit me on the head like a 1000 pound avail. I then remembered the brutality of it, the fact that Hiei didn't love me, and my happiness disappeared I was back in my hell hole.* Kurama why does it matter. I thought you were going to take your stand. I thought you were going to forget about your love for him and move on. Why can't you get it through your head. He doesn't love you, but if you let this bother you then you're going to be right back were you started. In all that misery. But if you accept the idea that you both can still be friends, you won't have to live in misery. Do you understand yet?* the conscience in my head was right, stop looking at Hiei like a lover and start looking at him like a friend.

"Kurama"

"Oh sorry I kinda blacked out a minute ago"

"Kurama you've been in your own little world for days now, and it has to stop! Kurama can I have a word with you outside please?"

Wow please, didn't hear Hiei say that very often, what ever it is it must be important!

"Sure"

¤Wow Hiei all of a sudden appeared! *blinks* Humm what can our little demon boy be up to? Is he going to tell Kurama his feelings? And if he does will Kurama accept them? Humm guess you'll have to keep checking back. Sorry if this chapter was a bit touchy. I'm trying to get the effect that Kurama is going through hell. (I've been there!) I know all the characters were out of character but Oh well. Umm please review, because when I get reviews my day just seems to go better, and when I don't I seem to go into a funk and right touch stuff like this! *cries uncontrollably* Well keep checking back I'm hopeing to finish this in the next few chapters! Oh please review you know in case you already forgot what I just said ! *grins* hehe tootles ¤